Kelly Rowland Said She Had A "Full-Blown Anxiety Attack" Meeting Her Biological Father
"I was petrified!"
On Father's Days, tons of celebs took to Instagram to express their love and appreciation for the dads in their lives, including Kelly Rowland, who shared three posts.
The first two honored her husband Tim Weatherspoon, who you can see rapping to their son Titan in this one...
...while the other featured a sweet family photo of all of them together.
But for her third Father's Day tribute, Kelly got really vulnerable with her fans by opening up about the time she reunited with her estranged biological father after 30 years.
"This was the day I met Christopher Lovett,
my biological father. This was honestly one of the most pivotal moments in my life!"
"After 30 years of not seeing him, not speaking to him...what would THAT mean, for me, my family, my psyche?"
Well, Kelly eventually found out after calling him and setting up a meeting in Oct. 2018, which is around the same time she was filming American Soul.
"I was petrified," Kelly continued. "I was walking to meet him, and my feet suddenly felt like they weighed A TON."
"Needless to say, I was overcome with anxiety, and I had a full on anxiety attack. In that moment I felt like the abandoned 8 yr old."
"My team calmed me down. And as I turn the corner, in my head I was cursing this man, 'Why didn’t you come find me?' 'Did you love me?' 'Am I worthy?'"
"And when I looked at him, and he looked at me, NOTHING CAME TO MY LIPS, not one word. I felt the Holy Spirit say to me, 'Listen.'"
"I listened to him, I was nervous to trust him, nervous to forgive him, nervous to love him, nervous about it all. And the truth is, I already loved him."
Afterward, Kelly sought solace from her husband and those closest to her, and they encouraged her to take a leap of faith and forgive him.
"I have forgiven and we have spoken everyday since!
I have come to know SO much about myself, my family history, and even where my love of music & voice have come from!"
"We are making up for lost time, and when I tell you, him telling me how smart and beautiful I am....will never get old!"
And even at age 39, Kelly admitted she still loves the feeling of being daddy's little girl.
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