I’ve never been the person who LOVES health and fitness. In fact, in a perfect world I would never hear those two words again. My general outlook on life is basically “WHY can’t I just sit around, eat cheese and drink wine all day? WHY?” And I think we all know the answer to that, we just like to pretend that eating and acting like a Roman Goddess is fine. Those women had pudge and it was BEAUTIFUL. WE have pudge and WE are BEAUTIFUL. But for me, my personal pudge was just getting a little out of hand, in my opinion.
I have no interest in the gym and I like to eat what I want; bread, cheese, pizza, pasta, TACO BELL, you know, the finer things in life.
Growing up in an Italian household, I genuinely thought that pasta was a fully balanced, healthy meal. Lol. So imagine my surprise when I grew up and realized PASTA was making me FAT. You would have thought the witch from Hansel and Gretel raised me.
Of course I don’t eat like crap all the time, I like salads too! I make sure to keep it balanced. I thought I was making healthy choices a lot of the time and only indulged myself ~sometimes~. I’m a true believer that it’s healthier to have a little bit of what you want instead of depriving yourself of it. You need to feed your body but you also need to feed your soul-and keep that bitch happy.
I wanted to be healthy and fit but at some point, your body just starts to get away from you. And that’s what happened to me. I was always on the slimmer side growing up, so I never got into the habit of working out regularly. I guess it was just that teenage metabolism and I never thought my eating habits would catch up to me. BOY was I wrong.
Next thing I know, from the time I was 23 to 26 I gained about 30 lbs and I started to become unhappy with myself and my appearance. I still looked good but not to the standards I hold myself. I checked my BMI online and confirmed that I was overweight for my height and I decided it was officially time for me to do something about it. So I bought, via an Instagram ad, a subscription to a website that coaches you through HIIT workouts, which actually turned out to be amazing. After a couple of sessions I felt myself toning up and just generally looking tighter and more fit. And I mentally felt better, too. I thought hey, it seems like I hate working out less than I hate not eating what I love. What a concept!
But eventually that fizzled out. Staying motivated is hard!
Then comes Christmas of 2018; I was the heaviest I’ve ever been, 150 lbs for my 5’4” stature. And I see my cousin’s wife and she looks phenomenal, she had lost weight and was glowing and clearly feeling amazing in her own skin. I asked her how she lost the weight and she very excitedly told me about Weight Watchers. Her before and after pictures were STUNNING. Best of all, she STILL GETS TO EAT TACO BELL. How could I say no to that?
So December 26, I downloaded the Weight Watchers app. It costs $20/month which, I know, sounds discouraging but then I thought about how much I spend on useless crap all the time, like EVERYTIME I go to Target, or on gym memberships that go unused. I knew that money could be better spent working on bettering myself and getting healthier. On top of that, I had seen with my own eyes what this system can do for a person if you stick with it, so I knew it would be a good investment.
So here's how it works: you plug in your weight and how much you want to lose into the app then it calculates based on your body and how active you are, how many points you are allotted per day. For me it was 23 points. Points = Food or more specifically, fattening foods. Healthy foods like fruits, veggies, fish, and eggs are 0 points.
I spend my days filling up on 0 point foods so I can indulge in my nightly wine drinking. SACRFICES, PEOPLE.
Its also fun because the app allows you to scan barcodes of pretty much any food. So at the grocery store if I see something I want to buy I’ll scan it and sometimes realize Its not such a good idea, even if I think its a healthy option. Oh yeah AND when you record what you eat for each meal of the day you earn bonus points that eventually you can used toward actual prizes!
The thing that really surprised me about Weight Watchers is that it made me realize how much I was actually over-eating. I used to get overly full to the point where my stomach would hurt and i would be uncomfortable for hours. When I started eating mostly 0 point foods, I realized that I didn’t need all that bread and other garbage to fill up (sometimes I do, but not ALL the time).
I’m not going to lie, some days its super hard to stay on track and I get sick of all the eggs and beans and vegetables and I just want to smash mac and cheese into my face. But I’m learning to make substitutions, like cauliflower Mac n’ Cheese, which isn’t so bad! And sometimes I just have the thing that I want! And that’s okay! It’s all about moderation while also keeping yourself happy. And I love that nothing is off limits. I also feel more satisfied by one or two bites of something unhealthy instead of having to eat a whole plate of it!
So yeah, I’ve lost 8.5 pounds in exactly 4 weeks, which is more than I’ve ever lost doing anything else. And that's with virtually no working out. I know it doesn’t sound like much but to me it proves that I’m on the right track. I also only worked out twice in this amount of time. It makes me happy to be working on myself, I feel accomplished and sexier already.
FULL DISCLOSURE: This post is meant to encourage people to feel great about themselves and no matter what size or weight. All bodies are beautiful! I was still beautiful at my heaviest, I just didn’t feel like myself and didn’t have the confidence I once had. This post is about feeling good and being happy whether that means being 80 lbs or 800, I simply wasn’t happy so I decided to make a change. But you do you! And be healthy, if you want to be! No pressure.