Uhm hello?!? I am glowing! My breakouts on my chin, jawline and cheeks have reduced by about 80%, and when I do get a nasty cystic pimple, the mask dries it right out in a day or two. By using a lot of products I had on hand, changing my diet, staying consistent, and using a product that gives dramatic results, I found a skincare routine that works for me. I am excited to keep doing it, and eventually try out other skincare products. I no longer feel afraid or intimidated by the world of skincare.
The most important thing starting a skincare routine gave me was to take more time for myself and sit with the fact that I am worth that time, as we all are. This routine forced me to set aside time every day to take care of my skin, and the results are incredible. It has encouraged me to take care better care of myself in other areas of my life as well. Doing it at first felt like a chore, and now it feels like a relief, to step out of the chaos and stress life can bring just for a few minutes every day, and focus on me.
When I was writing this post, I searched and searched for a good before pic to use to compare with how my skin looks now. I looked all the way back in my phone, and I have not one single close-up selfie of my face without a filter over it taken in the last year or so. This made me realize how much shame and insecurity I still carry about my face. I was ignoring my face in effort to ignore the fact that picking used to be, and sometimes still is, a daily struggle for me to stop doing. My face felt like a walking poster for how well or not well I was dealing with dermatillomania. Now, it feels so so good to do something good for my skin every day. I get to see my face heal from the years of damage and acne it has endured. So I don't have a dramatic before and after shot for you, but I do have this photo of myself to share as I am now: glowing, healing, loving my skin, and unashamed to take an up-close selfie with no filter for the first time in a very long time.