Updated on Jul 22, 2020. Posted on Jul 22, 2020

    Katy Perry Said That Writing "Firework" Made Her Feel "Ashamed" Of Taking Medication For Her Depression

    "I was clinically depressed because I had a change in my career," Katy said in an interview with Howard Stern. "The last record didn't necessarily meet my expectations."

    Katy Perry just opened up about mental health, revealing in a recent interview that she was "clinically depressed" while making her latest album, Smile.

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    In a conversation with Howard Stern on Tuesday, Katy candidly spoke about the making of the album, explaining that her previous project, Witness, hadn't met her expectations and left her questioning aspects of her career.

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    "This record is full of hopefulness and resilience and joy because it was made during a dark time when I was clinically depressed because I had a change in my career," Katy said. "The last record didn't necessarily meet my expectations."

    In fact, the success of Witness, or lack thereof, led to a bout of depression so serious that Katy found herself unable to get out of bed. Things were only made worse by the fact that her usual sanctuary — music — was now seemingly the catalyst for her struggles.

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    "It was more than I had ever faced in my life," Katy said. "I'd had bouts of depression before, but I had been able to avoid falling into the really dark depression by making music. It's like all these things you do to distract, you eat, you work, you get a new boyfriend, you shop."

    "I was so ashamed about being on medication because I was like...I wrote 'Firework,'" Katy continued. "But it was one of those things where I'd sprained my brain a little bit."

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    Katy went on to discuss her relationship with fiancé Orlando Bloom — who she's expecting a daughter with this summer — revealing that his ability to "handle" her moods is one of the reasons they're still together.

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    "He is the only one that can handle it and that's why we're in this position," she said. "I showed him all of it. And I still test him and he still shows up and he still is not fazed by it and that's why he is perfect for me — because I'm a lot!"

    She later added: "We always look for what we lack and [Orlando] has an effervescent joy. He walks in a room and he'll light it up."

    You can read more of Katy's interview with Howard Stern here. Her fifth studio album, Smile, is due for release this August.

    Ben Henry is a celebrity reporter for BuzzFeed UK and is based in London.

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