Middlemarch (Part 2)

    Continued from Part 1.


    BOOK III.


    WAITING FOR DEATH.


    CHAPTER XXIII.


    "Your horses of the Sun," he said,
    "And first-rate whip Apollo!
    Whate'er they be, I'll eat my head,
    But I will beat them hollow."

    Fred Vincy, we have seen, had a debt on his mind, and though no such

    immaterial burthen could depress that buoyant-hearted young gentleman

    for many hours together, there were circumstances connected with this

    debt which made the thought of it unusually importunate. The creditor

    was Mr. Bambridge a horse-dealer of the neighborhood, whose company was

    much sought in Middlemarch by young men understood to be "addicted to

    pleasure." During the vacations Fred had naturally required more

    amusements than he had ready money for, and Mr. Bambridge had been

    accommodating enough not only to trust him for the hire of horses and

    the accidental expense of ruining a fine hunter, but also to make a

    small advance by which he might be able to meet some losses at

    billiards. The total debt was a hundred and sixty pounds. Bambridge

    was in no alarm about his money, being sure that young Vincy had

    backers; but he had required something to show for it, and Fred had at

    first given a bill with his own signature. Three months later he had

    renewed this bill with the signature of Caleb Garth. On both occasions

    Fred had felt confident that he should meet the bill himself, having

    ample funds at disposal in his own hopefulness. You will hardly demand

    that his confidence should have a basis in external facts; such

    confidence, we know, is something less coarse and materialistic: it is

    a comfortable disposition leading us to expect that the wisdom of

    providence or the folly of our friends, the mysteries of luck or the

    still greater mystery of our high individual value in the universe,

    will bring about agreeable issues, such as are consistent with our good

    taste in costume, and our general preference for the best style of

    thing. Fred felt sure that he should have a present from his uncle,

    that he should have a run of luck, that by dint of "swapping" he should

    gradually metamorphose a horse worth forty pounds into a horse that

    would fetch a hundred at any moment—"judgment" being always equivalent

    to an unspecified sum in hard cash. And in any case, even supposing

    negations which only a morbid distrust could imagine, Fred had always

    (at that time) his father's pocket as a last resource, so that his

    assets of hopefulness had a sort of gorgeous superfluity about them.

    Of what might be the capacity of his father's pocket, Fred had only a

    vague notion: was not trade elastic? And would not the deficiencies of

    one year be made up for by the surplus of another? The Vincys lived in

    an easy profuse way, not with any new ostentation, but according to the

    family habits and traditions, so that the children had no standard of

    economy, and the elder ones retained some of their infantine notion

    that their father might pay for anything if he would. Mr. Vincy

    himself had expensive Middlemarch habits—spent money on coursing, on

    his cellar, and on dinner-giving, while mamma had those running

    accounts with tradespeople, which give a cheerful sense of getting

    everything one wants without any question of payment. But it was in

    the nature of fathers, Fred knew, to bully one about expenses: there

    was always a little storm over his extravagance if he had to disclose a

    debt, and Fred disliked bad weather within doors. He was too filial to

    be disrespectful to his father, and he bore the thunder with the

    certainty that it was transient; but in the mean time it was

    disagreeable to see his mother cry, and also to be obliged to look

    sulky instead of having fun; for Fred was so good-tempered that if he

    looked glum under scolding, it was chiefly for propriety's sake. The

    easier course plainly, was to renew the bill with a friend's signature.

    Why not? With the superfluous securities of hope at his command, there

    was no reason why he should not have increased other people's

    liabilities to any extent, but for the fact that men whose names were

    good for anything were usually pessimists, indisposed to believe that

    the universal order of things would necessarily be agreeable to an

    agreeable young gentleman.

    With a favor to ask we review our list of friends, do justice to their

    more amiable qualities, forgive their little offenses, and concerning

    each in turn, try to arrive at the conclusion that he will be eager to

    oblige us, our own eagerness to be obliged being as communicable as

    other warmth. Still there is always a certain number who are dismissed

    as but moderately eager until the others have refused; and it happened

    that Fred checked off all his friends but one, on the ground that

    applying to them would be disagreeable; being implicitly convinced that

    he at least (whatever might be maintained about mankind generally) had

    a right to be free from anything disagreeable. That he should ever

    fall into a thoroughly unpleasant position—wear trousers shrunk with

    washing, eat cold mutton, have to walk for want of a horse, or to "duck

    under" in any sort of way—was an absurdity irreconcilable with those

    cheerful intuitions implanted in him by nature. And Fred winced under

    the idea of being looked down upon as wanting funds for small debts.

    Thus it came to pass that the friend whom he chose to apply to was at

    once the poorest and the kindest—namely, Caleb Garth.

    The Garths were very fond of Fred, as he was of them; for when he and

    Rosamond were little ones, and the Garths were better off, the slight

    connection between the two families through Mr. Featherstone's double

    marriage (the first to Mr. Garth's sister, and the second to Mrs.

    Vincy's) had led to an acquaintance which was carried on between the

    children rather than the parents: the children drank tea together out

    of their toy teacups, and spent whole days together in play. Mary was

    a little hoyden, and Fred at six years old thought her the nicest girl

    in the world, making her his wife with a brass ring which he had cut

    from an umbrella. Through all the stages of his education he had kept

    his affection for the Garths, and his habit of going to their house as

    a second home, though any intercourse between them and the elders of

    his family had long ceased. Even when Caleb Garth was prosperous, the

    Vincys were on condescending terms with him and his wife, for there

    were nice distinctions of rank in Middlemarch; and though old

    manufacturers could not any more than dukes be connected with none but

    equals, they were conscious of an inherent social superiority which was

    defined with great nicety in practice, though hardly expressible

    theoretically. Since then Mr. Garth had failed in the building

    business, which he had unfortunately added to his other avocations of

    surveyor, valuer, and agent, had conducted that business for a time

    entirely for the benefit of his assignees, and had been living

    narrowly, exerting himself to the utmost that he might after all pay

    twenty shillings in the pound. He had now achieved this, and from all

    who did not think it a bad precedent, his honorable exertions had won

    him due esteem; but in no part of the world is genteel visiting founded

    on esteem, in the absence of suitable furniture and complete

    dinner-service. Mrs. Vincy had never been at her ease with Mrs. Garth,

    and frequently spoke of her as a woman who had had to work for her

    bread—meaning that Mrs. Garth had been a teacher before her marriage;

    in which case an intimacy with Lindley Murray and Mangnall's Questions

    was something like a draper's discrimination of calico trademarks, or a

    courier's acquaintance with foreign countries: no woman who was better

    off needed that sort of thing. And since Mary had been keeping Mr.

    Featherstone's house, Mrs. Vincy's want of liking for the Garths had

    been converted into something more positive, by alarm lest Fred should

    engage himself to this plain girl, whose parents "lived in such a small

    way." Fred, being aware of this, never spoke at home of his visits to

    Mrs. Garth, which had of late become more frequent, the increasing

    ardor of his affection for Mary inclining him the more towards those

    who belonged to her.

    Mr. Garth had a small office in the town, and to this Fred went with

    his request. He obtained it without much difficulty, for a large

    amount of painful experience had not sufficed to make Caleb Garth

    cautious about his own affairs, or distrustful of his fellow-men when

    they had not proved themselves untrustworthy; and he had the highest

    opinion of Fred, was "sure the lad would turn out well—an open

    affectionate fellow, with a good bottom to his character—you might

    trust him for anything." Such was Caleb's psychological argument. He

    was one of those rare men who are rigid to themselves and indulgent to

    others. He had a certain shame about his neighbors' errors, and never

    spoke of them willingly; hence he was not likely to divert his mind

    from the best mode of hardening timber and other ingenious devices in

    order to preconceive those errors. If he had to blame any one, it was

    necessary for him to move all the papers within his reach, or describe

    various diagrams with his stick, or make calculations with the odd

    money in his pocket, before he could begin; and he would rather do

    other men's work than find fault with their doing. I fear he was a bad

    disciplinarian.

    When Fred stated the circumstances of his debt, his wish to meet it

    without troubling his father, and the certainty that the money would be

    forthcoming so as to cause no one any inconvenience, Caleb pushed his

    spectacles upward, listened, looked into his favorite's clear young

    eyes, and believed him, not distinguishing confidence about the future

    from veracity about the past; but he felt that it was an occasion for a

    friendly hint as to conduct, and that before giving his signature he

    must give a rather strong admonition. Accordingly, he took the paper

    and lowered his spectacles, measured the space at his command, reached

    his pen and examined it, dipped it in the ink and examined it again,

    then pushed the paper a little way from him, lifted up his spectacles

    again, showed a deepened depression in the outer angle of his bushy

    eyebrows, which gave his face a peculiar mildness (pardon these details

    for once—you would have learned to love them if you had known Caleb

    Garth), and said in a comfortable tone—

    "It was a misfortune, eh, that breaking the horse's knees? And then,

    these exchanges, they don't answer when you have 'cute jockeys to deal

    with. You'll be wiser another time, my boy."

    Whereupon Caleb drew down his spectacles, and proceeded to write his

    signature with the care which he always gave to that performance; for

    whatever he did in the way of business he did well. He contemplated

    the large well-proportioned letters and final flourish, with his head a

    trifle on one side for an instant, then handed it to Fred, said

    "Good-by," and returned forthwith to his absorption in a plan for Sir

    James Chettam's new farm-buildings.

    Either because his interest in this work thrust the incident of the

    signature from his memory, or for some reason of which Caleb was more

    conscious, Mrs. Garth remained ignorant of the affair.

    Since it occurred, a change had come over Fred's sky, which altered his

    view of the distance, and was the reason why his uncle Featherstone's

    present of money was of importance enough to make his color come and

    go, first with a too definite expectation, and afterwards with a

    proportionate disappointment. His failure in passing his examination,

    had made his accumulation of college debts the more unpardonable by his

    father, and there had been an unprecedented storm at home. Mr. Vincy

    had sworn that if he had anything more of that sort to put up with,

    Fred should turn out and get his living how he could; and he had never

    yet quite recovered his good-humored tone to his son, who had

    especially enraged him by saying at this stage of things that he did

    not want to be a clergyman, and would rather not "go on with that."

    Fred was conscious that he would have been yet more severely dealt with

    if his family as well as himself had not secretly regarded him as Mr.

    Featherstone's heir; that old gentleman's pride in him, and apparent

    fondness for him, serving in the stead of more exemplary conduct—just

    as when a youthful nobleman steals jewellery we call the act

    kleptomania, speak of it with a philosophical smile, and never think of

    his being sent to the house of correction as if he were a ragged boy

    who had stolen turnips. In fact, tacit expectations of what would be

    done for him by uncle Featherstone determined the angle at which most

    people viewed Fred Vincy in Middlemarch; and in his own consciousness,

    what uncle Featherstone would do for him in an emergency, or what he

    would do simply as an incorporated luck, formed always an immeasurable

    depth of aerial perspective. But that present of bank-notes, once

    made, was measurable, and being applied to the amount of the debt,

    showed a deficit which had still to be filled up either by Fred's

    "judgment" or by luck in some other shape. For that little episode of

    the alleged borrowing, in which he had made his father the agent in

    getting the Bulstrode certificate, was a new reason against going to

    his father for money towards meeting his actual debt. Fred was keen

    enough to foresee that anger would confuse distinctions, and that his

    denial of having borrowed expressly on the strength of his uncle's will

    would be taken as a falsehood. He had gone to his father and told him

    one vexatious affair, and he had left another untold: in such cases the

    complete revelation always produces the impression of a previous

    duplicity. Now Fred piqued himself on keeping clear of lies, and even

    fibs; he often shrugged his shoulders and made a significant grimace at

    what he called Rosamond's fibs (it is only brothers who can associate

    such ideas with a lovely girl); and rather than incur the accusation of

    falsehood he would even incur some trouble and self-restraint. It was

    under strong inward pressure of this kind that Fred had taken the wise

    step of depositing the eighty pounds with his mother. It was a pity

    that he had not at once given them to Mr. Garth; but he meant to make

    the sum complete with another sixty, and with a view to this, he had

    kept twenty pounds in his own pocket as a sort of seed-corn, which,

    planted by judgment, and watered by luck, might yield more than

    threefold—a very poor rate of multiplication when the field is a young

    gentleman's infinite soul, with all the numerals at command.

    Fred was not a gambler: he had not that specific disease in which the

    suspension of the whole nervous energy on a chance or risk becomes as

    necessary as the dram to the drunkard; he had only the tendency to that

    diffusive form of gambling which has no alcoholic intensity, but is

    carried on with the healthiest chyle-fed blood, keeping up a joyous

    imaginative activity which fashions events according to desire, and

    having no fears about its own weather, only sees the advantage there

    must be to others in going aboard with it. Hopefulness has a pleasure

    in making a throw of any kind, because the prospect of success is

    certain; and only a more generous pleasure in offering as many as

    possible a share in the stake. Fred liked play, especially billiards,

    as he liked hunting or riding a steeple-chase; and he only liked it the

    better because he wanted money and hoped to win. But the twenty

    pounds' worth of seed-corn had been planted in vain in the seductive

    green plot—all of it at least which had not been dispersed by the

    roadside—and Fred found himself close upon the term of payment with no

    money at command beyond the eighty pounds which he had deposited with

    his mother. The broken-winded horse which he rode represented a

    present which had been made to him a long while ago by his uncle

    Featherstone: his father always allowed him to keep a horse, Mr.

    Vincy's own habits making him regard this as a reasonable demand even

    for a son who was rather exasperating. This horse, then, was Fred's

    property, and in his anxiety to meet the imminent bill he determined to

    sacrifice a possession without which life would certainly be worth

    little. He made the resolution with a sense of heroism—heroism forced

    on him by the dread of breaking his word to Mr. Garth, by his love for

    Mary and awe of her opinion. He would start for Houndsley horse-fair

    which was to be held the next morning, and—simply sell his horse,

    bringing back the money by coach?—Well, the horse would hardly fetch

    more than thirty pounds, and there was no knowing what might happen; it

    would be folly to balk himself of luck beforehand. It was a hundred to

    one that some good chance would fall in his way; the longer he thought

    of it, the less possible it seemed that he should not have a good

    chance, and the less reasonable that he should not equip himself with

    the powder and shot for bringing it down. He would ride to Houndsley

    with Bambridge and with Horrock "the vet," and without asking them

    anything expressly, he should virtually get the benefit of their

    opinion. Before he set out, Fred got the eighty pounds from his mother.

    Most of those who saw Fred riding out of Middlemarch in company with

    Bambridge and Horrock, on his way of course to Houndsley horse-fair,

    thought that young Vincy was pleasure-seeking as usual; and but for an

    unwonted consciousness of grave matters on hand, he himself would have

    had a sense of dissipation, and of doing what might be expected of a

    gay young fellow. Considering that Fred was not at all coarse, that he

    rather looked down on the manners and speech of young men who had not

    been to the university, and that he had written stanzas as pastoral and

    unvoluptuous as his flute-playing, his attraction towards Bambridge and

    Horrock was an interesting fact which even the love of horse-flesh

    would not wholly account for without that mysterious influence of

    Naming which determinates so much of mortal choice. Under any other

    name than "pleasure" the society of Messieurs Bambridge and Horrock

    must certainly have been regarded as monotonous; and to arrive with

    them at Houndsley on a drizzling afternoon, to get down at the Red Lion

    in a street shaded with coal-dust, and dine in a room furnished with a

    dirt-enamelled map of the county, a bad portrait of an anonymous horse

    in a stable, His Majesty George the Fourth with legs and cravat, and

    various leaden spittoons, might have seemed a hard business, but for

    the sustaining power of nomenclature which determined that the pursuit

    of these things was "gay."

    In Mr. Horrock there was certainly an apparent unfathomableness which

    offered play to the imagination. Costume, at a glance, gave him a

    thrilling association with horses (enough to specify the hat-brim which

    took the slightest upward angle just to escape the suspicion of bending

    downwards), and nature had given him a face which by dint of Mongolian

    eyes, and a nose, mouth, and chin seeming to follow his hat-brim in a

    moderate inclination upwards, gave the effect of a subdued unchangeable

    sceptical smile, of all expressions the most tyrannous over a

    susceptible mind, and, when accompanied by adequate silence, likely to

    create the reputation of an invincible understanding, an infinite fund

    of humor—too dry to flow, and probably in a state of immovable

    crust,—and a critical judgment which, if you could ever be fortunate

    enough to know it, would be the thing and no other. It is a

    physiognomy seen in all vocations, but perhaps it has never been more

    powerful over the youth of England than in a judge of horses.

    Mr. Horrock, at a question from Fred about his horse's fetlock, turned

    sideways in his saddle, and watched the horse's action for the space of

    three minutes, then turned forward, twitched his own bridle, and

    remained silent with a profile neither more nor less sceptical than it

    had been.

    The part thus played in dialogue by Mr. Horrock was terribly effective.

    A mixture of passions was excited in Fred—a mad desire to thrash

    Horrock's opinion into utterance, restrained by anxiety to retain the

    advantage of his friendship. There was always the chance that Horrock

    might say something quite invaluable at the right moment.

    Mr. Bambridge had more open manners, and appeared to give forth his

    ideas without economy. He was loud, robust, and was sometimes spoken

    of as being "given to indulgence"—chiefly in swearing, drinking, and

    beating his wife. Some people who had lost by him called him a vicious

    man; but he regarded horse-dealing as the finest of the arts, and might

    have argued plausibly that it had nothing to do with morality. He was

    undeniably a prosperous man, bore his drinking better than others bore

    their moderation, and, on the whole, flourished like the green

    bay-tree. But his range of conversation was limited, and like the fine

    old tune, "Drops of brandy," gave you after a while a sense of

    returning upon itself in a way that might make weak heads dizzy. But a

    slight infusion of Mr. Bambridge was felt to give tone and character to

    several circles in Middlemarch; and he was a distinguished figure in

    the bar and billiard-room at the Green Dragon. He knew some anecdotes

    about the heroes of the turf, and various clever tricks of Marquesses

    and Viscounts which seemed to prove that blood asserted its

    pre-eminence even among black-legs; but the minute retentiveness of his

    memory was chiefly shown about the horses he had himself bought and

    sold; the number of miles they would trot you in no time without

    turning a hair being, after the lapse of years, still a subject of

    passionate asseveration, in which he would assist the imagination of

    his hearers by solemnly swearing that they never saw anything like it.

    In short, Mr. Bambridge was a man of pleasure and a gay companion.

    Fred was subtle, and did not tell his friends that he was going to

    Houndsley bent on selling his horse: he wished to get indirectly at

    their genuine opinion of its value, not being aware that a genuine

    opinion was the last thing likely to be extracted from such eminent

    critics. It was not Mr. Bambridge's weakness to be a gratuitous

    flatterer. He had never before been so much struck with the fact that

    this unfortunate bay was a roarer to a degree which required the

    roundest word for perdition to give you any idea of it.

    "You made a bad hand at swapping when you went to anybody but me,

    Vincy! Why, you never threw your leg across a finer horse than that

    chestnut, and you gave him for this brute. If you set him cantering,

    he goes on like twenty sawyers. I never heard but one worse roarer in

    my life, and that was a roan: it belonged to Pegwell, the corn-factor;

    he used to drive him in his gig seven years ago, and he wanted me to

    take him, but I said, 'Thank you, Peg, I don't deal in

    wind-instruments.' That was what I said. It went the round of the

    country, that joke did. But, what the hell! the horse was a penny

    trumpet to that roarer of yours."

    "Why, you said just now his was worse than mine," said Fred, more

    irritable than usual.

    "I said a lie, then," said Mr. Bambridge, emphatically. "There wasn't

    a penny to choose between 'em."

    Fred spurred his horse, and they trotted on a little way. When they

    slackened again, Mr. Bambridge said—

    "Not but what the roan was a better trotter than yours."

    "I'm quite satisfied with his paces, I know," said Fred, who required

    all the consciousness of being in gay company to support him; "I say

    his trot is an uncommonly clean one, eh, Horrock?"

    Mr. Horrock looked before him with as complete a neutrality as if he

    had been a portrait by a great master.

    Fred gave up the fallacious hope of getting a genuine opinion; but on

    reflection he saw that Bambridge's depreciation and Horrock's silence

    were both virtually encouraging, and indicated that they thought better

    of the horse than they chose to say.

    That very evening, indeed, before the fair had set in, Fred thought he

    saw a favorable opening for disposing advantageously of his horse, but

    an opening which made him congratulate himself on his foresight in

    bringing with him his eighty pounds. A young farmer, acquainted with

    Mr. Bambridge, came into the Red Lion, and entered into conversation

    about parting with a hunter, which he introduced at once as Diamond,

    implying that it was a public character. For himself he only wanted a

    useful hack, which would draw upon occasion; being about to marry and

    to give up hunting. The hunter was in a friend's stable at some little

    distance; there was still time for gentlemen to see it before dark.

    The friend's stable had to be reached through a back street where you

    might as easily have been poisoned without expense of drugs as in any

    grim street of that unsanitary period. Fred was not fortified against

    disgust by brandy, as his companions were, but the hope of having at

    last seen the horse that would enable him to make money was

    exhilarating enough to lead him over the same ground again the first

    thing in the morning. He felt sure that if he did not come to a

    bargain with the farmer, Bambridge would; for the stress of

    circumstances, Fred felt, was sharpening his acuteness and endowing him

    with all the constructive power of suspicion. Bambridge had run down

    Diamond in a way that he never would have done (the horse being a

    friend's) if he had not thought of buying it; every one who looked at

    the animal—even Horrock—was evidently impressed with its merit. To

    get all the advantage of being with men of this sort, you must know how

    to draw your inferences, and not be a spoon who takes things literally.

    The color of the horse was a dappled gray, and Fred happened to know

    that Lord Medlicote's man was on the look-out for just such a horse.

    After all his running down, Bambridge let it out in the course of the

    evening, when the farmer was absent, that he had seen worse horses go

    for eighty pounds. Of course he contradicted himself twenty times

    over, but when you know what is likely to be true you can test a man's

    admissions. And Fred could not but reckon his own judgment of a horse

    as worth something. The farmer had paused over Fred's respectable

    though broken-winded steed long enough to show that he thought it worth

    consideration, and it seemed probable that he would take it, with

    five-and-twenty pounds in addition, as the equivalent of Diamond. In

    that case Fred, when he had parted with his new horse for at least

    eighty pounds, would be fifty-five pounds in pocket by the transaction,

    and would have a hundred and thirty-five pounds towards meeting the

    bill; so that the deficit temporarily thrown on Mr. Garth would at the

    utmost be twenty-five pounds. By the time he was hurrying on his

    clothes in the morning, he saw so clearly the importance of not losing

    this rare chance, that if Bambridge and Horrock had both dissuaded him,

    he would not have been deluded into a direct interpretation of their

    purpose: he would have been aware that those deep hands held something

    else than a young fellow's interest. With regard to horses, distrust

    was your only clew. But scepticism, as we know, can never be

    thoroughly applied, else life would come to a standstill: something we

    must believe in and do, and whatever that something may be called, it

    is virtually our own judgment, even when it seems like the most slavish

    reliance on another. Fred believed in the excellence of his bargain,

    and even before the fair had well set in, had got possession of the

    dappled gray, at the price of his old horse and thirty pounds in

    addition—only five pounds more than he had expected to give.

    But he felt a little worried and wearied, perhaps with mental debate,

    and without waiting for the further gayeties of the horse-fair, he set

    out alone on his fourteen miles' journey, meaning to take it very

    quietly and keep his horse fresh.


    CHAPTER XXIV.


    "The offender's sorrow brings but small relief
    To him who wears the strong offence's cross."
    —SHAKESPEARE: Sonnets.

    I am sorry to say that only the third day after the propitious events

    at Houndsley Fred Vincy had fallen into worse spirits than he had known

    in his life before. Not that he had been disappointed as to the

    possible market for his horse, but that before the bargain could be

    concluded with Lord Medlicote's man, this Diamond, in which hope to the

    amount of eighty pounds had been invested, had without the slightest

    warning exhibited in the stable a most vicious energy in kicking, had

    just missed killing the groom, and had ended in laming himself severely

    by catching his leg in a rope that overhung the stable-board. There was

    no more redress for this than for the discovery of bad temper after

    marriage—which of course old companions were aware of before the

    ceremony. For some reason or other, Fred had none of his usual

    elasticity under this stroke of ill-fortune: he was simply aware that

    he had only fifty pounds, that there was no chance of his getting any

    more at present, and that the bill for a hundred and sixty would be

    presented in five days. Even if he had applied to his father on the

    plea that Mr. Garth should be saved from loss, Fred felt smartingly

    that his father would angrily refuse to rescue Mr. Garth from the

    consequence of what he would call encouraging extravagance and deceit.

    He was so utterly downcast that he could frame no other project than to

    go straight to Mr. Garth and tell him the sad truth, carrying with him

    the fifty pounds, and getting that sum at least safely out of his own

    hands. His father, being at the warehouse, did not yet know of the

    accident: when he did, he would storm about the vicious brute being

    brought into his stable; and before meeting that lesser annoyance Fred

    wanted to get away with all his courage to face the greater. He took

    his father's nag, for he had made up his mind that when he had told Mr.

    Garth, he would ride to Stone Court and confess all to Mary. In fact,

    it is probable that but for Mary's existence and Fred's love for her,

    his conscience would have been much less active both in previously

    urging the debt on his thought and impelling him not to spare himself

    after his usual fashion by deferring an unpleasant task, but to act as

    directly and simply as he could. Even much stronger mortals than Fred

    Vincy hold half their rectitude in the mind of the being they love

    best. "The theatre of all my actions is fallen," said an antique

    personage when his chief friend was dead; and they are fortunate who

    get a theatre where the audience demands their best. Certainly it

    would have made a considerable difference to Fred at that time if Mary

    Garth had had no decided notions as to what was admirable in character.

    Mr. Garth was not at the office, and Fred rode on to his house, which

    was a little way outside the town—a homely place with an orchard in

    front of it, a rambling, old-fashioned, half-timbered building, which

    before the town had spread had been a farm-house, but was now

    surrounded with the private gardens of the townsmen. We get the fonder

    of our houses if they have a physiognomy of their own, as our friends

    have. The Garth family, which was rather a large one, for Mary had

    four brothers and one sister, were very fond of their old house, from

    which all the best furniture had long been sold. Fred liked it too,

    knowing it by heart even to the attic which smelt deliciously of apples

    and quinces, and until to-day he had never come to it without pleasant

    expectations; but his heart beat uneasily now with the sense that he

    should probably have to make his confession before Mrs. Garth, of whom

    he was rather more in awe than of her husband. Not that she was

    inclined to sarcasm and to impulsive sallies, as Mary was. In her

    present matronly age at least, Mrs. Garth never committed herself by

    over-hasty speech; having, as she said, borne the yoke in her youth,

    and learned self-control. She had that rare sense which discerns what

    is unalterable, and submits to it without murmuring. Adoring her

    husband's virtues, she had very early made up her mind to his

    incapacity of minding his own interests, and had met the consequences

    cheerfully. She had been magnanimous enough to renounce all pride in

    teapots or children's frilling, and had never poured any pathetic

    confidences into the ears of her feminine neighbors concerning Mr.

    Garth's want of prudence and the sums he might have had if he had been

    like other men. Hence these fair neighbors thought her either proud or

    eccentric, and sometimes spoke of her to their husbands as "your fine

    Mrs. Garth." She was not without her criticism of them in return, being

    more accurately instructed than most matrons in Middlemarch, and—where

    is the blameless woman?—apt to be a little severe towards her own sex,

    which in her opinion was framed to be entirely subordinate. On the

    other hand, she was disproportionately indulgent towards the failings

    of men, and was often heard to say that these were natural. Also, it

    must be admitted that Mrs. Garth was a trifle too emphatic in her

    resistance to what she held to be follies: the passage from governess

    into housewife had wrought itself a little too strongly into her

    consciousness, and she rarely forgot that while her grammar and accent

    were above the town standard, she wore a plain cap, cooked the family

    dinner, and darned all the stockings. She had sometimes taken pupils

    in a peripatetic fashion, making them follow her about in the kitchen

    with their book or slate. She thought it good for them to see that she

    could make an excellent lather while she corrected their blunders

    "without looking,"—that a woman with her sleeves tucked up above her

    elbows might know all about the Subjunctive Mood or the Torrid

    Zone—that, in short, she might possess "education" and other good

    things ending in "tion," and worthy to be pronounced emphatically,

    without being a useless doll. When she made remarks to this edifying

    effect, she had a firm little frown on her brow, which yet did not

    hinder her face from looking benevolent, and her words which came forth

    like a procession were uttered in a fervid agreeable contralto.

    Certainly, the exemplary Mrs. Garth had her droll aspects, but her

    character sustained her oddities, as a very fine wine sustains a flavor

    of skin.

    Towards Fred Vincy she had a motherly feeling, and had always been

    disposed to excuse his errors, though she would probably not have

    excused Mary for engaging herself to him, her daughter being included

    in that more rigorous judgment which she applied to her own sex. But

    this very fact of her exceptional indulgence towards him made it the

    harder to Fred that he must now inevitably sink in her opinion. And

    the circumstances of his visit turned out to be still more unpleasant

    than he had expected; for Caleb Garth had gone out early to look at

    some repairs not far off. Mrs. Garth at certain hours was always in

    the kitchen, and this morning she was carrying on several occupations

    at once there—making her pies at the well-scoured deal table on one

    side of that airy room, observing Sally's movements at the oven and

    dough-tub through an open door, and giving lessons to her youngest boy

    and girl, who were standing opposite to her at the table with their

    books and slates before them. A tub and a clothes-horse at the other

    end of the kitchen indicated an intermittent wash of small things also

    going on.

    Mrs. Garth, with her sleeves turned above her elbows, deftly handling

    her pastry—applying her rolling-pin and giving ornamental pinches,

    while she expounded with grammatical fervor what were the right views

    about the concord of verbs and pronouns with "nouns of multitude or

    signifying many," was a sight agreeably amusing. She was of the same

    curly-haired, square-faced type as Mary, but handsomer, with more

    delicacy of feature, a pale skin, a solid matronly figure, and a

    remarkable firmness of glance. In her snowy-frilled cap she reminded

    one of that delightful Frenchwoman whom we have all seen marketing,

    basket on arm. Looking at the mother, you might hope that the daughter

    would become like her, which is a prospective advantage equal to a

    dowry—the mother too often standing behind the daughter like a

    malignant prophecy—"Such as I am, she will shortly be."

    "Now let us go through that once more," said Mrs. Garth, pinching an

    apple-puff which seemed to distract Ben, an energetic young male with a

    heavy brow, from due attention to the lesson. "'Not without regard to

    the import of the word as conveying unity or plurality of idea'—tell

    me again what that means, Ben."

    (Mrs. Garth, like more celebrated educators, had her favorite ancient

    paths, and in a general wreck of society would have tried to hold her

    "Lindley Murray" above the waves.)

    "Oh—it means—you must think what you mean," said Ben, rather

    peevishly. "I hate grammar. What's the use of it?"

    "To teach you to speak and write correctly, so that you can be

    understood," said Mrs. Garth, with severe precision. "Should you like

    to speak as old Job does?"

    "Yes," said Ben, stoutly; "it's funnier. He says, 'Yo goo'—that's

    just as good as 'You go.'"

    "But he says, 'A ship's in the garden,' instead of 'a sheep,'" said

    Letty, with an air of superiority. "You might think he meant a ship

    off the sea."

    "No, you mightn't, if you weren't silly," said Ben. "How could a ship

    off the sea come there?"

    "These things belong only to pronunciation, which is the least part of

    grammar," said Mrs. Garth. "That apple-peel is to be eaten by the

    pigs, Ben; if you eat it, I must give them your piece of pasty. Job

    has only to speak about very plain things. How do you think you would

    write or speak about anything more difficult, if you knew no more of

    grammar than he does? You would use wrong words, and put words in the

    wrong places, and instead of making people understand you, they would

    turn away from you as a tiresome person. What would you do then?"

    "I shouldn't care, I should leave off," said Ben, with a sense that

    this was an agreeable issue where grammar was concerned.

    "I see you are getting tired and stupid, Ben," said Mrs. Garth,

    accustomed to these obstructive arguments from her male offspring.

    Having finished her pies, she moved towards the clothes-horse, and

    said, "Come here and tell me the story I told you on Wednesday, about

    Cincinnatus."

    "I know! he was a farmer," said Ben.

    "Now, Ben, he was a Roman—let me tell," said Letty, using her elbow

    contentiously.

    "You silly thing, he was a Roman farmer, and he was ploughing."

    "Yes, but before that—that didn't come first—people wanted him," said

    Letty.

    "Well, but you must say what sort of a man he was first," insisted Ben.

    "He was a wise man, like my father, and that made the people want his

    advice. And he was a brave man, and could fight. And so could my

    father—couldn't he, mother?"

    "Now, Ben, let me tell the story straight on, as mother told it us,"

    said Letty, frowning. "Please, mother, tell Ben not to speak."

    "Letty, I am ashamed of you," said her mother, wringing out the caps

    from the tub. "When your brother began, you ought to have waited to

    see if he could not tell the story. How rude you look, pushing and

    frowning, as if you wanted to conquer with your elbows! Cincinnatus, I

    am sure, would have been sorry to see his daughter behave so." (Mrs.

    Garth delivered this awful sentence with much majesty of enunciation,

    and Letty felt that between repressed volubility and general disesteem,

    that of the Romans inclusive, life was already a painful affair.) "Now,

    Ben."

    "Well—oh—well—why, there was a great deal of fighting, and they were

    all blockheads, and—I can't tell it just how you told it—but they

    wanted a man to be captain and king and everything—"

    "Dictator, now," said Letty, with injured looks, and not without a wish

    to make her mother repent.

    "Very well, dictator!" said Ben, contemptuously. "But that isn't a

    good word: he didn't tell them to write on slates."

    "Come, come, Ben, you are not so ignorant as that," said Mrs. Garth,

    carefully serious. "Hark, there is a knock at the door! Run, Letty,

    and open it."

    The knock was Fred's; and when Letty said that her father was not in

    yet, but that her mother was in the kitchen, Fred had no alternative.

    He could not depart from his usual practice of going to see Mrs. Garth

    in the kitchen if she happened to be at work there. He put his arm

    round Letty's neck silently, and led her into the kitchen without his

    usual jokes and caresses.

