Pete Davidson Thought "Something Was Wrong" With Him Until He Was Diagnosed With Borderline Personality Disorder

    "I was always just so confused all the time."

    For Pete Davidson, being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder was a relief. In fact, he told Glenn Close for Variety’s Actors on Actors series that the moment felt like a huge weight was “lifted off [his] shoulders.”

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    "I got diagnosed with BPD a few years ago, and I was always just so confused all the time, and just thought something was wrong and didn't know how to deal with it," Pete said.

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    "Then, when somebody finally tells you, the weight of the world feels lifted off your shoulders. You feel so much better," he continued.

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    In 2017, Pete revealed that he had BPD after he spent years battling depression and anxiety.

    Although he has previously revealed that he’s contemplated suicide, Pete said that’s not an option because there are so many people who love him and want him to live.

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    “[I] can’t because I’ve got a mom and a sister and a family,” he said in a February 2020 interview with Charlamagne tha God. “I’ve always been suicidal, but I’ve never had the balls, you know. Which, I’m very lucky.”

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    Back in 2017, when he was diagnosed with BPD, Pete talked with Marc Maron about how therapy has been helping. “It is working, slowly but surely,” he said. “I’ve been having a lot of problems. This whole year has been a fucking nightmare. This has been the worst year of my life, getting diagnosed with this and trying to figure out how to learn with this and live with this.”

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    If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or visit the website to chat online. Other international suicide helplines can be found at befrienders.org. You can also text TALK to 741741 for free, anonymous 24/7 crisis support in the US from the Crisis Text Line. You can learn more about BPD and find resources on the National Education Alliance for Borderline Personality Disorder website.