Deana M.

i am a 20 year old single mother of two wonderful boys. my oldest (Nicolas) is 5 and my youngest (Zayden) was born May 26, 2009! At this point in my life I am finally content with who I am and what I want.. I have great friends that are there when I need them, and it seems lately that I need them more than ever. My faith in God has become a little more stronger over the past few months. I fully believe that He has a plan for me and my kids, and I'm willing to trust in Him and find out what it is. I am generally a laid back person. That is until you've crossed the line with me. And that line lays with my family and friends. I love to laugh at the people that think that know what I've done when they really have no clue. So more than likely things you have heard about me aren't true. But you can take the time to know me or you can believe the rumors. I could honestly care less. I'm not here to please anyone but God and my kids. I've learned the hard way that you can't make people believe the truth. **I screw things up, especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I try to get close to people but I just end up pushing them away. I remember everything and sometimes I wish I didn’t. My heart is bruised and I know, one day, it will take much more than I probably can handle. I think that life lessons are what my world has revolved around for a long time, and I’m just waiting for the day I can relax and not worry. I say the wrong things at the wrong time, I speak my mind without hesitation, I’m stubborn and avoid things like the plague. I believe that words are just as powerful as actions sometimes but proof can make or break any relationship. My life has moved like lighting and it has flashed before my eyes, sometimes with a great beauty and sometimes with a stinging reminder. I am bitter about a lot of things, and I will be the first to admit I hold a grudge at times, but as they say, revenge is a confession of pain. I don’t know if I intended to be here, but I am so I am making the best out of it. I have realized that I need to free myself from the people that just don’t fit into my plans/life anymore; I believe it’s for the best in the end. My story hasn’t ended, it already begun, but I’m okay with boxing up past and moving forward.**

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