    Mrs. Garth was surprised to see Fred at this hour, but surprise was not

    a feeling that she was given to express, and she only said, quietly

    continuing her work—

    "You, Fred, so early in the day? You look quite pale. Has anything

    happened?"

    "I want to speak to Mr. Garth," said Fred, not yet ready to say

    more—"and to you also," he added, after a little pause, for he had no

    doubt that Mrs. Garth knew everything about the bill, and he must in the

    end speak of it before her, if not to her solely.

    "Caleb will be in again in a few minutes," said Mrs. Garth, who

    imagined some trouble between Fred and his father. "He is sure not to

    be long, because he has some work at his desk that must be done this

    morning. Do you mind staying with me, while I finish my matters here?"

    "But we needn't go on about Cincinnatus, need we?" said Ben, who had

    taken Fred's whip out of his hand, and was trying its efficiency on the

    cat.

    "No, go out now. But put that whip down. How very mean of you to whip

    poor old Tortoise! Pray take the whip from him, Fred."

    "Come, old boy, give it me," said Fred, putting out his hand.

    "Will you let me ride on your horse to-day?" said Ben, rendering up the

    whip, with an air of not being obliged to do it.

    "Not to-day—another time. I am not riding my own horse."

    "Shall you see Mary to-day?"

    "Yes, I think so," said Fred, with an unpleasant twinge.

    "Tell her to come home soon, and play at forfeits, and make fun."

    "Enough, enough, Ben! run away," said Mrs. Garth, seeing that Fred was

    teased. . .

    "Are Letty and Ben your only pupils now, Mrs. Garth?" said Fred, when

    the children were gone and it was needful to say something that would

    pass the time. He was not yet sure whether he should wait for Mr.

    Garth, or use any good opportunity in conversation to confess to Mrs.

    Garth herself, give her the money and ride away.

    "One—only one. Fanny Hackbutt comes at half past eleven. I am not

    getting a great income now," said Mrs. Garth, smiling. "I am at a low

    ebb with pupils. But I have saved my little purse for Alfred's

    premium: I have ninety-two pounds. He can go to Mr. Hanmer's now; he

    is just at the right age."

    This did not lead well towards the news that Mr. Garth was on the brink

    of losing ninety-two pounds and more. Fred was silent. "Young

    gentlemen who go to college are rather more costly than that," Mrs.

    Garth innocently continued, pulling out the edging on a cap-border.

    "And Caleb thinks that Alfred will turn out a distinguished engineer:

    he wants to give the boy a good chance. There he is! I hear him

    coming in. We will go to him in the parlor, shall we?"

    When they entered the parlor Caleb had thrown down his hat and was

    seated at his desk.

    "What! Fred, my boy!" he said, in a tone of mild surprise, holding his

    pen still undipped; "you are here betimes." But missing the usual

    expression of cheerful greeting in Fred's face, he immediately added,

    "Is there anything up at home?—anything the matter?"

    "Yes, Mr. Garth, I am come to tell something that I am afraid will give

    you a bad opinion of me. I am come to tell you and Mrs. Garth that I

    can't keep my word. I can't find the money to meet the bill after all.

    I have been unfortunate; I have only got these fifty pounds towards the

    hundred and sixty."

    While Fred was speaking, he had taken out the notes and laid them on

    the desk before Mr. Garth. He had burst forth at once with the plain

    fact, feeling boyishly miserable and without verbal resources. Mrs.

    Garth was mutely astonished, and looked at her husband for an

    explanation. Caleb blushed, and after a little pause said—

    "Oh, I didn't tell you, Susan: I put my name to a bill for Fred; it was

    for a hundred and sixty pounds. He made sure he could meet it himself."

    There was an evident change in Mrs. Garth's face, but it was like a

    change below the surface of water which remains smooth. She fixed her

    eyes on Fred, saying—

    "I suppose you have asked your father for the rest of the money and he

    has refused you."

    "No," said Fred, biting his lip, and speaking with more difficulty;

    "but I know it will be of no use to ask him; and unless it were of use,

    I should not like to mention Mr. Garth's name in the matter."

    "It has come at an unfortunate time," said Caleb, in his hesitating

    way, looking down at the notes and nervously fingering the paper,

    "Christmas upon us—I'm rather hard up just now. You see, I have to

    cut out everything like a tailor with short measure. What can we do,

    Susan? I shall want every farthing we have in the bank. It's a

    hundred and ten pounds, the deuce take it!"

    "I must give you the ninety-two pounds that I have put by for Alfred's

    premium," said Mrs. Garth, gravely and decisively, though a nice ear

    might have discerned a slight tremor in some of the words. "And I have

    no doubt that Mary has twenty pounds saved from her salary by this

    time. She will advance it."

    Mrs. Garth had not again looked at Fred, and was not in the least

    calculating what words she should use to cut him the most effectively.

    Like the eccentric woman she was, she was at present absorbed in

    considering what was to be done, and did not fancy that the end could

    be better achieved by bitter remarks or explosions. But she had made

    Fred feel for the first time something like the tooth of remorse.

    Curiously enough, his pain in the affair beforehand had consisted

    almost entirely in the sense that he must seem dishonorable, and sink

    in the opinion of the Garths: he had not occupied himself with the

    inconvenience and possible injury that his breach might occasion them,

    for this exercise of the imagination on other people's needs is not

    common with hopeful young gentlemen. Indeed we are most of us brought

    up in the notion that the highest motive for not doing a wrong is

    something irrespective of the beings who would suffer the wrong. But

    at this moment he suddenly saw himself as a pitiful rascal who was

    robbing two women of their savings.

    "I shall certainly pay it all, Mrs. Garth—ultimately," he stammered

    out.

    "Yes, ultimately," said Mrs. Garth, who having a special dislike to

    fine words on ugly occasions, could not now repress an epigram. "But

    boys cannot well be apprenticed ultimately: they should be apprenticed

    at fifteen." She had never been so little inclined to make excuses for

    Fred.

    "I was the most in the wrong, Susan," said Caleb. "Fred made sure of

    finding the money. But I'd no business to be fingering bills. I

    suppose you have looked all round and tried all honest means?" he

    added, fixing his merciful gray eyes on Fred. Caleb was too delicate,

    to specify Mr. Featherstone.

    "Yes, I have tried everything—I really have. I should have had a

    hundred and thirty pounds ready but for a misfortune with a horse which

    I was about to sell. My uncle had given me eighty pounds, and I paid

    away thirty with my old horse in order to get another which I was going

    to sell for eighty or more—I meant to go without a horse—but now it

    has turned out vicious and lamed itself. I wish I and the horses too

    had been at the devil, before I had brought this on you. There's no

    one else I care so much for: you and Mrs. Garth have always been so

    kind to me. However, it's no use saying that. You will always think

    me a rascal now."

    Fred turned round and hurried out of the room, conscious that he was

    getting rather womanish, and feeling confusedly that his being sorry

    was not of much use to the Garths. They could see him mount, and

    quickly pass through the gate.

    "I am disappointed in Fred Vincy," said Mrs. Garth. "I would not have

    believed beforehand that he would have drawn you into his debts. I

    knew he was extravagant, but I did not think that he would be so mean

    as to hang his risks on his oldest friend, who could the least afford

    to lose."

    "I was a fool, Susan:"

    "That you were," said the wife, nodding and smiling. "But I should not

    have gone to publish it in the market-place. Why should you keep such

    things from me? It is just so with your buttons: you let them burst

    off without telling me, and go out with your wristband hanging. If I

    had only known I might have been ready with some better plan."

    "You are sadly cut up, I know, Susan," said Caleb, looking feelingly at

    her. "I can't abide your losing the money you've scraped together for

    Alfred."

    "It is very well that I had scraped it together; and it is you who

    will have to suffer, for you must teach the boy yourself. You must

    give up your bad habits. Some men take to drinking, and you have taken

    to working without pay. You must indulge yourself a little less in

    that. And you must ride over to Mary, and ask the child what money she

    has."

    Caleb had pushed his chair back, and was leaning forward, shaking his

    head slowly, and fitting his finger-tips together with much nicety.

    "Poor Mary!" he said. "Susan," he went on in a lowered tone, "I'm

    afraid she may be fond of Fred."

    "Oh no! She always laughs at him; and he is not likely to think of her

    in any other than a brotherly way."

    Caleb made no rejoinder, but presently lowered his spectacles, drew up

    his chair to the desk, and said, "Deuce take the bill—I wish it was

    at Hanover! These things are a sad interruption to business!"

    The first part of this speech comprised his whole store of maledictory

    expression, and was uttered with a slight snarl easy to imagine. But

    it would be difficult to convey to those who never heard him utter the

    word "business," the peculiar tone of fervid veneration, of religious

    regard, in which he wrapped it, as a consecrated symbol is wrapped in

    its gold-fringed linen.

    Caleb Garth often shook his head in meditation on the value, the

    indispensable might of that myriad-headed, myriad-handed labor by which

    the social body is fed, clothed, and housed. It had laid hold of his

    imagination in boyhood. The echoes of the great hammer where roof or

    keel were a-making, the signal-shouts of the workmen, the roar of the

    furnace, the thunder and plash of the engine, were a sublime music to

    him; the felling and lading of timber, and the huge trunk vibrating

    star-like in the distance along the highway, the crane at work on the

    wharf, the piled-up produce in warehouses, the precision and variety of

    muscular effort wherever exact work had to be turned out,—all these

    sights of his youth had acted on him as poetry without the aid of the

    poets, had made a philosophy for him without the aid of philosophers,

    a religion without the aid of theology. His early ambition had been to

    have as effective a share as possible in this sublime labor, which was

    peculiarly dignified by him with the name of "business;" and though he

    had only been a short time under a surveyor, and had been chiefly his

    own teacher, he knew more of land, building, and mining than most of

    the special men in the county.

    His classification of human employments was rather crude, and, like the

    categories of more celebrated men, would not be acceptable in these

    advanced times. He divided them into "business, politics, preaching,

    learning, and amusement." He had nothing to say against the last four;

    but he regarded them as a reverential pagan regarded other gods than

    his own. In the same way, he thought very well of all ranks, but he

    would not himself have liked to be of any rank in which he had not such

    close contact with "business" as to get often honorably decorated with

    marks of dust and mortar, the damp of the engine, or the sweet soil of

    the woods and fields. Though he had never regarded himself as other

    than an orthodox Christian, and would argue on prevenient grace if the

    subject were proposed to him, I think his virtual divinities were good

    practical schemes, accurate work, and the faithful completion of

    undertakings: his prince of darkness was a slack workman. But there

    was no spirit of denial in Caleb, and the world seemed so wondrous to

    him that he was ready to accept any number of systems, like any number

    of firmaments, if they did not obviously interfere with the best

    land-drainage, solid building, correct measuring, and judicious boring

    (for coal). In fact, he had a reverential soul with a strong practical

    intelligence. But he could not manage finance: he knew values well,

    but he had no keenness of imagination for monetary results in the shape

    of profit and loss: and having ascertained this to his cost, he

    determined to give up all forms of his beloved "business" which

    required that talent. He gave himself up entirely to the many kinds of

    work which he could do without handling capital, and was one of those

    precious men within his own district whom everybody would choose to

    work for them, because he did his work well, charged very little, and

    often declined to charge at all. It is no wonder, then, that the

    Garths were poor, and "lived in a small way." However, they did not

    mind it.


    CHAPTER XXV.


    "Love seeketh not itself to please,
    Nor for itself hath any care
    But for another gives its ease
    And builds a heaven in hell's despair.
    . . . . . . .
    Love seeketh only self to please,
    To bind another to its delight,
    Joys in another's loss of ease,
    And builds a hell in heaven's despite."
    —W. BLAKE: Songs of Experience

    Fred Vincy wanted to arrive at Stone Court when Mary could not expect

    him, and when his uncle was not down-stairs in that case she might be

    sitting alone in the wainscoted parlor. He left his horse in the yard

    to avoid making a noise on the gravel in front, and entered the parlor

    without other notice than the noise of the door-handle. Mary was in her

    usual corner, laughing over Mrs. Piozzi's recollections of Johnson, and

    looked up with the fun still in her face. It gradually faded as she

    saw Fred approach her without speaking, and stand before her with his

    elbow on the mantel-piece, looking ill. She too was silent, only

    raising her eyes to him inquiringly.

    "Mary," he began, "I am a good-for-nothing blackguard."

    "I should think one of those epithets would do at a time," said Mary,

    trying to smile, but feeling alarmed.

    "I know you will never think well of me any more. You will think me a

    liar. You will think me dishonest. You will think I didn't care for

    you, or your father and mother. You always do make the worst of me, I

    know."

    "I cannot deny that I shall think all that of you, Fred, if you give me

    good reasons. But please to tell me at once what you have done. I

    would rather know the painful truth than imagine it."

    "I owed money—a hundred and sixty pounds. I asked your father to put

    his name to a bill. I thought it would not signify to him. I made

    sure of paying the money myself, and I have tried as hard as I could.

    And now, I have been so unlucky—a horse has turned out badly—I can

    only pay fifty pounds. And I can't ask my father for the money: he

    would not give me a farthing. And my uncle gave me a hundred a little

    while ago. So what can I do? And now your father has no ready money

    to spare, and your mother will have to pay away her ninety-two pounds

    that she has saved, and she says your savings must go too. You see

    what a—"

    "Oh, poor mother, poor father!" said Mary, her eyes filling with tears,

    and a little sob rising which she tried to repress. She looked

    straight before her and took no notice of Fred, all the consequences at

    home becoming present to her. He too remained silent for some moments,

    feeling more miserable than ever. "I wouldn't have hurt you for the

    world, Mary," he said at last. "You can never forgive me."

    "What does it matter whether I forgive you?" said Mary, passionately.

    "Would that make it any better for my mother to lose the money she has

    been earning by lessons for four years, that she might send Alfred to

    Mr. Hanmer's? Should you think all that pleasant enough if I forgave

    you?"

    "Say what you like, Mary. I deserve it all."

    "I don't want to say anything," said Mary, more quietly, "and my anger

    is of no use." She dried her eyes, threw aside her book, rose and

    fetched her sewing.

    Fred followed her with his eyes, hoping that they would meet hers, and

    in that way find access for his imploring penitence. But no! Mary

    could easily avoid looking upward.

    "I do care about your mother's money going," he said, when she was

    seated again and sewing quickly. "I wanted to ask you, Mary—don't

    you think that Mr. Featherstone—if you were to tell him—tell him, I

    mean, about apprenticing Alfred—would advance the money?"

    "My family is not fond of begging, Fred. We would rather work for our

    money. Besides, you say that Mr. Featherstone has lately given you a

    hundred pounds. He rarely makes presents; he has never made presents

    to us. I am sure my father will not ask him for anything; and even if

    I chose to beg of him, it would be of no use."

    "I am so miserable, Mary—if you knew how miserable I am, you would be

    sorry for me."

    "There are other things to be more sorry for than that. But selfish

    people always think their own discomfort of more importance than

    anything else in the world. I see enough of that every day."

    "It is hardly fair to call me selfish. If you knew what things other

    young men do, you would think me a good way off the worst."

    "I know that people who spend a great deal of money on themselves

    without knowing how they shall pay, must be selfish. They are always

    thinking of what they can get for themselves, and not of what other

    people may lose."

    "Any man may be unfortunate, Mary, and find himself unable to pay when

    he meant it. There is not a better man in the world than your father,

    and yet he got into trouble."

    "How dare you make any comparison between my father and you, Fred?"

    said Mary, in a deep tone of indignation. "He never got into trouble

    by thinking of his own idle pleasures, but because he was always

    thinking of the work he was doing for other people. And he has fared

    hard, and worked hard to make good everybody's loss."

    "And you think that I shall never try to make good anything, Mary. It

    is not generous to believe the worst of a man. When you have got any

    power over him, I think you might try and use it to make him better;

    but that is what you never do. However, I'm going," Fred ended,

    languidly. "I shall never speak to you about anything again. I'm very

    sorry for all the trouble I've caused—that's all."

    Mary had dropped her work out of her hand and looked up. There is

    often something maternal even in a girlish love, and Mary's hard

    experience had wrought her nature to an impressibility very different

    from that hard slight thing which we call girlishness. At Fred's last

    words she felt an instantaneous pang, something like what a mother

    feels at the imagined sobs or cries of her naughty truant child, which

    may lose itself and get harm. And when, looking up, her eyes met his

    dull despairing glance, her pity for him surmounted her anger and all

    her other anxieties.

    "Oh, Fred, how ill you look! Sit down a moment. Don't go yet. Let me

    tell uncle that you are here. He has been wondering that he has not

    seen you for a whole week." Mary spoke hurriedly, saying the words

    that came first without knowing very well what they were, but saying

    them in a half-soothing half-beseeching tone, and rising as if to go

    away to Mr. Featherstone. Of course Fred felt as if the clouds had

    parted and a gleam had come: he moved and stood in her way.

    "Say one word, Mary, and I will do anything. Say you will not think

    the worst of me—will not give me up altogether."

    "As if it were any pleasure to me to think ill of you," said Mary, in a

    mournful tone. "As if it were not very painful to me to see you an

    idle frivolous creature. How can you bear to be so contemptible, when

    others are working and striving, and there are so many things to be

    done—how can you bear to be fit for nothing in the world that is

    useful? And with so much good in your disposition, Fred,—you might

    be worth a great deal."

    "I will try to be anything you like, Mary, if you will say that you

    love me."

    "I should be ashamed to say that I loved a man who must always be

    hanging on others, and reckoning on what they would do for him. What

    will you be when you are forty? Like Mr. Bowyer, I suppose—just as

    idle, living in Mrs. Beck's front parlor—fat and shabby, hoping

    somebody will invite you to dinner—spending your morning in learning a

    comic song—oh no! learning a tune on the flute."

    Mary's lips had begun to curl with a smile as soon as she had asked

    that question about Fred's future (young souls are mobile), and before

    she ended, her face had its full illumination of fun. To him it was

    like the cessation of an ache that Mary could laugh at him, and with a

    passive sort of smile he tried to reach her hand; but she slipped away

    quickly towards the door and said, "I shall tell uncle. You must see

    him for a moment or two."

    Fred secretly felt that his future was guaranteed against the

    fulfilment of Mary's sarcastic prophecies, apart from that "anything"

    which he was ready to do if she would define it. He never dared in

    Mary's presence to approach the subject of his expectations from Mr.

    Featherstone, and she always ignored them, as if everything depended on

    himself. But if ever he actually came into the property, she must

    recognize the change in his position. All this passed through his mind

    somewhat languidly, before he went up to see his uncle. He stayed but

    a little while, excusing himself on the ground that he had a cold; and

    Mary did not reappear before he left the house. But as he rode home,

    he began to be more conscious of being ill, than of being melancholy.

    When Caleb Garth arrived at Stone Court soon after dusk, Mary was not

    surprised, although he seldom had leisure for paying her a visit, and

    was not at all fond of having to talk with Mr. Featherstone. The old

    man, on the other hand, felt himself ill at ease with a brother-in-law

    whom he could not annoy, who did not mind about being considered poor,

    had nothing to ask of him, and understood all kinds of farming and

    mining business better than he did. But Mary had felt sure that her

    parents would want to see her, and if her father had not come, she

    would have obtained leave to go home for an hour or two the next day.

    After discussing prices during tea with Mr. Featherstone Caleb rose to

    bid him good-by, and said, "I want to speak to you, Mary."

    She took a candle into another large parlor, where there was no fire,

    and setting down the feeble light on the dark mahogany table, turned

    round to her father, and putting her arms round his neck kissed him

    with childish kisses which he delighted in,—the expression of his

    large brows softening as the expression of a great beautiful dog

    softens when it is caressed. Mary was his favorite child, and whatever

    Susan might say, and right as she was on all other subjects, Caleb

    thought it natural that Fred or any one else should think Mary more

    lovable than other girls.

    "I've got something to tell you, my dear," said Caleb in his hesitating

    way. "No very good news; but then it might be worse."

    "About money, father? I think I know what it is."

    "Ay? how can that be? You see, I've been a bit of a fool again, and

    put my name to a bill, and now it comes to paying; and your mother has

    got to part with her savings, that's the worst of it, and even they

    won't quite make things even. We wanted a hundred and ten pounds: your

    mother has ninety-two, and I have none to spare in the bank; and she

    thinks that you have some savings."

    "Oh yes; I have more than four-and-twenty pounds. I thought you would

    come, father, so I put it in my bag. See! beautiful white notes and

    gold."

    Mary took out the folded money from her reticule and put it into her

    father's hand.

    "Well, but how—we only want eighteen—here, put the rest back,

    child,—but how did you know about it?" said Caleb, who, in his

    unconquerable indifference to money, was beginning to be chiefly

    concerned about the relation the affair might have to Mary's affections.

    "Fred told me this morning."

    "Ah! Did he come on purpose?"

    "Yes, I think so. He was a good deal distressed."

    "I'm afraid Fred is not to be trusted, Mary," said the father, with

    hesitating tenderness. "He means better than he acts, perhaps. But I

    should think it a pity for any body's happiness to be wrapped up in

    him, and so would your mother."

    "And so should I, father," said Mary, not looking up, but putting the

    back of her father's hand against her cheek.

    "I don't want to pry, my dear. But I was afraid there might be

    something between you and Fred, and I wanted to caution you. You see,

    Mary"—here Caleb's voice became more tender; he had been pushing his

    hat about on the table and looking at it, but finally he turned his

    eyes on his daughter—"a woman, let her be as good as she may, has got

    to put up with the life her husband makes for her. Your mother has had

    to put up with a good deal because of me."

    Mary turned the back of her father's hand to her lips and smiled at him.

    "Well, well, nobody's perfect, but"—here Mr. Garth shook his head to

    help out the inadequacy of words—"what I am thinking of is—what it

    must be for a wife when she's never sure of her husband, when he hasn't

    got a principle in him to make him more afraid of doing the wrong thing

    by others than of getting his own toes pinched. That's the long and

    the short of it, Mary. Young folks may get fond of each other before

    they know what life is, and they may think it all holiday if they can

    only get together; but it soon turns into working day, my dear.

    However, you have more sense than most, and you haven't been kept in

    cotton-wool: there may be no occasion for me to say this, but a father

    trembles for his daughter, and you are all by yourself here."

    "Don't fear for me, father," said Mary, gravely meeting her father's

    eyes; "Fred has always been very good to me; he is kind-hearted and

    affectionate, and not false, I think, with all his self-indulgence. But

    I will never engage myself to one who has no manly independence, and

    who goes on loitering away his time on the chance that others will

    provide for him. You and my mother have taught me too much pride for

    that."

    "That's right—that's right. Then I am easy," said Mr. Garth, taking

    up his hat. "But it's hard to run away with your earnings, eh child."

    "Father!" said Mary, in her deepest tone of remonstrance. "Take

    pocketfuls of love besides to them all at home," was her last word

    before he closed the outer door on himself.

    "I suppose your father wanted your earnings," said old Mr.

    Featherstone, with his usual power of unpleasant surmise, when Mary

    returned to him. "He makes but a tight fit, I reckon. You're of age

    now; you ought to be saving for yourself."

    "I consider my father and mother the best part of myself, sir," said

    Mary, coldly.

    Mr. Featherstone grunted: he could not deny that an ordinary sort of

    girl like her might be expected to be useful, so he thought of another

    rejoinder, disagreeable enough to be always apropos. "If Fred Vincy

    comes to-morrow, now, don't you keep him chattering: let him come up to

    me."


    CHAPTER XXVI.


    "He beats me and I rail at him: O worthy satisfaction!
    would it were otherwise—that I could beat him while
    he railed at me.—"—Troilus and Cressida.

    But Fred did not go to Stone Court the next day, for reasons that were

    quite peremptory. From those visits to unsanitary Houndsley streets in

    search of Diamond, he had brought back not only a bad bargain in

    horse-flesh, but the further misfortune of some ailment which for a day

    or two had deemed mere depression and headache, but which got so much

    worse when he returned from his visit to Stone Court that, going into

    the dining-room, he threw himself on the sofa, and in answer to his

    mother's anxious question, said, "I feel very ill: I think you must

    send for Wrench."

    Wrench came, but did not apprehend anything serious, spoke of a "slight

    derangement," and did not speak of coming again on the morrow. He had

    a due value for the Vincys' house, but the wariest men are apt to be

    dulled by routine, and on worried mornings will sometimes go through

    their business with the zest of the daily bell-ringer. Mr. Wrench was

    a small, neat, bilious man, with a well-dressed wig: he had a laborious

    practice, an irascible temper, a lymphatic wife and seven children; and

    he was already rather late before setting out on a four-miles drive to

    meet Dr. Minchin on the other side of Tipton, the decease of Hicks, a

    rural practitioner, having increased Middlemarch practice in that

    direction. Great statesmen err, and why not small medical men? Mr.

    Wrench did not neglect sending the usual white parcels, which this time

    had black and drastic contents. Their effect was not alleviating to

    poor Fred, who, however, unwilling as he said to believe that he was

    "in for an illness," rose at his usual easy hour the next morning and

    went down-stairs meaning to breakfast, but succeeded in nothing but in

    sitting and shivering by the fire. Mr. Wrench was again sent for, but

    was gone on his rounds, and Mrs. Vincy seeing her darling's changed

    looks and general misery, began to cry and said she would send for Dr.

    Sprague.

    "Oh, nonsense, mother! It's nothing," said Fred, putting out his hot

    dry hand to her, "I shall soon be all right. I must have taken cold in

    that nasty damp ride."

    "Mamma!" said Rosamond, who was seated near the window (the dining-room

    windows looked on that highly respectable street called Lowick Gate),

    "there is Mr. Lydgate, stopping to speak to some one. If I were you I

    would call him in. He has cured Ellen Bulstrode. They say he cures

    every one."

    Mrs. Vincy sprang to the window and opened it in an instant, thinking

    only of Fred and not of medical etiquette. Lydgate was only two yards

    off on the other side of some iron palisading, and turned round at the

    sudden sound of the sash, before she called to him. In two minutes he

    was in the room, and Rosamond went out, after waiting just long enough

    to show a pretty anxiety conflicting with her sense of what was

    becoming.

    Lydgate had to hear a narrative in which Mrs. Vincy's mind insisted

    with remarkable instinct on every point of minor importance, especially

    on what Mr. Wrench had said and had not said about coming again. That

    there might be an awkward affair with Wrench, Lydgate saw at once; but

    the case was serious enough to make him dismiss that consideration: he

    was convinced that Fred was in the pink-skinned stage of typhoid fever,

    and that he had taken just the wrong medicines. He must go to bed

    immediately, must have a regular nurse, and various appliances and

    precautions must be used, about which Lydgate was particular. Poor

    Mrs. Vincy's terror at these indications of danger found vent in such

    words as came most easily. She thought it "very ill usage on the part

    of Mr. Wrench, who had attended their house so many years in preference

    to Mr. Peacock, though Mr. Peacock was equally a friend. Why Mr.

    Wrench should neglect her children more than others, she could not for

    the life of her understand. He had not neglected Mrs. Larcher's when

    they had the measles, nor indeed would Mrs. Vincy have wished that he

    should. And if anything should happen—"

    Here poor Mrs. Vincy's spirit quite broke down, and her Niobe throat

    and good-humored face were sadly convulsed. This was in the hall out

    of Fred's hearing, but Rosamond had opened the drawing-room door, and

    now came forward anxiously. Lydgate apologized for Mr. Wrench, said

    that the symptoms yesterday might have been disguising, and that this

    form of fever was very equivocal in its beginnings: he would go

    immediately to the druggist's and have a prescription made up in order

    to lose no time, but he would write to Mr. Wrench and tell him what had

    been done.

    "But you must come again—you must go on attending Fred. I can't have

    my boy left to anybody who may come or not. I bear nobody ill-will,

    thank God, and Mr. Wrench saved me in the pleurisy, but he'd better

    have let me die—if—if—"

    "I will meet Mr. Wrench here, then, shall I?" said Lydgate, really

    believing that Wrench was not well prepared to deal wisely with a case

    of this kind.

    "Pray make that arrangement, Mr. Lydgate," said Rosamond, coming to her

    mother's aid, and supporting her arm to lead her away.

    When Mr. Vincy came home he was very angry with Wrench, and did not

    care if he never came into his house again. Lydgate should go on now,

    whether Wrench liked it or not. It was no joke to have fever in the

    house. Everybody must be sent to now, not to come to dinner on

    Thursday. And Pritchard needn't get up any wine: brandy was the best

    thing against infection. "I shall drink brandy," added Mr. Vincy,

    emphatically—as much as to say, this was not an occasion for firing

    with blank-cartridges. "He's an uncommonly unfortunate lad, is Fred.

    He'd need have—some luck by-and-by to make up for all this—else I

    don't know who'd have an eldest son."

    "Don't say so, Vincy," said the mother, with a quivering lip, "if you

    don't want him to be taken from me."

    "It will worret you to death, Lucy; that I can see," said Mr. Vincy,

    more mildly. "However, Wrench shall know what I think of the matter."

    (What Mr. Vincy thought confusedly was, that the fever might somehow

    have been hindered if Wrench had shown the proper solicitude about

    his—the Mayor's—family.) "I'm the last man to give in to the cry

    about new doctors, or new parsons either—whether they're Bulstrode's

    men or not. But Wrench shall know what I think, take it as he will."

    Wrench did not take it at all well. Lydgate was as polite as he could

    be in his offhand way, but politeness in a man who has placed you at a

    disadvantage is only an additional exasperation, especially if he

    happens to have been an object of dislike beforehand. Country

    practitioners used to be an irritable species, susceptible on the point

    of honor; and Mr. Wrench was one of the most irritable among them. He

    did not refuse to meet Lydgate in the evening, but his temper was

    somewhat tried on the occasion. He had to hear Mrs. Vincy say—

    "Oh, Mr. Wrench, what have I ever done that you should use me so?— To

    go away, and never to come again! And my boy might have been stretched

    a corpse!"

    Mr. Vincy, who had been keeping up a sharp fire on the enemy Infection,

    and was a good deal heated in consequence, started up when he heard

    Wrench come in, and went into the hall to let him know what he thought.

    "I'll tell you what, Wrench, this is beyond a joke," said the Mayor,

    who of late had had to rebuke offenders with an official air, and how

    broadened himself by putting his thumbs in his armholes.— "To let

    fever get unawares into a house like this. There are some things that

    ought to be actionable, and are not so— that's my opinion."

    But irrational reproaches were easier to bear than the sense of being

    instructed, or rather the sense that a younger man, like Lydgate,

    inwardly considered him in need of instruction, for "in point of fact,"

    Mr. Wrench afterwards said, Lydgate paraded flighty, foreign notions,

    which would not wear. He swallowed his ire for the moment, but he

    afterwards wrote to decline further attendance in the case. The house

    might be a good one, but Mr. Wrench was not going to truckle to anybody

    on a professional matter. He reflected, with much probability on his

    side, that Lydgate would by-and-by be caught tripping too, and that his

    ungentlemanly attempts to discredit the sale of drugs by his

    professional brethren, would by-and-by recoil on himself. He threw out

    biting remarks on Lydgate's tricks, worthy only of a quack, to get

    himself a factitious reputation with credulous people. That cant about

    cures was never got up by sound practitioners.

    This was a point on which Lydgate smarted as much as Wrench could

    desire. To be puffed by ignorance was not only humiliating, but

    perilous, and not more enviable than the reputation of the

    weather-prophet. He was impatient of the foolish expectations amidst

    which all work must be carried on, and likely enough to damage himself

    as much as Mr. Wrench could wish, by an unprofessional openness.

    However, Lydgate was installed as medical attendant on the Vincys, and

    the event was a subject of general conversation in Middlemarch. Some

    said, that the Vincys had behaved scandalously, that Mr. Vincy had

    threatened Wrench, and that Mrs. Vincy had accused him of poisoning her

    son. Others were of opinion that Mr. Lydgate's passing by was

    providential, that he was wonderfully clever in fevers, and that

    Bulstrode was in the right to bring him forward. Many people believed

    that Lydgate's coming to the town at all was really due to Bulstrode;

    and Mrs. Taft, who was always counting stitches and gathered her

    information in misleading fragments caught between the rows of her

    knitting, had got it into her head that Mr. Lydgate was a natural son

    of Bulstrode's, a fact which seemed to justify her suspicions of

    evangelical laymen.

    She one day communicated this piece of knowledge to Mrs. Farebrother,

    who did not fail to tell her son of it, observing—

    "I should not be surprised at anything in Bulstrode, but I should be

    sorry to think it of Mr. Lydgate."

    "Why, mother," said Mr. Farebrother, after an explosive laugh, "you

    know very well that Lydgate is of a good family in the North. He never

    heard of Bulstrode before he came here."

    "That is satisfactory so far as Mr. Lydgate is concerned, Camden," said

    the old lady, with an air of precision.—"But as to Bulstrode—the

    report may be true of some other son."


    CHAPTER XXVII.


    Let the high Muse chant loves Olympian:
    We are but mortals, and must sing of man.

    An eminent philosopher among my friends, who can dignify even your ugly

    furniture by lifting it into the serene light of science, has shown me

    this pregnant little fact. Your pier-glass or extensive surface of

    polished steel made to be rubbed by a housemaid, will be minutely and

    multitudinously scratched in all directions; but place now against it a

    lighted candle as a centre of illumination, and lo! the scratches will

    seem to arrange themselves in a fine series of concentric circles round

    that little sun. It is demonstrable that the scratches are going

    everywhere impartially and it is only your candle which produces the

    flattering illusion of a concentric arrangement, its light falling with

    an exclusive optical selection. These things are a parable. The

    scratches are events, and the candle is the egoism of any person now

    absent—of Miss Vincy, for example. Rosamond had a Providence of her

    own who had kindly made her more charming than other girls, and who

    seemed to have arranged Fred's illness and Mr. Wrench's mistake in

    order to bring her and Lydgate within effective proximity. It would

    have been to contravene these arrangements if Rosamond had consented to

    go away to Stone Court or elsewhere, as her parents wished her to do,

    especially since Mr. Lydgate thought the precaution needless.

    Therefore, while Miss Morgan and the children were sent away to a

    farmhouse the morning after Fred's illness had declared itself,

    Rosamond refused to leave papa and mamma.

