This Conversation Between Scott And Kourtney Is Truly Heartbreaking

He made the revelation during the latest episode of KUWTK, in which he sat down for an emotional conversation with Kourtney, Khloé, Kim, and Kris Jenner.

Unless you've been living under a rock for the past few months, you'll know that Kourtney Kardashian and Scott Disick split up in June last year.

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At the time, rumours about his infidelity and drug and alcohol abuse spread like wildfire as potential causes of the breakup. However, neither Kourtney nor Scott commented on the rumours.

And while Season 10 of Keeping Up with the Kardashians concluded with Kourtney deciding to end it with Scott, Season 11 has offered little insight into exactly what went on, or where the pair stand now.

That was, until the latest episode, which saw Scott sitting down with Kourtney, Kim and Khloé, and Kris Jenner in his first emotional conversation since the split, in which he told them he had considered killing himself.

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The family, including his three children with Kourtney, were just back from a vacation – something that Scott revealed had left him feeling "scared" and "jealous".

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He said: "It's so hard seeing my children on a trip. It's the first trip that I've ever not been on with my own kids. I was so jealous and scared that I chartered a plane to Mexico with a whole bunch of people that I didn't even know, just to make myself feel better. And all it's done is made me feel worse. You guys are the only people I've ever had. Being an only child and then not even having parents – it's very scary."

While Khloé was quick to call Scott out on his "woe is me" attitude, he went on to reiterate how hard he was finding the split without his parents – both of whom died within three months of each other in 2014.

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He said: "I considered everybody in this house my sister, my mom. I feel like everyone's like, 'Scott's gone, let's move on to the next one,' but it was weird for me to lose not just her [Kourtney] but everyone here. I'm living in a house by myself and all I want is to pick up the phone and call my mom and dad, and be like: 'Tell me how the hell I should figure this out – should I go somewhere or do something?' It's just not as easy as you'd think when you have addiction issues."

With his voice breaking through tears, Scott told the family how sorry he was for publicly "embarrassing" them.

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He said: "I'm sure you guys have heard a lot of horrible things about me that I should have been honest with, but I was ashamed and scared I was going to hurt everybody in this family. I've apologised to Kourtney a hundred times but I've never apologised to all of you guys for letting you down and embarrassing you. I understand I need to help myself way before I can help her and my kids, but it's just been a really hard time going from having all of you to having nobody."

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He then told the family, who all broke down in tears, that he'd contemplated suicide.

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Speaking to camera, Kourtney said she believes Scott always means it when he promises he'll change, but that "he doesn't know how to get there."

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The episode ended with Scott leaving, pulling the door behind him but not quite shutting it.

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This linked back to the start of the episode in which Kris Jenner asked Kourtney to keep a "crack in the door" of her heart for Scott. 😭 😭 😭 😭

It's believed Scott entered rehab shortly after the episode was filmed, but since leaving he's continued to host club nights – most recently on New Year's Eve – something that is said to have angered Kourtney.

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But he did caption the only image he posted on Instagram with a reference to it being an "easy going" NYE.

Khloé also live-tweeted the episode of KUWTK, repeating again that she didn't approve of Scott not taking accountability for his actions.

Khloé @khloekardashian

I hate people who play victim. Take accountability people. Own your actions #KUWTK

02:49 AM - 04 Jan 2016

However, she did also retweet an image of her and Kim in tears during their conversation with Scott, alongside a broken-heart emoji.

Kardashians on E! @KUWTK

💔 #KUWTK

02:55 AM - 04 Jan 2016

Scott made a point of showing he'd only stayed at his NYE party for a matter of hours, sharing this image of him on a private jet back to LA.

Instagram: @letthelordbewithyou

In recent months, he has also posted about his children numerous times.

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Instagram: @letthelordbewithyou

Instagram: @letthelordbewithyou

And Kourtney and Scott were pictured out with two of their children, Mason and Penelope, in LA yesterday.

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Fingers crossed this means there's hope for the family. ❤️