The history of American policing surprised you, but it wasn't hiding. The force began with private mercenaries and kidnappers who were contracted to terrorize runaway slaves. You later learned that they were hired by regional elites seeking to cripple Union agitators, many of whom embraced integration and wealth redistribution.
You've watched policing grow from a profit-motive, which means that it sees color and is exploitative, but you're afraid to say any of this. You're afraid that you can't draw purity from impurity. Will you at least mouth the words with us? White supremacist, capitalist, patriarchy has supported the unjust occupation of America and the Global South for centuries… Stop… This occupation accrues enough equity to perpetuate Eurocentric wealth, power, and cultural domination… Stop… This agenda is reflected in institutions like local law enforcement, public education, and public housing because racism is systemic. It doesn't need your intentions. You're still afraid to say it. Yes, some of the hate is pathological, and some of it is just prejudice— but both are supported by a culture designed to satisfy your great grandfather's imperial profit motive.