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    15 Ways the Struggle is Real When You’re an Outgoing Introvert

    Social introvert, extroverted introvert...#thestruggleisreal when you're a walking contradiction.

    1. Everyone assumes you’re just a weird extrovert.

    2. Your love/hate relationship with social gatherings nearly tears you in two.

    3. You are desperate to meet and connect with as many people as possible…but doing so requires smalltalk.

    4. The leech-like clinging you do to your extroverted friends is almost criminal.

    5. The need to relabel your “antisocial” time is overwhelming.

    6. You become a rambling mess when certain topics are brought up because it’s ACTUALLY something you feel comfortable talking about.

    7. The times when you find it more fulfilling to observe rather than engage, and people get on you for being “so silent”.

    8. …or when you’ve run out of social at a party and you just want to sneak away, but you know you have to make your rounds to say good-bye.

    9. That, because of your introversion, you actually use your outgoing behavior as a type of shield.

    10. You don’t mind being the center of attention when you’re entertaining people, but the world might as well end if people are paying attention to you for any other reason.

    11. You cannot truly explain what social media means to the social introvert.

    12. You wish every social gathering centered on an activity that you could retreat back to whenever you ran out of social.

    13. It takes a lot to keep you from going full, “down with the establishment!” when it comes to how we handle interacting.

    14. On the one hand, because you straddle the line, you understand both your traditionally introverted and your traditionally extroverted friends. On the other hand, because you straddle the line, you can’t fully relate to either of them at all.

    15. You forever have an ongoing desire to educate people that “introverted” and “extroverted” is about what gives you energy and what takes energy for you to do. It has nothing to do with how outgoing, or daring, or social you are.