I would like to take this opportunity to express my deepest thoughts, concerns, and sorrows.
Being who I am, I love expressing myself through writing because it gives me time to process my thoughts and I am able to write everything that is going through my head. So here it is…
When I think about him, I not only think about our relationship but as well as his family and the relationship I built with his family, which is you.
I fell in love with not only your son, brother, and friend but you.
Just as fast as we fell in love, we fell apart.
I have never felt a part of something this big that wasn’t my own family.
I have never had a group of loved ones accept me, for well, me.
The more time I spent with him, the more time you spent with me.
The more I got to know him, the more you got to know me.
You fell in love with everything about who I am; where I came from and who my loved ones are.
You came into my life and I received you with open arms and an open heart.
I accepted all his flaws, you accepted all of mine.
I grew to love every single one of you and made it my mission to make sure you felt the love I had not only for your son, brother and friend but the love I had for you.
I invested my time, energy and effort in him. I invested my time, energy and effort in you.
I had the pleasure of knowing and understanding him through conversations that would get personal and really deep.
I had the pleasure of knowing and understanding you through conversations that would get personal and deep.
I’m sorry if for any reason, I ever offended you in any way.
I remember trying to be at every family event and becoming a part of trips.
You were the first family I ever spent my New Year’s with that wasn’t my own. To me, that was a BIG deal. I must really like y’all huh? I did and I do.
Let me explain… I am the type of girl that loves hard when in love. I give it my all when I love someone. I chose to love him and I chose to love him unconditionally. I am the girl that will show care and affection to my significant other in every way I can possibly show them. Sometimes I feel as though it’s too much and that pushes them away and they end up taking my love, care and forgiveness for granted… but I’m not like any other girl, who only cares to receive and expect someone else to do all the work. Nope. I’m the girl that believes in equality and that believes it’s important to give and not expect anything in return.