I'm not going to lie. It has taken me a long time to figure out what I wanted to write about. I think it's because I wanted my post to be a lot of things: Smart, quirky, and interesting. But then I remembered someone saying that to write well is to write what you know. This is what I know.
When I first moved to Toronto from Vancouver, I was actually quite scared. The city is a lot bigger than Vancouver and a lot faster. To add to that fact, I didn't have a job lined up so there was an added pressure to find work. I actually remember at one point street-viewing my neighbourhood (like a crazy person) hoping for a sense of comfort seeing home in some way. Naturally, I went through various stages when I first moved:
Excitement: This is when you block out all doubts about moving away from home in favour of growing up. New city. New adventure. New you.
Awareness: It suddenly hits you that you are away from home.
Loneliness: …And then you realize how alone you are in a new city
Panic: Which causes you to start panicking.
Doubt or Regret: And because you are panicking alone you will ask yourself why you left all your friends and family in the first place.
Comfort: And because you have doubts and regret you will call up your family for reassurance. You will also start goggling philosophical quotes.
Sadness: You'll miss your family and friends even more after hearing their voices
Which triggers Stages 2 through 7… again.
Contentment: Eventually you will be content with your decision to move out and start to settle into your new life.
It's been two years since I moved to Toronto and I am happy I did it. I've met the greatest people here and have learned a lot about myself.
So for those of you thinking of taking a leap of faith, remember this quote:
"Here is the world. Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Do not be afraid."
Do not be afraid.
Jump.