    Poor mamma indeed was an object to touch any creature born of woman;

    and Mr. Vincy, who doted on his wife, was more alarmed on her account

    than on Fred's. But for his insistence she would have taken no rest:

    her brightness was all bedimmed; unconscious of her costume which had

    always been so fresh and gay, she was like a sick bird with languid eye

    and plumage ruffled, her senses dulled to the sights and sounds that

    used most to interest her. Fred's delirium, in which he seemed to be

    wandering out of her reach, tore her heart. After her first outburst

    against Mr. Wrench she went about very quietly: her one low cry was to

    Lydgate. She would follow him out of the room and put her hand on his

    arm moaning out, "Save my boy." Once she pleaded, "He has always been

    good to me, Mr. Lydgate: he never had a hard word for his mother,"—as

    if poor Fred's suffering were an accusation against him. All the

    deepest fibres of the mother's memory were stirred, and the young man

    whose voice took a gentler tone when he spoke to her, was one with the

    babe whom she had loved, with a love new to her, before he was born.

    "I have good hope, Mrs. Vincy," Lydgate would say. "Come down with me

    and let us talk about the food." In that way he led her to the parlor

    where Rosamond was, and made a change for her, surprising her into

    taking some tea or broth which had been prepared for her. There was a

    constant understanding between him and Rosamond on these matters. He

    almost always saw her before going to the sickroom, and she appealed to

    him as to what she could do for mamma. Her presence of mind and

    adroitness in carrying out his hints were admirable, and it is not

    wonderful that the idea of seeing Rosamond began to mingle itself with

    his interest in the case. Especially when the critical stage was

    passed, and he began to feel confident of Fred's recovery. In the more

    doubtful time, he had advised calling in Dr. Sprague (who, if he could,

    would rather have remained neutral on Wrench's account); but after two

    consultations, the conduct of the case was left to Lydgate, and there

    was every reason to make him assiduous. Morning and evening he was at

    Mr. Vincy's, and gradually the visits became cheerful as Fred became

    simply feeble, and lay not only in need of the utmost petting but

    conscious of it, so that Mrs. Vincy felt as if, after all, the illness

    had made a festival for her tenderness.

    Both father and mother held it an added reason for good spirits, when

    old Mr. Featherstone sent messages by Lydgate, saying that Fred must

    make haste and get well, as he, Peter Featherstone, could not do

    without him, and missed his visits sadly. The old man himself was

    getting bedridden. Mrs. Vincy told these messages to Fred when he

    could listen, and he turned towards her his delicate, pinched face,

    from which all the thick blond hair had been cut away, and in which the

    eyes seemed to have got larger, yearning for some word about

    Mary—wondering what she felt about his illness. No word passed his

    lips; but "to hear with eyes belongs to love's rare wit," and the

    mother in the fulness of her heart not only divined Fred's longing, but

    felt ready for any sacrifice in order to satisfy him.

    "If I can only see my boy strong again," she said, in her loving folly;

    "and who knows?—perhaps master of Stone Court! and he can marry

    anybody he likes then."

    "Not if they won't have me, mother," said Fred. The illness had made

    him childish, and tears came as he spoke.

    "Oh, take a bit of jelly, my dear," said Mrs. Vincy, secretly

    incredulous of any such refusal.

    She never left Fred's side when her husband was not in the house, and

    thus Rosamond was in the unusual position of being much alone.

    Lydgate, naturally, never thought of staying long with her, yet it

    seemed that the brief impersonal conversations they had together were

    creating that peculiar intimacy which consists in shyness. They were

    obliged to look at each other in speaking, and somehow the looking

    could not be carried through as the matter of course which it really

    was. Lydgate began to feel this sort of consciousness unpleasant and

    one day looked down, or anywhere, like an ill-worked puppet. But this

    turned out badly: the next day, Rosamond looked down, and the

    consequence was that when their eyes met again, both were more

    conscious than before. There was no help for this in science, and as

    Lydgate did not want to flirt, there seemed to be no help for it in

    folly. It was therefore a relief when neighbors no longer considered

    the house in quarantine, and when the chances of seeing Rosamond alone

    were very much reduced.

    But that intimacy of mutual embarrassment, in which each feels that the

    other is feeling something, having once existed, its effect is not to

    be done away with. Talk about the weather and other well-bred topics

    is apt to seem a hollow device, and behavior can hardly become easy

    unless it frankly recognizes a mutual fascination—which of course need

    not mean anything deep or serious. This was the way in which Rosamond

    and Lydgate slid gracefully into ease, and made their intercourse

    lively again. Visitors came and went as usual, there was once more

    music in the drawing-room, and all the extra hospitality of Mr. Vincy's

    mayoralty returned. Lydgate, whenever he could, took his seat by

    Rosamond's side, and lingered to hear her music, calling himself her

    captive—meaning, all the while, not to be her captive. The

    preposterousness of the notion that he could at once set up a

    satisfactory establishment as a married man was a sufficient guarantee

    against danger. This play at being a little in love was agreeable, and

    did not interfere with graver pursuits. Flirtation, after all, was not

    necessarily a singeing process. Rosamond, for her part, had never

    enjoyed the days so much in her life before: she was sure of being

    admired by some one worth captivating, and she did not distinguish

    flirtation from love, either in herself or in another. She seemed to

    be sailing with a fair wind just whither she would go, and her thoughts

    were much occupied with a handsome house in Lowick Gate which she hoped

    would by-and-by be vacant. She was quite determined, when she was

    married, to rid herself adroitly of all the visitors who were not

    agreeable to her at her father's; and she imagined the drawing-room in

    her favorite house with various styles of furniture.

    Certainly her thoughts were much occupied with Lydgate himself; he

    seemed to her almost perfect: if he had known his notes so that his

    enchantment under her music had been less like an emotional elephant's,

    and if he had been able to discriminate better the refinements of her

    taste in dress, she could hardly have mentioned a deficiency in him.

    How different he was from young Plymdale or Mr. Caius Larcher! Those

    young men had not a notion of French, and could speak on no subject

    with striking knowledge, except perhaps the dyeing and carrying trades,

    which of course they were ashamed to mention; they were Middlemarch

    gentry, elated with their silver-headed whips and satin stocks, but

    embarrassed in their manners, and timidly jocose: even Fred was above

    them, having at least the accent and manner of a university man.

    Whereas Lydgate was always listened to, bore himself with the careless

    politeness of conscious superiority, and seemed to have the right

    clothes on by a certain natural affinity, without ever having to think

    about them. Rosamond was proud when he entered the room, and when he

    approached her with a distinguishing smile, she had a delicious sense

    that she was the object of enviable homage. If Lydgate had been aware

    of all the pride he excited in that delicate bosom, he might have been

    just as well pleased as any other man, even the most densely ignorant

    of humoral pathology or fibrous tissue: he held it one of the prettiest

    attitudes of the feminine mind to adore a man's pre-eminence without

    too precise a knowledge of what it consisted in. But Rosamond was not

    one of those helpless girls who betray themselves unawares, and whose

    behavior is awkwardly driven by their impulses, instead of being

    steered by wary grace and propriety. Do you imagine that her rapid

    forecast and rumination concerning house-furniture and society were

    ever discernible in her conversation, even with her mamma? On the

    contrary, she would have expressed the prettiest surprise and

    disapprobation if she had heard that another young lady had been

    detected in that immodest prematureness—indeed, would probably have

    disbelieved in its possibility. For Rosamond never showed any

    unbecoming knowledge, and was always that combination of correct

    sentiments, music, dancing, drawing, elegant note-writing, private

    album for extracted verse, and perfect blond loveliness, which made the

    irresistible woman for the doomed man of that date. Think no unfair

    evil of her, pray: she had no wicked plots, nothing sordid or

    mercenary; in fact, she never thought of money except as something

    necessary which other people would always provide. She was not in the

    habit of devising falsehoods, and if her statements were no direct clew

    to fact, why, they were not intended in that light—they were among

    her elegant accomplishments, intended to please. Nature had inspired

    many arts in finishing Mrs. Lemon's favorite pupil, who by general

    consent (Fred's excepted) was a rare compound of beauty, cleverness,

    and amiability.

    Lydgate found it more and more agreeable to be with her, and there was

    no constraint now, there was a delightful interchange of influence in

    their eyes, and what they said had that superfluity of meaning for

    them, which is observable with some sense of flatness by a third

    person; still they had no interviews or asides from which a third

    person need have been excluded. In fact, they flirted; and Lydgate was

    secure in the belief that they did nothing else. If a man could not

    love and be wise, surely he could flirt and be wise at the same time?

    Really, the men in Middlemarch, except Mr. Farebrother, were great

    bores, and Lydgate did not care about commercial politics or cards:

    what was he to do for relaxation? He was often invited to the

    Bulstrodes'; but the girls there were hardly out of the schoolroom; and

    Mrs. Bulstrode's naive way of conciliating piety and worldliness, the

    nothingness of this life and the desirability of cut glass, the

    consciousness at once of filthy rags and the best damask, was not a

    sufficient relief from the weight of her husband's invariable

    seriousness. The Vincys' house, with all its faults, was the

    pleasanter by contrast; besides, it nourished Rosamond—sweet to look

    at as a half-opened blush-rose, and adorned with accomplishments for

    the refined amusement of man.

    But he made some enemies, other than medical, by his success with Miss

    Vincy. One evening he came into the drawing-room rather late, when

    several other visitors were there. The card-table had drawn off the

    elders, and Mr. Ned Plymdale (one of the good matches in Middlemarch,

    though not one of its leading minds) was in tete-a-tete with Rosamond.

    He had brought the last "Keepsake," the gorgeous watered-silk

    publication which marked modern progress at that time; and he

    considered himself very fortunate that he could be the first to look

    over it with her, dwelling on the ladies and gentlemen with shiny

    copper-plate cheeks and copper-plate smiles, and pointing to comic

    verses as capital and sentimental stories as interesting. Rosamond was

    gracious, and Mr. Ned was satisfied that he had the very best thing in

    art and literature as a medium for "paying addresses"—the very thing

    to please a nice girl. He had also reasons, deep rather than

    ostensible, for being satisfied with his own appearance. To

    superficial observers his chin had too vanishing an aspect, looking as

    if it were being gradually reabsorbed. And it did indeed cause him

    some difficulty about the fit of his satin stocks, for which chins were

    at that time useful.

    "I think the Honorable Mrs. S. is something like you," said Mr. Ned.

    He kept the book open at the bewitching portrait, and looked at it

    rather languishingly.

    "Her back is very large; she seems to have sat for that," said

    Rosamond, not meaning any satire, but thinking how red young Plymdale's

    hands were, and wondering why Lydgate did not come. She went on with

    her tatting all the while.

    "I did not say she was as beautiful as you are," said Mr. Ned,

    venturing to look from the portrait to its rival.

    "I suspect you of being an adroit flatterer," said Rosamond, feeling

    sure that she should have to reject this young gentleman a second time.

    But now Lydgate came in; the book was closed before he reached

    Rosamond's corner, and as he took his seat with easy confidence on the

    other side of her, young Plymdale's jaw fell like a barometer towards

    the cheerless side of change. Rosamond enjoyed not only Lydgate's

    presence but its effect: she liked to excite jealousy.

    "What a late comer you are!" she said, as they shook hands. "Mamma had

    given you up a little while ago. How do you find Fred?"

    "As usual; going on well, but slowly. I want him to go away—to Stone

    Court, for example. But your mamma seems to have some objection."

    "Poor fellow!" said Rosamond, prettily. "You will see Fred so

    changed," she added, turning to the other suitor; "we have looked to

    Mr. Lydgate as our guardian angel during this illness."

    Mr. Ned smiled nervously, while Lydgate, drawing the "Keepsake" towards

    him and opening it, gave a short scornful laugh and tossed up his

    chin, as if in wonderment at human folly.

    "What are you laughing at so profanely?" said Rosamond, with bland

    neutrality.

    "I wonder which would turn out to be the silliest—the engravings or

    the writing here," said Lydgate, in his most convinced tone, while he

    turned over the pages quickly, seeming to see all through the book in

    no time, and showing his large white hands to much advantage, as

    Rosamond thought. "Do look at this bridegroom coming out of church:

    did you ever see such a 'sugared invention'—as the Elizabethans used

    to say? Did any haberdasher ever look so smirking? Yet I will answer

    for it the story makes him one of the first gentlemen in the land."

    "You are so severe, I am frightened at you," said Rosamond, keeping her

    amusement duly moderate. Poor young Plymdale had lingered with

    admiration over this very engraving, and his spirit was stirred.

    "There are a great many celebrated people writing in the 'Keepsake,' at

    all events," he said, in a tone at once piqued and timid. "This is the

    first time I have heard it called silly."

    "I think I shall turn round on you and accuse you of being a Goth,"

    said Rosamond, looking at Lydgate with a smile. "I suspect you know

    nothing about Lady Blessington and L. E. L." Rosamond herself was not

    without relish for these writers, but she did not readily commit

    herself by admiration, and was alive to the slightest hint that

    anything was not, according to Lydgate, in the very highest taste.

    "But Sir Walter Scott—I suppose Mr. Lydgate knows him," said young

    Plymdale, a little cheered by this advantage.

    "Oh, I read no literature now," said Lydgate, shutting the book, and

    pushing it away. "I read so much when I was a lad, that I suppose it

    will last me all my life. I used to know Scott's poems by heart."

    "I should like to know when you left off," said Rosamond, "because then

    I might be sure that I knew something which you did not know."

    "Mr. Lydgate would say that was not worth knowing," said Mr. Ned,

    purposely caustic.

    "On the contrary," said Lydgate, showing no smart; but smiling with

    exasperating confidence at Rosamond. "It would be worth knowing by the

    fact that Miss Vincy could tell it me."

    Young Plymdale soon went to look at the whist-playing, thinking that

    Lydgate was one of the most conceited, unpleasant fellows it had ever

    been his ill-fortune to meet.

    "How rash you are!" said Rosamond, inwardly delighted. "Do you see

    that you have given offence?"

    "What! is it Mr. Plymdale's book? I am sorry. I didn't think about

    it."

    "I shall begin to admit what you said of yourself when you first came

    here—that you are a bear, and want teaching by the birds."

    "Well, there is a bird who can teach me what she will. Don't I listen

    to her willingly?"

    To Rosamond it seemed as if she and Lydgate were as good as engaged.

    That they were some time to be engaged had long been an idea in her

    mind; and ideas, we know, tend to a more solid kind of existence, the

    necessary materials being at hand. It is true, Lydgate had the

    counter-idea of remaining unengaged; but this was a mere negative, a

    shadow cast by other resolves which themselves were capable of

    shrinking. Circumstance was almost sure to be on the side of

    Rosamond's idea, which had a shaping activity and looked through

    watchful blue eyes, whereas Lydgate's lay blind and unconcerned as a

    jelly-fish which gets melted without knowing it.

    That evening when he went home, he looked at his phials to see how a

    process of maceration was going on, with undisturbed interest; and he

    wrote out his daily notes with as much precision as usual. The

    reveries from which it was difficult for him to detach himself were

    ideal constructions of something else than Rosamond's virtues, and the

    primitive tissue was still his fair unknown. Moreover, he was

    beginning to feel some zest for the growing though half-suppressed feud

    between him and the other medical men, which was likely to become more

    manifest, now that Bulstrode's method of managing the new hospital was

    about to be declared; and there were various inspiriting signs that his

    non-acceptance by some of Peacock's patients might be counterbalanced

    by the impression he had produced in other quarters. Only a few days

    later, when he had happened to overtake Rosamond on the Lowick road and

    had got down from his horse to walk by her side until he had quite

    protected her from a passing drove, he had been stopped by a servant on

    horseback with a message calling him in to a house of some importance

    where Peacock had never attended; and it was the second instance of

    this kind. The servant was Sir James Chettam's, and the house was

    Lowick Manor.


    CHAPTER XXVIII.


    1st Gent. All times are good to seek your wedded home
    Bringing a mutual delight.

    2d Gent. Why, true.
    The calendar hath not an evil day
    For souls made one by love, and even death
    Were sweetness, if it came like rolling waves
    While they two clasped each other, and foresaw
    No life apart.

    Mr. and Mrs. Casaubon, returning from their wedding journey, arrived at

    Lowick Manor in the middle of January. A light snow was falling as

    they descended at the door, and in the morning, when Dorothea passed

    from her dressing-room avenue the blue-green boudoir that we know of,

    she saw the long avenue of limes lifting their trunks from a white

    earth, and spreading white branches against the dun and motionless sky.

    The distant flat shrank in uniform whiteness and low-hanging uniformity

    of cloud. The very furniture in the room seemed to have shrunk since

    she saw it before: the stag in the tapestry looked more like a ghost in

    his ghostly blue-green world; the volumes of polite literature in the

    bookcase looked more like immovable imitations of books. The bright

    fire of dry oak-boughs burning on the logs seemed an incongruous

    renewal of life and glow—like the figure of Dorothea herself as she

    entered carrying the red-leather cases containing the cameos for Celia.

    She was glowing from her morning toilet as only healthful youth can

    glow: there was gem-like brightness on her coiled hair and in her hazel

    eyes; there was warm red life in her lips; her throat had a breathing

    whiteness above the differing white of the fur which itself seemed to

    wind about her neck and cling down her blue-gray pelisse with a

    tenderness gathered from her own, a sentient commingled innocence which

    kept its loveliness against the crystalline purity of the outdoor snow.

    As she laid the cameo-cases on the table in the bow-window, she

    unconsciously kept her hands on them, immediately absorbed in looking

    out on the still, white enclosure which made her visible world.

    Mr. Casaubon, who had risen early complaining of palpitation, was in

    the library giving audience to his curate Mr. Tucker. By-and-by Celia

    would come in her quality of bridesmaid as well as sister, and through

    the next weeks there would be wedding visits received and given; all in

    continuance of that transitional life understood to correspond with the

    excitement of bridal felicity, and keeping up the sense of busy

    ineffectiveness, as of a dream which the dreamer begins to suspect.

    The duties of her married life, contemplated as so great beforehand,

    seemed to be shrinking with the furniture and the white vapor-walled

    landscape. The clear heights where she expected to walk in full

    communion had become difficult to see even in her imagination; the

    delicious repose of the soul on a complete superior had been shaken

    into uneasy effort and alarmed with dim presentiment. When would the

    days begin of that active wifely devotion which was to strengthen her

    husband's life and exalt her own? Never perhaps, as she had

    preconceived them; but somehow—still somehow. In this solemnly

    pledged union of her life, duty would present itself in some new form

    of inspiration and give a new meaning to wifely love.

    Meanwhile there was the snow and the low arch of dun vapor—there was

    the stifling oppression of that gentlewoman's world, where everything

    was done for her and none asked for her aid—where the sense of

    connection with a manifold pregnant existence had to be kept up

    painfully as an inward vision, instead of coming from without in claims

    that would have shaped her energies.— "What shall I do?" "Whatever you

    please, my dear:" that had been her brief history since she had left

    off learning morning lessons and practising silly rhythms on the hated

    piano. Marriage, which was to bring guidance into worthy and

    imperative occupation, had not yet freed her from the gentlewoman's

    oppressive liberty: it had not even filled her leisure with the

    ruminant joy of unchecked tenderness. Her blooming full-pulsed youth

    stood there in a moral imprisonment which made itself one with the

    chill, colorless, narrowed landscape, with the shrunken furniture, the

    never-read books, and the ghostly stag in a pale fantastic world that

    seemed to be vanishing from the daylight.

    In the first minutes when Dorothea looked out she felt nothing but the

    dreary oppression; then came a keen remembrance, and turning away from

    the window she walked round the room. The ideas and hopes which were

    living in her mind when she first saw this room nearly three months

    before were present now only as memories: she judged them as we judge

    transient and departed things. All existence seemed to beat with a

    lower pulse than her own, and her religious faith was a solitary cry,

    the struggle out of a nightmare in which every object was withering and

    shrinking away from her. Each remembered thing in the room was

    disenchanted, was deadened as an unlit transparency, till her wandering

    gaze came to the group of miniatures, and there at last she saw

    something which had gathered new breath and meaning: it was the

    miniature of Mr. Casaubon's aunt Julia, who had made the unfortunate

    marriage—of Will Ladislaw's grandmother. Dorothea could fancy that

    it was alive now—the delicate woman's face which yet had a headstrong

    look, a peculiarity difficult to interpret. Was it only her friends

    who thought her marriage unfortunate? or did she herself find it out to

    be a mistake, and taste the salt bitterness of her tears in the

    merciful silence of the night? What breadths of experience Dorothea

    seemed to have passed over since she first looked at this miniature!

    She felt a new companionship with it, as if it had an ear for her and

    could see how she was looking at it. Here was a woman who had known

    some difficulty about marriage. Nay, the colors deepened, the lips and

    chin seemed to get larger, the hair and eyes seemed to be sending out

    light, the face was masculine and beamed on her with that full gaze

    which tells her on whom it falls that she is too interesting for the

    slightest movement of her eyelid to pass unnoticed and uninterpreted.

    The vivid presentation came like a pleasant glow to Dorothea: she felt

    herself smiling, and turning from the miniature sat down and looked up

    as if she were again talking to a figure in front of her. But the

    smile disappeared as she went on meditating, and at last she said

    aloud—

    "Oh, it was cruel to speak so! How sad—how dreadful!"

    She rose quickly and went out of the room, hurrying along the corridor,

    with the irresistible impulse to go and see her husband and inquire if

    she could do anything for him. Perhaps Mr. Tucker was gone and Mr.

    Casaubon was alone in the library. She felt as if all her morning's

    gloom would vanish if she could see her husband glad because of her

    presence.

    But when she reached the head of the dark oak there was Celia coming

    up, and below there was Mr. Brooke, exchanging welcomes and

    congratulations with Mr. Casaubon.

    "Dodo!" said Celia, in her quiet staccato; then kissed her sister,

    whose arms encircled her, and said no more. I think they both cried a

    little in a furtive manner, while Dorothea ran down-stairs to greet her

    uncle.

    "I need not ask how you are, my dear," said Mr. Brooke, after kissing

    her forehead. "Rome has agreed with you, I see—happiness, frescos,

    the antique—that sort of thing. Well, it's very pleasant to have you

    back again, and you understand all about art now, eh? But Casaubon is

    a little pale, I tell him—a little pale, you know. Studying hard in

    his holidays is carrying it rather too far. I overdid it at one

    time"—Mr. Brooke still held Dorothea's hand, but had turned his face

    to Mr. Casaubon—"about topography, ruins, temples—I thought I had a

    clew, but I saw it would carry me too far, and nothing might come of

    it. You may go any length in that sort of thing, and nothing may come

    of it, you know."

    Dorothea's eyes also were turned up to her husband's face with some

    anxiety at the idea that those who saw him afresh after absence might

    be aware of signs which she had not noticed.

    "Nothing to alarm you, my dear," said Mr. Brooke, observing her

    expression. "A little English beef and mutton will soon make a

    difference. It was all very well to look pale, sitting for the

    portrait of Aquinas, you know—we got your letter just in time. But

    Aquinas, now—he was a little too subtle, wasn't he? Does anybody read

    Aquinas?"

    "He is not indeed an author adapted to superficial minds," said Mr.

    Casaubon, meeting these timely questions with dignified patience.

    "You would like coffee in your own room, uncle?" said Dorothea, coming

    to the rescue.

    "Yes; and you must go to Celia: she has great news to tell you, you

    know. I leave it all to her."

    The blue-green boudoir looked much more cheerful when Celia was seated

    there in a pelisse exactly like her sister's, surveying the cameos with

    a placid satisfaction, while the conversation passed on to other topics.

    "Do you think it nice to go to Rome on a wedding journey?" said Celia,

    with her ready delicate blush which Dorothea was used to on the

    smallest occasions.

    "It would not suit all—not you, dear, for example," said Dorothea,

    quietly. No one would ever know what she thought of a wedding journey

    to Rome.

    "Mrs. Cadwallader says it is nonsense, people going a long journey when

    they are married. She says they get tired to death of each other, and

    can't quarrel comfortably, as they would at home. And Lady Chettam

    says she went to Bath." Celia's color changed again and again—seemed


    "To come and go with tidings from the heart, As it a running messenger had been."

    It must mean more than Celia's blushing usually did.

    "Celia! has something happened?" said Dorothea, in a tone full of

    sisterly feeling. "Have you really any great news to tell me?"

    "It was because you went away, Dodo. Then there was nobody but me for

    Sir James to talk to," said Celia, with a certain roguishness in her

    eyes.

    "I understand. It is as I used to hope and believe," said Dorothea,

    taking her sister's face between her hands, and looking at her half

    anxiously. Celia's marriage seemed more serious than it used to do.

    "It was only three days ago," said Celia. "And Lady Chettam is very

    kind."

    "And you are very happy?"

    "Yes. We are not going to be married yet. Because every thing is to

    be got ready. And I don't want to be married so very soon, because I

    think it is nice to be engaged. And we shall be married all our lives

    after."

    "I do believe you could not marry better, Kitty. Sir James is a good,

    honorable man," said Dorothea, warmly.

    "He has gone on with the cottages, Dodo. He will tell you about them

    when he comes. Shall you be glad to see him?"

    "Of course I shall. How can you ask me?"

    "Only I was afraid you would be getting so learned," said Celia,

    regarding Mr. Casaubon's learning as a kind of damp which might in due

    time saturate a neighboring body.


    CHAPTER XXIX.


    "I found that no genius in another could please me.
    My unfortunate paradoxes had entirely dried up that source of
    comfort."—GOLDSMITH.

    One morning, some weeks after her arrival at Lowick, Dorothea—but why

    always Dorothea? Was her point of view the only possible one with

    regard to this marriage? I protest against all our interest, all our

    effort at understanding being given to the young skins that look

    blooming in spite of trouble; for these too will get faded, and will

    know the older and more eating griefs which we are helping to neglect.

    In spite of the blinking eyes and white moles objectionable to Celia,

    and the want of muscular curve which was morally painful to Sir James,

    Mr. Casaubon had an intense consciousness within him, and was

    spiritually a-hungered like the rest of us. He had done nothing

    exceptional in marrying—nothing but what society sanctions, and

    considers an occasion for wreaths and bouquets. It had occurred to him

    that he must not any longer defer his intention of matrimony, and he

    had reflected that in taking a wife, a man of good position should

    expect and carefully choose a blooming young lady—the younger the

    better, because more educable and submissive—of a rank equal to his

    own, of religious principles, virtuous disposition, and good

    understanding. On such a young lady he would make handsome

    settlements, and he would neglect no arrangement for her happiness: in

    return, he should receive family pleasures and leave behind him that

    copy of himself which seemed so urgently required of a man—to the

    sonneteers of the sixteenth century. Times had altered since then, and

    no sonneteer had insisted on Mr. Casaubon's leaving a copy of himself;

    moreover, he had not yet succeeded in issuing copies of his

    mythological key; but he had always intended to acquit himself by

    marriage, and the sense that he was fast leaving the years behind him,

    that the world was getting dimmer and that he felt lonely, was a reason

    to him for losing no more time in overtaking domestic delights before

    they too were left behind by the years.

    And when he had seen Dorothea he believed that he had found even more

    than he demanded: she might really be such a helpmate to him as would

    enable him to dispense with a hired secretary, an aid which Mr.

    Casaubon had never yet employed and had a suspicious dread of. (Mr.

    Casaubon was nervously conscious that he was expected to manifest a

    powerful mind.) Providence, in its kindness, had supplied him with the

    wife he needed. A wife, a modest young lady, with the purely

    appreciative, unambitious abilities of her sex, is sure to think her

    husband's mind powerful. Whether Providence had taken equal care of

    Miss Brooke in presenting her with Mr. Casaubon was an idea which could

    hardly occur to him. Society never made the preposterous demand that a

    man should think as much about his own qualifications for making a

    charming girl happy as he thinks of hers for making himself happy. As

    if a man could choose not only his wife but his wife's husband! Or as

    if he were bound to provide charms for his posterity in his own

    person!— When Dorothea accepted him with effusion, that was only

    natural; and Mr. Casaubon believed that his happiness was going to

    begin.

    He had not had much foretaste of happiness in his previous life. To

    know intense joy without a strong bodily frame, one must have an

    enthusiastic soul. Mr. Casaubon had never had a strong bodily frame,

    and his soul was sensitive without being enthusiastic: it was too

    languid to thrill out of self-consciousness into passionate delight; it

    went on fluttering in the swampy ground where it was hatched, thinking

    of its wings and never flying. His experience was of that pitiable

    kind which shrinks from pity, and fears most of all that it should be

    known: it was that proud narrow sensitiveness which has not mass enough

    to spare for transformation into sympathy, and quivers thread-like in

    small currents of self-preoccupation or at best of an egoistic

    scrupulosity. And Mr. Casaubon had many scruples: he was capable of a

    severe self-restraint; he was resolute in being a man of honor

    according to the code; he would be unimpeachable by any recognized

    opinion. In conduct these ends had been attained; but the difficulty

    of making his Key to all Mythologies unimpeachable weighed like lead

    upon his mind; and the pamphlets—or "Parerga" as he called them—by

    which he tested his public and deposited small monumental records of

    his march, were far from having been seen in all their significance.

    He suspected the Archdeacon of not having read them; he was in painful

    doubt as to what was really thought of them by the leading minds of

    Brasenose, and bitterly convinced that his old acquaintance Carp had

    been the writer of that depreciatory recension which was kept locked in

    a small drawer of Mr. Casaubon's desk, and also in a dark closet of his

    verbal memory. These were heavy impressions to struggle against, and

    brought that melancholy embitterment which is the consequence of all

    excessive claim: even his religious faith wavered with his wavering

    trust in his own authorship, and the consolations of the Christian hope

    in immortality seemed to lean on the immortality of the still unwritten

    Key to all Mythologies. For my part I am very sorry for him. It is an

    uneasy lot at best, to be what we call highly taught and yet not to

    enjoy: to be present at this great spectacle of life and never to be

    liberated from a small hungry shivering self—never to be fully

    possessed by the glory we behold, never to have our consciousness

    rapturously transformed into the vividness of a thought, the ardor of a

    passion, the energy of an action, but always to be scholarly and

    uninspired, ambitious and timid, scrupulous and dim-sighted. Becoming a

    dean or even a bishop would make little difference, I fear, to Mr.

    Casaubon's uneasiness. Doubtless some ancient Greek has observed that

    behind the big mask and the speaking-trumpet, there must always be our

    poor little eyes peeping as usual and our timorous lips more or less

    under anxious control.

    To this mental estate mapped out a quarter of a century before, to

    sensibilities thus fenced in, Mr. Casaubon had thought of annexing

    happiness with a lovely young bride; but even before marriage, as we

    have seen, he found himself under a new depression in the consciousness

    that the new bliss was not blissful to him. Inclination yearned back

    to its old, easier custom. And the deeper he went in domesticity the

    more did the sense of acquitting himself and acting with propriety

    predominate over any other satisfaction. Marriage, like religion and

    erudition, nay, like authorship itself, was fated to become an outward

    requirement, and Edward Casaubon was bent on fulfilling unimpeachably

    all requirements. Even drawing Dorothea into use in his study,

    according to his own intention before marriage, was an effort which he

    was always tempted to defer, and but for her pleading insistence it

    might never have begun. But she had succeeded in making it a matter of

    course that she should take her place at an early hour in the library

    and have work either of reading aloud or copying assigned her. The

    work had been easier to define because Mr. Casaubon had adopted an

    immediate intention: there was to be a new Parergon, a small monograph

    on some lately traced indications concerning the Egyptian mysteries

    whereby certain assertions of Warburton's could be corrected.

    References were extensive even here, but not altogether shoreless; and

    sentences were actually to be written in the shape wherein they would

    be scanned by Brasenose and a less formidable posterity. These minor

    monumental productions were always exciting to Mr. Casaubon; digestion

    was made difficult by the interference of citations, or by the rivalry

    of dialectical phrases ringing against each other in his brain. And

    from the first there was to be a Latin dedication about which

    everything was uncertain except that it was not to be addressed to

    Carp: it was a poisonous regret to Mr. Casaubon that he had once

    addressed a dedication to Carp in which he had numbered that member of

    the animal kingdom among the viros nullo aevo perituros, a mistake

    which would infallibly lay the dedicator open to ridicule in the next

    age, and might even be chuckled over by Pike and Tench in the present.

    Thus Mr. Casaubon was in one of his busiest epochs, and as I began to

    say a little while ago, Dorothea joined him early in the library where

    he had breakfasted alone. Celia at this time was on a second visit to

    Lowick, probably the last before her marriage, and was in the

    drawing-room expecting Sir James.

    Dorothea had learned to read the signs of her husband's mood, and she

    saw that the morning had become more foggy there during the last hour.

    She was going silently to her desk when he said, in that distant tone

    which implied that he was discharging a disagreeable duty—

    "Dorothea, here is a letter for you, which was enclosed in one

    addressed to me."

    It was a letter of two pages, and she immediately looked at the

    signature.

    "Mr. Ladislaw! What can he have to say to me?" she exclaimed, in a

    tone of pleased surprise. "But," she added, looking at Mr. Casaubon,

    "I can imagine what he has written to you about."

    "You can, if you please, read the letter," said Mr. Casaubon, severely

    pointing to it with his pen, and not looking at her. "But I may as

    well say beforehand, that I must decline the proposal it contains to

    pay a visit here. I trust I may be excused for desiring an interval of

    complete freedom from such distractions as have been hitherto

    inevitable, and especially from guests whose desultory vivacity makes

    their presence a fatigue."

    There had been no clashing of temper between Dorothea and her husband

    since that little explosion in Rome, which had left such strong traces

    in her mind that it had been easier ever since to quell emotion than to

    incur the consequence of venting it. But this ill-tempered

    anticipation that she could desire visits which might be disagreeable

    to her husband, this gratuitous defence of himself against selfish

    complaint on her part, was too sharp a sting to be meditated on until

    after it had been resented. Dorothea had thought that she could have

    been patient with John Milton, but she had never imagined him behaving

    in this way; and for a moment Mr. Casaubon seemed to be stupidly

    undiscerning and odiously unjust. Pity, that "new-born babe" which was

    by-and-by to rule many a storm within her, did not "stride the blast"

    on this occasion. With her first words, uttered in a tone that shook

    him, she startled Mr. Casaubon into looking at her, and meeting the

    flash of her eyes.

    "Why do you attribute to me a wish for anything that would annoy you?

    You speak to me as if I were something you had to contend against.

    Wait at least till I appear to consult my own pleasure apart from

    yours."

    "Dorothea, you are hasty," answered Mr. Casaubon, nervously.

    Decidedly, this woman was too young to be on the formidable level of

    wifehood—unless she had been pale and featureless and taken

    everything for granted.

