In the past week, I've come to terms with something I was secretly hiding and harboring in my decaying cell of a body. It was something I never said out loud, something I kept hidden, something I considered shameful...but I can proudly say I'm finally ready to come out. Yes, I am an Avril gay. Yes, I am proud of it.
I had the realization when I was listening to her greatest hits on Spotify and realized she had bop after bop. Yes, she was annoying and mean to Britney in the past, but, like most gays, I can forgive and forget if you bring consistent bops.
That brings me to her first new song in YEARS.
Last week, Avril quietly released a song called "Head Above Water." I know, I know, gay people are dramatic and I exaggerate a lot...but this song is gorgeous.
It's a huge power ballad that she wrote when she almost died of Lyme disease. In case you didn't know, Avril was diagnosed with Lyme disease in 2014. She told People:
“One night, I thought I was dying, and I had accepted that I was going to die. My mom laid with me in bed and held me. I felt like I was drowning. Under my breath, I prayed ‘God, please help to keep my head above the water.’ In that moment, the song writing of this album began."
SHE WAS DYING, PEOPLE.
"'Head Above Water' is the first song I wrote from my bed during one of the scariest moments of my life. I had accepted death and could feel my body shutting down. I felt like I was drowning. Like I was going under water and I just needed to come up for air. Like I was in a river being pulled in a current. Unable to breathe."