Understanding Demi Lovato

I have not gone through something like addiction to Demi Lovato's extend but I kind of have looked at what she has been going through in a different way. I've been thinking a lot about the pressures and those types of things that she has to deal with on a daily basis and compare it things in my life.

For as long as I can remember, I have been a go-getter and someone who has done everything humanely possible to just keep reaching for more opportunities because that is just who I am programmed to be. I will never be satisfied with a result because it is just a stepping stone in the right direction. I worked about 3-4 jobs once I graduated college to the point I was working 7 days a week/75 hours a week and I was thriving. I loved the feeling of not knowing whether I was coming or going because it kept me grounded with one goal in mind - getting to where I wanted to be or at least in that direction. But with that comes problems.

I got a chance to relocate, start fresh and work 1 job that was in the right direction of my career. As I got into that role, I learned that it was way too good to be true and everything I was basically told about the role was a lie. I know most jobs to an extent will tell you things to get you there but in my case, it felt like everything I was told was a lie - and I mean everything.

I was told over and over again I would get to be able to do things to help me get to where I wanted to go and work on the things I needed to do to get there because time I tried, it was taken away from me, or someone else took it or took the credit for it, or I got left out of the conversation completely. It really bugged me down to my core and I wanted to shut that feeling of not feeling good enough off but how? How I could stop coming home crying or stop the feeling of not feeling like I was good enough?

Then it made me think about what Demi Lovato has been facing. Think about it, she is in the public eye and has been for a majority of her life around people who are criticizing her constantly and flaunting her demons out for the entire world to see. No one is doing that for me on that scale and my world feels upside down so for her I just can't comprehend it but it makes me appreciate her and understand her better. I could also be assuming this 100% wrong but I would like to think that I'm not alone and all people of all backgrounds and fame have dealt with this as well along with trying to understand what caused Demi to relapse. She is human just like us and feels the pressures just like we do.

If I ever got the chance again to sit down with Demi, I just want to chat about this because in a world of not feeling like anyone gets it or anyone out there has been stuck against that wall, it would be great to be reminded that someone might.