A letter to the reader
So I decided to tell my story as a letter, because I feel it makes more sense that way...
I know you're probably trolling through the internet right now, looking for some funny cat videos or random things to make you smile, but instead you have stumbled upon this letter.
A letter is so small, so personal, and yet, often it gets misinterepted, or ignored. Unlike emails, there's no notification to remind you to read it. It just sits and goes unnoticed.
A Lot like people...
A Lot like me...
We all make mistakes. Just pause and think; have you ever made a mistake that was actually so stupid you ruined a friendship? Or got into trouble? Maybe thats not how you intended it to be at all.
But like a letter, or writing, it gets misinterpreted...
But I wanted to tell you that I've made a mistake
When I first started to make YouTube videos (chloem86) it was great! I loved it- yeah I didn't get many views but I loved making them!
Then I changed, I got distant from my friends and family... I got bullied too... Which didn't help.
Its because of my eyesight, I have OCA type 1B with nystagmus. A type of albinism that affects only your eyes (and your skin a bit), so I look normal on the outside, until I have to read things...
I felt so alone, so weird, but on youtube, I didn't have to show that I was blind. I could be me, without people judging me by the way I looked at stuff.
I tried to tell on them. But was pushed down, by teachers, friends and others.
Apparently I could've been mistaken, because; after all "I was blind"
I tried writing letters, taking screenshots, anything I could to get evidence.
All of it was disregarded as a blind kids attempt to get attention.
I had to do something.
This was no life.
I took matters into my own hands.
I used, the internet.
I made a video, naming and "shaming" people ((in my case it was the bullies)) because I wanted to show them I had confidence and power over them I guess... ((The other reason was the teachers at my school did nothing to stop the bullies... It sucked and I was being physically and emotionally beat up day in day out... Because of my eyesight- I'm "legally" blind... And yet the teachers were blind to what was happening to me... I was getting so angry. So... Not me...))
I uploaded the video
Everyone saw it... Including the police and apparently my cry for help and power and my way of making myself feel better managed to get me into a heap of trouble
I got in trouble
Loads of it
And the bullies? Nothing. They got off scott free
I loved making YouTube videos and I still try to make them
But my confidence in myself is gone
I just can't bring myself to make content again because I'm afraid of what might happen... When I do make a video I feel so awesome and I love it but I just can't make it a regular thing...
I just wanted to say how amazing you are.
You have the power to change the world.
To change someone's life.
To make a difference. No matter how small.
Our mistakes define who we are
They shape our lives and sculpt our personalities
Our mistakes make us realise who the important people are in our lives and what makes us tick.
Go out there and make someone's day.
Go on Youtube. Find a video from a person who is just starting out, someone with only a few views.
Like the video.
Comment and support them.
All the big youtube stars started off small.
Build someone up today and they could be AMAZING someday.
All because of one kind word.
Thank you for reading this far, I'll leave you with one final thing...
You are amazing
You are loved
You are wise
Never forget that.