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    The lifelong war against the demon inside me

    A young man describes his battle against depression.

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    by russellv463af98c4

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    My name is Russell Varner, and this is my story.I am a 27-year-old digital media freelancer. I am a diehard sports fanatic, lover of dogs, abuser of gifs and two-time graduate from Elon University in North Carolina.This is something that has been on my mind for a long time. If you are a good friend of mine, you may know this about me already. Otherwise, you would have no idea.I am depressed.
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