Growing Up | A Chinese New Year Story

Everyone has a story but not all them are told. Here's a Chinese New Year story that a lot of our first generations kids can relate to.

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I first want to wish everybody a Happy Lunar New Year. I know that this video was very much different from any of my other ones. This was very personal but I am sharing with it with you guys so thank you for watching it. Everything that was said is genuinely what I've wanted to say to my Grandma if it was possible.

About 8 Years ago, I wrote this poem for a class called "Ten".

"Ten thousand miles away from home

Too far away from a place I call my own

Ten years now that my grandma’s passed away

Five years now since I’ve visited her grave

I was ten years old when she first left

It’s been ten years now I been a mess

She was there when my mom was a refugee

She was there when my dad abandoned me

Now that she left, it won’t ever be the same

Disappointed her with nothing but shame

I would do anything to go back to Beijing

Give anything to see the stone of Wang Xiu Ying

“Huo zhe na men lei, wei won a ma ku”

I hated myself for not saying “I love you”

This video as you may have guessed is a tribute to my grandmother. She was definitely a one of a kind woman that was just simply my idol. Was always very kind to everyone but didn't tolerate any bullshit. She was very well respected and raised me with just one working arm. She's the strongest person I've ever known and I just wished she didn't have to go so soon. I was only ten when she passed away until then I guess I never really knew what death was until she passed away because a part of me had died.

Anyways I this isn't my normal kind of Yuena video but I thank you again for watching. The point of this video is to show you guys yet another side of me and hope that you guys appreciate more time with your family. I said in the video that I didn't want to come to America because I was afraid I was going to lose who I am but because of this Chinese holiday I am always reminded of where I am from.

Happy Chinese New Year.

Always with Love,

Yuena