I Felt Like I'm Going Nowhere In Life So I Wrote A Poem

Do you ever just feel like you're stuck in life? Every way you turn it's a dead end and you feel like you're never getting where you wanna get.

So one day I was at school having biology lesson, and I was pondering about life, as one does. I felt like I was going nowhere, I felt kinda hopeless. So out of the boredom during class, I wrote this poem.

And everything is gonna be ok.

But what if,

what if it never was, and never will be?

What if I'm stuck with a job I hate?

Sure, I'll have money,

but I'll be merely existing,

not living.

What if I crumble under the social norms,

and marry a rich guy?

'He'll take care of me, he can protect me'

'He'll support me' they say.

But I'll be stuck with this man,

but what if I don't love him?

What if I'd rather be free?

I want things to be exciting.

I enjoy unknowns.

I'd like to think that my path will

change and change again.

I'd like to try different things,

see different people,

visit places.

But what if

I can't change the fact that life is mundane,

same routine everyday?

I feel stuck, I have nothing to expect.

'There are many ways' they say.

But why do we always end up the same,

in a dead end job with nowhere to go?

'Study hard' they say

'Or not, you'll regret it'

But what then?

'Congratz, you got a degree!'

'Why thanks, I worked hard for it'

Then there you go,

into the society without a clue of what to expect.

But you know deep down,

you'll just end up like one of them.

And all your hard work?

Meh, you've got the glory,

that's all you get,

it won't made a practical difference anyway.

I'm lost.

I'm intimidated.

By the mundaneness of my future.

I try hard to keep my sheen,

but what if it's not worth it?

All the heartbreaks and disappointments?

Where does it lead?

Are we there yet?

Are we there yet!

What if this is all a lie?

All hopes, all dreams,

they're just hallucinations.

Did you actually think they'd come true?

I imagine myself ten years from now,

What if I found my own way?

What if I wished upon a star?

What if dreams do come true?

But all I see is a bored girl,

stuck.

With nothing to fight for,

nothing to look forward to.

Passing the days for the sake of passing the days.

What if one day I lose all faith.

What if I say 'then so be it.'

Will that be the death of mine?

Then so be it.

Well then that's my poem, hope you could somehow relate to that feeling :)