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    Billie Eilish Opened Up About How She Dealt With Depression And Thoughts Of Suicide At The Age Of 16

    “I was so unhappy and I was so, like, joyless.”

    Billie Eilish is known for bringing joy to many around the world with her music...

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    ...but the Grammy-nominated star has struggled with her mental health while skyrocketing to fame over the last few years.

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    In a recent interview with Gayle King, Billie confided that she was "so unhappy" in 2018. "I was so unhappy and I was so, like, joyless," she told the CBS This Morning host.

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    "I don't want to be dark, but I genuinely didn't think I would make it to 17," she said.

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    When asked if she thought she would self-harm, Billie said, "Yeah."

    "I think about this one time I was in Berlin and I was alone in my hotel, and I remember there was a window right there … I remember crying because I was thinking about how the way that I was going to die was, I was gonna do it," she shared.

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    Gayle also brought up the lyric from Billie's song “Bury a Friend,” in which she sings, “I wanna end me.” The singer admitted that she was talking about herself.

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    Billie said it was the thought of her mom, Maggie Baird, that stopped her from going through with it.

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    Now, thanks to therapy and family support, Billie said she's doing much better mentally and encourages her fans who are going through similar struggles to take care of themselves.

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    "I just grab them by the shoulders and I'm like, 'Please take care of yourself and be good to yourself and be nice to yourself … don't take that extra step and hurt yourself further,'" she said.

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    Sending love and light to you, Billie!

    The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255. Other international suicide helplines can be found at befrienders.org. The Trevor Project, which provides help and suicide-prevention resources for LGBTQ youth, is 1-866-488-7386. You can also text TALK to 741741 for free, anonymous 24/7 crisis support in the US and UK from the Crisis Text Line.