How I Knew I Was Trans*

" How I knew I was Trans*"? Hmm... that's a question that i get asked almost everyday. Well, the truth is... I never really knew I was- what society calls " Trans*" I knew from the get go that I was't like the other so called girls my age. I hated dresses, I liked playing with the boys and sports. Again, I was unaware of the term " Transgender" it was all new to me. Growing up in Dubai, I was un educated about these terms and topics and what was going on with my mind and body. That being said, growing up for me was rather difficult, and well, depressing. I felt so lost. I felt disconnected from my body, that something as simple as showering or looking in a mirror was a challenge for me. I thought that I didn't belong, that I was involved in some twisted experiment. Many years throughout my teen years I battled with my gender. When I turned 19, I was happy that I was almost legal ( In Dubai Legal age is 21 ), that I could actually voice how I felt, and the different things going on in my head. But; I just couldn't bare the pain- I didn't want to wait any longer. I wanted to be happy!! So, I started to google questions online about how I felt. I was relieved when I came across other people who felt like me, such as #RyanCassata and #AlexBertie. I looked on transgender sites, and something just "clicked", I knew that it was me. For the FIRST TIME in years, I had a smile on my face. I knew for my own good I had to get back to Canada so I could transition into my true self. Which was a hard choice to make, because I loved Dubai. I decided the best thing to do in the meantime was to come out socially to my friends, and dressing how I was most comfortable. It was easy for my friends, because they thought of me as a guy anyways. Shortly after that, I started looking into coming back to Canada, so I could get hormones, get surgery and catch up with family. So, in a brief note- that's how I knew I was Trans*... By looking online on how I felt, seeking advice and experimenting, and accepting myself for who I am .

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Here is a time line of pre T in Dubai and Egypt and when I started testosterone.