NikkieTutorials Called Life "Unfair" In Her First YouTube Video Since She And Her Fiancé Were Robbed At Gunpoint In Their Home

    "Life is really unfair, but it is up to us to keep fighting every single second of the day."

    NikkieTutorials has thanked fans for their continued support in her first YouTube video since she and fiancé, Dylan Drossaers, were robbed at gunpoint in their Netherlands home.

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    Earlier this month, the beauty YouTuber revealed that one of her "biggest nightmares had become reality" as she briefly opened up about the incident on social media.

    "Dylan and myself got attacked but physically we're okay," Nikkie wrote. "Mentally it's a whole other story. I'm writing this message for now to let you know that we are 'okay' and safe."

    Since then, Nikkie has largely remained quiet across social media as she and loved ones came to terms with the incident. But, over the weekend, the social media star broke her silence in an emotional return to her YouTube channel.

    "A couple of days ago, Dylan and I were part of one of my worst nightmares — we were robbed at gunpoint at our own home," Nikkie began the video after visibly tearing up. "Even though I can't tell you too much, because there's still a very ongoing investigation, I do wanna let you know that I'm OK."

    "Having one of those worst nightmares come true is very surreal, but it also puts a lot of things in perspective," she continued. "Now, more than ever, you realise that family is everything. And being in good health is even more important."

    "Maybe one day, I'll be able to tell you everything," she added. "But right now, it's impossible for my mental state, but also for the law because we're trying to do everything to make this right."

    "I'm not gonna lie, it is so hard," Nikkie went on. "It is gonna take a lot of time for Dylan and myself and our family and friends to grow from this and to keep going with life, even though life does not hold back."

    But, refusing to let the barrage of bad news keep her down, Nikkie defiantly added: "Life is really unfair, but it is up to us to keep fighting every single second of the day."

    Calling makeup a "silver lining" and "therapy" for getting her through dark times, Nikkie went on to thank fans for their ongoing love and support before revealing that she'd be "signing off" and taking a break from the spotlight.

    "I wanna thank you for providing a platform where I can truly be me and let go of all fears," she tearfully finished. "I love you so much and hopefully I’ll see you guys on the next one."

    You can watch the full video here.

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