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My Twin Sister Is A Cammer And It's Making Me Uncomfortable — Should I Tell Her?

"I hate that I’m so uncomfortable. I wish I wasn’t, but I am."

Greetings, fellow hitchhikers of the world wide web, and welcome to another rendition of Help Me Hameda — the fortnightly column where I offer advice to a reader who submits their problem to me via DM.

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You can submit your own problems, queries or questions for the Help Me Hameda column through my DMs on Instagram (@itshameda) or Twitter (@hamedanafiz). 

Now, I don't know about the rest of you, but ever since I was a kid I've thought about what it would be like to have a twin.


I was also high-key obsessed with Mary-Kate and Ashley, so that may have had something to do with it. 

It just seemed like life would be that much more exciting with a twin — like a best friend that's been by your side for the entirety of your life, sharing your experiences in real-time. But like most things that fall into the "grass is greener" category, I can also see how things could get rather complicated if you're living alongside someone who looks exactly like you.

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I mean, I'm sure it'd be a blast to swap places and mess with people — but maybe not so much if your twin has beef with someone who's serving you steak at a restaurant (no spit with my salad, pls). 

This brings me to our DM, which was submitted through Twitter.

"I am a 22F with an identical twin. I am a more straight-laced, by the book person — my sister is not. We’ve had a tumultuous relationship over our lives, but have been doing really well recently, since moving out of our childhood home. 

Here's my problem: My twin has started camming and has a decent-ish following on OF [OnlyFans].  She didn’t tell me about it (nor would I expect her to — it's none of my business). I found out about it because my mum sent me a link (that's a whole other post — suffice to say neither my sister nor I are on good terms with our mother)."

"If we were fraternal twins, I would be all for it (or at least, not really care either way). But we’re identical. My sister doesn’t hide her face on any of her NSFW platforms, but she also doesn’t advertise her NSFW materials on her other social media. She doesn’t have her name anywhere either, so if someone were to find a video of her, there would be no way of telling (without in-depth digging) whether we had a twin at all."


"I keep thinking about a future employer finding the video and choosing not to hire me. Or a date looking me up, finding the video and then expecting me to be something I’m not. 

If I’m being 100% honest, I do also feel a little bit weird about her being naked on the internet since it feels like everyone can see all of me now that they’ve seen her. I know none of that baggage is my sister’s problem. I have a lot of hangups about sex stemming from childhood (stuff my sister has done a much better job deconstructing and leaving behind). 

Her body is her body and she has the right to do whatever she wants with it. But I’m so anxious about it. It’s starting to keep me up at night. I know it's not rational, but I can’t help it. I’m looking into therapy now, but getting rid of all that baggage is going to take so much time and this fear is significantly affecting my quality of life now."

"My sister makes a little bit of money from this, but it's definitely a side job. My question is, can I talk to her about stopping?"

"I haven’t brought it up at all since we’ve been doing so well lately, and I don’t want to screw it all up, because I'm an insecure ball of nerves. We are our own people and I know it's not fair of me to ask her to stop, but I really want to anyway.

What if she doesn’t really care about the camming and stopping is no big deal for her? What if it is a big deal for her, but she stops for me and then resents me for it?  

I’m proud that she feels confident and strong enough to do this. That she isn’t going to take any of the weird purity culture shit we grew up with. I don’t want to ruin that for her — to take away from the bravery of that. 

I hate that I’m so uncomfortable. I wish I wasn’t, but I am. Any advice you have would be greatly appreciated."

Firstly, I'd like to acknowledge and extend my sympathies for what you and your sister had to go through growing up. We all face hardships from time to time, but when it comes from a carer that's supposed to be your soft place to land, it's even more dreadful. I'd like to commend you both for coming out of it and clearly evolving into beautiful, independent souls — and I hope you remind yourself every day of how proud you should be, because that shit's not fucking easy.


It makes sense to me that you're worried about disrupting her lifestyle with your feelings, because you two have such a healthy relationship and the idea of compromising that for whatever cause makes it seem like it's not worth it.

I can also tell from your words that you're quite self-aware and reflective — which tells me that you have boundless intuition. You practically gave yourself the answer when you were asking me the question. Can you talk to her about stopping? Well, of course you can.

Listen, I know that relationships between sisters can be quite complicated — I've got two of them. Often times when they're doing something that bothers or upsets me I keep my grievances to myself because I don't want to rock the boat — and this is mainly due to how much I value the bond we share. 

That being said, when it's an issue that's giving you such bad feelings and causing you to stay up at night, it's actually a disservice to your sister not to let her know how you feel. You won't know how she'll react until you bring it up and chances are, she hasn't fully grasped the impact that her actions might have on you. Or perhaps she figures that since you haven't voiced an issue with it, you're fine with it.


There's a way to break this kind of news delicately, but it seems to me that you've pretty much nailed it in your message reaching out to me. You need to ensure that she knows how much you value her, how proud you are and that your issues have nothing to do with her lifestyle. 

And yes, there is a chance that even after you talk to her about how you feel, she won't stop doing what she's doing. But choosing to pretend it's not happening will put just as much strain on your relationship as being open and honest. I could be wrong, but I believe that half of the anxiety that's keeping you up at night is stemming from a place of helplessness and the general unknowing. It can be scary, standing on that ledge with no clue about what might be waiting for you at the bottom — but trust me when I say you'll feel so much relief knowing exactly what it is you're dealing with.

It's cheesy and cliché, but knowledge is power. You won't know how to tackle your issues with what may happen if someone comes across your sister's work without achieving clarity by learning about the circumstance from her, rather than studying the version that she chooses to show online through a link that your mother sent to you.

Whether or not your sister chooses to continue isn't really in your control — and how she feels about the decision she makes is also not your burden to bear. You should always trust your gut — and it seems to me that your gut is telling you to have that conversation.


Like I said before — I feel that you're overflowing with intuition, but unsure of how to decipher the messages. This is causing you to overthink, underact and remain stagnant, therefore bringing on more anxiety and restlessness. In time, if you practise listening to that voice and turning up the volume, so that it drowns out the others, you'll hear it's guidance more clearly and your life will be better for it.

And that's all the advice that I have for our gorgeous DMer. If you have anything you'd like to add, or have been through a similar situation — feel free to offer your advice in the comments below.

Just remember to be kind and considerate when you do. 

Note: Responses have been edited for length and/or clarity.

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