Noah Cyrus Opened Up About Her Xanax Addiction And How It Caused Her To Essentially Fall Asleep During An Interview

    "It just kind of becomes this dark pit, bottomless pit."

    On Tuesday, Noah Cyrus sat down with Rolling Stone and gave a vulnerable, in-depth interview about growing up in the spotlight, her new music, and her struggles with addiction.

    Noah poses on the Grammys red carpet

    Noah said she first tried Xanax after her boyfriend gave it to her when she was 18. "My boyfriend at the time, when I was 18, was the first person that gave me a Xanax, and it became a way for us to bond," Noah said.

    Noah performing

    “I think I wanted to fit in with him. I wanted to be what he wanted and what he thought was cool and what I thought everybody was doing.”

    Noah performing

    She also told Rolling Stone she preferred the Xanax over party drugs. "Once I felt that it was possible to silence things out for a second and numb your pain, it was over," she explained.

    Noah poses at the Grammys

    And why the Xanax was easy to procure: “I was surrounded by people who were easily able to get it by buying it from people. ... It just kind of becomes this dark pit, bottomless pit," Noah said, before admitting that it made her sleep all day and lose her memory — especially during the pandemic.

    Noah performing

    Noah then spoke about an incident where she essentially fell asleep during a press interview for her EP The End of Everything. “I was completely nodding off and falling asleep, and unable to keep my head up or keep my eyes open, because I was so far gone." The interview did not air.

    Noah performing on New Year's Eve

    Thankfully, Noah said she's been in recovery from Xanax since late 2020.

    Noah poses in a red outfit at a show

    "I’m not trying to be, like, any spokesperson for recovery or anything like that,” she said. “I, myself, am just going through it and figuring it out."

    "I wake up in the mornings, and I’m able to look in a mirror and go on about my day without hating myself. I’m able to comfort myself and nurture myself.”

    Thank you, Noah, for sharing your story and for being so honest and vulnerable. And congratulations on your recovery journey.

    You can read the full Rolling Stone piece here.

    If you or someone you love is struggling with an addiction, here are some resources that might be of help: Find an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting group near you here. Talk to a representative from the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) on their free, confidential, 24/7 national helpline by calling 1-800-662-HELP. Or if you or someone you love is having suicidal thoughts, call or visit the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.