The third and final film in Netflix's To All the Boys series, To All the Boys: Always and Forever, drops on Feb. 12 — and in an interview with Self, series star Lana Condor opened up about how the success of the first film affected her mental health.
“[The movie] was received way better than I had ever imagined in my wildest dreams," Condor explained. "It changed much of my life very quickly."
The film's success also coincided with her set time on the SyFy TV series Deadly Class — and Condor said that she felt overloaded as a result.
“I was just saying yes to everything because it’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity," Condor said, "and you want to capitalize on it, and you want to feel like you’re fully embracing everything."
The result, Condor said, is that she "never felt more horrible mentally. I was so burned out."
"I would go home at night and I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. I would shake going to bed and shake waking up because it was just so much stimulation.”
Eventually, Condor approached her team to let them know how she was feeling: "I had this moment where I just was in tears, telling them that I don’t feel OK. And they were all shocked because I wasn’t open about my feelings. No one knew. When I had that conversation with them, it was like a new beginning. Now I know the power of sharing that.”
“My mom and my dad are so supportive,” she continued. “We’ve had conversations about ‘Lana, you need to stop. You’re clearly unhappy.’ … [And I said,] ‘OK, let’s figure out the root of that.’ My parents have been a great sounding board.”
Condor's boyfriend, Anthony de la Torre, also provided emotional support: "He is so great at communicating, and he genuinely wants to know how I feel and what’s going on in my head, which [makes me] feel so loved and taken care of.”
Condor concluded that, since she decided to be open with those around her about her struggles, she's now in a place "where I feel like I can do what I love and also be the person that I want to be for myself.”