Leave Me: A Story Poem

Just someone trapped without feeling trying desperately to explain.

I Don't Feel With You.

You say silly things,

talk of diamond rings.

Every time you stroke my hair,

show me that you care.

I recoil.

Love spews from your mouth like lava,

I block it out, I drink, I smoke,

but you don't stop.

I want you to realise.

I need you to see.

You can't trust us,

you can't trust me.

One day you'll be broken.

Worn out by my nothingness,

my lack of everything will numb you.

One day you'll really see me

vacancy in my eyes,

and the lies, all the lies.

I am a vessel.

You project yourself

or what you want,

on to me.

But that doesn't fill me up.

I will always be empty

Dress me up

Make me pretty

Adorn me with precious treasures.

Does that change me?

No.

Does it change how you see me?

Maybe.

For that you are to blame.

You've tricked yourself

you've fabricated me

why can't you see

why can't you see.

It's not me

there is no me.

I won't walk away

but you should

you should run.

I'll take it from you,

something you never knew,

but always needed.

If you escape

If I am gone,

You won't have it.

no one can give it to you

It's mine now.

So why don't I have it!?

Why am I hollow?

A china doll.

A play thing.

Often chucked in the toy box.

Leave me.

Please

I can't take it

You can't have it.

We are stuck.

Leave me.