For Everyone Who's Devastated At Khloé And Lamar's Divorce

    There's more to this than the usual Kardashian ~drama~.

    Ellie Woodward
    by Ellie Woodward

    BuzzFeed Staff, UK

    Khloé Kardashian has filed for divorce from Lamar Odom for a second time, citing irreconcilable differences.

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    And, while the Kardashian family have seen their fair share of splits and divorces, this one is genuinely heartbreaking.

    Khloé and Lamar met and fell in love immediately – in fact, they got married within 30 days of first setting eyes on each other.

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    But in 2013 rumours began circulating that Lamar had not only cheated on Khloé, but was battling a secret drug addiction.

    The rumours seemed pretty far-fetched, and it was at first easy to write them off. But then Lamar went missing for three days, and it became clear that something wasn't right.

    And then the subject began to come up on Keeping Up With the Kardashians. While Lamar's problems were never addressed explicitly, there were several episodes in which his behaviour seemed erratic.

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    For example, in an episode towards the end of Season 8, scenes showed Lamar repeatedly calling Khloé and other family members in a state of incoherence and confusion while she took a trip away.

    And it was during this trip that Lamar went missing. Khloé said during one confessional: "I've been down this road probably way more times than I'd like to admit. If someone wants to leave, they want to leave. Lamar has been having a really hard time lately. It's not just black-and-white. There's a lot of emotional issues."

    It was also around this time that earlier episodes of KUWTK began to make more sense – like the fact that Lamar totally disappeared for entire seasons at a time, with Khloé making cryptic comments and weird excuses for his absences. She'd been living a double life, dealing with it all by herself, only finally confessing to her family just what had been going on when things were pretty much over.

    And by Season 9, she began straight-up confirming all the rumours that previously seemed ridiculous.

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    But you could tell it was a really torturous decision when it came to filing for divorce.

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    During a conversation with Kim and Kourtney, Khloé said: "I don't think he understands [when I tell him he needs to fix this marriage]. I've said to him: 'If you don't start showing up to therapy then I'm done, I'm going to file,' but the saddest part is, when that doesn't even rattle the person – I threaten it, and no one even blinks an eye. So then I wonder, so what have I been fighting for?"

    This was more than the usual Kardashian ~drama~ – this wasn't Kim divorcing after 72 days because she was "caught up in her fairy tale". This was serious, real-life stuff – and you could see how much pain Khloé was in.

    But then, two years after Khloé filed for divorce, Lamar was found unconscious in a Nevada brothel, having overdosed on cocaine and sex enhancers.

    And when he made a miraculous recovery, and Khloé split from her boyfriend, James Harden, it seemed as though Khlomar were actually getting back on track. It was like, "True love conquers all!"

    Especially when Khloé began giving interviews in which she seemed very open to the thought of them getting back together.

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    During one interview, when she was asked whether she wanted to remarry Lamar, she said: “I mean, that would be like the best dream. ... Like, OK, I hope that first marriage could happen again."

    And he started hanging out with all the Kardashian family again, just like old times.

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    And the latest season of KUWTK has seen Khloé refurbish an entire house ready for Lamar's release from hospital.

    But perhaps the most revealing sign that things were ~back on~ occurred during this conversation.

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    After Kris referred to a friend of hers who'd married the same man twice, Khloé said: "If you're lucky that could be you, Lamar." He responded: "I'll say my prayers," while crossing his chest.

    But Khloé did make this warning.

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    But, just weeks after this conversation, Lamar was spotted drinking Cognac at a bar in LA.

    It raised concerns, as Lamar's kidneys and liver were damaged during his overdose and time in a coma. In fact, at one point his kidneys failed completely, requiring him to be on dialysis.

    And Khloé appeared to respond to the situation by posting this image and lengthy comment about letting go, on Instagram.

    And, less than a month later, more photos emerged showing Lamar drinking Cognac again, this time at 2pm in a shopping mall.

    And Khloé posted another quote on Instagram. But it's pretty interesting that it sounds very similar to what she'd said to Lamar about needing to be more "afraid" of life and death.

    She went on to post this quote too.

    It seemed as though they were SO CLOSE to overcoming EVERYTHING to get back to being the Khlomar we know and love. But they didn't quite get there. 😥

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