It's like a slump. Low mood. Motivation is questionable.
If you want to have an upper hand in your life--you must never be (1) An Option, (2) Desperate, or (3) Conditioned by those who are Conditional!
We always want what we can't have. Can you imagine if we applied that to the areas of our lives which would we benefit from in the long run? What would your life look like? What would you have accomplished by pursuing life preoccupied by the fear of not acquiring it.
Patterns of dating emotionally unavailable people is a sign of your own emotional unavailability.
The journey is every moment. Does the moment and life circumstance coincide with your hearts contentment. If not, you probably got re-directed.