"They Don't Always Go Together"
Here it is, I’m writing this down
But I probably couldn’t say it even if you were around.
And who knows if you are even fully aware
That I feel this void, like we aren’t even there.
My goal is to love unconditionally
But it’s hard when I was constantly the third of three.
I didn’t ask much from you, but what was given felt cheap
I felt like an obligation and it only took a week.
I wasn’t prepared to fall out of touch
But you were consumed by a relationship rushed.
I would tell you about everything, almost every time
But I’d being lying if I said any of your relationships were fine.
Somehow it seems my words, once good
No longer hold value, when to you they always should.
This is the thing that probably hurts the most
Everything felt foreign and you were just the host
I thought that you heard me, but one day you’ll listen
I hate being short, it only causes division.
It’s not out of spite, or an issue with pride
Just wasn’t until today that words formed from inside.
I know I’m somebody who’d allow you to change
That’s why it hurt so much when you forgot to explain.
That’s my role. I want to understand.
Don’t hide things from me; you don’t have to hold my hand.
In times like this, I usually fade and retreat
I’ve tried sending a message, but I always erase and delete.
Now this doesn’t mean I’ll never hit send
But for most anyone else, this would’ve been the end.
I love you. That will never change.
So please make good decisions. We’re attached by our name.
Learn to know when things feel good and when they make you better.
But even more importantly, try to understand they don’t always go together.