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    Shawn Mendes Says He's "Terrified Of Being Evil" In His Relationship With Camila Cabello

    "I can't avoid the fact that there's a little bit of darkness inside of me."

    In addition to being an incredibly talented singer, Shawn Mendes frequently discusses the importance of dismantling toxic masculinity stereotypes.

    Shawn Mendes poses with a peace sign while Zooming with James Corden on "The Late Late Show With James Corden"

    So it should come as no surprise that he paid a visit to Justin Baldoni, Liz Plank, and Jamey Heath's Man Enough podcast, which strives to challenge traditional roles and traits of masculinity.

    Justin asked Shawn what "terrifies" him the most, and he had a really thoughtful answer.

    He mentioned how he reacted recently after an argument with his girlfriend, singer Camila Cabello.

    Shawn Mendes and Camila Cabello pose at the 2019 American Music Awards at Microsoft Theater in Los Angeles

    "I raised my voice at her and she was like, 'I don't like it when you raise your voice. Why did you raise your voice?' And I got so defensive," he said.

    "I was like, 'I wasn't raising my voice at you!' And I did raise my voice at her. And then I felt her shrink and I felt me grow, and I was like, Oh god, this is the worst," he continued.

    Shawn Mendes sings and plays his piano during a show at Arena Monterrey in Mexico

    "I'm so terrified of being evil. I'm so scared to be bad," Shawn explained. "I don't want to be bad."

    Shawn Mendes arrives at the 2019 American Music Awards at the Microsoft Theater in Los Angeles

    Shawn said he and Camila got into "a massive conversation" about what went down after the fact.

    Camila Cabello and Shawn Mendes accept the Collaboration of the Year Award for "Señorita" during the 2019 American Music Awards at Microsoft Theater in Los Angeles

    "Maybe there even is bad inside of me, and I have to just accept that that exists," he said. "And that other part of me, he's just got to be here, and we've just got to work together until eventually he gets worked in all of the trauma, and all of the kinks get rubbed out of him and he's okay."

    Shawn acknowledged, "But I can't avoid the fact that there's a little bit of darkness inside of me, and letting that darkness kind of be present is a horrible feeling."

    Shawn Mendes arrives at the 62nd Annual Grammy Awards in Los Angeles

    He also said that he made his reaction to the argument "about my evil and my fear, and she comforted me. And then it took me like 20 minutes of us separately reading our books to be able to come back to her and be like, 'God, that was a whole thing and I'm really sorry.'"

    Shawn Mendes and Camila Cabello perform at the 2019 American Music Awards

    He added, "You think you're being vulnerable and saying the right thing, but you're really just defending yourself even better."

    Sounds like Shawn is really working on himself and becoming more self-aware. Good for him!

    You can watch the full interview below.

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