    "I think it was you who were first hasty in your false suppositions

    about my feeling," said Dorothea, in the same tone. The fire was not

    dissipated yet, and she thought it was ignoble in her husband not to

    apologize to her.

    "We will, if you please, say no more on this subject, Dorothea. I have

    neither leisure nor energy for this kind of debate."

    Here Mr. Casaubon dipped his pen and made as if he would return to his

    writing, though his hand trembled so much that the words seemed to be

    written in an unknown character. There are answers which, in turning

    away wrath, only send it to the other end of the room, and to have a

    discussion coolly waived when you feel that justice is all on your own

    side is even more exasperating in marriage than in philosophy.

    Dorothea left Ladislaw's two letters unread on her husband's

    writing-table and went to her own place, the scorn and indignation

    within her rejecting the reading of these letters, just as we hurl away

    any trash towards which we seem to have been suspected of mean

    cupidity. She did not in the least divine the subtle sources of her

    husband's bad temper about these letters: she only knew that they had

    caused him to offend her. She began to work at once, and her hand did

    not tremble; on the contrary, in writing out the quotations which had

    been given to her the day before, she felt that she was forming her

    letters beautifully, and it seemed to her that she saw the construction

    of the Latin she was copying, and which she was beginning to

    understand, more clearly than usual. In her indignation there was a

    sense of superiority, but it went out for the present in firmness of

    stroke, and did not compress itself into an inward articulate voice

    pronouncing the once "affable archangel" a poor creature.

    There had been this apparent quiet for half an hour, and Dorothea had

    not looked away from her own table, when she heard the loud bang of a

    book on the floor, and turning quickly saw Mr. Casaubon on the library

    steps clinging forward as if he were in some bodily distress. She

    started up and bounded towards him in an instant: he was evidently in

    great straits for breath. Jumping on a stool she got close to his

    elbow and said with her whole soul melted into tender alarm—

    "Can you lean on me, dear?"

    He was still for two or three minutes, which seemed endless to her,

    unable to speak or move, gasping for breath. When at last he descended

    the three steps and fell backward in the large chair which Dorothea had

    drawn close to the foot of the ladder, he no longer gasped but seemed

    helpless and about to faint. Dorothea rang the bell violently, and

    presently Mr. Casaubon was helped to the couch: he did not faint, and

    was gradually reviving, when Sir James Chettam came in, having been met

    in the hall with the news that Mr. Casaubon had "had a fit in the

    library."

    "Good God! this is just what might have been expected," was his

    immediate thought. If his prophetic soul had been urged to

    particularize, it seemed to him that "fits" would have been the

    definite expression alighted upon. He asked his informant, the butler,

    whether the doctor had been sent for. The butler never knew his master

    to want the doctor before; but would it not be right to send for a

    physician?

    When Sir James entered the library, however, Mr. Casaubon could make

    some signs of his usual politeness, and Dorothea, who in the reaction

    from her first terror had been kneeling and sobbing by his side now

    rose and herself proposed that some one should ride off for a medical

    man.

    "I recommend you to send for Lydgate," said Sir James. "My mother has

    called him in, and she has found him uncommonly clever. She has had a

    poor opinion of the physicians since my father's death."

    Dorothea appealed to her husband, and he made a silent sign of

    approval. So Mr. Lydgate was sent for and he came wonderfully soon,

    for the messenger, who was Sir James Chettam's man and knew Mr.

    Lydgate, met him leading his horse along the Lowick road and giving his

    arm to Miss Vincy.

    Celia, in the drawing-room, had known nothing of the trouble till Sir

    James told her of it. After Dorothea's account, he no longer

    considered the illness a fit, but still something "of that nature."

    "Poor dear Dodo—how dreadful!" said Celia, feeling as much grieved as

    her own perfect happiness would allow. Her little hands were clasped,

    and enclosed by Sir James's as a bud is enfolded by a liberal calyx.

    "It is very shocking that Mr. Casaubon should be ill; but I never did

    like him. And I think he is not half fond enough of Dorothea; and he

    ought to be, for I am sure no one else would have had him—do you

    think they would?"

    "I always thought it a horrible sacrifice of your sister," said Sir

    James.

    "Yes. But poor Dodo never did do what other people do, and I think she

    never will."

    "She is a noble creature," said the loyal-hearted Sir James. He had

    just had a fresh impression of this kind, as he had seen Dorothea

    stretching her tender arm under her husband's neck and looking at him

    with unspeakable sorrow. He did not know how much penitence there was

    in the sorrow.

    "Yes," said Celia, thinking it was very well for Sir James to say so,

    but he would not have been comfortable with Dodo. "Shall I go to

    her? Could I help her, do you think?"

    "I think it would be well for you just to go and see her before Lydgate

    comes," said Sir James, magnanimously. "Only don't stay long."

    While Celia was gone he walked up and down remembering what he had

    originally felt about Dorothea's engagement, and feeling a revival of

    his disgust at Mr. Brooke's indifference. If Cadwallader—if every

    one else had regarded the affair as he, Sir James, had done, the

    marriage might have been hindered. It was wicked to let a young girl

    blindly decide her fate in that way, without any effort to save her.

    Sir James had long ceased to have any regrets on his own account: his

    heart was satisfied with his engagement to Celia. But he had a

    chivalrous nature (was not the disinterested service of woman among the

    ideal glories of old chivalry?): his disregarded love had not turned to

    bitterness; its death had made sweet odors—floating memories that

    clung with a consecrating effect to Dorothea. He could remain her

    brotherly friend, interpreting her actions with generous trustfulness.


    CHAPTER XXX.


    "Qui veut delasser hors de propos, lasse."—PASCAL.

    Mr. Casaubon had no second attack of equal severity with the first, and

    in a few days began to recover his usual condition. But Lydgate seemed

    to think the case worth a great deal of attention. He not only used

    his stethoscope (which had not become a matter of course in practice at

    that time), but sat quietly by his patient and watched him. To Mr.

    Casaubon's questions about himself, he replied that the source of the

    illness was the common error of intellectual men—a too eager and

    monotonous application: the remedy was, to be satisfied with moderate

    work, and to seek variety of relaxation. Mr. Brooke, who sat by on one

    occasion, suggested that Mr. Casaubon should go fishing, as Cadwallader

    did, and have a turning-room, make toys, table-legs, and that kind of

    thing.

    "In short, you recommend me to anticipate the arrival of my second

    childhood," said poor Mr. Casaubon, with some bitterness. "These

    things," he added, looking at Lydgate, "would be to me such relaxation

    as tow-picking is to prisoners in a house of correction."

    "I confess," said Lydgate, smiling, "amusement is rather an

    unsatisfactory prescription. It is something like telling people to

    keep up their spirits. Perhaps I had better say, that you must submit

    to be mildly bored rather than to go on working."

    "Yes, yes," said Mr. Brooke. "Get Dorothea to play backgammon with you

    in the evenings. And shuttlecock, now—I don't know a finer game than

    shuttlecock for the daytime. I remember it all the fashion. To be

    sure, your eyes might not stand that, Casaubon. But you must unbend,

    you know. Why, you might take to some light study: conchology, now: I

    always think that must be a light study. Or get Dorothea to read you

    light things, Smollett—'Roderick Random,' 'Humphrey Clinker:' they

    are a little broad, but she may read anything now she's married, you

    know. I remember they made me laugh uncommonly—there's a droll bit

    about a postilion's breeches. We have no such humor now. I have gone

    through all these things, but they might be rather new to you."

    "As new as eating thistles," would have been an answer to represent Mr.

    Casaubon's feelings. But he only bowed resignedly, with due respect to

    his wife's uncle, and observed that doubtless the works he mentioned

    had "served as a resource to a certain order of minds."

    "You see," said the able magistrate to Lydgate, when they were outside

    the door, "Casaubon has been a little narrow: it leaves him rather at a

    loss when you forbid him his particular work, which I believe is

    something very deep indeed—in the line of research, you know. I would

    never give way to that; I was always versatile. But a clergyman is

    tied a little tight. If they would make him a bishop, now!—he did a

    very good pamphlet for Peel. He would have more movement then, more

    show; he might get a little flesh. But I recommend you to talk to Mrs.

    Casaubon. She is clever enough for anything, is my niece. Tell her,

    her husband wants liveliness, diversion: put her on amusing tactics."

    Without Mr. Brooke's advice, Lydgate had determined on speaking to

    Dorothea. She had not been present while her uncle was throwing out

    his pleasant suggestions as to the mode in which life at Lowick might

    be enlivened, but she was usually by her husband's side, and the

    unaffected signs of intense anxiety in her face and voice about

    whatever touched his mind or health, made a drama which Lydgate was

    inclined to watch. He said to himself that he was only doing right in

    telling her the truth about her husband's probable future, but he

    certainly thought also that it would be interesting to talk

    confidentially with her. A medical man likes to make psychological

    observations, and sometimes in the pursuit of such studies is too

    easily tempted into momentous prophecy which life and death easily set

    at nought. Lydgate had often been satirical on this gratuitous

    prediction, and he meant now to be guarded.

    He asked for Mrs. Casaubon, but being told that she was out walking, he

    was going away, when Dorothea and Celia appeared, both glowing from

    their struggle with the March wind. When Lydgate begged to speak with

    her alone, Dorothea opened the library door which happened to be the

    nearest, thinking of nothing at the moment but what he might have to

    say about Mr. Casaubon. It was the first time she had entered this

    room since her husband had been taken ill, and the servant had chosen

    not to open the shutters. But there was light enough to read by from

    the narrow upper panes of the windows.

    "You will not mind this sombre light," said Dorothea, standing in the

    middle of the room. "Since you forbade books, the library has been out

    of the question. But Mr. Casaubon will soon be here again, I hope. Is

    he not making progress?"

    "Yes, much more rapid progress than I at first expected. Indeed, he is

    already nearly in his usual state of health."

    "You do not fear that the illness will return?" said Dorothea, whose

    quick ear had detected some significance in Lydgate's tone.

    "Such cases are peculiarly difficult to pronounce upon," said Lydgate.

    "The only point on which I can be confident is that it will be

    desirable to be very watchful on Mr. Casaubon's account, lest he should

    in any way strain his nervous power."

    "I beseech you to speak quite plainly," said Dorothea, in an imploring

    tone. "I cannot bear to think that there might be something which I

    did not know, and which, if I had known it, would have made me act

    differently." The words came out like a cry: it was evident that they

    were the voice of some mental experience which lay not very far off.

    "Sit down," she added, placing herself on the nearest chair, and

    throwing off her bonnet and gloves, with an instinctive discarding of

    formality where a great question of destiny was concerned.

    "What you say now justifies my own view," said Lydgate. "I think it is

    one's function as a medical man to hinder regrets of that sort as far

    as possible. But I beg you to observe that Mr. Casaubon's case is

    precisely of the kind in which the issue is most difficult to pronounce

    upon. He may possibly live for fifteen years or more, without much

    worse health than he has had hitherto."

    Dorothea had turned very pale, and when Lydgate paused she said in a

    low voice, "You mean if we are very careful."

    "Yes—careful against mental agitation of all kinds, and against

    excessive application."

    "He would be miserable, if he had to give up his work," said Dorothea,

    with a quick prevision of that wretchedness.

    "I am aware of that. The only course is to try by all means, direct

    and indirect, to moderate and vary his occupations. With a happy

    concurrence of circumstances, there is, as I said, no immediate danger

    from that affection of the heart, which I believe to have been the

    cause of his late attack. On the other hand, it is possible that the

    disease may develop itself more rapidly: it is one of those eases in

    which death is sometimes sudden. Nothing should be neglected which

    might be affected by such an issue."

    There was silence for a few moments, while Dorothea sat as if she had

    been turned to marble, though the life within her was so intense that

    her mind had never before swept in brief time over an equal range of

    scenes and motives.

    "Help me, pray," she said, at last, in the same low voice as before.

    "Tell me what I can do."

    "What do you think of foreign travel? You have been lately in Rome, I

    think."

    The memories which made this resource utterly hopeless were a new

    current that shook Dorothea out of her pallid immobility.

    "Oh, that would not do—that would be worse than anything," she said

    with a more childlike despondency, while the tears rolled down.

    "Nothing will be of any use that he does not enjoy."

    "I wish that I could have spared you this pain," said Lydgate, deeply

    touched, yet wondering about her marriage. Women just like Dorothea

    had not entered into his traditions.

    "It was right of you to tell me. I thank you for telling me the truth."

    "I wish you to understand that I shall not say anything to enlighten

    Mr. Casaubon himself. I think it desirable for him to know nothing

    more than that he must not overwork himself, and must observe certain

    rules. Anxiety of any kind would be precisely the most unfavorable

    condition for him."

    Lydgate rose, and Dorothea mechanically rose at the same time,

    unclasping her cloak and throwing it off as if it stifled her. He was

    bowing and quitting her, when an impulse which if she had been alone

    would have turned into a prayer, made her say with a sob in her voice—

    "Oh, you are a wise man, are you not? You know all about life and

    death. Advise me. Think what I can do. He has been laboring all his

    life and looking forward. He minds about nothing else.— And I mind

    about nothing else—"

    For years after Lydgate remembered the impression produced in him by

    this involuntary appeal—this cry from soul to soul, without other

    consciousness than their moving with kindred natures in the same

    embroiled medium, the same troublous fitfully illuminated life. But

    what could he say now except that he should see Mr. Casaubon again

    to-morrow?

    When he was gone, Dorothea's tears gushed forth, and relieved her

    stifling oppression. Then she dried her eyes, reminded that her

    distress must not be betrayed to her husband; and looked round the room

    thinking that she must order the servant to attend to it as usual,

    since Mr. Casaubon might now at any moment wish to enter. On his

    writing-table there were letters which had lain untouched since the

    morning when he was taken ill, and among them, as Dorothea well

    remembered, there were young Ladislaw's letters, the one addressed to

    her still unopened. The associations of these letters had been made

    the more painful by that sudden attack of illness which she felt that

    the agitation caused by her anger might have helped to bring on: it

    would be time enough to read them when they were again thrust upon her,

    and she had had no inclination to fetch them from the library. But now

    it occurred to her that they should be put out of her husband's sight:

    whatever might have been the sources of his annoyance about them, he

    must, if possible, not be annoyed again; and she ran her eyes first

    over the letter addressed to him to assure herself whether or not it

    would be necessary to write in order to hinder the offensive visit.

    Will wrote from Rome, and began by saying that his obligations to Mr.

    Casaubon were too deep for all thanks not to seem impertinent. It was

    plain that if he were not grateful, he must be the poorest-spirited

    rascal who had ever found a generous friend. To expand in wordy thanks

    would be like saying, "I am honest." But Will had come to perceive that

    his defects—defects which Mr. Casaubon had himself often pointed

    to—needed for their correction that more strenuous position which his

    relative's generosity had hitherto prevented from being inevitable. He

    trusted that he should make the best return, if return were possible,

    by showing the effectiveness of the education for which he was

    indebted, and by ceasing in future to need any diversion towards

    himself of funds on which others might have a better claim. He was

    coming to England, to try his fortune, as many other young men were

    obliged to do whose only capital was in their brains. His friend

    Naumann had desired him to take charge of the "Dispute"—the picture

    painted for Mr. Casaubon, with whose permission, and Mrs. Casaubon's,

    Will would convey it to Lowick in person. A letter addressed to the

    Poste Restante in Paris within the fortnight would hinder him, if

    necessary, from arriving at an inconvenient moment. He enclosed a

    letter to Mrs. Casaubon in which he continued a discussion about art,

    begun with her in Rome.

    Opening her own letter Dorothea saw that it was a lively continuation

    of his remonstrance with her fanatical sympathy and her want of sturdy

    neutral delight in things as they were—an outpouring of his young

    vivacity which it was impossible to read just now. She had immediately

    to consider what was to be done about the other letter: there was still

    time perhaps to prevent Will from coming to Lowick. Dorothea ended by

    giving the letter to her uncle, who was still in the house, and begging

    him to let Will know that Mr. Casaubon had been ill, and that his

    health would not allow the reception of any visitors.

    No one more ready than Mr. Brooke to write a letter: his only

    difficulty was to write a short one, and his ideas in this case

    expanded over the three large pages and the inward foldings. He had

    simply said to Dorothea—

    "To be sure, I will write, my dear. He's a very clever young

    fellow—this young Ladislaw—I dare say will be a rising young man.

    It's a good letter—marks his sense of things, you know. However, I

    will tell him about Casaubon."

    But the end of Mr. Brooke's pen was a thinking organ, evolving

    sentences, especially of a benevolent kind, before the rest of his mind

    could well overtake them. It expressed regrets and proposed remedies,

    which, when Mr. Brooke read them, seemed felicitously

    worded—surprisingly the right thing, and determined a sequel which he

    had never before thought of. In this case, his pen found it such a pity

    young Ladislaw should not have come into the neighborhood just at

    that time, in order that Mr. Brooke might make his acquaintance more

    fully, and that they might go over the long-neglected Italian drawings

    together—it also felt such an interest in a young man who was starting

    in life with a stock of ideas—that by the end of the second page it

    had persuaded Mr. Brooke to invite young Ladislaw, since he could not

    be received at Lowick, to come to Tipton Grange. Why not? They could

    find a great many things to do together, and this was a period of

    peculiar growth—the political horizon was expanding, and—in short,

    Mr. Brooke's pen went off into a little speech which it had lately

    reported for that imperfectly edited organ the "Middlemarch Pioneer."

    While Mr. Brooke was sealing this letter, he felt elated with an influx

    of dim projects:—a young man capable of putting ideas into form, the

    "Pioneer" purchased to clear the pathway for a new candidate, documents

    utilized—who knew what might come of it all? Since Celia was going to

    marry immediately, it would be very pleasant to have a young fellow at

    table with him, at least for a time.

    But he went away without telling Dorothea what he had put into the

    letter, for she was engaged with her husband, and—in fact, these

    things were of no importance to her.


    CHAPTER XXXI.


    How will you know the pitch of that great bell
    Too large for you to stir? Let but a flute
    Play 'neath the fine-mixed metal listen close
    Till the right note flows forth, a silvery rill.
    Then shall the huge bell tremble—then the mass
    With myriad waves concurrent shall respond
    In low soft unison.

    Lydgate that evening spoke to Miss Vincy of Mrs. Casaubon, and laid

    some emphasis on the strong feeling she appeared to have for that

    formal studious man thirty years older than herself.

    "Of course she is devoted to her husband," said Rosamond, implying a

    notion of necessary sequence which the scientific man regarded as the

    prettiest possible for a woman; but she was thinking at the same time

    that it was not so very melancholy to be mistress of Lowick Manor with

    a husband likely to die soon. "Do you think her very handsome?"

    "She certainly is handsome, but I have not thought about it," said

    Lydgate.

    "I suppose it would be unprofessional," said Rosamond, dimpling. "But

    how your practice is spreading! You were called in before to the

    Chettams, I think; and now, the Casaubons."

    "Yes," said Lydgate, in a tone of compulsory admission. "But I don't

    really like attending such people so well as the poor. The cases are

    more monotonous, and one has to go through more fuss and listen more

    deferentially to nonsense."

    "Not more than in Middlemarch," said Rosamond. "And at least you go

    through wide corridors and have the scent of rose-leaves everywhere."

    "That is true, Mademoiselle de Montmorenci," said Lydgate, just bending

    his head to the table and lifting with his fourth finger her delicate

    handkerchief which lay at the mouth of her reticule, as if to enjoy its

    scent, while he looked at her with a smile.

    But this agreeable holiday freedom with which Lydgate hovered about the

    flower of Middlemarch, could not continue indefinitely. It was not

    more possible to find social isolation in that town than elsewhere, and

    two people persistently flirting could by no means escape from "the

    various entanglements, weights, blows, clashings, motions, by which

    things severally go on." Whatever Miss Vincy did must be remarked, and

    she was perhaps the more conspicuous to admirers and critics because

    just now Mrs. Vincy, after some struggle, had gone with Fred to stay a

    little while at Stone Court, there being no other way of at once

    gratifying old Featherstone and keeping watch against Mary Garth, who

    appeared a less tolerable daughter-in-law in proportion as Fred's

    illness disappeared.

    Aunt Bulstrode, for example, came a little oftener into Lowick Gate to

    see Rosamond, now she was alone. For Mrs. Bulstrode had a true

    sisterly feeling for her brother; always thinking that he might have

    married better, but wishing well to the children. Now Mrs. Bulstrode

    had a long-standing intimacy with Mrs. Plymdale. They had nearly the

    same preferences in silks, patterns for underclothing, china-ware, and

    clergymen; they confided their little troubles of health and household

    management to each other, and various little points of superiority on

    Mrs. Bulstrode's side, namely, more decided seriousness, more

    admiration for mind, and a house outside the town, sometimes served to

    give color to their conversation without dividing them—well-meaning

    women both, knowing very little of their own motives.

    Mrs. Bulstrode, paying a morning visit to Mrs. Plymdale, happened to

    say that she could not stay longer, because she was going to see poor

    Rosamond.

    "Why do you say 'poor Rosamond'?" said Mrs. Plymdale, a round-eyed

    sharp little woman, like a tamed falcon.

    "She is so pretty, and has been brought up in such thoughtlessness.

    The mother, you know, had always that levity about her, which makes me

    anxious for the children."

    "Well, Harriet, if I am to speak my mind," said Mrs. Plymdale, with

    emphasis, "I must say, anybody would suppose you and Mr. Bulstrode

    would be delighted with what has happened, for you have done everything

    to put Mr. Lydgate forward."

    "Selina, what do you mean?" said Mrs. Bulstrode, in genuine surprise.

    "Not but what I am truly thankful for Ned's sake," said Mrs. Plymdale.

    "He could certainly better afford to keep such a wife than some people

    can; but I should wish him to look elsewhere. Still a mother has

    anxieties, and some young men would take to a bad life in consequence.

    Besides, if I was obliged to speak, I should say I was not fond of

    strangers coming into a town."

    "I don't know, Selina," said Mrs. Bulstrode, with a little emphasis in

    her turn. "Mr. Bulstrode was a stranger here at one time. Abraham and

    Moses were strangers in the land, and we are told to entertain

    strangers. And especially," she added, after a slight pause, "when

    they are unexceptionable."

    "I was not speaking in a religious sense, Harriet. I spoke as a

    mother."

    "Selina, I am sure you have never heard me say anything against a niece

    of mine marrying your son."

    "Oh, it is pride in Miss Vincy—I am sure it is nothing else," said

    Mrs. Plymdale, who had never before given all her confidence to

    "Harriet" on this subject. "No young man in Middlemarch was good

    enough for her: I have heard her mother say as much. That is not a

    Christian spirit, I think. But now, from all I hear, she has found a

    man as proud as herself."

    "You don't mean that there is anything between Rosamond and Mr.

    Lydgate?" said Mrs. Bulstrode, rather mortified at finding out her own

    ignorance.

    "Is it possible you don't know, Harriet?"

    "Oh, I go about so little; and I am not fond of gossip; I really never

    hear any. You see so many people that I don't see. Your circle is

    rather different from ours."

    "Well, but your own niece and Mr. Bulstrode's great favorite—and

    yours too, I am sure, Harriet! I thought, at one time, you meant him

    for Kate, when she is a little older."

    "I don't believe there can be anything serious at present," said Mrs.

    Bulstrode. "My brother would certainly have told me."

    "Well, people have different ways, but I understand that nobody can see

    Miss Vincy and Mr. Lydgate together without taking them to be engaged.

    However, it is not my business. Shall I put up the pattern of mittens?"

    After this Mrs. Bulstrode drove to her niece with a mind newly

    weighted. She was herself handsomely dressed, but she noticed with a

    little more regret than usual that Rosamond, who was just come in and

    met her in walking-dress, was almost as expensively equipped. Mrs.

    Bulstrode was a feminine smaller edition of her brother, and had none

    of her husband's low-toned pallor. She had a good honest glance and

    used no circumlocution.

    "You are alone, I see, my dear," she said, as they entered the

    drawing-room together, looking round gravely. Rosamond felt sure that

    her aunt had something particular to say, and they sat down near each

    other. Nevertheless, the quilling inside Rosamond's bonnet was so

    charming that it was impossible not to desire the same kind of thing

    for Kate, and Mrs. Bulstrode's eyes, which were rather fine, rolled

    round that ample quilled circuit, while she spoke.

    "I have just heard something about you that has surprised me very much,

    Rosamond."

    "What is that, aunt?" Rosamond's eyes also were roaming over her

    aunt's large embroidered collar.

    "I can hardly believe it—that you should be engaged without my knowing

    it—without your father's telling me." Here Mrs. Bulstrode's eyes

    finally rested on Rosamond's, who blushed deeply, and said—

    "I am not engaged, aunt."

    "How is it that every one says so, then—that it is the town's talk?"

    "The town's talk is of very little consequence, I think," said

    Rosamond, inwardly gratified.

    "Oh, my dear, be more thoughtful; don't despise your neighbors so.

    Remember you are turned twenty-two now, and you will have no fortune:

    your father, I am sure, will not be able to spare you anything. Mr.

    Lydgate is very intellectual and clever; I know there is an attraction

    in that. I like talking to such men myself; and your uncle finds him

    very useful. But the profession is a poor one here. To be sure, this

    life is not everything; but it is seldom a medical man has true

    religious views—there is too much pride of intellect. And you are not

    fit to marry a poor man.

    "Mr. Lydgate is not a poor man, aunt. He has very high connections."

    "He told me himself he was poor."

    "That is because he is used to people who have a high style of living."

    "My dear Rosamond, you must not think of living in high style."

    Rosamond looked down and played with her reticule. She was not a fiery

    young lady and had no sharp answers, but she meant to live as she

    pleased.

    "Then it is really true?" said Mrs. Bulstrode, looking very earnestly

    at her niece. "You are thinking of Mr. Lydgate—there is some

    understanding between you, though your father doesn't know. Be open,

    my dear Rosamond: Mr. Lydgate has really made you an offer?"

    Poor Rosamond's feelings were very unpleasant. She had been quite easy

    as to Lydgate's feeling and intention, but now when her aunt put this

    question she did not like being unable to say Yes. Her pride was hurt,

    but her habitual control of manner helped her.

    "Pray excuse me, aunt. I would rather not speak on the subject."

    "You would not give your heart to a man without a decided prospect, I

    trust, my dear. And think of the two excellent offers I know of that

    you have refused!—and one still within your reach, if you will not

    throw it away. I knew a very great beauty who married badly at last,

    by doing so. Mr. Ned Plymdale is a nice young man—some might think

    good-looking; and an only son; and a large business of that kind is

    better than a profession. Not that marrying is everything. I would

    have you seek first the kingdom of God. But a girl should keep her

    heart within her own power."

    "I should never give it to Mr. Ned Plymdale, if it were. I have

    already refused him. If I loved, I should love at once and without

    change," said Rosamond, with a great sense of being a romantic heroine,

    and playing the part prettily.

    "I see how it is, my dear," said Mrs. Bulstrode, in a melancholy voice,

    rising to go. "You have allowed your affections to be engaged without

    return."

    "No, indeed, aunt," said Rosamond, with emphasis.

    "Then you are quite confident that Mr. Lydgate has a serious attachment

    to you?"

    Rosamond's cheeks by this time were persistently burning, and she felt

    much mortification. She chose to be silent, and her aunt went away all

    the more convinced.

    Mr. Bulstrode in things worldly and indifferent was disposed to do what

    his wife bade him, and she now, without telling her reasons, desired

    him on the next opportunity to find out in conversation with Mr.

    Lydgate whether he had any intention of marrying soon. The result was

    a decided negative. Mr. Bulstrode, on being cross-questioned, showed

    that Lydgate had spoken as no man would who had any attachment that

    could issue in matrimony. Mrs. Bulstrode now felt that she had a

    serious duty before her, and she soon managed to arrange a tete-a-tete

    with Lydgate, in which she passed from inquiries about Fred Vincy's

    health, and expressions of her sincere anxiety for her brother's large

    family, to general remarks on the dangers which lay before young people

    with regard to their settlement in life. Young men were often wild and

    disappointing, making little return for the money spent on them, and a

    girl was exposed to many circumstances which might interfere with her

    prospects.

    "Especially when she has great attractions, and her parents see much

    company," said Mrs. Bulstrode "Gentlemen pay her attention, and engross

    her all to themselves, for the mere pleasure of the moment, and that

    drives off others. I think it is a heavy responsibility, Mr. Lydgate,

    to interfere with the prospects of any girl." Here Mrs. Bulstrode fixed

    her eyes on him, with an unmistakable purpose of warning, if not of

    rebuke.

    "Clearly," said Lydgate, looking at her—perhaps even staring a little

    in return. "On the other hand, a man must be a great coxcomb to go

    about with a notion that he must not pay attention to a young lady lest

    she should fall in love with him, or lest others should think she must."

    "Oh, Mr. Lydgate, you know well what your advantages are. You know

    that our young men here cannot cope with you. Where you frequent a

    house it may militate very much against a girl's making a desirable

    settlement in life, and prevent her from accepting offers even if they

    are made."

    Lydgate was less flattered by his advantage over the Middlemarch

    Orlandos than he was annoyed by the perception of Mrs. Bulstrode's

    meaning. She felt that she had spoken as impressively as it was

    necessary to do, and that in using the superior word "militate" she had

    thrown a noble drapery over a mass of particulars which were still

    evident enough.

    Lydgate was fuming a little, pushed his hair back with one hand, felt

    curiously in his waistcoat-pocket with the other, and then stooped to

    beckon the tiny black spaniel, which had the insight to decline his

    hollow caresses. It would not have been decent to go away, because he

    had been dining with other guests, and had just taken tea. But Mrs.

    Bulstrode, having no doubt that she had been understood, turned the

    conversation.

    Solomon's Proverbs, I think, have omitted to say, that as the sore

    palate findeth grit, so an uneasy consciousness heareth innuendoes.

    The next day Mr. Farebrother, parting from Lydgate in the street,

    supposed that they should meet at Vincy's in the evening. Lydgate

    answered curtly, no—he had work to do—he must give up going out in

    the evening.

    "What! you are going to get lashed to the mast, eh, and are stopping

    your ears?" said the Vicar. "Well, if you don't mean to be won by the

    sirens, you are right to take precautions in time."

    A few days before, Lydgate would have taken no notice of these words as

    anything more than the Vicar's usual way of putting things. They

    seemed now to convey an innuendo which confirmed the impression that he

    had been making a fool of himself and behaving so as to be

    misunderstood: not, he believed, by Rosamond herself; she, he felt

    sure, took everything as lightly as he intended it. She had an

    exquisite tact and insight in relation to all points of manners; but

    the people she lived among were blunderers and busybodies. However,

    the mistake should go no farther. He resolved—and kept his

    resolution—that he would not go to Mr. Vincy's except on business.

    Rosamond became very unhappy. The uneasiness first stirred by her

    aunt's questions grew and grew till at the end of ten days that she had

    not seen Lydgate, it grew into terror at the blank that might possibly

    come—into foreboding of that ready, fatal sponge which so cheaply

    wipes out the hopes of mortals. The world would have a new dreariness

    for her, as a wilderness that a magician's spells had turned for a

    little while into a garden. She felt that she was beginning to know

    the pang of disappointed love, and that no other man could be the

    occasion of such delightful aerial building as she had been enjoying

    for the last six months. Poor Rosamond lost her appetite and felt as

    forlorn as Ariadne—as a charming stage Ariadne left behind with all

    her boxes full of costumes and no hope of a coach.

    There are many wonderful mixtures in the world which are all alike

    called love, and claim the privileges of a sublime rage which is an

    apology for everything (in literature and the drama). Happily Rosamond

    did not think of committing any desperate act: she plaited her fair

    hair as beautifully as usual, and kept herself proudly calm. Her most

    cheerful supposition was that her aunt Bulstrode had interfered in some

    way to hinder Lydgate's visits: everything was better than a

    spontaneous indifference in him. Any one who imagines ten days too

    short a time—not for falling into leanness, lightness, or other

    measurable effects of passion, but—for the whole spiritual circuit of

    alarmed conjecture and disappointment, is ignorant of what can go on in

    the elegant leisure of a young lady's mind.

    On the eleventh day, however, Lydgate when leaving Stone Court was

    requested by Mrs. Vincy to let her husband know that there was a marked

    change in Mr. Featherstone's health, and that she wished him to come to

    Stone Court on that day. Now Lydgate might have called at the

    warehouse, or might have written a message on a leaf of his pocket-book

    and left it at the door. Yet these simple devices apparently did not

    occur to him, from which we may conclude that he had no strong

    objection to calling at the house at an hour when Mr. Vincy was not at

    home, and leaving the message with Miss Vincy. A man may, from various

    motives, decline to give his company, but perhaps not even a sage would

    be gratified that nobody missed him. It would be a graceful, easy way

    of piecing on the new habits to the old, to have a few playful words

    with Rosamond about his resistance to dissipation, and his firm resolve

    to take long fasts even from sweet sounds. It must be confessed, also,

    that momentary speculations as to all the possible grounds for Mrs.

    Bulstrode's hints had managed to get woven like slight clinging hairs

    into the more substantial web of his thoughts.

    Miss Vincy was alone, and blushed so deeply when Lydgate came in that

    he felt a corresponding embarrassment, and instead of any playfulness,

    he began at once to speak of his reason for calling, and to beg her,

    almost formally, to deliver the message to her father. Rosamond, who

    at the first moment felt as if her happiness were returning, was keenly

    hurt by Lydgate's manner; her blush had departed, and she assented

    coldly, without adding an unnecessary word, some trivial chain-work

    which she had in her hands enabling her to avoid looking at Lydgate

    higher than his chin. In all failures, the beginning is certainly the

    half of the whole. After sitting two long moments while he moved his

    whip and could say nothing, Lydgate rose to go, and Rosamond, made

    nervous by her struggle between mortification and the wish not to

    betray it, dropped her chain as if startled, and rose too,

    mechanically. Lydgate instantaneously stooped to pick up the chain.

    When he rose he was very near to a lovely little face set on a fair

    long neck which he had been used to see turning about under the most

    perfect management of self-contented grace. But as he raised his eyes

    now he saw a certain helpless quivering which touched him quite newly,

    and made him look at Rosamond with a questioning flash. At this moment

    she was as natural as she had ever been when she was five years old:

    she felt that her tears had risen, and it was no use to try to do

    anything else than let them stay like water on a blue flower or let

    them fall over her cheeks, even as they would.

