I also have PCOS, so I feel your pain. I won’t be thin again, ever in my life unless I do something drastic, like starve myself. I’ve changed my way of thinking. I run races, do yoga, and lift weight for my own physical and mental well being. I no longer do these things to like the way I look somewhere down the road. I wish everyone, would focus more on that in life. Stop worrying about the mirror and how others feel about you’re appearance. If you don’t love yourself now, you won’t later.