Battling depression/anxiety sucks.
There’s no easy way to get around that. You feel like you’re in a constant battle- and you’re not quite sure who’s winning..or even which side you're on. Some days you feel like you’ve come out on top. The sun is shining, you feel strong…unstoppable even. “You’ve totally got this!”
….and then the next day you don’t want to leave your bed because you’re a failure, life sucks, and even your cat is feeling sorry for you.
I get it…and I’ll say it again BATTLING DEPRESSION/ANXIETY SUCKS.
So why listen to me?
I've been there. The dark days. The good days. The days you feel like you're losing your mind. The self harm (mental and physical). The self-help. The panic attacks. The therapy. The medication.
I’d like to say I’ve come out on the other side- but the fact of the matter is, you’re never fully cured. It’s something that will always be with you. The shadow you learn to co-exist with.
The truth is... you're not going to magically get better. Anxiety/depression isn't just a cold that will "go away on it's own" or something you can take a magic pill for. You can NOT just sleep it off..... trust me I've tried (and I'm sure you have too).
To get out of dark you're going to have to ACTIVELY PARTICIPATE. Become your biggest cheerleader. You are going to have to commit to getting better.
It won't be easy- so I won't promise you that. BUT once you make the decision to get better, you'll feel better.
You are in control of how you react to your anxiety/depression.
You can wallow, or you can rise.
Are you done wallowing?
Don't let this defeat you. There is so much love and light that's waiting for YOU. You CAN do this.
Make the decision, today, to kick your depression/anxiety in the ass.
Have faith, and make an effort.
Reach out. Speak up.
That first step is all your's.
“Don’t rely on someone else for your happiness and self-worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can’t love and respect yourself – no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are – completely; the good and the bad – and make changes as YOU see fit – not because you think someone else wants you to be different.”
– Stacey Charter