as a survivor I know that my strength is far stronger than his. My life is supposed to be far successful and driven by the new found love for myself. I am not a toy or back up for when your bored. I am a woman who used to be a girl that you abused, used, and tore apart. That 10 year old girl that you abused for 4 years turned out to be a wonderful mommy and wife. I am now also a business owner who focuses on the beauty of women. To my abuser, I still somehow find the strength to deep down thank you for all the pain and misery I will forever live with, it is what changes me to be a better person and to love me and others.