    That moment of naturalness was the crystallizing feather-touch: it

    shook flirtation into love. Remember that the ambitious man who was

    looking at those Forget-me-nots under the water was very warm-hearted

    and rash. He did not know where the chain went; an idea had thrilled

    through the recesses within him which had a miraculous effect in

    raising the power of passionate love lying buried there in no sealed

    sepulchre, but under the lightest, easily pierced mould. His words

    were quite abrupt and awkward; but the tone made them sound like an

    ardent, appealing avowal.

    "What is the matter? you are distressed. Tell me, pray."

    Rosamond had never been spoken to in such tones before. I am not sure

    that she knew what the words were: but she looked at Lydgate and the

    tears fell over her cheeks. There could have been no more complete

    answer than that silence, and Lydgate, forgetting everything else,

    completely mastered by the outrush of tenderness at the sudden belief

    that this sweet young creature depended on him for her joy, actually

    put his arms round her, folding her gently and protectingly—he was

    used to being gentle with the weak and suffering—and kissed each of

    the two large tears. This was a strange way of arriving at an

    understanding, but it was a short way. Rosamond was not angry, but she

    moved backward a little in timid happiness, and Lydgate could now sit

    near her and speak less incompletely. Rosamond had to make her little

    confession, and he poured out words of gratitude and tenderness with

    impulsive lavishment. In half an hour he left the house an engaged

    man, whose soul was not his own, but the woman's to whom he had bound

    himself.

    He came again in the evening to speak with Mr. Vincy, who, just

    returned from Stone Court, was feeling sure that it would not be long

    before he heard of Mr. Featherstone's demise. The felicitous word

    "demise," which had seasonably occurred to him, had raised his spirits

    even above their usual evening pitch. The right word is always a

    power, and communicates its definiteness to our action. Considered as

    a demise, old Featherstone's death assumed a merely legal aspect, so

    that Mr. Vincy could tap his snuff-box over it and be jovial, without

    even an intermittent affectation of solemnity; and Mr. Vincy hated both

    solemnity and affectation. Who was ever awe struck about a testator,

    or sang a hymn on the title to real property? Mr. Vincy was inclined

    to take a jovial view of all things that evening: he even observed to

    Lydgate that Fred had got the family constitution after all, and would

    soon be as fine a fellow as ever again; and when his approbation of

    Rosamond's engagement was asked for, he gave it with astonishing

    facility, passing at once to general remarks on the desirableness of

    matrimony for young men and maidens, and apparently deducing from the

    whole the appropriateness of a little more punch.


    CHAPTER XXXII.


    "They'll take suggestion as a cat laps milk."
    —SHAKESPEARE: Tempest.

    The triumphant confidence of the Mayor founded on Mr. Featherstone's

    insistent demand that Fred and his mother should not leave him, was a

    feeble emotion compared with all that was agitating the breasts of the

    old man's blood-relations, who naturally manifested more their sense of

    the family tie and were more visibly numerous now that he had become

    bedridden. Naturally: for when "poor Peter" had occupied his arm-chair

    in the wainscoted parlor, no assiduous beetles for whom the cook

    prepares boiling water could have been less welcome on a hearth which

    they had reasons for preferring, than those persons whose Featherstone

    blood was ill-nourished, not from penuriousness on their part, but from

    poverty. Brother Solomon and Sister Jane were rich, and the family

    candor and total abstinence from false politeness with which they were

    always received seemed to them no argument that their brother in the

    solemn act of making his will would overlook the superior claims of

    wealth. Themselves at least he had never been unnatural enough to

    banish from his house, and it seemed hardly eccentric that he should

    have kept away Brother Jonah, Sister Martha, and the rest, who had no

    shadow of such claims. They knew Peter's maxim, that money was a good

    egg, and should be laid in a warm nest.

    But Brother Jonah, Sister Martha, and all the needy exiles, held a

    different point of view. Probabilities are as various as the faces to

    be seen at will in fretwork or paper-hangings: every form is there,

    from Jupiter to Judy, if you only look with creative inclination. To

    the poorer and least favored it seemed likely that since Peter had done

    nothing for them in his life, he would remember them at the last.

    Jonah argued that men liked to make a surprise of their wills, while

    Martha said that nobody need be surprised if he left the best part of

    his money to those who least expected it. Also it was not to be

    thought but that an own brother "lying there" with dropsy in his legs

    must come to feel that blood was thicker than water, and if he didn't

    alter his will, he might have money by him. At any rate some

    blood-relations should be on the premises and on the watch against

    those who were hardly relations at all. Such things had been known as

    forged wills and disputed wills, which seemed to have the golden-hazy

    advantage of somehow enabling non-legatees to live out of them. Again,

    those who were no blood-relations might be caught making away with

    things—and poor Peter "lying there" helpless! Somebody should be on

    the watch. But in this conclusion they were at one with Solomon and

    Jane; also, some nephews, nieces, and cousins, arguing with still

    greater subtilty as to what might be done by a man able to "will away"

    his property and give himself large treats of oddity, felt in a

    handsome sort of way that there was a family interest to be attended

    to, and thought of Stone Court as a place which it would be nothing but

    right for them to visit. Sister Martha, otherwise Mrs. Cranch, living

    with some wheeziness in the Chalky Flats, could not undertake the

    journey; but her son, as being poor Peter's own nephew, could represent

    her advantageously, and watch lest his uncle Jonah should make an

    unfair use of the improbable things which seemed likely to happen. In

    fact there was a general sense running in the Featherstone blood that

    everybody must watch everybody else, and that it would be well for

    everybody else to reflect that the Almighty was watching him.

    Thus Stone Court continually saw one or other blood-relation alighting

    or departing, and Mary Garth had the unpleasant task of carrying their

    messages to Mr. Featherstone, who would see none of them, and sent her

    down with the still more unpleasant task of telling them so. As

    manager of the household she felt bound to ask them in good provincial

    fashion to stay and eat; but she chose to consult Mrs. Vincy on the

    point of extra down-stairs consumption now that Mr. Featherstone was

    laid up.

    "Oh, my dear, you must do things handsomely where there's last illness

    and a property. God knows, I don't grudge them every ham in the

    house—only, save the best for the funeral. Have some stuffed veal

    always, and a fine cheese in cut. You must expect to keep open house

    in these last illnesses," said liberal Mrs. Vincy, once more of

    cheerful note and bright plumage.

    But some of the visitors alighted and did not depart after the handsome

    treating to veal and ham. Brother Jonah, for example (there are such

    unpleasant people in most families; perhaps even in the highest

    aristocracy there are Brobdingnag specimens, gigantically in debt and

    bloated at greater expense)—Brother Jonah, I say, having come down in

    the world, was mainly supported by a calling which he was modest enough

    not to boast of, though it was much better than swindling either on

    exchange or turf, but which did not require his presence at Brassing so

    long as he had a good corner to sit in and a supply of food. He chose

    the kitchen-corner, partly because he liked it best, and partly because

    he did not want to sit with Solomon, concerning whom he had a strong

    brotherly opinion. Seated in a famous arm-chair and in his best suit,

    constantly within sight of good cheer, he had a comfortable

    consciousness of being on the premises, mingled with fleeting

    suggestions of Sunday and the bar at the Green Man; and he informed

    Mary Garth that he should not go out of reach of his brother Peter

    while that poor fellow was above ground. The troublesome ones in a

    family are usually either the wits or the idiots. Jonah was the wit

    among the Featherstones, and joked with the maid-servants when they

    came about the hearth, but seemed to consider Miss Garth a suspicious

    character, and followed her with cold eyes.

    Mary would have borne this one pair of eyes with comparative ease, but

    unfortunately there was young Cranch, who, having come all the way from

    the Chalky Flats to represent his mother and watch his uncle Jonah,

    also felt it his duty to stay and to sit chiefly in the kitchen to give

    his uncle company. Young Cranch was not exactly the balancing point

    between the wit and the idiot,—verging slightly towards the latter

    type, and squinting so as to leave everything in doubt about his

    sentiments except that they were not of a forcible character. When

    Mary Garth entered the kitchen and Mr. Jonah Featherstone began to

    follow her with his cold detective eyes, young Cranch turning his head

    in the same direction seemed to insist on it that she should remark how

    he was squinting, as if he did it with design, like the gypsies when

    Borrow read the New Testament to them. This was rather too much for

    poor Mary; sometimes it made her bilious, sometimes it upset her

    gravity. One day that she had an opportunity she could not resist

    describing the kitchen scene to Fred, who would not be hindered from

    immediately going to see it, affecting simply to pass through. But no

    sooner did he face the four eyes than he had to rush through the

    nearest door which happened to lead to the dairy, and there under the

    high roof and among the pans he gave way to laughter which made a

    hollow resonance perfectly audible in the kitchen. He fled by another

    doorway, but Mr. Jonah, who had not before seen Fred's white

    complexion, long legs, and pinched delicacy of face, prepared many

    sarcasms in which these points of appearance were wittily combined with

    the lowest moral attributes.

    "Why, Tom, you don't wear such gentlemanly trousers—you haven't got

    half such fine long legs," said Jonah to his nephew, winking at the

    same time, to imply that there was something more in these statements

    than their undeniableness. Tom looked at his legs, but left it

    uncertain whether he preferred his moral advantages to a more vicious

    length of limb and reprehensible gentility of trouser.

    In the large wainscoted parlor too there were constantly pairs of eyes

    on the watch, and own relatives eager to be "sitters-up." Many came,

    lunched, and departed, but Brother Solomon and the lady who had been

    Jane Featherstone for twenty-five years before she was Mrs. Waule found

    it good to be there every day for hours, without other calculable

    occupation than that of observing the cunning Mary Garth (who was so

    deep that she could be found out in nothing) and giving occasional dry

    wrinkly indications of crying—as if capable of torrents in a wetter

    season—at the thought that they were not allowed to go into Mr.

    Featherstone's room. For the old man's dislike of his own family

    seemed to get stronger as he got less able to amuse himself by saying

    biting things to them. Too languid to sting, he had the more venom

    refluent in his blood.

    Not fully believing the message sent through Mary Garth, they had

    presented themselves together within the door of the bedroom, both in

    black—Mrs. Waule having a white handkerchief partially unfolded in her

    hand—and both with faces in a sort of half-mourning purple; while Mrs.

    Vincy with her pink cheeks and pink ribbons flying was actually

    administering a cordial to their own brother, and the

    light-complexioned Fred, his short hair curling as might be expected in

    a gambler's, was lolling at his ease in a large chair.

    Old Featherstone no sooner caught sight of these funereal figures

    appearing in spite of his orders than rage came to strengthen him more

    successfully than the cordial. He was propped up on a bed-rest, and

    always had his gold-headed stick lying by him. He seized it now and

    swept it backwards and forwards in as large an area as he could,

    apparently to ban these ugly spectres, crying in a hoarse sort of

    screech—

    "Back, back, Mrs. Waule! Back, Solomon!"

    "Oh, Brother. Peter," Mrs. Waule began—but Solomon put his hand

    before her repressingly. He was a large-cheeked man, nearly seventy,

    with small furtive eyes, and was not only of much blander temper but

    thought himself much deeper than his brother Peter; indeed not likely

    to be deceived in any of his fellow-men, inasmuch as they could not

    well be more greedy and deceitful than he suspected them of being.

    Even the invisible powers, he thought, were likely to be soothed by a

    bland parenthesis here and there—coming from a man of property, who

    might have been as impious as others.

    "Brother Peter," he said, in a wheedling yet gravely official tone,

    "It's nothing but right I should speak to you about the Three Crofts

    and the Manganese. The Almighty knows what I've got on my mind—"

    "Then he knows more than I want to know," said Peter, laying down his

    stick with a show of truce which had a threat in it too, for he

    reversed the stick so as to make the gold handle a club in case of

    closer fighting, and looked hard at Solomon's bald head.

    "There's things you might repent of, Brother, for want of speaking to

    me," said Solomon, not advancing, however. "I could sit up with you

    to-night, and Jane with me, willingly, and you might take your own time

    to speak, or let me speak."

    "Yes, I shall take my own time—you needn't offer me yours," said Peter.

    "But you can't take your own time to die in, Brother," began Mrs.

    Waule, with her usual woolly tone. "And when you lie speechless you

    may be tired of having strangers about you, and you may think of me and

    my children"—but here her voice broke under the touching thought which

    she was attributing to her speechless brother; the mention of ourselves

    being naturally affecting.

    "No, I shan't," said old Featherstone, contradictiously. "I shan't

    think of any of you. I've made my will, I tell you, I've made my

    will." Here he turned his head towards Mrs. Vincy, and swallowed some

    more of his cordial.

    "Some people would be ashamed to fill up a place belonging by rights to

    others," said Mrs. Waule, turning her narrow eyes in the same direction.

    "Oh, sister," said Solomon, with ironical softness, "you and me are not

    fine, and handsome, and clever enough: we must be humble and let smart

    people push themselves before us."

    Fred's spirit could not bear this: rising and looking at Mr.

    Featherstone, he said, "Shall my mother and I leave the room, sir, that

    you may be alone with your friends?"

    "Sit down, I tell you," said old Featherstone, snappishly. "Stop where

    you are. Good-by, Solomon," he added, trying to wield his stick again,

    but failing now that he had reversed the handle. "Good-by, Mrs. Waule.

    Don't you come again."

    "I shall be down-stairs, Brother, whether or no," said Solomon. "I

    shall do my duty, and it remains to be seen what the Almighty will

    allow."

    "Yes, in property going out of families," said Mrs. Waule, in

    continuation,—"and where there's steady young men to carry on. But I

    pity them who are not such, and I pity their mothers. Good-by, Brother

    Peter."

    "Remember, I'm the eldest after you, Brother, and prospered from the

    first, just as you did, and have got land already by the name of

    Featherstone," said Solomon, relying much on that reflection, as one

    which might be suggested in the watches of the night. "But I bid you

    good-by for the present."

    Their exit was hastened by their seeing old Mr. Featherstone pull his

    wig on each side and shut his eyes with his mouth-widening grimace, as

    if he were determined to be deaf and blind.

    None the less they came to Stone Court daily and sat below at the post

    of duty, sometimes carrying on a slow dialogue in an undertone in which

    the observation and response were so far apart, that any one hearing

    them might have imagined himself listening to speaking automata, in

    some doubt whether the ingenious mechanism would really work, or wind

    itself up for a long time in order to stick and be silent. Solomon and

    Jane would have been sorry to be quick: what that led to might be seen

    on the other side of the wall in the person of Brother Jonah.

    But their watch in the wainscoted parlor was sometimes varied by the

    presence of other guests from far or near. Now that Peter Featherstone

    was up-stairs, his property could be discussed with all that local

    enlightenment to be found on the spot: some rural and Middlemarch

    neighbors expressed much agreement with the family and sympathy with

    their interest against the Vincys, and feminine visitors were even

    moved to tears, in conversation with Mrs. Waule, when they recalled the

    fact that they themselves had been disappointed in times past by

    codicils and marriages for spite on the part of ungrateful elderly

    gentlemen, who, it might have been supposed, had been spared for

    something better. Such conversation paused suddenly, like an organ

    when the bellows are let drop, if Mary Garth came into the room; and

    all eyes were turned on her as a possible legatee, or one who might get

    access to iron chests.

    But the younger men who were relatives or connections of the family,

    were disposed to admire her in this problematic light, as a girl who

    showed much conduct, and who among all the chances that were flying

    might turn out to be at least a moderate prize. Hence she had her

    share of compliments and polite attentions.

    Especially from Mr. Borthrop Trumbull, a distinguished bachelor and

    auctioneer of those parts, much concerned in the sale of land and

    cattle: a public character, indeed, whose name was seen on widely

    distributed placards, and who might reasonably be sorry for those who

    did not know of him. He was second cousin to Peter Featherstone, and

    had been treated by him with more amenity than any other relative,

    being useful in matters of business; and in that programme of his

    funeral which the old man had himself dictated, he had been named as a

    Bearer. There was no odious cupidity in Mr. Borthrop Trumbull—nothing

    more than a sincere sense of his own merit, which, he was aware, in

    case of rivalry might tell against competitors; so that if Peter

    Featherstone, who so far as he, Trumbull, was concerned, had

    behaved like as good a soul as ever breathed, should have done anything

    handsome by him, all he could say was, that he had never fished and

    fawned, but had advised him to the best of his experience, which now

    extended over twenty years from the time of his apprenticeship at

    fifteen, and was likely to yield a knowledge of no surreptitious kind.

    His admiration was far from being confined to himself, but was

    accustomed professionally as well as privately to delight in estimating

    things at a high rate. He was an amateur of superior phrases, and

    never used poor language without immediately correcting himself—which

    was fortunate, as he was rather loud, and given to predominate,

    standing or walking about frequently, pulling down his waistcoat with

    the air of a man who is very much of his own opinion, trimming himself

    rapidly with his fore-finger, and marking each new series in these

    movements by a busy play with his large seals. There was occasionally

    a little fierceness in his demeanor, but it was directed chiefly

    against false opinion, of which there is so much to correct in the

    world that a man of some reading and experience necessarily has his

    patience tried. He felt that the Featherstone family generally was of

    limited understanding, but being a man of the world and a public

    character, took everything as a matter of course, and even went to

    converse with Mr. Jonah and young Cranch in the kitchen, not doubting

    that he had impressed the latter greatly by his leading questions

    concerning the Chalky Flats. If anybody had observed that Mr. Borthrop

    Trumbull, being an auctioneer, was bound to know the nature of

    everything, he would have smiled and trimmed himself silently with the

    sense that he came pretty near that. On the whole, in an auctioneering

    way, he was an honorable man, not ashamed of his business, and feeling

    that "the celebrated Peel, now Sir Robert," if introduced to him, would

    not fail to recognize his importance.

    "I don't mind if I have a slice of that ham, and a glass of that ale,

    Miss Garth, if you will allow me," he said, coming into the parlor at

    half-past eleven, after having had the exceptional privilege of seeing

    old Featherstone, and standing with his back to the fire between Mrs.

    Waule and Solomon.

    "It's not necessary for you to go out;—let me ring the bell."

    "Thank you," said Mary, "I have an errand."

    "Well, Mr. Trumbull, you're highly favored," said Mrs. Waule.

    "What! seeing the old man?" said the auctioneer, playing with his seals

    dispassionately. "Ah, you see he has relied on me considerably." Here

    he pressed his lips together, and frowned meditatively.

    "Might anybody ask what their brother has been saying?" said Solomon,

    in a soft tone of humility, in which he had a sense of luxurious

    cunning, he being a rich man and not in need of it.

    "Oh yes, anybody may ask," said Mr. Trumbull, with loud and

    good-humored though cutting sarcasm. "Anybody may interrogate. Any

    one may give their remarks an interrogative turn," he continued, his

    sonorousness rising with his style. "This is constantly done by good

    speakers, even when they anticipate no answer. It is what we call a

    figure of speech—speech at a high figure, as one may say." The

    eloquent auctioneer smiled at his own ingenuity.

    "I shouldn't be sorry to hear he'd remembered you, Mr. Trumbull," said

    Solomon. "I never was against the deserving. It's the undeserving I'm

    against."

    "Ah, there it is, you see, there it is," said Mr. Trumbull,

    significantly. "It can't be denied that undeserving people have been

    legatees, and even residuary legatees. It is so, with testamentary

    dispositions." Again he pursed up his lips and frowned a little.

    "Do you mean to say for certain, Mr. Trumbull, that my brother has left

    his land away from our family?" said Mrs. Waule, on whom, as an

    unhopeful woman, those long words had a depressing effect.

    "A man might as well turn his land into charity land at once as leave

    it to some people," observed Solomon, his sister's question having

    drawn no answer.

    "What, Blue-Coat land?" said Mrs. Waule, again. "Oh, Mr. Trumbull, you

    never can mean to say that. It would be flying in the face of the

    Almighty that's prospered him."

    While Mrs. Waule was speaking, Mr. Borthrop Trumbull walked away from

    the fireplace towards the window, patrolling with his fore-finger round

    the inside of his stock, then along his whiskers and the curves of his

    hair. He now walked to Miss Garth's work-table, opened a book which

    lay there and read the title aloud with pompous emphasis as if he were

    offering it for sale:

    "'Anne of Geierstein' (pronounced Jeersteen) or the 'Maiden of the

    Mist, by the author of Waverley.'" Then turning the page, he began

    sonorously—"The course of four centuries has well-nigh elapsed since

    the series of events which are related in the following chapters took

    place on the Continent." He pronounced the last truly admirable word

    with the accent on the last syllable, not as unaware of vulgar usage,

    but feeling that this novel delivery enhanced the sonorous beauty which

    his reading had given to the whole.

    And now the servant came in with the tray, so that the moments for

    answering Mrs. Waule's question had gone by safely, while she and

    Solomon, watching Mr. Trumbull's movements, were thinking that high

    learning interfered sadly with serious affairs. Mr. Borthrop Trumbull

    really knew nothing about old Featherstone's will; but he could hardly

    have been brought to declare any ignorance unless he had been arrested

    for misprision of treason.

    "I shall take a mere mouthful of ham and a glass of ale," he said,

    reassuringly. "As a man with public business, I take a snack when I

    can. I will back this ham," he added, after swallowing some morsels

    with alarming haste, "against any ham in the three kingdoms. In my

    opinion it is better than the hams at Freshitt Hall—and I think I am

    a tolerable judge."

    "Some don't like so much sugar in their hams," said Mrs. Waule. "But

    my poor brother would always have sugar."

    "If any person demands better, he is at liberty to do so; but, God

    bless me, what an aroma! I should be glad to buy in that quality, I

    know. There is some gratification to a gentleman"—here Mr.

    Trumbull's voice conveyed an emotional remonstrance—"in having this

    kind of ham set on his table."

    He pushed aside his plate, poured out his glass of ale and drew his

    chair a little forward, profiting by the occasion to look at the inner

    side of his legs, which he stroked approvingly—Mr. Trumbull having

    all those less frivolous airs and gestures which distinguish the

    predominant races of the north.

    "You have an interesting work there, I see, Miss Garth," he observed,

    when Mary re-entered. "It is by the author of 'Waverley': that is Sir

    Walter Scott. I have bought one of his works myself—a very nice

    thing, a very superior publication, entitled 'Ivanhoe.' You will not

    get any writer to beat him in a hurry, I think—he will not, in my

    opinion, be speedily surpassed. I have just been reading a portion at

    the commencement of 'Anne of Jeersteen.' It commences well." (Things

    never began with Mr. Borthrop Trumbull: they always commenced, both in

    private life and on his handbills.) "You are a reader, I see. Do you

    subscribe to our Middlemarch library?"

    "No," said Mary. "Mr. Fred Vincy brought this book."

    "I am a great bookman myself," returned Mr. Trumbull. "I have no less

    than two hundred volumes in calf, and I flatter myself they are well

    selected. Also pictures by Murillo, Rubens, Teniers, Titian, Vandyck,

    and others. I shall be happy to lend you any work you like to mention,

    Miss Garth."

    "I am much obliged," said Mary, hastening away again, "but I have

    little time for reading."

    "I should say my brother has done something for her in his will,"

    said Mr. Solomon, in a very low undertone, when she had shut the door

    behind her, pointing with his head towards the absent Mary.

    "His first wife was a poor match for him, though," said Mrs. Waule.

    "She brought him nothing: and this young woman is only her niece,—and

    very proud. And my brother has always paid her wage."

    "A sensible girl though, in my opinion," said Mr. Trumbull, finishing

    his ale and starting up with an emphatic adjustment of his waistcoat.

    "I have observed her when she has been mixing medicine in drops. She

    minds what she is doing, sir. That is a great point in a woman, and a

    great point for our friend up-stairs, poor dear old soul. A man whose

    life is of any value should think of his wife as a nurse: that is what

    I should do, if I married; and I believe I have lived single long

    enough not to make a mistake in that line. Some men must marry to

    elevate themselves a little, but when I am in need of that, I hope some

    one will tell me so—I hope some individual will apprise me of the

    fact. I wish you good morning, Mrs. Waule. Good morning, Mr. Solomon.

    I trust we shall meet under less melancholy auspices."

    When Mr. Trumbull had departed with a fine bow, Solomon, leaning

    forward, observed to his sister, "You may depend, Jane, my brother has

    left that girl a lumping sum."

    "Anybody would think so, from the way Mr. Trumbull talks," said Jane.

    Then, after a pause, "He talks as if my daughters wasn't to be trusted

    to give drops."

    "Auctioneers talk wild," said Solomon. "Not but what Trumbull has made

    money."


    CHAPTER XXXIII.


    "Close up his eyes and draw the curtain close;
    And let us all to meditation."
    —2 Henry VI.

    That night after twelve o'clock Mary Garth relieved the watch in Mr.

    Featherstone's room, and sat there alone through the small hours. She

    often chose this task, in which she found some pleasure,

    notwithstanding the old man's testiness whenever he demanded her

    attentions. There were intervals in which she could sit perfectly

    still, enjoying the outer stillness and the subdued light. The red

    fire with its gently audible movement seemed like a solemn existence

    calmly independent of the petty passions, the imbecile desires, the

    straining after worthless uncertainties, which were daily moving her

    contempt. Mary was fond of her own thoughts, and could amuse herself

    well sitting in twilight with her hands in her lap; for, having early

    had strong reason to believe that things were not likely to be arranged

    for her peculiar satisfaction, she wasted no time in astonishment and

    annoyance at that fact. And she had already come to take life very

    much as a comedy in which she had a proud, nay, a generous resolution

    not to act the mean or treacherous part. Mary might have become

    cynical if she had not had parents whom she honored, and a well of

    affectionate gratitude within her, which was all the fuller because she

    had learned to make no unreasonable claims.

    She sat to-night revolving, as she was wont, the scenes of the day, her

    lips often curling with amusement at the oddities to which her fancy

    added fresh drollery: people were so ridiculous with their illusions,

    carrying their fool's caps unawares, thinking their own lies opaque

    while everybody else's were transparent, making themselves exceptions

    to everything, as if when all the world looked yellow under a lamp they

    alone were rosy. Yet there were some illusions under Mary's eyes which

    were not quite comic to her. She was secretly convinced, though she

    had no other grounds than her close observation of old Featherstone's

    nature, that in spite of his fondness for having the Vincys about him,

    they were as likely to be disappointed as any of the relations whom he

    kept at a distance. She had a good deal of disdain for Mrs. Vincy's

    evident alarm lest she and Fred should be alone together, but it did

    not hinder her from thinking anxiously of the way in which Fred would

    be affected, if it should turn out that his uncle had left him as poor

    as ever. She could make a butt of Fred when he was present, but she

    did not enjoy his follies when he was absent.

    Yet she liked her thoughts: a vigorous young mind not overbalanced by

    passion, finds a good in making acquaintance with life, and watches its

    own powers with interest. Mary had plenty of merriment within.

    Her thought was not veined by any solemnity or pathos about the old man

    on the bed: such sentiments are easier to affect than to feel about an

    aged creature whose life is not visibly anything but a remnant of

    vices. She had always seen the most disagreeable side of Mr.

    Featherstone: he was not proud of her, and she was only useful to him.

    To be anxious about a soul that is always snapping at you must be left

    to the saints of the earth; and Mary was not one of them. She had

    never returned him a harsh word, and had waited on him faithfully: that

    was her utmost. Old Featherstone himself was not in the least anxious

    about his soul, and had declined to see Mr. Tucker on the subject.

    To-night he had not snapped, and for the first hour or two he lay

    remarkably still, until at last Mary heard him rattling his bunch of

    keys against the tin box which he always kept in the bed beside him.

    About three o'clock he said, with remarkable distinctness, "Missy, come

    here!"

    Mary obeyed, and found that he had already drawn the tin box from under

    the clothes, though he usually asked to have this done for him; and he

    had selected the key. He now unlocked the box, and, drawing from it

    another key, looked straight at her with eyes that seemed to have

    recovered all their sharpness and said, "How many of 'em are in the

    house?"

    "You mean of your own relations, sir," said Mary, well used to the old

    man's way of speech. He nodded slightly and she went on.

    "Mr. Jonah Featherstone and young Cranch are sleeping here."

    "Oh ay, they stick, do they? and the rest—they come every day, I'll

    warrant—Solomon and Jane, and all the young uns? They come peeping,

    and counting and casting up?"

    "Not all of them every day. Mr. Solomon and Mrs. Waule are here every

    day, and the others come often."

    The old man listened with a grimace while she spoke, and then said,

    relaxing his face, "The more fools they. You hearken, missy. It's

    three o'clock in the morning, and I've got all my faculties as well as

    ever I had in my life. I know all my property, and where the money's

    put out, and everything. And I've made everything ready to change my

    mind, and do as I like at the last. Do you hear, missy? I've got my

    faculties."

    "Well, sir?" said Mary, quietly.

    He now lowered his tone with an air of deeper cunning. "I've made two

    wills, and I'm going to burn one. Now you do as I tell you. This is

    the key of my iron chest, in the closet there. You push well at the

    side of the brass plate at the top, till it goes like a bolt: then you

    can put the key in the front lock and turn it. See and do that; and

    take out the topmost paper—Last Will and Testament—big printed."

    "No, sir," said Mary, in a firm voice, "I cannot do that."

    "Not do it? I tell you, you must," said the old man, his voice

    beginning to shake under the shock of this resistance.

    "I cannot touch your iron chest or your will. I must refuse to do

    anything that might lay me open to suspicion."

    "I tell you, I'm in my right mind. Shan't I do as I like at the last?

    I made two wills on purpose. Take the key, I say."

    "No, sir, I will not," said Mary, more resolutely still. Her repulsion

    was getting stronger.

    "I tell you, there's no time to lose."

    "I cannot help that, sir. I will not let the close of your life soil

    the beginning of mine. I will not touch your iron chest or your will."

    She moved to a little distance from the bedside.

    The old man paused with a blank stare for a little while, holding the

    one key erect on the ring; then with an agitated jerk he began to work

    with his bony left hand at emptying the tin box before him.

    "Missy," he began to say, hurriedly, "look here! take the money—the

    notes and gold—look here—take it—you shall have it all—do as I

    tell you."

    He made an effort to stretch out the key towards her as far as

    possible, and Mary again retreated.

    "I will not touch your key or your money, sir. Pray don't ask me to do

    it again. If you do, I must go and call your brother."

    He let his hand fall, and for the first time in her life Mary saw old

    Peter Featherstone begin to cry childishly. She said, in as gentle a

    tone as she could command, "Pray put up your money, sir;" and then went

    away to her seat by the fire, hoping this would help to convince him

    that it was useless to say more. Presently he rallied and said

    eagerly—

    "Look here, then. Call the young chap. Call Fred Vincy."

    Mary's heart began to beat more quickly. Various ideas rushed through

    her mind as to what the burning of a second will might imply. She had

    to make a difficult decision in a hurry.

    "I will call him, if you will let me call Mr. Jonah and others with

    him."

    "Nobody else, I say. The young chap. I shall do as I like."

    "Wait till broad daylight, sir, when every one is stirring. Or let me

    call Simmons now, to go and fetch the lawyer? He can be here in less

    than two hours."

    "Lawyer? What do I want with the lawyer? Nobody shall know—I say,

    nobody shall know. I shall do as I like."

    "Let me call some one else, sir," said Mary, persuasively. She did not

    like her position—alone with the old man, who seemed to show a strange

    flaring of nervous energy which enabled him to speak again and again

    without falling into his usual cough; yet she desired not to push

    unnecessarily the contradiction which agitated him. "Let me, pray,

    call some one else."

    "You let me alone, I say. Look here, missy. Take the money. You'll

    never have the chance again. It's pretty nigh two hundred—there's

    more in the box, and nobody knows how much there was. Take it and do

    as I tell you."

    Mary, standing by the fire, saw its red light falling on the old man,

    propped up on his pillows and bed-rest, with his bony hand holding out

    the key, and the money lying on the quilt before him. She never forgot

    that vision of a man wanting to do as he liked at the last. But the

    way in which he had put the offer of the money urged her to speak with

    harder resolution than ever.

    "It is of no use, sir. I will not do it. Put up your money. I will

    not touch your money. I will do anything else I can to comfort you;

    but I will not touch your keys or your money."

    "Anything else anything else!" said old Featherstone, with hoarse rage,

    which, as if in a nightmare, tried to be loud, and yet was only just

    audible. "I want nothing else. You come here—you come here."

    Mary approached him cautiously, knowing him too well. She saw him

    dropping his keys and trying to grasp his stick, while he looked at her

    like an aged hyena, the muscles of his face getting distorted with the

    effort of his hand. She paused at a safe distance.

    "Let me give you some cordial," she said, quietly, "and try to compose

    yourself. You will perhaps go to sleep. And to-morrow by daylight you

    can do as you like."

    He lifted the stick, in spite of her being beyond his reach, and threw

    it with a hard effort which was but impotence. It fell, slipping over

    the foot of the bed. Mary let it lie, and retreated to her chair by

    the fire. By-and-by she would go to him with the cordial. Fatigue

    would make him passive. It was getting towards the chillest moment of

    the morning, the fire had got low, and she could see through the chink

    between the moreen window-curtains the light whitened by the blind.

    Having put some wood on the fire and thrown a shawl over her, she sat

    down, hoping that Mr. Featherstone might now fall asleep. If she went

    near him the irritation might be kept up. He had said nothing after

    throwing the stick, but she had seen him taking his keys again and

    laying his right hand on the money. He did not put it up, however, and

    she thought that he was dropping off to sleep.

    But Mary herself began to be more agitated by the remembrance of what

    she had gone through, than she had been by the reality—questioning

    those acts of hers which had come imperatively and excluded all

    question in the critical moment.

    Presently the dry wood sent out a flame which illuminated every

    crevice, and Mary saw that the old man was lying quietly with his head

    turned a little on one side. She went towards him with inaudible

    steps, and thought that his face looked strangely motionless; but the

    next moment the movement of the flame communicating itself to all

    objects made her uncertain. The violent beating of her heart rendered

    her perceptions so doubtful that even when she touched him and listened

    for his breathing, she could not trust her conclusions. She went to

    the window and gently propped aside the curtain and blind, so that the

    still light of the sky fell on the bed.

    The next moment she ran to the bell and rang it energetically. In a

    very little while there was no longer any doubt that Peter Featherstone

    was dead, with his right hand clasping the keys, and his left hand

    lying on the heap of notes and gold.


    BOOK IV.


    THREE LOVE PROBLEMS.


