Scott Disick And Kourtney Kardashian Had A Brutally Honest Convo About How Hard He Found It Being A Dad While They Were Together

    "It was really, really, really difficult at first because I did not know how to be a dad, and how to take care of kids, and how to be there for them."

    It's safe to say that, while their relationship was low-key the best thing about Keeping Up With The Kardashians for years, things have always been tumultuous for Kourtney Kardashian and Scott Disick.

    Things began getting complicated back in 2009, when Kourtney got unexpectedly pregnant with their son Mason.

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    When they discovered she was pregnant, Kourtney, who was then 30, and Scott who was 24, weren't actually together. In fact, they'd been broken up for six months, but after discussing their options, decided to reunite and give things another go.

    But shortly before her due date, Scott got drunk in Vegas — I'm sure you remember the moment he shoved a dollar bill in a waiter's mouth after being cut off at the bar — and they briefly broke up.

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    While they reunited again just before Mason was born, it began the cycle of Kourtney getting pregnant followed by Scott spiralling and the pair coming close to breaking up — something which would continue for the next six years.

    In fact, when Kourtney announced that she was pregnant with their third child, Reign, in 2014 Scott accused her of "tricking" and "suckering" him into having children.

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    His drinking got out of hand again, and he ended up spending time in rehab during her pregnancy.

    Then, as Kourntey's due date approached, Scott's behaviour became so erratic that he couldn't even confirm he'd be at the birth.

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    And, after Scott went on another bender when Reign was 7 months old, Kourtney ended the relationship.

    "I've worked so hard to keep this family together," Kourtney cried as she told Kim about her decision to split from Scott. "I just feel sad for the kids. But he's not being a good partner to me. I couldn't rely or depend on him for one single thing. I don’t want to show my kids that that’s OK."

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    However, since the split both Kourtney and Scott have moved on with new relationships and remain committed to coparenting their three children. In fact, at the moment they seem to be getting on better than ever.

    And, as a clip from Scott's new TV show, Flip It Like Disick shows, the pair recently sat down for a brutally honest conversation about his struggle to be a present father while they were together.

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    Speaking to Kourtney about his new house-flipping venture, Scott said: "I feel like years ago, when I was younger, I don't know if I'd have been motivated to do all these things for the kids, like build houses for them."

    "I was so insecure that everyone would look at me like I'm not cool or young anymore," he went on, "And now I couldn't be happier. But I'll be honest — I could never have imagined driving the kids to school."

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    Kourtney replied: "I know, you told me all the time you weren't the soccer dad," to which Scott responded: "Now it's part of my life and they want me to be there, so I'm happy to be there."

    Speaking during his testimonial, Scott revealed that he felt overwhelmed with becoming a father in his mid-twenties, and said he didn't know "how to be there" for his kids.

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    He explained: "I never thought I'd have kids at such an early age and it's been a real blessing because now I get to be the cool dad. It was really, really, really difficult at first because I did not know how to be a dad, and how to take care of kids, and how to be there for them. But I feel pretty confident that I'm able to now. And it's great."

    Kourtney then told Scott that she feels he "didn't appreciate" what he had at the time they were together, but also suggested that this was partly due to depression.

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    She said: "You didn't really appreciate what you had. And I think you were also depressed, and there were other things going on." Referencing the deaths of his parents three months apart in 2014, Scott added: "I think also losing my parents was a big thing. Like, I had to grow up more then, and I just have a different life now."

    "You've definitely come a long way and I'm very proud of you," Kourtney told him.

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    And, in a final testimonial, Scott expressed relief that he and Kourtney were able to remain in each other's lives, adding that he's in a much better place now.

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    "Thank god we're able to coparent," he said. "I definitely think things have changed a lot and I'm definitely in a different place in my life now. I definitely got a little out of control. It's great that I'm still able to have Kourtney in my life and coexist and raise our three children together."

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    Ellie Woodward is Celebrity and Entertainment Editor for BuzzFeed UK and is based in London.

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