I'm not an emotionless person with a cold heart. I'm not a person that doesn't believe in god. I don't enjoy seeing others in pain or trouble.
I have a strong and weak heart at the same time, so I show it when I need to and hide it when I'm scared. My views on god are different than yours, and I will follow the beliefs I've set for myself. I care about everyone and everything so much I cry when I think of others being hurt.
I'm scared and ashamed of myself so much, I feel I don't deserve to have the joy of being around others.