    CHAPTER XXXIV.



    1st Gent. Such men as this are feathers, chips, and straws.

    2d Gent. But levity
    Is causal too, and makes the sum of weight.
    For power finds its place in lack of power;
    Advance is cession, and the driven ship
    May run aground because the helmsman's thought
    Lacked force to balance opposites."

    It was on a morning of May that Peter Featherstone was buried. In the

    prosaic neighborhood of Middlemarch, May was not always warm and sunny,

    and on this particular morning a chill wind was blowing the blossoms

    from the surrounding gardens on to the green mounds of Lowick

    churchyard. Swiftly moving clouds only now and then allowed a gleam to

    light up any object, whether ugly or beautiful, that happened to stand

    within its golden shower. In the churchyard the objects were

    remarkably various, for there was a little country crowd waiting to see

    the funeral. The news had spread that it was to be a "big burying;"

    the old gentleman had left written directions about everything and

    meant to have a funeral "beyond his betters." This was true; for old

    Featherstone had not been a Harpagon whose passions had all been

    devoured by the ever-lean and ever-hungry passion of saving, and who

    would drive a bargain with his undertaker beforehand. He loved money,

    but he also loved to spend it in gratifying his peculiar tastes, and

    perhaps he loved it best of all as a means of making others feel his

    power more or less uncomfortably. If any one will here contend that

    there must have been traits of goodness in old Featherstone, I will not

    presume to deny this; but I must observe that goodness is of a modest

    nature, easily discouraged, and when much privacy, elbowed in early

    life by unabashed vices, is apt to retire into extreme privacy, so that

    it is more easily believed in by those who construct a selfish old

    gentleman theoretically, than by those who form the narrower judgments

    based on his personal acquaintance. In any case, he had been bent on

    having a handsome funeral, and on having persons "bid" to it who would

    rather have stayed at home. He had even desired that female relatives

    should follow him to the grave, and poor sister Martha had taken a

    difficult journey for this purpose from the Chalky Flats. She and Jane

    would have been altogether cheered (in a tearful manner) by this sign

    that a brother who disliked seeing them while he was living had been

    prospectively fond of their presence when he should have become a

    testator, if the sign had not been made equivocal by being extended to

    Mrs. Vincy, whose expense in handsome crape seemed to imply the most

    presumptuous hopes, aggravated by a bloom of complexion which told

    pretty plainly that she was not a blood-relation, but of that generally

    objectionable class called wife's kin.

    We are all of us imaginative in some form or other, for images are the

    brood of desire; and poor old Featherstone, who laughed much at the way

    in which others cajoled themselves, did not escape the fellowship of

    illusion. In writing the programme for his burial he certainly did not

    make clear to himself that his pleasure in the little drama of which it

    formed a part was confined to anticipation. In chuckling over the

    vexations he could inflict by the rigid clutch of his dead hand, he

    inevitably mingled his consciousness with that livid stagnant presence,

    and so far as he was preoccupied with a future life, it was with one of

    gratification inside his coffin. Thus old Featherstone was

    imaginative, after his fashion.

    However, the three mourning-coaches were filled according to the

    written orders of the deceased. There were pall-bearers on horseback,

    with the richest scarfs and hatbands, and even the under-bearers had

    trappings of woe which were of a good well-priced quality. The black

    procession, when dismounted, looked the larger for the smallness of the

    churchyard; the heavy human faces and the black draperies shivering in

    the wind seemed to tell of a world strangely incongruous with the

    lightly dropping blossoms and the gleams of sunshine on the daisies.

    The clergyman who met the procession was Mr. Cadwallader—also

    according to the request of Peter Featherstone, prompted as usual by

    peculiar reasons. Having a contempt for curates, whom he always called

    understrappers, he was resolved to be buried by a beneficed clergyman.

    Mr. Casaubon was out of the question, not merely because he declined

    duty of this sort, but because Featherstone had an especial dislike to

    him as the rector of his own parish, who had a lien on the land in the

    shape of tithe, also as the deliverer of morning sermons, which the old

    man, being in his pew and not at all sleepy, had been obliged to sit

    through with an inward snarl. He had an objection to a parson stuck up

    above his head preaching to him. But his relations with Mr.

    Cadwallader had been of a different kind: the trout-stream which ran

    through Mr. Casaubon's land took its course through Featherstone's

    also, so that Mr. Cadwallader was a parson who had had to ask a favor

    instead of preaching. Moreover, he was one of the high gentry living

    four miles away from Lowick, and was thus exalted to an equal sky with

    the sheriff of the county and other dignities vaguely regarded as

    necessary to the system of things. There would be a satisfaction in

    being buried by Mr. Cadwallader, whose very name offered a fine

    opportunity for pronouncing wrongly if you liked.

    This distinction conferred on the Rector of Tipton and Freshitt was the

    reason why Mrs. Cadwallader made one of the group that watched old

    Featherstone's funeral from an upper window of the manor. She was not

    fond of visiting that house, but she liked, as she said, to see

    collections of strange animals such as there would be at this funeral;

    and she had persuaded Sir James and the young Lady Chettam to drive the

    Rector and herself to Lowick in order that the visit might be

    altogether pleasant.

    "I will go anywhere with you, Mrs. Cadwallader," Celia had said; "but I

    don't like funerals."

    "Oh, my dear, when you have a clergyman in your family you must

    accommodate your tastes: I did that very early. When I married

    Humphrey I made up my mind to like sermons, and I set out by liking the

    end very much. That soon spread to the middle and the beginning,

    because I couldn't have the end without them."

    "No, to be sure not," said the Dowager Lady Chettam, with stately

    emphasis.

    The upper window from which the funeral could be well seen was in the

    room occupied by Mr. Casaubon when he had been forbidden to work; but

    he had resumed nearly his habitual style of life now in spite of

    warnings and prescriptions, and after politely welcoming Mrs.

    Cadwallader had slipped again into the library to chew a cud of erudite

    mistake about Cush and Mizraim.

    But for her visitors Dorothea too might have been shut up in the

    library, and would not have witnessed this scene of old Featherstone's

    funeral, which, aloof as it seemed to be from the tenor of her life,

    always afterwards came back to her at the touch of certain sensitive

    points in memory, just as the vision of St. Peter's at Rome was inwoven

    with moods of despondency. Scenes which make vital changes in our

    neighbors' lot are but the background of our own, yet, like a

    particular aspect of the fields and trees, they become associated for

    us with the epochs of our own history, and make a part of that unity

    which lies in the selection of our keenest consciousness.

    The dream-like association of something alien and ill-understood with

    the deepest secrets of her experience seemed to mirror that sense of

    loneliness which was due to the very ardor of Dorothea's nature. The

    country gentry of old time lived in a rarefied social air: dotted apart

    on their stations up the mountain they looked down with imperfect

    discrimination on the belts of thicker life below. And Dorothea was

    not at ease in the perspective and chilliness of that height.

    "I shall not look any more," said Celia, after the train had entered

    the church, placing herself a little behind her husband's elbow so that

    she could slyly touch his coat with her cheek. "I dare say Dodo likes

    it: she is fond of melancholy things and ugly people."

    "I am fond of knowing something about the people I live among," said

    Dorothea, who had been watching everything with the interest of a monk

    on his holiday tour. "It seems to me we know nothing of our neighbors,

    unless they are cottagers. One is constantly wondering what sort of

    lives other people lead, and how they take things. I am quite obliged

    to Mrs. Cadwallader for coming and calling me out of the library."

    "Quite right to feel obliged to me," said Mrs. Cadwallader. "Your rich

    Lowick farmers are as curious as any buffaloes or bisons, and I dare

    say you don't half see them at church. They are quite different from

    your uncle's tenants or Sir James's—monsters—farmers without

    landlords—one can't tell how to class them."

    "Most of these followers are not Lowick people," said Sir James; "I

    suppose they are legatees from a distance, or from Middlemarch.

    Lovegood tells me the old fellow has left a good deal of money as well

    as land."

    "Think of that now! when so many younger sons can't dine at their own

    expense," said Mrs. Cadwallader. "Ah," turning round at the sound of

    the opening door, "here is Mr. Brooke. I felt that we were incomplete

    before, and here is the explanation. You are come to see this odd

    funeral, of course?"

    "No, I came to look after Casaubon—to see how he goes on, you know.

    And to bring a little news—a little news, my dear," said Mr. Brooke,

    nodding at Dorothea as she came towards him. "I looked into the

    library, and I saw Casaubon over his books. I told him it wouldn't do:

    I said, 'This will never do, you know: think of your wife, Casaubon.'

    And he promised me to come up. I didn't tell him my news: I said, he

    must come up."

    "Ah, now they are coming out of church," Mrs. Cadwallader exclaimed.

    "Dear me, what a wonderfully mixed set! Mr. Lydgate as doctor, I

    suppose. But that is really a good looking woman, and the fair young

    man must be her son. Who are they, Sir James, do you know?"

    "I see Vincy, the Mayor of Middlemarch; they are probably his wife and

    son," said Sir James, looking interrogatively at Mr. Brooke, who nodded

    and said—

    "Yes, a very decent family—a very good fellow is Vincy; a credit to

    the manufacturing interest. You have seen him at my house, you know."

    "Ah, yes: one of your secret committee," said Mrs. Cadwallader,

    provokingly.

    "A coursing fellow, though," said Sir James, with a fox-hunter's

    disgust.

    "And one of those who suck the life out of the wretched handloom

    weavers in Tipton and Freshitt. That is how his family look so fair

    and sleek," said Mrs. Cadwallader. "Those dark, purple-faced people

    are an excellent foil. Dear me, they are like a set of jugs! Do look

    at Humphrey: one might fancy him an ugly archangel towering above them

    in his white surplice."

    "It's a solemn thing, though, a funeral," said Mr. Brooke, "if you take

    it in that light, you know."

    "But I am not taking it in that light. I can't wear my solemnity too

    often, else it will go to rags. It was time the old man died, and none

    of these people are sorry."

    "How piteous!" said Dorothea. "This funeral seems to me the most

    dismal thing I ever saw. It is a blot on the morning I cannot bear to

    think that any one should die and leave no love behind."

    She was going to say more, but she saw her husband enter and seat

    himself a little in the background. The difference his presence made

    to her was not always a happy one: she felt that he often inwardly

    objected to her speech.

    "Positively," exclaimed Mrs. Cadwallader, "there is a new face come out

    from behind that broad man queerer than any of them: a little round

    head with bulging eyes—a sort of frog-face—do look. He must be of

    another blood, I think."

    "Let me see!" said Celia, with awakened curiosity, standing behind Mrs.

    Cadwallader and leaning forward over her head. "Oh, what an odd face!"

    Then with a quick change to another sort of surprised expression, she

    added, "Why, Dodo, you never told me that Mr. Ladislaw was come again!"

    Dorothea felt a shock of alarm: every one noticed her sudden paleness

    as she looked up immediately at her uncle, while Mr. Casaubon looked at

    her.

    "He came with me, you know; he is my guest—puts up with me at the

    Grange," said Mr. Brooke, in his easiest tone, nodding at Dorothea, as

    if the announcement were just what she might have expected. "And we

    have brought the picture at the top of the carriage. I knew you would

    be pleased with the surprise, Casaubon. There you are to the very

    life—as Aquinas, you know. Quite the right sort of thing. And you

    will hear young Ladislaw talk about it. He talks uncommonly

    well—points out this, that, and the other—knows art and everything of

    that kind—companionable, you know—is up with you in any track—what

    I've been wanting a long while."

    Mr. Casaubon bowed with cold politeness, mastering his irritation, but

    only so far as to be silent. He remembered Will's letter quite as well

    as Dorothea did; he had noticed that it was not among the letters which

    had been reserved for him on his recovery, and secretly concluding that

    Dorothea had sent word to Will not to come to Lowick, he had shrunk

    with proud sensitiveness from ever recurring to the subject. He now

    inferred that she had asked her uncle to invite Will to the Grange; and

    she felt it impossible at that moment to enter into any explanation.

    Mrs. Cadwallader's eyes, diverted from the churchyard, saw a good deal

    of dumb show which was not so intelligible to her as she could have

    desired, and could not repress the question, "Who is Mr. Ladislaw?"

    "A young relative of Mr. Casaubon's," said Sir James, promptly. His

    good-nature often made him quick and clear-seeing in personal matters,

    and he had divined from Dorothea's glance at her husband that there was

    some alarm in her mind.

    "A very nice young fellow—Casaubon has done everything for him,"

    explained Mr. Brooke. "He repays your expense in him, Casaubon," he

    went on, nodding encouragingly. "I hope he will stay with me a long

    while and we shall make something of my documents. I have plenty of

    ideas and facts, you know, and I can see he is just the man to put them

    into shape—remembers what the right quotations are, omne tulit

    punctum, and that sort of thing—gives subjects a kind of turn. I

    invited him some time ago when you were ill, Casaubon; Dorothea said

    you couldn't have anybody in the house, you know, and she asked me to

    write."

    Poor Dorothea felt that every word of her uncle's was about as pleasant

    as a grain of sand in the eye to Mr. Casaubon. It would be altogether

    unfitting now to explain that she had not wished her uncle to invite

    Will Ladislaw. She could not in the least make clear to herself the

    reasons for her husband's dislike to his presence—a dislike painfully

    impressed on her by the scene in the library; but she felt the

    unbecomingness of saying anything that might convey a notion of it to

    others. Mr. Casaubon, indeed, had not thoroughly represented those

    mixed reasons to himself; irritated feeling with him, as with all of

    us, seeking rather for justification than for self-knowledge. But he

    wished to repress outward signs, and only Dorothea could discern the

    changes in her husband's face before he observed with more of dignified

    bending and sing-song than usual—

    "You are exceedingly hospitable, my dear sir; and I owe you

    acknowledgments for exercising your hospitality towards a relative of

    mine."

    The funeral was ended now, and the churchyard was being cleared.

    "Now you can see him, Mrs. Cadwallader," said Celia. "He is just like

    a miniature of Mr. Casaubon's aunt that hangs in Dorothea's

    boudoir—quite nice-looking."

    "A very pretty sprig," said Mrs. Cadwallader, dryly. "What is your

    nephew to be, Mr. Casaubon?"

    "Pardon me, he is not my nephew. He is my cousin."

    "Well, you know," interposed Mr. Brooke, "he is trying his wings. He

    is just the sort of young fellow to rise. I should be glad to give him

    an opportunity. He would make a good secretary, now, like Hobbes,

    Milton, Swift—that sort of man."

    "I understand," said Mrs. Cadwallader. "One who can write speeches."

    "I'll fetch him in now, eh, Casaubon?" said Mr. Brooke. "He wouldn't

    come in till I had announced him, you know. And we'll go down and look

    at the picture. There you are to the life: a deep subtle sort of

    thinker with his fore-finger on the page, while Saint Bonaventure or

    somebody else, rather fat and florid, is looking up at the Trinity.

    Everything is symbolical, you know—the higher style of art: I like

    that up to a certain point, but not too far—it's rather straining to

    keep up with, you know. But you are at home in that, Casaubon. And

    your painter's flesh is good—solidity, transparency, everything of

    that sort. I went into that a great deal at one time. However, I'll

    go and fetch Ladislaw."


    CHAPTER XXXV.


    "Non, je ne comprends pas de plus charmant plaisir
    Que de voir d'heritiers une troupe affligee
    Le maintien interdit, et la mine allongee,
    Lire un long testament ou pales, etonnes
    On leur laisse un bonsoir avec un pied de nez.
    Pour voir au naturel leur tristesse profonde
    Je reviendrais, je crois, expres de l'autre monde."
    —REGNARD: Le Legataire Universel.

    When the animals entered the Ark in pairs, one may imagine that allied

    species made much private remark on each other, and were tempted to

    think that so many forms feeding on the same store of fodder were

    eminently superfluous, as tending to diminish the rations. (I fear the

    part played by the vultures on that occasion would be too painful for

    art to represent, those birds being disadvantageously naked about the

    gullet, and apparently without rites and ceremonies.)

    The same sort of temptation befell the Christian Carnivora who formed

    Peter Featherstone's funeral procession; most of them having their

    minds bent on a limited store which each would have liked to get the

    most of. The long-recognized blood-relations and connections by

    marriage made already a goodly number, which, multiplied by

    possibilities, presented a fine range for jealous conjecture and

    pathetic hopefulness. Jealousy of the Vincys had created a fellowship

    in hostility among all persons of the Featherstone blood, so that in

    the absence of any decided indication that one of themselves was to

    have more than the rest, the dread lest that long-legged Fred Vincy

    should have the land was necessarily dominant, though it left abundant

    feeling and leisure for vaguer jealousies, such as were entertained

    towards Mary Garth. Solomon found time to reflect that Jonah was

    undeserving, and Jonah to abuse Solomon as greedy; Jane, the elder

    sister, held that Martha's children ought not to expect so much as the

    young Waules; and Martha, more lax on the subject of primogeniture, was

    sorry to think that Jane was so "having." These nearest of kin were

    naturally impressed with the unreasonableness of expectations in

    cousins and second cousins, and used their arithmetic in reckoning the

    large sums that small legacies might mount to, if there were too many

    of them. Two cousins were present to hear the will, and a second

    cousin besides Mr. Trumbull. This second cousin was a Middlemarch

    mercer of polite manners and superfluous aspirates. The two cousins

    were elderly men from Brassing, one of them conscious of claims on the

    score of inconvenient expense sustained by him in presents of oysters

    and other eatables to his rich cousin Peter; the other entirely

    saturnine, leaning his hands and chin on a stick, and conscious of

    claims based on no narrow performance but on merit generally: both

    blameless citizens of Brassing, who wished that Jonah Featherstone did

    not live there. The wit of a family is usually best received among

    strangers.

    "Why, Trumbull himself is pretty sure of five hundred—that you may

    depend,—I shouldn't wonder if my brother promised him," said Solomon,

    musing aloud with his sisters, the evening before the funeral.

    "Dear, dear!" said poor sister Martha, whose imagination of hundreds

    had been habitually narrowed to the amount of her unpaid rent.

    But in the morning all the ordinary currents of conjecture were

    disturbed by the presence of a strange mourner who had plashed among

    them as if from the moon. This was the stranger described by Mrs.

    Cadwallader as frog-faced: a man perhaps about two or three and thirty,

    whose prominent eyes, thin-lipped, downward-curved mouth, and hair

    sleekly brushed away from a forehead that sank suddenly above the ridge

    of the eyebrows, certainly gave his face a batrachian unchangeableness

    of expression. Here, clearly, was a new legatee; else why was he

    bidden as a mourner? Here were new possibilities, raising a new

    uncertainty, which almost checked remark in the mourning-coaches. We

    are all humiliated by the sudden discovery of a fact which has existed

    very comfortably and perhaps been staring at us in private while we

    have been making up our world entirely without it. No one had seen

    this questionable stranger before except Mary Garth, and she knew

    nothing more of him than that he had twice been to Stone Court when Mr.

    Featherstone was down-stairs, and had sat alone with him for several

    hours. She had found an opportunity of mentioning this to her father,

    and perhaps Caleb's were the only eyes, except the lawyer's, which

    examined the stranger with more of inquiry than of disgust or

    suspicion. Caleb Garth, having little expectation and less cupidity,

    was interested in the verification of his own guesses, and the calmness

    with which he half smilingly rubbed his chin and shot intelligent

    glances much as if he were valuing a tree, made a fine contrast with

    the alarm or scorn visible in other faces when the unknown mourner,

    whose name was understood to be Rigg, entered the wainscoted parlor and

    took his seat near the door to make part of the audience when the will

    should be read. Just then Mr. Solomon and Mr. Jonah were gone

    up-stairs with the lawyer to search for the will; and Mrs. Waule,

    seeing two vacant seats between herself and Mr. Borthrop Trumbull, had

    the spirit to move next to that great authority, who was handling his

    watch-seals and trimming his outlines with a determination not to show

    anything so compromising to a man of ability as wonder or surprise.

    "I suppose you know everything about what my poor brother's done, Mr.

    Trumbull," said Mrs. Waule, in the lowest of her woolly tones, while

    she turned her crape-shadowed bonnet towards Mr. Trumbull's ear.

    "My good lady, whatever was told me was told in confidence," said the

    auctioneer, putting his hand up to screen that secret.

    "Them who've made sure of their good-luck may be disappointed yet,"

    Mrs. Waule continued, finding some relief in this communication.

    "Hopes are often delusive," said Mr. Trumbull, still in confidence.

    "Ah!" said Mrs. Waule, looking across at the Vincys, and then moving

    back to the side of her sister Martha.

    "It's wonderful how close poor Peter was," she said, in the same

    undertones. "We none of us know what he might have had on his mind. I

    only hope and trust he wasn't a worse liver than we think of, Martha."

    Poor Mrs. Cranch was bulky, and, breathing asthmatically, had the

    additional motive for making her remarks unexceptionable and giving

    them a general bearing, that even her whispers were loud and liable to

    sudden bursts like those of a deranged barrel-organ.

    "I never was covetous, Jane," she replied; "but I have six children

    and have buried three, and I didn't marry into money. The eldest, that

    sits there, is but nineteen—so I leave you to guess. And stock always

    short, and land most awkward. But if ever I've begged and prayed; it's

    been to God above; though where there's one brother a bachelor and the

    other childless after twice marrying—anybody might think!"

    Meanwhile, Mr. Vincy had glanced at the passive face of Mr. Rigg, and

    had taken out his snuff-box and tapped it, but had put it again

    unopened as an indulgence which, however clarifying to the judgment,

    was unsuited to the occasion. "I shouldn't wonder if Featherstone had

    better feelings than any of us gave him credit for," he observed, in

    the ear of his wife. "This funeral shows a thought about everybody: it

    looks well when a man wants to be followed by his friends, and if they

    are humble, not to be ashamed of them. I should be all the better

    pleased if he'd left lots of small legacies. They may be uncommonly

    useful to fellows in a small way."

    "Everything is as handsome as could be, crape and silk and everything,"

    said Mrs. Vincy, contentedly.

    But I am sorry to say that Fred was under some difficulty in repressing

    a laugh, which would have been more unsuitable than his father's

    snuff-box. Fred had overheard Mr. Jonah suggesting something about a

    "love-child," and with this thought in his mind, the stranger's face,

    which happened to be opposite him, affected him too ludicrously. Mary

    Garth, discerning his distress in the twitchings of his mouth, and his

    recourse to a cough, came cleverly to his rescue by asking him to

    change seats with her, so that he got into a shadowy corner. Fred was

    feeling as good-naturedly as possible towards everybody, including

    Rigg; and having some relenting towards all these people who were less

    lucky than he was aware of being himself, he would not for the world

    have behaved amiss; still, it was particularly easy to laugh.

    But the entrance of the lawyer and the two brothers drew every one's

    attention. The lawyer was Mr. Standish, and he had come to Stone Court

    this morning believing that he knew thoroughly well who would be

    pleased and who disappointed before the day was over. The will he

    expected to read was the last of three which he had drawn up for Mr.

    Featherstone. Mr. Standish was not a man who varied his manners: he

    behaved with the same deep-voiced, off-hand civility to everybody, as

    if he saw no difference in them, and talked chiefly of the hay-crop,

    which would be "very fine, by God!" of the last bulletins concerning

    the King, and of the Duke of Clarence, who was a sailor every inch of

    him, and just the man to rule over an island like Britain.

    Old Featherstone had often reflected as he sat looking at the fire that

    Standish would be surprised some day: it is true that if he had done as

    he liked at the last, and burnt the will drawn up by another lawyer, he

    would not have secured that minor end; still he had had his pleasure in

    ruminating on it. And certainly Mr. Standish was surprised, but not at

    all sorry; on the contrary, he rather enjoyed the zest of a little

    curiosity in his own mind, which the discovery of a second will added

    to the prospective amazement on the part of the Featherstone family.

    As to the sentiments of Solomon and Jonah, they were held in utter

    suspense: it seemed to them that the old will would have a certain

    validity, and that there might be such an interlacement of poor Peter's

    former and latter intentions as to create endless "lawing" before

    anybody came by their own—an inconvenience which would have at least

    the advantage of going all round. Hence the brothers showed a

    thoroughly neutral gravity as they re-entered with Mr. Standish; but

    Solomon took out his white handkerchief again with a sense that in any

    case there would be affecting passages, and crying at funerals, however

    dry, was customarily served up in lawn.

    Perhaps the person who felt the most throbbing excitement at this

    moment was Mary Garth, in the consciousness that it was she who had

    virtually determined the production of this second will, which might

    have momentous effects on the lot of some persons present. No soul

    except herself knew what had passed on that final night.

    "The will I hold in my hand," said Mr. Standish, who, seated at the

    table in the middle of the room, took his time about everything,

    including the coughs with which he showed a disposition to clear his

    voice, "was drawn up by myself and executed by our deceased friend on

    the 9th of August, 1825. But I find that there is a subsequent

    instrument hitherto unknown to me, bearing date the 20th of July, 1826,

    hardly a year later than the previous one. And there is farther, I

    see"—Mr. Standish was cautiously travelling over the document with his

    spectacles—"a codicil to this latter will, bearing date March 1, 1828."

    "Dear, dear!" said sister Martha, not meaning to be audible, but driven

    to some articulation under this pressure of dates.

    "I shall begin by reading the earlier will," continued Mr. Standish,

    "since such, as appears by his not having destroyed the document, was

    the intention of deceased."

    The preamble was felt to be rather long, and several besides Solomon

    shook their heads pathetically, looking on the ground: all eyes avoided

    meeting other eyes, and were chiefly fixed either on the spots in the

    table-cloth or on Mr. Standish's bald head; excepting Mary Garth's.

    When all the rest were trying to look nowhere in particular, it was

    safe for her to look at them. And at the sound of the first "give and

    bequeath" she could see all complexions changing subtly, as if some

    faint vibration were passing through them, save that of Mr. Rigg. He

    sat in unaltered calm, and, in fact, the company, preoccupied with more

    important problems, and with the complication of listening to bequests

    which might or might not be revoked, had ceased to think of him. Fred

    blushed, and Mr. Vincy found it impossible to do without his snuff-box

    in his hand, though he kept it closed.

    The small bequests came first, and even the recollection that there was

    another will and that poor Peter might have thought better of it, could

    not quell the rising disgust and indignation. One likes to be done

    well by in every tense, past, present, and future. And here was Peter

    capable five years ago of leaving only two hundred apiece to his own

    brothers and sisters, and only a hundred apiece to his own nephews and

    nieces: the Garths were not mentioned, but Mrs. Vincy and Rosamond were

    each to have a hundred. Mr. Trumbull was to have the gold-headed cane

    and fifty pounds; the other second cousins and the cousins present were

    each to have the like handsome sum, which, as the saturnine cousin

    observed, was a sort of legacy that left a man nowhere; and there was

    much more of such offensive dribbling in favor of persons not

    present—problematical, and, it was to be feared, low connections.

    Altogether, reckoning hastily, here were about three thousand disposed of.

    Where then had Peter meant the rest of the money to go—and where the

    land? and what was revoked and what not revoked—and was the revocation

    for better or for worse? All emotion must be conditional, and might turn

    out to be the wrong thing. The men were strong enough to bear up and

    keep quiet under this confused suspense; some letting their lower lip

    fall, others pursing it up, according to the habit of their muscles.

    But Jane and Martha sank under the rush of questions, and began to cry;

    poor Mrs. Cranch being half moved with the consolation of getting any

    hundreds at all without working for them, and half aware that her share

    was scanty; whereas Mrs. Waule's mind was entirely flooded with the

    sense of being an own sister and getting little, while somebody else

    was to have much. The general expectation now was that the "much"

    would fall to Fred Vincy, but the Vincys themselves were surprised when

    ten thousand pounds in specified investments were declared to be

    bequeathed to him:—was the land coming too? Fred bit his lips: it was

    difficult to help smiling, and Mrs. Vincy felt herself the happiest of

    women—possible revocation shrinking out of sight in this dazzling

    vision.

    There was still a residue of personal property as well as the land, but

    the whole was left to one person, and that person was—O

    possibilities! O expectations founded on the favor of "close" old

    gentlemen! O endless vocatives that would still leave expression

    slipping helpless from the measurement of mortal folly!—that

    residuary legatee was Joshua Rigg, who was also sole executor, and who

    was to take thenceforth the name of Featherstone.

    There was a rustling which seemed like a shudder running round the

    room. Every one stared afresh at Mr. Rigg, who apparently experienced

    no surprise.

    "A most singular testamentary disposition!" exclaimed Mr. Trumbull,

    preferring for once that he should be considered ignorant in the past.

    "But there is a second will—there is a further document. We have not

    yet heard the final wishes of the deceased."

    Mary Garth was feeling that what they had yet to hear were not the

    final wishes. The second will revoked everything except the legacies

    to the low persons before mentioned (some alterations in these being

    the occasion of the codicil), and the bequest of all the land lying in

    Lowick parish with all the stock and household furniture, to Joshua

    Rigg. The residue of the property was to be devoted to the erection

    and endowment of almshouses for old men, to be called Featherstone's

    Alms-Houses, and to be built on a piece of land near Middlemarch

    already bought for the purpose by the testator, he wishing—so the

    document declared—to please God Almighty. Nobody present had a

    farthing; but Mr. Trumbull had the gold-headed cane. It took some time

    for the company to recover the power of expression. Mary dared not

    look at Fred.

    Mr. Vincy was the first to speak—after using his snuff-box

    energetically—and he spoke with loud indignation. "The most

    unaccountable will I ever heard! I should say he was not in his right

    mind when he made it. I should say this last will was void," added Mr.

    Vincy, feeling that this expression put the thing in the true light.

    "Eh Standish?"

    "Our deceased friend always knew what he was about, I think," said Mr.

    Standish. "Everything is quite regular. Here is a letter from

    Clemmens of Brassing tied with the will. He drew it up. A very

    respectable solicitor."

    "I never noticed any alienation of mind—any aberration of intellect in

    the late Mr. Featherstone," said Borthrop Trumbull, "but I call this

    will eccentric. I was always willingly of service to the old soul; and

    he intimated pretty plainly a sense of obligation which would show

    itself in his will. The gold-headed cane is farcical considered as an

    acknowledgment to me; but happily I am above mercenary considerations."

    "There's nothing very surprising in the matter that I can see," said

    Caleb Garth. "Anybody might have had more reason for wondering if the

    will had been what you might expect from an open-minded straightforward

    man. For my part, I wish there was no such thing as a will."

    "That's a strange sentiment to come from a Christian man, by God!" said

    the lawyer. "I should like to know how you will back that up, Garth!"

    "Oh," said Caleb, leaning forward, adjusting his finger-tips with

    nicety and looking meditatively on the ground. It always seemed to him

    that words were the hardest part of "business."

    But here Mr. Jonah Featherstone made himself heard. "Well, he always

    was a fine hypocrite, was my brother Peter. But this will cuts out

    everything. If I'd known, a wagon and six horses shouldn't have drawn

    me from Brassing. I'll put a white hat and drab coat on to-morrow."

    "Dear, dear," wept Mrs. Cranch, "and we've been at the expense of

    travelling, and that poor lad sitting idle here so long! It's the

    first time I ever heard my brother Peter was so wishful to please God

    Almighty; but if I was to be struck helpless I must say it's hard—I

    can think no other."

    "It'll do him no good where he's gone, that's my belief," said Solomon,

    with a bitterness which was remarkably genuine, though his tone could

    not help being sly. "Peter was a bad liver, and almshouses won't cover

    it, when he's had the impudence to show it at the last."

    "And all the while had got his own lawful family—brothers and sisters

    and nephews and nieces—and has sat in church with 'em whenever he

    thought well to come," said Mrs. Waule. "And might have left his

    property so respectable, to them that's never been used to extravagance

    or unsteadiness in no manner of way—and not so poor but what they

    could have saved every penny and made more of it. And me—the trouble

    I've been at, times and times, to come here and be sisterly—and him

    with things on his mind all the while that might make anybody's flesh

    creep. But if the Almighty's allowed it, he means to punish him for

    it. Brother Solomon, I shall be going, if you'll drive me."

    "I've no desire to put my foot on the premises again," said Solomon.

    "I've got land of my own and property of my own to will away."

    "It's a poor tale how luck goes in the world," said Jonah. "It never

    answers to have a bit of spirit in you. You'd better be a dog in the

    manger. But those above ground might learn a lesson. One fool's will

    is enough in a family."

    "There's more ways than one of being a fool," said Solomon. "I shan't

    leave my money to be poured down the sink, and I shan't leave it to

    foundlings from Africay. I like Featherstones that were brewed such,

    and not turned Featherstones with sticking the name on 'em."

    Solomon addressed these remarks in a loud aside to Mrs. Waule as he

    rose to accompany her. Brother Jonah felt himself capable of much more

    stinging wit than this, but he reflected that there was no use in

    offending the new proprietor of Stone Court, until you were certain

    that he was quite without intentions of hospitality towards witty men

    whose name he was about to bear.

    Mr. Joshua Rigg, in fact, appeared to trouble himself little about any

    innuendoes, but showed a notable change of manner, walking coolly up to

    Mr. Standish and putting business questions with much coolness. He had

    a high chirping voice and a vile accent. Fred, whom he no longer moved

    to laughter, thought him the lowest monster he had ever seen. But Fred

    was feeling rather sick. The Middlemarch mercer waited for an

    opportunity of engaging Mr. Rigg in conversation: there was no knowing

    how many pairs of legs the new proprietor might require hose for, and

    profits were more to be relied on than legacies. Also, the mercer, as

    a second cousin, was dispassionate enough to feel curiosity.

    Mr. Vincy, after his one outburst, had remained proudly silent, though

    too much preoccupied with unpleasant feelings to think of moving, till

    he observed that his wife had gone to Fred's side and was crying

    silently while she held her darling's hand. He rose immediately, and

    turning his back on the company while he said to her in an

    undertone,—"Don't give way, Lucy; don't make a fool of yourself, my

    dear, before these people," he added in his usual loud voice—"Go and

    order the phaeton, Fred; I have no time to waste."

    Mary Garth had before this been getting ready to go home with her

    father. She met Fred in the hall, and now for the first time had the

    courage to look at him. He had that withered sort of paleness which

    will sometimes come on young faces, and his hand was very cold when she

    shook it. Mary too was agitated; she was conscious that fatally,

    without will of her own, she had perhaps made a great difference to

    Fred's lot.

    "Good-by," she said, with affectionate sadness. "Be brave, Fred. I do

    believe you are better without the money. What was the good of it to

    Mr. Featherstone?"

