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    Lady Gaga Opened Up About Her Struggles With Mental Health And It's Heartbreaking But Honest

    “My biggest enemy is Lady Gaga."

    Warning: This post continues references to self-harm and suicide.

    So if you've listened to Chromatica, you probably know that this era of Lady Gaga is very candid about all of her dark times.

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    Well, in a new interview with CBS Sunday Morning, Gaga just got super real about struggling with her mental health.

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    “I totally gave up on myself. I hated being famous, I hated being a star, I felt exhausted and used up,” she began.

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    My biggest enemy is Lady Gaga, that's what I was thinking — my biggest enemy is her. What did you do?"

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    "You can’t go to the grocery store now. If you go to dinner with your family, somebody comes to the table. You can’t have dinner with your family without it being about you, it’s always about you. All the time it's about you. And your outfits, look at your outfits. Why you gotta be like that?”

    Around the time Joanne was released, things took a turn for the worst. "It’s not always easy if you have mental issues to let other people see. I used to show, I used to self-harm, I used to say, ‘Look I cut myself, see I’m hurting.’ Because I didn’t think anyone could see — because mental health, it’s invisible."

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    "I didn’t really understand why I should live other than to be there for my family," she remarked. "Why should I stick around?"

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    "I lived in this house while people watched me for a couple years to make sure that I was safe."

    As for quitting the whole music and fame game, she says it wasn't an option. “I swear on my future unborn children, I don’t know why, but I have to," she continued. "Turns out, even if I don’t want to be alive, I still know how to write a song.”

    Thankfully, things are looking far better now. “I don't hate Lady Gaga anymore. I found a way to love myself again, even when I thought that was never going to happen."

    You can watch the full interview here.

    The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255. Other international suicide helplines can be found at The Trevor Project, which provides help and suicide-prevention resources for LGBTQ youth, is 1-866-488-7386. You can also text TALK to 741741 for free, anonymous 24/7 crisis support in the US and UK from the Crisis Text Line.

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