I need a glass of wine..
Never in my life have I struggled with something so hard, so grueling, and so.. frustrating life I have with nursing school. Some people like to thank "Oh that's easy, it's just anatomy.." But it's not. I want everyone right here and right now reading this to know, it is not just anatomy. It is not just learning how to put new sheets on your bed or learning how to stick you with an IV. It is so much deeper than that. It's learning how each and every system in your body works and how it's broken down. It's learning how each system integrates with another system and then makes up others. How hormones from one part of the body make up another and if those go wrong, everything else can go wrong. For me, nursing is an art. It's so amazing what some nurses do on a day to day basis and honestly, I aspire to be like that one day. There are nurses I know now that I want to be like in the future.
This semester was my final semester taking Med-Surg and I have to be real, Med-Surg is so deep and so hard that it has helped me build a foundation for future classes that I can carry. I wanted to prove myself this semester but, it was hard. The first test? Failed it. I was CRUSHED. I met with my instructor, nearly in tears because what I had missed had been such stupid things, things I knew and shouldn't have missed. She told me to keep my head up, set a goal for the next test. My goal? 80. Next test came around, 78. 2 points off but I was going to take it. And we kept setting goals with one another. I'd like to think I KILLED it in clinical this semester. You're always going to get N's, that's just something you can't avoid because you're still a student, you're still learning and getting through things, but I expanded my knowledge so much on things like priming the new pumps, giving meds I'd NEVER heard or seen before, meeting some of the most kind hearted and beautiful souled people I'd ever met in my life. I wish I knew them still so I could send them Christmas cards.
There were nurses on my floor this semester I want to thank over a thousand times. I want to tell them how grateful I am for them and how much I love them for all they did with helping us. I knew as students, some nurses look down on us because we ask a lot of questions but not them, they pulled us in, accepted us, and helped us when we needed it and for that, I'm forever grateful for learning how to expand my knowledge.
Nursing school will bring meltdowns. It will bring happiness. It will bring heartache. It WILL bring drama, just keep your head down and stay out of it. There will always be people telling you bs, don't listen to it.
OH and to that principle that told me I'd never make it: Look at where I am now. I'm a senior in nursing school and on my way to graduation. PLUS my hair is decently red again. Still think I won't make it?
Peace, love, and positivity!
Ericka
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