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This Poet Tweeted Her Entire Suicide Story For Prevention Day

TW: self-harm, drug use and all around heavy stuff.

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Meet Desireé Dallagiacomo:

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She's a top ranked poet and a pretty bad-ass one at that. Her poems range from topics of body positivity to rape culture, but earlier this year, she placed 3rd overall at the Women of World Poetry Slam Finals for her suicide related poem titled "Sink."

In support of World Suicide Prevention Day, Dallagiacomo shared the story that inspired her poem via Twitter:

I was 17 when I tried to kill myself. I don't really ever say that out loud, I tried to kill myself. #WorldSuicidePreventionDay.

I was in a coma for 8 days, then in a mental hospital for 2 wks. It was May 2008, my senior year of high school. #WorldSuicidePreventionDay

I lied to every psychiatrist there. About Everything. I said whatever I had to to be released. #WorldSuicidePreventionDay

As a young person, I felt invisible. I didn't know how to talk about what I was feeling, thinking. All I knew how to do was shut ppl out.

I lived alone & I was in a super abusive/unhealthy relationship. I looked in the medicine cabinet & my mother had dozens of pills.

I just swallowed 2 full bottles of pills. Didn't know what they were. Didn't know how many. #WorldSuicidePreventionDay

Blacked out. Local hospital wouldn't admit me bc they said I was dying. they put me on a helicopter. Flew me to UC Davis.

Was in a coma for 8 days. Told my mom I wouldnt wake & if I did I would have severe brain damage & be quadriplegic for the rest of my life.

I woke up on a Thursday & was walking by Saturday. Doctors literally called it a miracle. They said 10 pills shoulda killed me. I took 100.

Graduated high school 3 weeks later, barely. I hadn't planned on making it that far, so I never even bought my cap and gown.

Found poetry that summer. First poem I ever performed was about being in a mental hospital as a kid.

It's something that's super difficult for me to talk about, because it always lives in me. Just there, waiting.

It means alot to be a writer on stages all over the country. Every time my mom watches 1 of my videos on YT she gets to see me, alive.

But really what matters to me is teaching. I know what it is to be the meanest grl in every class, pushing ppl away at all costs.

yr not invisible. you never have been. keep going. we see you, each day fighting to live. #WorldSuicidePreventionDay

Watch her perform "Sink" here:

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