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    46 Times Claire Fraser/Caitriona Balfe Owned Outlander Episode 3x05

    Because enough cannot be said about this incredibly layered performance and a character being a BAMF and taking ownership of her life. Plus an in-depth focus on THAT REUNION. All gifs by me (manders1984.tumblr.com).

    1. When we saw this adorable picture of Claire with Baby Bree...

    2. When she worried about Brianna's daddy issues...

    3. Then swilled Scotch and talked about Jamie with Joe...

    4. When she fought with Bree and awkwardly tried to act happy to see Roger, but ROCKED this look...

    5. When she was all vulnerable after Roger told her he found Jamie...

    6. When she sat with her beloved pearls and thought of Jamie...

    7. When she displayed her Sassenach Spidey Sense...

    8. When she confessed that her mystery Scot was Brianna's real father...

    9. And revealed that she never stopped loving Jamie...

    10. When she told Bree that she loved Bree for Bree, from the first moment she held her in arms...

    11. When she stared at the moon wondering if experiencing what she had with Jamie once was enough...

    12. When she continued to reflect while basically humming "Somewhere Out There" from Fievel Goes West...

    13. When she told Brianna all of the things she would miss if she went back to Jamie...

    14. When Brianna told her she was more like Claire than either of her fathers...

    15. When Claire told Bree she's the one who knows her better than anyone...

    16. When Claire worried that Jamie might have forgotten about her...

    17. ...Then also worried he might not love her anymore...

    18. When Claire and Brianna embraced and it was clear this decision was heartbreaking for both of them...

    19. When Claire asked Joe if she was attractive...

    20. Then Claire-ified she meant attractive Sexually...

    21. When Claire was satisfied with Joe telling her, "He'll be in heaven when he sees you, Lady Jane," and the whole audience squeed because it's been the worst sort of Jamie and Claire sex drought on this show...

    22. When she said goodbye to Joe, even if he didn't know it...

    23. When Brianna and Roger gave Claire some very useful gifts, starting with the old coins...

    24. Then when Claire was touched by the topaz necklace from Brianna...

    25. When Claire sewed her own Batsuit in one night...

    26. When Claire looked over herself in the mirror...

    27. When Claire told Bree she wanted it to be peaceful when she went through the Stones again...

    28. When Claire said, "Oh, my beautiful girl..."

    29. When Brianna gave Claire a kiss on the cheek to give to Jamie...

    30. When Claire gave Brianna the pearls...

    ...And told her Jamie gave them to her on their wedding night...

    ...And told Brianna she could wear them on her wedding day if she wanted...

    31. When she broke down while hugging Brianna and killed me softly not once...

    ...Not twice...

    ...Not thrice...

    ...But four times in the span of two minutes...

    32. When Claire turned around to blow her baby girl a kiss as she left her forever...

    ...

    THIS IS SO PAINFUL THEY THINK THEY'LL NEVER SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN!

    33. When she was finally on her way and talking about puddles which is basically what I am after watching that goodbye...

    34. When she stepped in that puddle and into the 18th Century and all of her pretenses just melted away.

    35. When Claire realized how close she was to Jamie after asking where she could find him...

    36. When she stepped out of Carfax Close and saw the "A. Malcolm, Printer and Bookseller" sign...

    37. When she looked at and touched the sign so lovingly...

    38. When she checked her hair before entering the Print Shop at last...

    39. When she gasped at hearing his voice for the FIRST TIME IN TWENTY YEARS...

    40. When she looked down and SAW him for the first time in TWENTY YEARS...

    41. When she was nervous (understandably) and hesitated before finally speaking...

    42. When she said, "It isn't Geordie..."

    "It's me. Claire."

    43. When Jamie finally turned around to see her for the first time in TWENTY YEARS...

    44. When they STARED at each other for a good 45 seconds...

    45. When, finally, the sight of his ANGEL caused JAMMF to faint...

    46. When Claire is basically the audience when we realize we have to wait two weeks to see the reunion...

    GOD WILLING, THIS WILL BE ME AFTER NEXT EPISODE...