In her column with Glamour Magazine, Zosia Mamet discussed what is what like to grow up battling an eating disorder. Her struggle began after being called fat when she was only eight years old, and raged inside of her for years, leading her father to get her into treatment at age 17.
"As a teenager I used to stand in front of the refrigerator late at night staring into that white fluorescent light, debilitated by the war raging inside me: whether to give in to the pitted hunger in my stomach or close the door and go back to bed. I would stand there for hours, opening and closing the door, taking out a piece of food then putting it back in; taking it out, putting it in my mouth, and then spitting it into the garbage."
She tells of how she gained weight in treatment, but quickly lost it again once returning to life outside of that controlled environment. It wasn't until she realized that her disorder was about so much more than just food, and confronted the underlying causes, that she was able to reach and maintain a healthy weight.
"Today I'm at a healthy weight, though I realize that my obsession will always be with me in some way. For years the voice inside me has gotten louder or quieter at times."
In her column, Zosia boasts the importance of a call to action amongst society to change the ideal from "a figure naturally possessed by, let's say, a mere 5 percent of women."
Her story, as someone who suffered from this type of disorder and works in the ever image obsessed media, speaks beautifully about the changes that need to be made in our culture. So many people suffer from eating disorders, often in silence, and very few get the help that they need to overcome them. Hopefully, with the help of people like Zosia, we can get to a point where people don't feel the need to take dangerous, extreme measures in order to be considered beautiful. There is beauty in every single one of us, we just have to recognize it.
She encourages people that are struggling in silence to stop hiding, writing
"Let's diminish the stigma. Let's remind one another that we're beautiful. Maybe you'll help a friend. Maybe you'll help yourself. And if you're reading this and you're suffering, please know you're not alone. Tell someone: The people who love you will listen, I promise. And you'll feel better."