Dear 2011 Me,
You're going through a rough time right now. Yeah, I know, it sucks. It really does. You are in high school, and you, like so many high schoolers, are obsessed on who you are. Or I should rather say, who you ought to be. You've spent countless hours making up someone who you aren't. You put on a mask and look in the mirror every morning and sigh and say "here we go again." All of this just to get ready for a single day. You build yourself up, but are constantly worrying on whether your "friends" will find you out. You put on your mask, every day, and smile with no soul in your eyes, laugh with no feeling behind it, and say "I'm fine" when you really, in all honesty, aren't. I know how exhausting this can be, and by the end of the day, you come home drained from all of this effort of being somebody who you're not. You go to bed, numb and tired, not wanting to think about tomorrow.
But, I want you to know, you're going to be okay. The next 4 years, no matter how daunting they may seem, they're worth it. The past has been a struggle, the present may seem difficult, and the future is scary. Have faith and hope that you can get through all of the hardship and pain. Give yourself credit on your accomplishments, and learn from your mistakes and failures. Believe in yourself, cherish yourself, and above all, love yourself. I know you think you aren't worthy of love from others and yourself. I know that you have bad thoughts, and that at the direst of times, you want it all to end. But, you're going to make it. You're going to get to that point where you're comfortable in your own skin. You're going to love yourself for who you truly are. You're gonna make it, and it's going to be okay.
Loving with all of my heart,
2015 Me
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