Vanessa Bryant Talked About The "Unimaginable" Pain Of Kobe And Gianna's Death And How She's "Pushing Forward"

    "I can't say that I'm strong every day."

    Joyann Jeffrey
    by Joyann Jeffrey

    BuzzFeed Staff

    Vanessa Bryant is trying her best to stay strong. She recently opened up about the "unimaginable" pain from losing her husband, Kobe Bryant, and their daughter Gianna in a helicopter crash nearly 14 months ago.

    (L-R) Vanessa Laine Bryant, former NBA player Kobe Bryant, Natalia Diamante Bryant and Gianna Maria-Onore Bryant arrive at the premiere of Disney's 'A Wrinkle In Time' at El Capitan Theatre on February 26, 2018 in Los Angeles, California
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    "I can't say that I'm strong every day," she told People. "I can't say that there aren't days when I feel like I can't survive to the next."

    "This pain is unimaginable [but] you just have to get up and push forward," she continued. "Lying in bed crying isn't going to change the fact that my family will never be the same again.”

    “But getting out of bed and pushing forward is going to make the day better for my girls and for me,” Vanessa added. “So that's what I do."

    Since Kobe and Gianna’s death, Vanessa has taken charge of creative projects left unfinished at her late hubby’s company, Granity Studios.

    She’s also been working on “finding the light in the darkness” so she can create a wonderful life for her family.

    "I guess the best way to describe it is that Kobe and Gigi motivate me to keep going," she said. "They inspire me to try harder and be better every day. Their love is unconditional and they motivate me in so many different ways."

    Not only that, but Vanessa noted that her girls help her “smile through the pain" and “give [her] strength” every day.

    "I want to make Kobe, Gigi, Natalia, Bianka, and Capri proud."