    "That's all very fine," said Fred, pettishly. "What is a fellow to do?

    I must go into the Church now." (He knew that this would vex Mary:

    very well; then she must tell him what else he could do.) "And I

    thought I should be able to pay your father at once and make everything

    right. And you have not even a hundred pounds left you. What shall

    you do now, Mary?"

    "Take another situation, of course, as soon as I can get one. My

    father has enough to do to keep the rest, without me. Good-by."

    In a very short time Stone Court was cleared of well-brewed

    Featherstones and other long-accustomed visitors. Another stranger had

    been brought to settle in the neighborhood of Middlemarch, but in the

    case of Mr. Rigg Featherstone there was more discontent with immediate

    visible consequences than speculation as to the effect which his

    presence might have in the future. No soul was prophetic enough to

    have any foreboding as to what might appear on the trial of Joshua Rigg.

    And here I am naturally led to reflect on the means of elevating a low

    subject. Historical parallels are remarkably efficient in this way.

    The chief objection to them is, that the diligent narrator may lack

    space, or (what is often the same thing) may not be able to think of

    them with any degree of particularity, though he may have a

    philosophical confidence that if known they would be illustrative. It

    seems an easier and shorter way to dignity, to observe that—since

    there never was a true story which could not be told in parables, where

    you might put a monkey for a margrave, and vice versa—whatever has

    been or is to be narrated by me about low people, may be ennobled by

    being considered a parable; so that if any bad habits and ugly

    consequences are brought into view, the reader may have the relief of

    regarding them as not more than figuratively ungenteel, and may feel

    himself virtually in company with persons of some style. Thus while I

    tell the truth about loobies, my reader's imagination need not be

    entirely excluded from an occupation with lords; and the petty sums

    which any bankrupt of high standing would be sorry to retire upon, may

    be lifted to the level of high commercial transactions by the

    inexpensive addition of proportional ciphers.

    As to any provincial history in which the agents are all of high moral

    rank, that must be of a date long posterior to the first Reform Bill,

    and Peter Featherstone, you perceive, was dead and buried some months

    before Lord Grey came into office.


    CHAPTER XXXVI.


    "'Tis strange to see the humors of these men,
    These great aspiring spirits, that should be wise:
    . . . . . . . .
    For being the nature of great spirits to love
    To be where they may be most eminent;
    They, rating of themselves so farre above
    Us in conceit, with whom they do frequent,
    Imagine how we wonder and esteeme
    All that they do or say; which makes them strive
    To make our admiration more extreme,
    Which they suppose they cannot, 'less they give
    Notice of their extreme and highest thoughts.
    —DANIEL: Tragedy of Philotas.

    Mr. Vincy went home from the reading of the will with his point of view

    considerably changed in relation to many subjects. He was an

    open-minded man, but given to indirect modes of expressing himself:

    when he was disappointed in a market for his silk braids, he swore at

    the groom; when his brother-in-law Bulstrode had vexed him, he made

    cutting remarks on Methodism; and it was now apparent that he regarded

    Fred's idleness with a sudden increase of severity, by his throwing an

    embroidered cap out of the smoking-room on to the hall-floor.

    "Well, sir," he observed, when that young gentleman was moving off to

    bed, "I hope you've made up your mind now to go up next term and pass

    your examination. I've taken my resolution, so I advise you to lose no

    time in taking yours."

    Fred made no answer: he was too utterly depressed. Twenty-four hours

    ago he had thought that instead of needing to know what he should do,

    he should by this time know that he needed to do nothing: that he

    should hunt in pink, have a first-rate hunter, ride to cover on a fine

    hack, and be generally respected for doing so; moreover, that he should

    be able at once to pay Mr. Garth, and that Mary could no longer have

    any reason for not marrying him. And all this was to have come without

    study or other inconvenience, purely by the favor of providence in the

    shape of an old gentleman's caprice. But now, at the end of the

    twenty-four hours, all those firm expectations were upset. It was

    "rather hard lines" that while he was smarting under this

    disappointment he should be treated as if he could have helped it. But

    he went away silently and his mother pleaded for him.

    "Don't be hard on the poor boy, Vincy. He'll turn out well yet, though

    that wicked man has deceived him. I feel as sure as I sit here, Fred

    will turn out well—else why was he brought back from the brink of the

    grave? And I call it a robbery: it was like giving him the land, to

    promise it; and what is promising, if making everybody believe is not

    promising? And you see he did leave him ten thousand pounds, and then

    took it away again."

    "Took it away again!" said Mr. Vincy, pettishly. "I tell you the lad's

    an unlucky lad, Lucy. And you've always spoiled him."

    "Well, Vincy, he was my first, and you made a fine fuss with him when

    he came. You were as proud as proud," said Mrs. Vincy, easily

    recovering her cheerful smile.

    "Who knows what babies will turn to? I was fool enough, I dare say,"

    said the husband—more mildly, however.

    "But who has handsomer, better children than ours? Fred is far beyond

    other people's sons: you may hear it in his speech, that he has kept

    college company. And Rosamond—where is there a girl like her? She

    might stand beside any lady in the land, and only look the better for

    it. You see—Mr. Lydgate has kept the highest company and been

    everywhere, and he fell in love with her at once. Not but what I could

    have wished Rosamond had not engaged herself. She might have met

    somebody on a visit who would have been a far better match; I mean at

    her schoolfellow Miss Willoughby's. There are relations in that family

    quite as high as Mr. Lydgate's."

    "Damn relations!" said Mr. Vincy; "I've had enough of them. I don't

    want a son-in-law who has got nothing but his relations to recommend

    him."

    "Why, my dear," said Mrs. Vincy, "you seemed as pleased as could be

    about it. It's true, I wasn't at home; but Rosamond told me you hadn't

    a word to say against the engagement. And she has begun to buy in the

    best linen and cambric for her underclothing."

    "Not by my will," said Mr. Vincy. "I shall have enough to do this

    year, with an idle scamp of a son, without paying for wedding-clothes.

    The times are as tight as can be; everybody is being ruined; and I

    don't believe Lydgate has got a farthing. I shan't give my consent to

    their marrying. Let 'em wait, as their elders have done before 'em."

    "Rosamond will take it hard, Vincy, and you know you never could bear

    to cross her."

    "Yes, I could. The sooner the engagement's off, the better. I don't

    believe he'll ever make an income, the way he goes on. He makes

    enemies; that's all I hear of his making."

    "But he stands very high with Mr. Bulstrode, my dear. The marriage

    would please him, I should think."

    "Please the deuce!" said Mr. Vincy. "Bulstrode won't pay for their

    keep. And if Lydgate thinks I'm going to give money for them to set up

    housekeeping, he's mistaken, that's all. I expect I shall have to put

    down my horses soon. You'd better tell Rosy what I say."

    This was a not infrequent procedure with Mr. Vincy—to be rash in

    jovial assent, and on becoming subsequently conscious that he had been

    rash, to employ others in making the offensive retractation. However,

    Mrs. Vincy, who never willingly opposed her husband, lost no time the

    next morning in letting Rosamond know what he had said. Rosamond,

    examining some muslin-work, listened in silence, and at the end gave a

    certain turn of her graceful neck, of which only long experience could

    teach you that it meant perfect obstinacy.

    "What do you say, my dear?" said her mother, with affectionate

    deference.

    "Papa does not mean anything of the kind," said Rosamond, quite calmly.

    "He has always said that he wished me to marry the man I loved. And I

    shall marry Mr. Lydgate. It is seven weeks now since papa gave his

    consent. And I hope we shall have Mrs. Bretton's house."

    "Well, my dear, I shall leave you to manage your papa. You always do

    manage everybody. But if we ever do go and get damask, Sadler's is the

    place—far better than Hopkins's. Mrs. Bretton's is very large, though:

    I should love you to have such a house; but it will take a great deal

    of furniture—carpeting and everything, besides plate and glass. And

    you hear, your papa says he will give no money. Do you think Mr.

    Lydgate expects it?"

    "You cannot imagine that I should ask him, mamma. Of course he

    understands his own affairs."

    "But he may have been looking for money, my dear, and we all thought of

    your having a pretty legacy as well as Fred;—and now everything is so

    dreadful—there's no pleasure in thinking of anything, with that poor

    boy disappointed as he is."

    "That has nothing to do with my marriage, mamma. Fred must leave off

    being idle. I am going up-stairs to take this work to Miss Morgan: she

    does the open hemming very well. Mary Garth might do some work for me

    now, I should think. Her sewing is exquisite; it is the nicest thing I

    know about Mary. I should so like to have all my cambric frilling

    double-hemmed. And it takes a long time."

    Mrs. Vincy's belief that Rosamond could manage her papa was well

    founded. Apart from his dinners and his coursing, Mr. Vincy,

    blustering as he was, had as little of his own way as if he had been a

    prime minister: the force of circumstances was easily too much for him,

    as it is for most pleasure-loving florid men; and the circumstance

    called Rosamond was particularly forcible by means of that mild

    persistence which, as we know, enables a white soft living substance to

    make its way in spite of opposing rock. Papa was not a rock: he had no

    other fixity than that fixity of alternating impulses sometimes called

    habit, and this was altogether unfavorable to his taking the only

    decisive line of conduct in relation to his daughter's

    engagement—namely, to inquire thoroughly into Lydgate's circumstances,

    declare his own inability to furnish money, and forbid alike either a

    speedy marriage or an engagement which must be too lengthy. That seems

    very simple and easy in the statement; but a disagreeable resolve

    formed in the chill hours of the morning had as many conditions against

    it as the early frost, and rarely persisted under the warming

    influences of the day. The indirect though emphatic expression of

    opinion to which Mr. Vincy was prone suffered much restraint in this

    case: Lydgate was a proud man towards whom innuendoes were obviously

    unsafe, and throwing his hat on the floor was out of the question. Mr.

    Vincy was a little in awe of him, a little vain that he wanted to marry

    Rosamond, a little indisposed to raise a question of money in which his

    own position was not advantageous, a little afraid of being worsted in

    dialogue with a man better educated and more highly bred than himself,

    and a little afraid of doing what his daughter would not like. The

    part Mr. Vincy preferred playing was that of the generous host whom

    nobody criticises. In the earlier half of the day there was business

    to hinder any formal communication of an adverse resolve; in the later

    there was dinner, wine, whist, and general satisfaction. And in the

    mean while the hours were each leaving their little deposit and

    gradually forming the final reason for inaction, namely, that action

    was too late. The accepted lover spent most of his evenings in Lowick

    Gate, and a love-making not at all dependent on money-advances from

    fathers-in-law, or prospective income from a profession, went on

    flourishingly under Mr. Vincy's own eyes. Young love-making—that

    gossamer web! Even the points it clings to—the things whence its

    subtle interlacings are swung—are scarcely perceptible: momentary

    touches of fingertips, meetings of rays from blue and dark orbs,

    unfinished phrases, lightest changes of cheek and lip, faintest

    tremors. The web itself is made of spontaneous beliefs and indefinable

    joys, yearnings of one life towards another, visions of completeness,

    indefinite trust. And Lydgate fell to spinning that web from his

    inward self with wonderful rapidity, in spite of experience supposed to

    be finished off with the drama of Laure—in spite too of medicine and

    biology; for the inspection of macerated muscle or of eyes presented in

    a dish (like Santa Lucia's), and other incidents of scientific inquiry,

    are observed to be less incompatible with poetic love than a native

    dulness or a lively addiction to the lowest prose. As for Rosamond,

    she was in the water-lily's expanding wonderment at its own fuller

    life, and she too was spinning industriously at the mutual web. All

    this went on in the corner of the drawing-room where the piano stood,

    and subtle as it was, the light made it a sort of rainbow visible to

    many observers besides Mr. Farebrother. The certainty that Miss Vincy

    and Mr. Lydgate were engaged became general in Middlemarch without the

    aid of formal announcement.

    Aunt Bulstrode was again stirred to anxiety; but this time she

    addressed herself to her brother, going to the warehouse expressly to

    avoid Mrs. Vincy's volatility. His replies were not satisfactory.

    "Walter, you never mean to tell me that you have allowed all this to go

    on without inquiry into Mr. Lydgate's prospects?" said Mrs. Bulstrode,

    opening her eyes with wider gravity at her brother, who was in his

    peevish warehouse humor. "Think of this girl brought up in luxury—in

    too worldly a way, I am sorry to say—what will she do on a small

    income?"

    "Oh, confound it, Harriet! What can I do when men come into the town

    without any asking of mine? Did you shut your house up against

    Lydgate? Bulstrode has pushed him forward more than anybody. I never

    made any fuss about the young fellow. You should go and talk to your

    husband about it, not me."

    "Well, really, Walter, how can Mr. Bulstrode be to blame? I am sure he

    did not wish for the engagement."

    "Oh, if Bulstrode had not taken him by the hand, I should never have

    invited him."

    "But you called him in to attend on Fred, and I am sure that was a

    mercy," said Mrs. Bulstrode, losing her clew in the intricacies of the

    subject.

    "I don't know about mercy," said Mr. Vincy, testily. "I know I am

    worried more than I like with my family. I was a good brother to you,

    Harriet, before you married Bulstrode, and I must say he doesn't always

    show that friendly spirit towards your family that might have been

    expected of him." Mr. Vincy was very little like a Jesuit, but no

    accomplished Jesuit could have turned a question more adroitly.

    Harriet had to defend her husband instead of blaming her brother, and

    the conversation ended at a point as far from the beginning as some

    recent sparring between the brothers-in-law at a vestry meeting.

    Mrs. Bulstrode did not repeat her brother's complaints to her husband,

    but in the evening she spoke to him of Lydgate and Rosamond. He did

    not share her warm interest, however; and only spoke with resignation

    of the risks attendant on the beginning of medical practice and the

    desirability of prudence.

    "I am sure we are bound to pray for that thoughtless girl—brought up

    as she has been," said Mrs. Bulstrode, wishing to rouse her husband's

    feelings.

    "Truly, my dear," said Mr. Bulstrode, assentingly. "Those who are not

    of this world can do little else to arrest the errors of the

    obstinately worldly. That is what we must accustom ourselves to

    recognize with regard to your brother's family. I could have wished

    that Mr. Lydgate had not entered into such a union; but my relations

    with him are limited to that use of his gifts for God's purposes which

    is taught us by the divine government under each dispensation."

    Mrs. Bulstrode said no more, attributing some dissatisfaction which she

    felt to her own want of spirituality. She believed that her husband

    was one of those men whose memoirs should be written when they died.

    As to Lydgate himself, having been accepted, he was prepared to accept

    all the consequences which he believed himself to foresee with perfect

    clearness. Of course he must be married in a year—perhaps even in

    half a year. This was not what he had intended; but other schemes

    would not be hindered: they would simply adjust themselves anew.

    Marriage, of course, must be prepared for in the usual way. A house

    must be taken instead of the rooms he at present occupied; and Lydgate,

    having heard Rosamond speak with admiration of old Mrs. Bretton's house

    (situated in Lowick Gate), took notice when it fell vacant after the

    old lady's death, and immediately entered into treaty for it.

    He did this in an episodic way, very much as he gave orders to his

    tailor for every requisite of perfect dress, without any notion of

    being extravagant. On the contrary, he would have despised any

    ostentation of expense; his profession had familiarized him with all

    grades of poverty, and he cared much for those who suffered hardships.

    He would have behaved perfectly at a table where the sauce was served

    in a jug with the handle off, and he would have remembered nothing

    about a grand dinner except that a man was there who talked well. But

    it had never occurred to him that he should live in any other than what

    he would have called an ordinary way, with green glasses for hock, and

    excellent waiting at table. In warming himself at French social

    theories he had brought away no smell of scorching. We may handle even

    extreme opinions with impunity while our furniture, our dinner-giving,

    and preference for armorial bearings in our own case, link us

    indissolubly with the established order. And Lydgate's tendency was

    not towards extreme opinions: he would have liked no barefooted

    doctrines, being particular about his boots: he was no radical in

    relation to anything but medical reform and the prosecution of

    discovery. In the rest of practical life he walked by hereditary

    habit; half from that personal pride and unreflecting egoism which I

    have already called commonness, and half from that naivete which

    belonged to preoccupation with favorite ideas.

    Any inward debate Lydgate had as to the consequences of this engagement

    which had stolen upon him, turned on the paucity of time rather than of

    money. Certainly, being in love and being expected continually by some

    one who always turned out to be prettier than memory could represent

    her to be, did interfere with the diligent use of spare hours which

    might serve some "plodding fellow of a German" to make the great,

    imminent discovery. This was really an argument for not deferring the

    marriage too long, as he implied to Mr. Farebrother, one day that the

    Vicar came to his room with some pond-products which he wanted to

    examine under a better microscope than his own, and, finding Lydgate's

    tableful of apparatus and specimens in confusion, said sarcastically—

    "Eros has degenerated; he began by introducing order and harmony, and

    now he brings back chaos."

    "Yes, at some stages," said Lydgate, lifting his brows and smiling,

    while he began to arrange his microscope. "But a better order will

    begin after."

    "Soon?" said the Vicar.

    "I hope so, really. This unsettled state of affairs uses up the time,

    and when one has notions in science, every moment is an opportunity. I

    feel sure that marriage must be the best thing for a man who wants to

    work steadily. He has everything at home then—no teasing with

    personal speculations—he can get calmness and freedom."

    "You are an enviable dog," said the Vicar, "to have such a

    prospect—Rosamond, calmness and freedom, all to your share. Here am

    I with nothing but my pipe and pond-animalcules. Now, are you ready?"

    Lydgate did not mention to the Vicar another reason he had for wishing

    to shorten the period of courtship. It was rather irritating to him,

    even with the wine of love in his veins, to be obliged to mingle so

    often with the family party at the Vincys', and to enter so much into

    Middlemarch gossip, protracted good cheer, whist-playing, and general

    futility. He had to be deferential when Mr. Vincy decided questions

    with trenchant ignorance, especially as to those liquors which were the

    best inward pickle, preserving you from the effects of bad air. Mrs.

    Vincy's openness and simplicity were quite unstreaked with suspicion as

    to the subtle offence she might give to the taste of her intended

    son-in-law; and altogether Lydgate had to confess to himself that he

    was descending a little in relation to Rosamond's family. But that

    exquisite creature herself suffered in the same sort of way:—it was

    at least one delightful thought that in marrying her, he could give her

    a much-needed transplantation.

    "Dear!" he said to her one evening, in his gentlest tone, as he sat

    down by her and looked closely at her face—

    But I must first say that he had found her alone in the drawing-room,

    where the great old-fashioned window, almost as large as the side of

    the room, was opened to the summer scents of the garden at the back of

    the house. Her father and mother were gone to a party, and the rest

    were all out with the butterflies.

    "Dear! your eyelids are red."

    "Are they?" said Rosamond. "I wonder why." It was not in her nature

    to pour forth wishes or grievances. They only came forth gracefully on

    solicitation.

    "As if you could hide it from me!" said Lydgate, laying his hand

    tenderly on both of hers. "Don't I see a tiny drop on one of the

    lashes? Things trouble you, and you don't tell me. That is unloving."

    "Why should I tell you what you cannot alter? They are every-day

    things:—perhaps they have been a little worse lately."

    "Family annoyances. Don't fear speaking. I guess them."

    "Papa has been more irritable lately. Fred makes him angry, and this

    morning there was a fresh quarrel because Fred threatens to throw his

    whole education away, and do something quite beneath him. And

    besides—"

    Rosamond hesitated, and her cheeks were gathering a slight flush.

    Lydgate had never seen her in trouble since the morning of their

    engagement, and he had never felt so passionately towards her as at

    this moment. He kissed the hesitating lips gently, as if to encourage

    them.

    "I feel that papa is not quite pleased about our engagement," Rosamond

    continued, almost in a whisper; "and he said last night that he should

    certainly speak to you and say it must be given up."

    "Will you give it up?" said Lydgate, with quick energy—almost angrily.

    "I never give up anything that I choose to do," said Rosamond,

    recovering her calmness at the touching of this chord.

    "God bless you!" said Lydgate, kissing her again. This constancy of

    purpose in the right place was adorable. He went on:—

    "It is too late now for your father to say that our engagement must be

    given up. You are of age, and I claim you as mine. If anything is

    done to make you unhappy,—that is a reason for hastening our marriage."

    An unmistakable delight shone forth from the blue eyes that met his,

    and the radiance seemed to light up all his future with mild sunshine.

    Ideal happiness (of the kind known in the Arabian Nights, in which you

    are invited to step from the labor and discord of the street into a

    paradise where everything is given to you and nothing claimed) seemed

    to be an affair of a few weeks' waiting, more or less.

    "Why should we defer it?" he said, with ardent insistence. "I have

    taken the house now: everything else can soon be got ready—can it

    not? You will not mind about new clothes. Those can be bought

    afterwards."

    "What original notions you clever men have!" said Rosamond, dimpling

    with more thorough laughter than usual at this humorous incongruity.

    "This is the first time I ever heard of wedding-clothes being bought

    after marriage."

    "But you don't mean to say you would insist on my waiting months for

    the sake of clothes?" said Lydgate, half thinking that Rosamond was

    tormenting him prettily, and half fearing that she really shrank from

    speedy marriage. "Remember, we are looking forward to a better sort of

    happiness even than this—being continually together, independent of

    others, and ordering our lives as we will. Come, dear, tell me how

    soon you can be altogether mine."

    There was a serious pleading in Lydgate's tone, as if he felt that she

    would be injuring him by any fantastic delays. Rosamond became serious

    too, and slightly meditative; in fact, she was going through many

    intricacies of lace-edging and hosiery and petticoat-tucking, in order

    to give an answer that would at least be approximative.

    "Six weeks would be ample—say so, Rosamond," insisted Lydgate,

    releasing her hands to put his arm gently round her.

    One little hand immediately went to pat her hair, while she gave her

    neck a meditative turn, and then said seriously—

    "There would be the house-linen and the furniture to be prepared.

    Still, mamma could see to those while we were away."

    "Yes, to be sure. We must be away a week or so."

    "Oh, more than that!" said Rosamond, earnestly. She was thinking of

    her evening dresses for the visit to Sir Godwin Lydgate's, which she

    had long been secretly hoping for as a delightful employment of at

    least one quarter of the honeymoon, even if she deferred her

    introduction to the uncle who was a doctor of divinity (also a pleasing

    though sober kind of rank, when sustained by blood). She looked at her

    lover with some wondering remonstrance as she spoke, and he readily

    understood that she might wish to lengthen the sweet time of double

    solitude.

    "Whatever you wish, my darling, when the day is fixed. But let us take

    a decided course, and put an end to any discomfort you may be

    suffering. Six weeks!—I am sure they would be ample."

    "I could certainly hasten the work," said Rosamond. "Will you, then,

    mention it to papa?—I think it would be better to write to him." She

    blushed and looked at him as the garden flowers look at us when we walk

    forth happily among them in the transcendent evening light: is there

    not a soul beyond utterance, half nymph, half child, in those delicate

    petals which glow and breathe about the centres of deep color?

    He touched her ear and a little bit of neck under it with his lips, and

    they sat quite still for many minutes which flowed by them like a small

    gurgling brook with the kisses of the sun upon it. Rosamond thought

    that no one could be more in love than she was; and Lydgate thought

    that after all his wild mistakes and absurd credulity, he had found

    perfect womanhood—felt as if already breathed upon by exquisite wedded

    affection such as would be bestowed by an accomplished creature who

    venerated his high musings and momentous labors and would never

    interfere with them; who would create order in the home and accounts

    with still magic, yet keep her fingers ready to touch the lute and

    transform life into romance at any moment; who was instructed to the

    true womanly limit and not a hair's-breadth beyond—docile, therefore,

    and ready to carry out behests which came from that limit. It was

    plainer now than ever that his notion of remaining much longer a

    bachelor had been a mistake: marriage would not be an obstruction but a

    furtherance. And happening the next day to accompany a patient to

    Brassing, he saw a dinner-service there which struck him as so exactly

    the right thing that he bought it at once. It saved time to do these

    things just when you thought of them, and Lydgate hated ugly crockery.

    The dinner-service in question was expensive, but that might be in the

    nature of dinner-services. Furnishing was necessarily expensive; but

    then it had to be done only once.

    "It must be lovely," said Mrs. Vincy, when Lydgate mentioned his

    purchase with some descriptive touches. "Just what Rosy ought to have.

    I trust in heaven it won't be broken!"

    "One must hire servants who will not break things," said Lydgate.

    (Certainly, this was reasoning with an imperfect vision of sequences.

    But at that period there was no sort of reasoning which was not more or

    less sanctioned by men of science.)

    Of course it was unnecessary to defer the mention of anything to mamma,

    who did not readily take views that were not cheerful, and being a

    happy wife herself, had hardly any feeling but pride in her daughter's

    marriage. But Rosamond had good reasons for suggesting to Lydgate that

    papa should be appealed to in writing. She prepared for the arrival of

    the letter by walking with her papa to the warehouse the next morning,

    and telling him on the way that Mr. Lydgate wished to be married soon.

    "Nonsense, my dear!" said Mr. Vincy. "What has he got to marry on?

    You'd much better give up the engagement. I've told you so pretty

    plainly before this. What have you had such an education for, if you

    are to go and marry a poor man? It's a cruel thing for a father to

    see."

    "Mr. Lydgate is not poor, papa. He bought Mr. Peacock's practice,

    which, they say, is worth eight or nine hundred a-year."

    "Stuff and nonsense! What's buying a practice? He might as well buy

    next year's swallows. It'll all slip through his fingers."

    "On the contrary, papa, he will increase the practice. See how he has

    been called in by the Chettams and Casaubons."

    "I hope he knows I shan't give anything—with this disappointment about

    Fred, and Parliament going to be dissolved, and machine-breaking

    everywhere, and an election coming on—"

    "Dear papa! what can that have to do with my marriage?"

    "A pretty deal to do with it! We may all be ruined for what I know—the

    country's in that state! Some say it's the end of the world, and

    be hanged if I don't think it looks like it! Anyhow, it's not a time

    for me to be drawing money out of my business, and I should wish

    Lydgate to know that."

    "I am sure he expects nothing, papa. And he has such very high

    connections: he is sure to rise in one way or another. He is engaged

    in making scientific discoveries."

    Mr. Vincy was silent.

    "I cannot give up my only prospect of happiness, papa. Mr. Lydgate is a

    gentleman. I could never love any one who was not a perfect gentleman.

    You would not like me to go into a consumption, as Arabella Hawley did.

    And you know that I never change my mind."

    Again papa was silent.

    "Promise me, papa, that you will consent to what we wish. We shall

    never give each other up; and you know that you have always objected to

    long courtships and late marriages."

    There was a little more urgency of this kind, till Mr. Vincy said,

    "Well, well, child, he must write to me first before I can answer

    him,"—and Rosamond was certain that she had gained her point.

    Mr. Vincy's answer consisted chiefly in a demand that Lydgate should

    insure his life—a demand immediately conceded. This was a

    delightfully reassuring idea supposing that Lydgate died, but in the

    mean time not a self-supporting idea. However, it seemed to make

    everything comfortable about Rosamond's marriage; and the necessary

    purchases went on with much spirit. Not without prudential

    considerations, however. A bride (who is going to visit at a

    baronet's) must have a few first-rate pocket-handkerchiefs; but beyond

    the absolutely necessary half-dozen, Rosamond contented herself without

    the very highest style of embroidery and Valenciennes. Lydgate also,

    finding that his sum of eight hundred pounds had been considerably

    reduced since he had come to Middlemarch, restrained his inclination

    for some plate of an old pattern which was shown to him when he went

    into Kibble's establishment at Brassing to buy forks and spoons. He

    was too proud to act as if he presupposed that Mr. Vincy would advance

    money to provide furniture; and though, since it would not be

    necessary to pay for everything at once, some bills would be left

    standing over, he did not waste time in conjecturing how much his

    father-in-law would give in the form of dowry, to make payment easy.

    He was not going to do anything extravagant, but the requisite things

    must be bought, and it would be bad economy to buy them of a poor

    quality. All these matters were by the bye. Lydgate foresaw that

    science and his profession were the objects he should alone pursue

    enthusiastically; but he could not imagine himself pursuing them in

    such a home as Wrench had—the doors all open, the oil-cloth worn, the

    children in soiled pinafores, and lunch lingering in the form of bones,

    black-handled knives, and willow-pattern. But Wrench had a wretched

    lymphatic wife who made a mummy of herself indoors in a large shawl;

    and he must have altogether begun with an ill-chosen domestic apparatus.

    Rosamond, however, was on her side much occupied with conjectures,

    though her quick imitative perception warned her against betraying them

    too crudely.

    "I shall like so much to know your family," she said one day, when the

    wedding journey was being discussed. "We might perhaps take a

    direction that would allow us to see them as we returned. Which of

    your uncles do you like best?"

    "Oh,—my uncle Godwin, I think. He is a good-natured old fellow."

    "You were constantly at his house at Quallingham, when you were a boy,

    were you not? I should so like to see the old spot and everything you

    were used to. Does he know you are going to be married?"

    "No," said Lydgate, carelessly, turning in his chair and rubbing his

    hair up.

    "Do send him word of it, you naughty undutiful nephew. He will perhaps

    ask you to take me to Quallingham; and then you could show me about the

    grounds, and I could imagine you there when you were a boy. Remember,

    you see me in my home, just as it has been since I was a child. It is

    not fair that I should be so ignorant of yours. But perhaps you would

    be a little ashamed of me. I forgot that."

    Lydgate smiled at her tenderly, and really accepted the suggestion that

    the proud pleasure of showing so charming a bride was worth some

    trouble. And now he came to think of it, he would like to see the old

    spots with Rosamond.

    "I will write to him, then. But my cousins are bores."

    It seemed magnificent to Rosamond to be able to speak so slightingly of

    a baronet's family, and she felt much contentment in the prospect of

    being able to estimate them contemptuously on her own account.

    But mamma was near spoiling all, a day or two later, by saying—

    "I hope your uncle Sir Godwin will not look down on Rosy, Mr. Lydgate.

    I should think he would do something handsome. A thousand or two can

    be nothing to a baronet."

    "Mamma!" said Rosamond, blushing deeply; and Lydgate pitied her so much

    that he remained silent and went to the other end of the room to

    examine a print curiously, as if he had been absent-minded. Mamma had a

    little filial lecture afterwards, and was docile as usual. But

    Rosamond reflected that if any of those high-bred cousins who were

    bores, should be induced to visit Middlemarch, they would see many

    things in her own family which might shock them. Hence it seemed

    desirable that Lydgate should by-and-by get some first-rate position

    elsewhere than in Middlemarch; and this could hardly be difficult in

    the case of a man who had a titled uncle and could make discoveries.

    Lydgate, you perceive, had talked fervidly to Rosamond of his hopes as

    to the highest uses of his life, and had found it delightful to be

    listened to by a creature who would bring him the sweet furtherance of

    satisfying affection—beauty—repose—such help as our thoughts get

    from the summer sky and the flower-fringed meadows.

    Lydgate relied much on the psychological difference between what for

    the sake of variety I will call goose and gander: especially on the

    innate submissiveness of the goose as beautifully corresponding to the

    strength of the gander.


    CHAPTER XXXVII.


    "Thrice happy she that is so well assured
    Unto herself and settled so in heart
    That neither will for better be allured
    Ne fears to worse with any chance to start,
    But like a steddy ship doth strongly part
    The raging waves and keeps her course aright;
    Ne aught for tempest doth from it depart,
    Ne aught for fairer weather's false delight.
    Such self-assurance need not fear the spight
    Of grudging foes; ne favour seek of friends;
    But in the stay of her own stedfast might
    Neither to one herself nor other bends.
    Most happy she that most assured doth rest,
    But he most happy who such one loves best."
    —SPENSER.

    The doubt hinted by Mr. Vincy whether it were only the general election

    or the end of the world that was coming on, now that George the Fourth

    was dead, Parliament dissolved, Wellington and Peel generally

    depreciated and the new King apologetic, was a feeble type of the

    uncertainties in provincial opinion at that time. With the glow-worm

    lights of country places, how could men see which were their own

    thoughts in the confusion of a Tory Ministry passing Liberal measures,

    of Tory nobles and electors being anxious to return Liberals rather

    than friends of the recreant Ministers, and of outcries for remedies

    which seemed to have a mysteriously remote bearing on private interest,

    and were made suspicious by the advocacy of disagreeable neighbors?

    Buyers of the Middlemarch newspapers found themselves in an anomalous

    position: during the agitation on the Catholic Question many had given

    up the "Pioneer"—which had a motto from Charles James Fox and was in

    the van of progress—because it had taken Peel's side about the

    Papists, and had thus blotted its Liberalism with a toleration of

    Jesuitry and Baal; but they were ill-satisfied with the "Trumpet,"

    which—since its blasts against Rome, and in the general flaccidity of

    the public mind (nobody knowing who would support whom)—had become

    feeble in its blowing.

    It was a time, according to a noticeable article in the "Pioneer," when

    the crying needs of the country might well counteract a reluctance to

    public action on the part of men whose minds had from long experience

    acquired breadth as well as concentration, decision of judgment as well

    as tolerance, dispassionateness as well as energy—in fact, all those

    qualities which in the melancholy experience of mankind have been the

    least disposed to share lodgings.

    Mr. Hackbutt, whose fluent speech was at that time floating more widely

    than usual, and leaving much uncertainty as to its ultimate channel,

    was heard to say in Mr. Hawley's office that the article in question

    "emanated" from Brooke of Tipton, and that Brooke had secretly bought

    the "Pioneer" some months ago.

    "That means mischief, eh?" said Mr. Hawley. "He's got the freak of

    being a popular man now, after dangling about like a stray tortoise.

    So much the worse for him. I've had my eye on him for some time. He

    shall be prettily pumped upon. He's a damned bad landlord. What

    business has an old county man to come currying favor with a low set of

    dark-blue freemen? As to his paper, I only hope he may do the writing

    himself. It would be worth our paying for."

    "I understand he has got a very brilliant young fellow to edit it, who

    can write the highest style of leading article, quite equal to anything

    in the London papers. And he means to take very high ground on Reform."

    "Let Brooke reform his rent-roll. He's a cursed old screw, and the

    buildings all over his estate are going to rack. I suppose this young

    fellow is some loose fish from London."

    "His name is Ladislaw. He is said to be of foreign extraction."

