If you are in trouble feeling that you can't do anything more to succeed just play! Play hide and seek with your negative thoughts and hide yourself very well in a promise. You are almost invisible for your past . Planning your promise is like a guarantee for a better future . It has no cost ,no needs external help,nor time limit. It is a "joke"you know because it is nothing real but it is a movement of your mind from nothing to a story.
You arrived in this desperate condition because you set up trajectories in your life. Because you want to be or to do as you thought the entire life. Let your promise relax and close the dream to you to touch it, step by step . Not to be happy as you dreamed but to be happy in all your path to this loved dream!