The Struggles Of An Introvert Living In London

does anyone else feel like this?

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Having lived in London my whole life, I thought I might share some thoughts and feelings I have about being an introvert in the bustling city that never sleeps

3. Why is it no matter what time of day or night I go out,I cant not see other people?

Why are people so loud and noisy, especially on the bus? if its not loud talking, its music without earphones...

4. I so love going home, its a real struggle for me to leave the safe confines of home

I especially hate a day when I have to go out more than once, and where possible will kill time so I don't have to come home , as I know I will not want to come out again once I am back home.

5. I used to get terrible anxiety about going home, panic attacks etc, and although these have passed, i know theres always a chance they could come back, which is a scary thought. Listening to music does help

I have lost friendships due to my struggles with going out, and have to say I do prefer being able to pick and choose when I go out, not having to worry about cancelling, the few friends I have now are understanding and don't judge or give me a hard time.

6. When I have had a particularly busy/stressful day, bed is my true comfort and safe place. to be honest if i did not have to ever go out again, i wouldn't mind!

In horror films, people always hide in their bed after all...

7. When I am feeling very stressed, and want to escape the crowds, and people are crashing into me whilst looking at their phones with no apology, i imagine suddenly slicing and dicing people with a samurai sword.

I hope this doesn't sound like I am unstable, its just how I feel!

8. If I were able to, I would chuck my phone away, I grew up without it, and I get that its a good in an emergency, but I like being out without being bothered.

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Its not that I don't like people as such, I just struggle with too much contact with others, I need time to recharge my batteries after. I am more of a listener than a talker, but it means I get to take a lot more in.

9. I dont understand why some people choose to sit next to me when there are empty seats further down the bus, I want to yell at them, but am too polite and know it would not go down well...