Having an eating disorder is like having Regina George as your best friend. She is cruel and bitchy, and unforgivingly harsh and relentless with her critique; she forces the idea that you must fit this mold of perfection to be considered good enough, and you wonder why the fuck you put up with her? The truth being, she created you. She gave you an identity, made you what you are; she pounded you into that mold, making you the image you always believed to be.
Seems crazy right? Let’s take this step by step.
This is you: entering society a naive little fragment, unknown of the depths you will encounter
You find a way of consolement to ease you into the mysterious world, being your guide.
You are then introduced to the beloved, the beauty, the aspiration of anyone’s dream How do you get there? Regina George
You begin adopting her habits, enabling her pristine voice to manipulate you into her ways
She takes you under her wing, making you her own, and you immediately feel wanted, satisfied, and a lust for more.
She deceives you, mocking you with the idea that you are not yet at her level, that you must attain a higher level to meet her expectations
A drive is instilled with you, forcing yourself to push your limits, making you reach extremes in order to achieve her status.
Days and weeks go by, and you begin to lose sight of your former self.
But none of that matters because you are finally meeting eye to eye with the demon that created you
Will it ever be enough?
There are two outcomes to this tale
One: Having your ED overtake your being, killing off any strand of your former self
Two: Acknowledging that you need help, and seeking recovery
Overcoming an eating disorder is not an easy task, and it obviously takes more than breaking a plastic crown to realize there is more to yourself than being thin. This is not meant to be a comedic representation of eating disorders, but to show how one who suffers from an eating disorder personifies their illness into a toxic person who they can still consider a friend. Recovery is focused towards realizing you do not need that person in your life, and enlightening yourself with the fact that you are beautiful, unique, and amazing just as you are. Do not let any one, thing, or voice dictate how you live your life; the vitality of being imperfect is ‘grool’.
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