Warning: This post continues references to self-harm and suicide.
So if you've listened to Chromatica, you probably know that this era of Lady Gaga is very candid about all of her dark times.
Well, in a new interview with CBS Sunday Morning, Gaga just got super real about struggling with her mental health.
“I totally gave up on myself. I hated being famous, I hated being a star, I felt exhausted and used up,” she began.
“My biggest enemy is Lady Gaga, that's what I was thinking — my biggest enemy is her. What did you do?"
Around the time Joanne was released, things took a turn for the worst. "It’s not always easy if you have mental issues to let other people see. I used to show, I used to self-harm, I used to say, ‘Look I cut myself, see I’m hurting.’ Because I didn’t think anyone could see — because mental health, it’s invisible."
"I didn’t really understand why I should live other than to be there for my family," she remarked. "Why should I stick around?"
As for quitting the whole music and fame game, she says it wasn't an option. “I swear on my future unborn children, I don’t know why, but I have to," she continued. "Turns out, even if I don’t want to be alive, I still know how to write a song.”
Thankfully, things are looking far better now. “I don't hate Lady Gaga anymore. I found a way to love myself again, even when I thought that was never going to happen."
You can watch the full interview here.
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255. Other international suicide helplines can be found at befrienders.org. The Trevor Project, which provides help and suicide-prevention resources for LGBTQ youth, is 1-866-488-7386. You can also text TALK to 741741 for free, anonymous 24/7 crisis support in the US and UK from the Crisis Text Line.