    "I know the sort," said Mr. Hawley; "some emissary. He'll begin with

    flourishing about the Rights of Man and end with murdering a wench.

    That's the style."

    "You must concede that there are abuses, Hawley," said Mr. Hackbutt,

    foreseeing some political disagreement with his family lawyer. "I

    myself should never favor immoderate views—in fact I take my stand

    with Huskisson—but I cannot blind myself to the consideration that the

    non-representation of large towns—"

    "Large towns be damned!" said Mr. Hawley, impatient of exposition. "I

    know a little too much about Middlemarch elections. Let 'em quash

    every pocket borough to-morrow, and bring in every mushroom town in the

    kingdom—they'll only increase the expense of getting into Parliament.

    I go upon facts."

    Mr. Hawley's disgust at the notion of the "Pioneer" being edited by an

    emissary, and of Brooke becoming actively political—as if a tortoise

    of desultory pursuits should protrude its small head ambitiously and

    become rampant—was hardly equal to the annoyance felt by some members

    of Mr. Brooke's own family. The result had oozed forth gradually, like

    the discovery that your neighbor has set up an unpleasant kind of

    manufacture which will be permanently under your nostrils without legal

    remedy. The "Pioneer" had been secretly bought even before Will

    Ladislaw's arrival, the expected opportunity having offered itself in

    the readiness of the proprietor to part with a valuable property which

    did not pay; and in the interval since Mr. Brooke had written his

    invitation, those germinal ideas of making his mind tell upon the world

    at large which had been present in him from his younger years, but had

    hitherto lain in some obstruction, had been sprouting under cover.

    The development was much furthered by a delight in his guest which

    proved greater even than he had anticipated. For it seemed that Will

    was not only at home in all those artistic and literary subjects which

    Mr. Brooke had gone into at one time, but that he was strikingly ready

    at seizing the points of the political situation, and dealing with them

    in that large spirit which, aided by adequate memory, lends itself to

    quotation and general effectiveness of treatment.

    "He seems to me a kind of Shelley, you know," Mr. Brooke took an

    opportunity of saying, for the gratification of Mr. Casaubon. "I don't

    mean as to anything objectionable—laxities or atheism, or anything of

    that kind, you know—Ladislaw's sentiments in every way I am sure are

    good—indeed, we were talking a great deal together last night. But he

    has the same sort of enthusiasm for liberty, freedom, emancipation—a

    fine thing under guidance—under guidance, you know. I think I shall

    be able to put him on the right tack; and I am the more pleased because

    he is a relation of yours, Casaubon."

    If the right tack implied anything more precise than the rest of Mr.

    Brooke's speech, Mr. Casaubon silently hoped that it referred to some

    occupation at a great distance from Lowick. He had disliked Will while

    he helped him, but he had begun to dislike him still more now that Will

    had declined his help. That is the way with us when we have any uneasy

    jealousy in our disposition: if our talents are chiefly of the

    burrowing kind, our honey-sipping cousin (whom we have grave reasons

    for objecting to) is likely to have a secret contempt for us, and any

    one who admires him passes an oblique criticism on ourselves. Having

    the scruples of rectitude in our souls, we are above the meanness of

    injuring him—rather we meet all his claims on us by active benefits;

    and the drawing of cheques for him, being a superiority which he must

    recognize, gives our bitterness a milder infusion. Now Mr. Casaubon

    had been deprived of that superiority (as anything more than a

    remembrance) in a sudden, capricious manner. His antipathy to Will did

    not spring from the common jealousy of a winter-worn husband: it was

    something deeper, bred by his lifelong claims and discontents; but

    Dorothea, now that she was present—Dorothea, as a young wife who

    herself had shown an offensive capability of criticism, necessarily

    gave concentration to the uneasiness which had before been vague.

    Will Ladislaw on his side felt that his dislike was flourishing at the

    expense of his gratitude, and spent much inward discourse in justifying

    the dislike. Casaubon hated him—he knew that very well; on his first

    entrance he could discern a bitterness in the mouth and a venom in the

    glance which would almost justify declaring war in spite of past

    benefits. He was much obliged to Casaubon in the past, but really the

    act of marrying this wife was a set-off against the obligation. It was

    a question whether gratitude which refers to what is done for one's

    self ought not to give way to indignation at what is done against

    another. And Casaubon had done a wrong to Dorothea in marrying her. A

    man was bound to know himself better than that, and if he chose to grow

    gray crunching bones in a cavern, he had no business to be luring a

    girl into his companionship. "It is the most horrible of

    virgin-sacrifices," said Will; and he painted to himself what were

    Dorothea's inward sorrows as if he had been writing a choric wail. But

    he would never lose sight of her: he would watch over her—if he gave

    up everything else in life he would watch over her, and she should know

    that she had one slave in the world, Will had—to use Sir Thomas

    Browne's phrase—a "passionate prodigality" of statement both to

    himself and others. The simple truth was that nothing then invited him

    so strongly as the presence of Dorothea.

    Invitations of the formal kind had been wanting, however, for Will had

    never been asked to go to Lowick. Mr. Brooke, indeed, confident of

    doing everything agreeable which Casaubon, poor fellow, was too much

    absorbed to think of, had arranged to bring Ladislaw to Lowick several

    times (not neglecting meanwhile to introduce him elsewhere on every

    opportunity as "a young relative of Casaubon's"). And though Will had

    not seen Dorothea alone, their interviews had been enough to restore

    her former sense of young companionship with one who was cleverer than

    herself, yet seemed ready to be swayed by her. Poor Dorothea before

    her marriage had never found much room in other minds for what she

    cared most to say; and she had not, as we know, enjoyed her husband's

    superior instruction so much as she had expected. If she spoke with

    any keenness of interest to Mr. Casaubon, he heard her with an air of

    patience as if she had given a quotation from the Delectus familiar to

    him from his tender years, and sometimes mentioned curtly what ancient

    sects or personages had held similar ideas, as if there were too much

    of that sort in stock already; at other times he would inform her that

    she was mistaken, and reassert what her remark had questioned.

    But Will Ladislaw always seemed to see more in what she said than she

    herself saw. Dorothea had little vanity, but she had the ardent

    woman's need to rule beneficently by making the joy of another soul.

    Hence the mere chance of seeing Will occasionally was like a lunette

    opened in the wall of her prison, giving her a glimpse of the sunny

    air; and this pleasure began to nullify her original alarm at what her

    husband might think about the introduction of Will as her uncle's

    guest. On this subject Mr. Casaubon had remained dumb.

    But Will wanted to talk with Dorothea alone, and was impatient of slow

    circumstance. However slight the terrestrial intercourse between Dante

    and Beatrice or Petrarch and Laura, time changes the proportion of

    things, and in later days it is preferable to have fewer sonnets and

    more conversation. Necessity excused stratagem, but stratagem was

    limited by the dread of offending Dorothea. He found out at last that

    he wanted to take a particular sketch at Lowick; and one morning when

    Mr. Brooke had to drive along the Lowick road on his way to the county

    town, Will asked to be set down with his sketch-book and camp-stool at

    Lowick, and without announcing himself at the Manor settled himself to

    sketch in a position where he must see Dorothea if she came out to

    walk—and he knew that she usually walked an hour in the morning.

    But the stratagem was defeated by the weather. Clouds gathered with

    treacherous quickness, the rain came down, and Will was obliged to take

    shelter in the house. He intended, on the strength of relationship, to

    go into the drawing-room and wait there without being announced; and

    seeing his old acquaintance the butler in the hall, he said, "Don't

    mention that I am here, Pratt; I will wait till luncheon; I know Mr.

    Casaubon does not like to be disturbed when he is in the library."

    "Master is out, sir; there's only Mrs. Casaubon in the library. I'd

    better tell her you're here, sir," said Pratt, a red-cheeked man given

    to lively converse with Tantripp, and often agreeing with her that it

    must be dull for Madam.

    "Oh, very well; this confounded rain has hindered me from sketching,"

    said Will, feeling so happy that he affected indifference with

    delightful ease.

    In another minute he was in the library, and Dorothea was meeting him

    with her sweet unconstrained smile.

    "Mr. Casaubon has gone to the Archdeacon's," she said, at once. "I

    don't know whether he will be at home again long before dinner. He was

    uncertain how long he should be. Did you want to say anything

    particular to him?"

    "No; I came to sketch, but the rain drove me in. Else I would not have

    disturbed you yet. I supposed that Mr. Casaubon was here, and I know

    he dislikes interruption at this hour."

    "I am indebted to the rain, then. I am so glad to see you." Dorothea

    uttered these common words with the simple sincerity of an unhappy

    child, visited at school.

    "I really came for the chance of seeing you alone," said Will,

    mysteriously forced to be just as simple as she was. He could not stay

    to ask himself, why not? "I wanted to talk about things, as we did in

    Rome. It always makes a difference when other people are present."

    "Yes," said Dorothea, in her clear full tone of assent. "Sit down."

    She seated herself on a dark ottoman with the brown books behind her,

    looking in her plain dress of some thin woollen-white material, without

    a single ornament on her besides her wedding-ring, as if she were under

    a vow to be different from all other women; and Will sat down opposite

    her at two yards' distance, the light falling on his bright curls and

    delicate but rather petulant profile, with its defiant curves of lip

    and chin. Each looked at the other as if they had been two flowers

    which had opened then and there. Dorothea for the moment forgot her

    husband's mysterious irritation against Will: it seemed fresh water at

    her thirsty lips to speak without fear to the one person whom she had

    found receptive; for in looking backward through sadness she

    exaggerated a past solace.

    "I have often thought that I should like to talk to you again," she

    said, immediately. "It seems strange to me how many things I said to

    you."

    "I remember them all," said Will, with the unspeakable content in his

    soul of feeling that he was in the presence of a creature worthy to be

    perfectly loved. I think his own feelings at that moment were perfect,

    for we mortals have our divine moments, when love is satisfied in the

    completeness of the beloved object.

    "I have tried to learn a great deal since we were in Rome," said

    Dorothea. "I can read Latin a little, and I am beginning to understand

    just a little Greek. I can help Mr. Casaubon better now. I can find

    out references for him and save his eyes in many ways. But it is very

    difficult to be learned; it seems as if people were worn out on the way

    to great thoughts, and can never enjoy them because they are too tired."

    "If a man has a capacity for great thoughts, he is likely to overtake

    them before he is decrepit," said Will, with irrepressible quickness.

    But through certain sensibilities Dorothea was as quick as he, and

    seeing her face change, he added, immediately, "But it is quite true

    that the best minds have been sometimes overstrained in working out

    their ideas."

    "You correct me," said Dorothea. "I expressed myself ill. I should

    have said that those who have great thoughts get too much worn in

    working them out. I used to feel about that, even when I was a little

    girl; and it always seemed to me that the use I should like to make of

    my life would be to help some one who did great works, so that his

    burthen might be lighter."

    Dorothea was led on to this bit of autobiography without any sense of

    making a revelation. But she had never before said anything to Will

    which threw so strong a light on her marriage. He did not shrug his

    shoulders; and for want of that muscular outlet he thought the more

    irritably of beautiful lips kissing holy skulls and other emptinesses

    ecclesiastically enshrined. Also he had to take care that his speech

    should not betray that thought.

    "But you may easily carry the help too far," he said, "and get

    over-wrought yourself. Are you not too much shut up? You already look

    paler. It would be better for Mr. Casaubon to have a secretary; he

    could easily get a man who would do half his work for him. It would

    save him more effectually, and you need only help him in lighter ways."

    "How can you think of that?" said Dorothea, in a tone of earnest

    remonstrance. "I should have no happiness if I did not help him in his

    work. What could I do? There is no good to be done in Lowick. The

    only thing I desire is to help him more. And he objects to a

    secretary: please not to mention that again."

    "Certainly not, now I know your feeling. But I have heard both Mr.

    Brooke and Sir James Chettam express the same wish."

    "Yes?" said Dorothea, "but they don't understand—they want me to be a

    great deal on horseback, and have the garden altered and new

    conservatories, to fill up my days. I thought you could understand

    that one's mind has other wants," she added, rather

    impatiently—"besides, Mr. Casaubon cannot bear to hear of a secretary."

    "My mistake is excusable," said Will. "In old days I used to hear Mr.

    Casaubon speak as if he looked forward to having a secretary. Indeed

    he held out the prospect of that office to me. But I turned out to

    be—not good enough for it."

    Dorothea was trying to extract out of this an excuse for her husband's

    evident repulsion, as she said, with a playful smile, "You were not a

    steady worker enough."

    "No," said Will, shaking his head backward somewhat after the manner of

    a spirited horse. And then, the old irritable demon prompting him to

    give another good pinch at the moth-wings of poor Mr. Casaubon's glory,

    he went on, "And I have seen since that Mr. Casaubon does not like any

    one to overlook his work and know thoroughly what he is doing. He is

    too doubtful—too uncertain of himself. I may not be good for much,

    but he dislikes me because I disagree with him."

    Will was not without his intentions to be always generous, but our

    tongues are little triggers which have usually been pulled before

    general intentions can be brought to bear. And it was too intolerable

    that Casaubon's dislike of him should not be fairly accounted for to

    Dorothea. Yet when he had spoken he was rather uneasy as to the effect

    on her.

    But Dorothea was strangely quiet—not immediately indignant, as she had

    been on a like occasion in Rome. And the cause lay deep. She was no

    longer struggling against the perception of facts, but adjusting

    herself to their clearest perception; and now when she looked steadily

    at her husband's failure, still more at his possible consciousness of

    failure, she seemed to be looking along the one track where duty became

    tenderness. Will's want of reticence might have been met with more

    severity, if he had not already been recommended to her mercy by her

    husband's dislike, which must seem hard to her till she saw better

    reason for it.

    She did not answer at once, but after looking down ruminatingly she

    said, with some earnestness, "Mr. Casaubon must have overcome his

    dislike of you so far as his actions were concerned: and that is

    admirable."

    "Yes; he has shown a sense of justice in family matters. It was an

    abominable thing that my grandmother should have been disinherited

    because she made what they called a mesalliance, though there was

    nothing to be said against her husband except that he was a Polish

    refugee who gave lessons for his bread."

    "I wish I knew all about her!" said Dorothea. "I wonder how she bore

    the change from wealth to poverty: I wonder whether she was happy with

    her husband! Do you know much about them?"

    "No; only that my grandfather was a patriot—a bright fellow—could

    speak many languages—musical—got his bread by teaching all sorts of

    things. They both died rather early. And I never knew much of my

    father, beyond what my mother told me; but he inherited the musical

    talents. I remember his slow walk and his long thin hands; and one day

    remains with me when he was lying ill, and I was very hungry, and had

    only a little bit of bread."

    "Ah, what a different life from mine!" said Dorothea, with keen

    interest, clasping her hands on her lap. "I have always had too much

    of everything. But tell me how it was—Mr. Casaubon could not have

    known about you then."

    "No; but my father had made himself known to Mr. Casaubon, and that was

    my last hungry day. My father died soon after, and my mother and I

    were well taken care of. Mr. Casaubon always expressly recognized it

    as his duty to take care of us because of the harsh injustice which had

    been shown to his mother's sister. But now I am telling you what is

    not new to you."

    In his inmost soul Will was conscious of wishing to tell Dorothea what

    was rather new even in his own construction of things—namely, that

    Mr. Casaubon had never done more than pay a debt towards him. Will was

    much too good a fellow to be easy under the sense of being ungrateful.

    And when gratitude has become a matter of reasoning there are many ways

    of escaping from its bonds.

    "No," answered Dorothea; "Mr. Casaubon has always avoided dwelling on

    his own honorable actions." She did not feel that her husband's

    conduct was depreciated; but this notion of what justice had required

    in his relations with Will Ladislaw took strong hold on her mind.

    After a moment's pause, she added, "He had never told me that he

    supported your mother. Is she still living?"

    "No; she died by an accident—a fall—four years ago. It is curious

    that my mother, too, ran away from her family, but not for the sake of

    her husband. She never would tell me anything about her family, except

    that she forsook them to get her own living—went on the stage, in

    fact. She was a dark-eyed creature, with crisp ringlets, and never

    seemed to be getting old. You see I come of rebellious blood on both

    sides," Will ended, smiling brightly at Dorothea, while she was still

    looking with serious intentness before her, like a child seeing a drama

    for the first time.

    But her face, too, broke into a smile as she said, "That is your

    apology, I suppose, for having yourself been rather rebellious; I mean,

    to Mr. Casaubon's wishes. You must remember that you have not done

    what he thought best for you. And if he dislikes you—you were

    speaking of dislike a little while ago—but I should rather say, if he

    has shown any painful feelings towards you, you must consider how

    sensitive he has become from the wearing effect of study. Perhaps,"

    she continued, getting into a pleading tone, "my uncle has not told you

    how serious Mr. Casaubon's illness was. It would be very petty of us

    who are well and can bear things, to think much of small offences from

    those who carry a weight of trial."

    "You teach me better," said Will. "I will never grumble on that

    subject again." There was a gentleness in his tone which came from the

    unutterable contentment of perceiving—what Dorothea was hardly

    conscious of—that she was travelling into the remoteness of pure pity

    and loyalty towards her husband. Will was ready to adore her pity and

    loyalty, if she would associate himself with her in manifesting them.

    "I have really sometimes been a perverse fellow," he went on, "but I

    will never again, if I can help it, do or say what you would

    disapprove."

    "That is very good of you," said Dorothea, with another open smile. "I

    shall have a little kingdom then, where I shall give laws. But you

    will soon go away, out of my rule, I imagine. You will soon be tired

    of staying at the Grange."

    "That is a point I wanted to mention to you—one of the reasons why I

    wished to speak to you alone. Mr. Brooke proposes that I should stay

    in this neighborhood. He has bought one of the Middlemarch newspapers,

    and he wishes me to conduct that, and also to help him in other ways."

    "Would not that be a sacrifice of higher prospects for you?" said

    Dorothea.

    "Perhaps; but I have always been blamed for thinking of prospects, and

    not settling to anything. And here is something offered to me. If you

    would not like me to accept it, I will give it up. Otherwise I would

    rather stay in this part of the country than go away. I belong to

    nobody anywhere else."

    "I should like you to stay very much," said Dorothea, at once, as

    simply and readily as she had spoken at Rome. There was not the shadow

    of a reason in her mind at the moment why she should not say so.

    "Then I will stay," said Ladislaw, shaking his head backward, rising

    and going towards the window, as if to see whether the rain had ceased.

    But the next moment, Dorothea, according to a habit which was getting

    continually stronger, began to reflect that her husband felt

    differently from herself, and she colored deeply under the double

    embarrassment of having expressed what might be in opposition to her

    husband's feeling, and of having to suggest this opposition to Will.

    His face was not turned towards her, and this made it easier to say—

    "But my opinion is of little consequence on such a subject. I think

    you should be guided by Mr. Casaubon. I spoke without thinking of

    anything else than my own feeling, which has nothing to do with the

    real question. But it now occurs to me—perhaps Mr. Casaubon might

    see that the proposal was not wise. Can you not wait now and mention

    it to him?"

    "I can't wait to-day," said Will, inwardly seared by the possibility

    that Mr. Casaubon would enter. "The rain is quite over now. I told

    Mr. Brooke not to call for me: I would rather walk the five miles. I

    shall strike across Halsell Common, and see the gleams on the wet

    grass. I like that."

    He approached her to shake hands quite hurriedly, longing but not

    daring to say, "Don't mention the subject to Mr. Casaubon." No, he

    dared not, could not say it. To ask her to be less simple and direct

    would be like breathing on the crystal that you want to see the light

    through. And there was always the other great dread—of himself

    becoming dimmed and forever ray-shorn in her eyes.

    "I wish you could have stayed," said Dorothea, with a touch of

    mournfulness, as she rose and put out her hand. She also had her

    thought which she did not like to express:—Will certainly ought to

    lose no time in consulting Mr. Casaubon's wishes, but for her to urge

    this might seem an undue dictation.

    So they only said "Good-by," and Will quitted the house, striking

    across the fields so as not to run any risk of encountering Mr.

    Casaubon's carriage, which, however, did not appear at the gate until

    four o'clock. That was an unpropitious hour for coming home: it was too

    early to gain the moral support under ennui of dressing his person for

    dinner, and too late to undress his mind of the day's frivolous

    ceremony and affairs, so as to be prepared for a good plunge into the

    serious business of study. On such occasions he usually threw into an

    easy-chair in the library, and allowed Dorothea to read the London

    papers to him, closing his eyes the while. To-day, however, he

    declined that relief, observing that he had already had too many public

    details urged upon him; but he spoke more cheerfully than usual, when

    Dorothea asked about his fatigue, and added with that air of formal

    effort which never forsook him even when he spoke without his waistcoat

    and cravat—

    "I have had the gratification of meeting my former acquaintance, Dr.

    Spanning, to-day, and of being praised by one who is himself a worthy

    recipient of praise. He spoke very handsomely of my late tractate on

    the Egyptian Mysteries,—using, in fact, terms which it would not

    become me to repeat." In uttering the last clause, Mr. Casaubon leaned

    over the elbow of his chair, and swayed his head up and down,

    apparently as a muscular outlet instead of that recapitulation which

    would not have been becoming.

    "I am very glad you have had that pleasure," said Dorothea, delighted

    to see her husband less weary than usual at this hour. "Before you

    came I had been regretting that you happened to be out to-day."

    "Why so, my dear?" said Mr. Casaubon, throwing himself backward again.

    "Because Mr. Ladislaw has been here; and he has mentioned a proposal of

    my uncle's which I should like to know your opinion of." Her husband

    she felt was really concerned in this question. Even with her

    ignorance of the world she had a vague impression that the position

    offered to Will was out of keeping with his family connections, and

    certainly Mr. Casaubon had a claim to be consulted. He did not speak,

    but merely bowed.

    "Dear uncle, you know, has many projects. It appears that he has

    bought one of the Middlemarch newspapers, and he has asked Mr. Ladislaw

    to stay in this neighborhood and conduct the paper for him, besides

    helping him in other ways."

    Dorothea looked at her husband while she spoke, but he had at first

    blinked and finally closed his eyes, as if to save them; while his lips

    became more tense. "What is your opinion?" she added, rather timidly,

    after a slight pause.

    "Did Mr. Ladislaw come on purpose to ask my opinion?" said Mr.

    Casaubon, opening his eyes narrowly with a knife-edged look at

    Dorothea. She was really uncomfortable on the point he inquired about,

    but she only became a little more serious, and her eyes did not swerve.

    "No," she answered immediately, "he did not say that he came to ask

    your opinion. But when he mentioned the proposal, he of course

    expected me to tell you of it."

    Mr. Casaubon was silent.

    "I feared that you might feel some objection. But certainly a young

    man with so much talent might be very useful to my uncle—might help

    him to do good in a better way. And Mr. Ladislaw wishes to have some

    fixed occupation. He has been blamed, he says, for not seeking

    something of that kind, and he would like to stay in this neighborhood

    because no one cares for him elsewhere."

    Dorothea felt that this was a consideration to soften her husband.

    However, he did not speak, and she presently recurred to Dr. Spanning

    and the Archdeacon's breakfast. But there was no longer sunshine on

    these subjects.

    The next morning, without Dorothea's knowledge, Mr. Casaubon despatched

    the following letter, beginning "Dear Mr. Ladislaw" (he had always

    before addressed him as "Will"):—


    "Mrs. Casaubon informs me that a proposal has been made to you, and
    (according to an inference by no means stretched) has on your part been
    in some degree entertained, which involves your residence in this
    neighborhood in a capacity which I am justified in saying touches my
    own position in such a way as renders it not only natural and
    warrantable in me when that effect is viewed under the influence of
    legitimate feeling, but incumbent on me when the same effect is
    considered in the light of my responsibilities, to state at once that
    your acceptance of the proposal above indicated would be highly
    offensive to me. That I have some claim to the exercise of a veto
    here, would not, I believe, be denied by any reasonable person
    cognizant of the relations between us: relations which, though thrown
    into the past by your recent procedure, are not thereby annulled in
    their character of determining antecedents. I will not here make
    reflections on any person's judgment. It is enough for me to point out
    to yourself that there are certain social fitnesses and proprieties
    which should hinder a somewhat near relative of mine from becoming any
    wise conspicuous in this vicinity in a status not only much beneath my
    own, but associated at best with the sciolism of literary or political
    adventurers. At any rate, the contrary issue must exclude you from
    further reception at my house.


    Yours faithfully,
    "EDWARD CASAUBON."

    Meanwhile Dorothea's mind was innocently at work towards the further

    embitterment of her husband; dwelling, with a sympathy that grew to

    agitation, on what Will had told her about his parents and

    grandparents. Any private hours in her day were usually spent in her

    blue-green boudoir, and she had come to be very fond of its pallid

    quaintness. Nothing had been outwardly altered there; but while the

    summer had gradually advanced over the western fields beyond the avenue

    of elms, the bare room had gathered within it those memories of an

    inward life which fill the air as with a cloud of good or bad angels,

    the invisible yet active forms of our spiritual triumphs or our

    spiritual falls. She had been so used to struggle for and to find

    resolve in looking along the avenue towards the arch of western light

    that the vision itself had gained a communicating power. Even the pale

    stag seemed to have reminding glances and to mean mutely, "Yes, we

    know." And the group of delicately touched miniatures had made an

    audience as of beings no longer disturbed about their own earthly lot,

    but still humanly interested. Especially the mysterious "Aunt Julia"

    about whom Dorothea had never found it easy to question her husband.

    And now, since her conversation with Will, many fresh images had

    gathered round that Aunt Julia who was Will's grandmother; the presence

    of that delicate miniature, so like a living face that she knew,

    helping to concentrate her feelings. What a wrong, to cut off the girl

    from the family protection and inheritance only because she had chosen

    a man who was poor! Dorothea, early troubling her elders with

    questions about the facts around her, had wrought herself into some

    independent clearness as to the historical, political reasons why

    eldest sons had superior rights, and why land should be entailed: those

    reasons, impressing her with a certain awe, might be weightier than she

    knew, but here was a question of ties which left them uninfringed.

    Here was a daughter whose child—even according to the ordinary aping

    of aristocratic institutions by people who are no more aristocratic

    than retired grocers, and who have no more land to "keep together" than

    a lawn and a paddock—would have a prior claim. Was inheritance a

    question of liking or of responsibility? All the energy of Dorothea's

    nature went on the side of responsibility—the fulfilment of claims

    founded on our own deeds, such as marriage and parentage.

    It was true, she said to herself, that Mr. Casaubon had a debt to the

    Ladislaws—that he had to pay back what the Ladislaws had been wronged

    of. And now she began to think of her husband's will, which had been

    made at the time of their marriage, leaving the bulk of his property to

    her, with proviso in case of her having children. That ought to be

    altered; and no time ought to be lost. This very question which had

    just arisen about Will Ladislaw's occupation, was the occasion for

    placing things on a new, right footing. Her husband, she felt sure,

    according to all his previous conduct, would be ready to take the just

    view, if she proposed it—she, in whose interest an unfair

    concentration of the property had been urged. His sense of right had

    surmounted and would continue to surmount anything that might be called

    antipathy. She suspected that her uncle's scheme was disapproved by

    Mr. Casaubon, and this made it seem all the more opportune that a fresh

    understanding should be begun, so that instead of Will's starting

    penniless and accepting the first function that offered itself, he

    should find himself in possession of a rightful income which should be

    paid by her husband during his life, and, by an immediate alteration of

    the will, should be secured at his death. The vision of all this as

    what ought to be done seemed to Dorothea like a sudden letting in of

    daylight, waking her from her previous stupidity and incurious

    self-absorbed ignorance about her husband's relation to others. Will

    Ladislaw had refused Mr. Casaubon's future aid on a ground that no

    longer appeared right to her; and Mr. Casaubon had never himself seen

    fully what was the claim upon him. "But he will!" said Dorothea. "The

    great strength of his character lies here. And what are we doing with

    our money? We make no use of half of our income. My own money buys me

    nothing but an uneasy conscience."

    There was a peculiar fascination for Dorothea in this division of

    property intended for herself, and always regarded by her as excessive.

    She was blind, you see, to many things obvious to others—likely to

    tread in the wrong places, as Celia had warned her; yet her blindness

    to whatever did not lie in her own pure purpose carried her safely by

    the side of precipices where vision would have been perilous with fear.

    The thoughts which had gathered vividness in the solitude of her

    boudoir occupied her incessantly through the day on which Mr. Casaubon

    had sent his letter to Will. Everything seemed hindrance to her till

    she could find an opportunity of opening her heart to her husband. To

    his preoccupied mind all subjects were to be approached gently, and she

    had never since his illness lost from her consciousness the dread of

    agitating him. But when young ardor is set brooding over the

    conception of a prompt deed, the deed itself seems to start forth with

    independent life, mastering ideal obstacles. The day passed in a

    sombre fashion, not unusual, though Mr. Casaubon was perhaps unusually

    silent; but there were hours of the night which might be counted on as

    opportunities of conversation; for Dorothea, when aware of her

    husband's sleeplessness, had established a habit of rising, lighting a

    candle, and reading him to sleep again. And this night she was from

    the beginning sleepless, excited by resolves. He slept as usual for a

    few hours, but she had risen softly and had sat in the darkness for

    nearly an hour before he said—

    "Dorothea, since you are up, will you light a candle?"

    "Do you feel ill, dear?" was her first question, as she obeyed him.

    "No, not at all; but I shall be obliged, since you are up, if you will

    read me a few pages of Lowth."

    "May I talk to you a little instead?" said Dorothea.

    "Certainly."

    "I have been thinking about money all day—that I have always had too

    much, and especially the prospect of too much."

    "These, my dear Dorothea, are providential arrangements."

    "But if one has too much in consequence of others being wronged, it

    seems to me that the divine voice which tells us to set that wrong

    right must be obeyed."

    "What, my love, is the bearing of your remark?"

    "That you have been too liberal in arrangements for me—I mean, with

    regard to property; and that makes me unhappy."

    "How so? I have none but comparatively distant connections."

    "I have been led to think about your aunt Julia, and how she was left

    in poverty only because she married a poor man, an act which was not

    disgraceful, since he was not unworthy. It was on that ground, I know,

    that you educated Mr. Ladislaw and provided for his mother."

    Dorothea waited a few moments for some answer that would help her

    onward. None came, and her next words seemed the more forcible to her,

    falling clear upon the dark silence.

    "But surely we should regard his claim as a much greater one, even to

    the half of that property which I know that you have destined for me.

    And I think he ought at once to be provided for on that understanding.

    It is not right that he should be in the dependence of poverty while we

    are rich. And if there is any objection to the proposal he mentioned,

    the giving him his true place and his true share would set aside any

    motive for his accepting it."

    "Mr. Ladislaw has probably been speaking to you on this subject?" said

    Mr. Casaubon, with a certain biting quickness not habitual to him.

    "Indeed, no!" said Dorothea, earnestly. "How can you imagine it, since

    he has so lately declined everything from you? I fear you think too

    hardly of him, dear. He only told me a little about his parents and

    grandparents, and almost all in answer to my questions. You are so

    good, so just—you have done everything you thought to be right. But

    it seems to me clear that more than that is right; and I must speak

    about it, since I am the person who would get what is called benefit by

    that 'more' not being done."

    There was a perceptible pause before Mr. Casaubon replied, not quickly

    as before, but with a still more biting emphasis.

    "Dorothea, my love, this is not the first occasion, but it were well

    that it should be the last, on which you have assumed a judgment on

    subjects beyond your scope. Into the question how far conduct,

    especially in the matter of alliances, constitutes a forfeiture of

    family claims, I do not now enter. Suffice it, that you are not here

    qualified to discriminate. What I now wish you to understand is, that

    I accept no revision, still less dictation within that range of affairs

    which I have deliberated upon as distinctly and properly mine. It is

    not for you to interfere between me and Mr. Ladislaw, and still less to

    encourage communications from him to you which constitute a criticism

    on my procedure."

    Poor Dorothea, shrouded in the darkness, was in a tumult of conflicting

    emotions. Alarm at the possible effect on himself of her husband's

    strongly manifested anger, would have checked any expression of her own

    resentment, even if she had been quite free from doubt and compunction

    under the consciousness that there might be some justice in his last

    insinuation. Hearing him breathe quickly after he had spoken, she sat

    listening, frightened, wretched—with a dumb inward cry for help to

    bear this nightmare of a life in which every energy was arrested by

    dread. But nothing else happened, except that they both remained a

    long while sleepless, without speaking again.

    The next day, Mr. Casaubon received the following answer from Will

    Ladislaw:—


    "DEAR MR. CASAUBON,—I have given all due consideration to your letter
    of yesterday, but I am unable to take precisely your view of our mutual
    position. With the fullest acknowledgment of your generous conduct to
    me in the past, I must still maintain that an obligation of this kind
    cannot fairly fetter me as you appear to expect that it should.
    Granted that a benefactor's wishes may constitute a claim; there must
    always be a reservation as to the quality of those wishes. They may
    possibly clash with more imperative considerations. Or a benefactor's
    veto might impose such a negation on a man's life that the consequent
    blank might be more cruel than the benefaction was generous. I am
    merely using strong illustrations. In the present case I am unable to
    take your view of the bearing which my acceptance of occupation—not
    enriching certainly, but not dishonorable—will have on your own
    position which seems to me too substantial to be affected in that
    shadowy manner. And though I do not believe that any change in our
    relations will occur (certainly none has yet occurred) which can
    nullify the obligations imposed on me by the past, pardon me for not
    seeing that those obligations should restrain me from using the
    ordinary freedom of living where I choose, and maintaining myself by
    any lawful occupation I may choose. Regretting that there exists this
    difference between us as to a relation in which the conferring of
    benefits has been entirely on your side—


    I remain, yours with persistent obligation,
    "WILL LADISLAW."

    Poor Mr. Casaubon felt (and must not we, being impartial, feel with him

    a little?) that no man had juster cause for disgust and suspicion than

    he. Young Ladislaw, he was sure, meant to defy and annoy him, meant to

    win Dorothea's confidence and sow her mind with disrespect, and perhaps

    aversion, towards her husband. Some motive beneath the surface had

    been needed to account for Will's sudden change of in rejecting Mr.

    Casaubon's aid and quitting his travels; and this defiant determination

    to fix himself in the neighborhood by taking up something so much at

    variance with his former choice as Mr. Brooke's Middlemarch projects,

    revealed clearly enough that the undeclared motive had relation to

    Dorothea. Not for one moment did Mr. Casaubon suspect Dorothea of any

    doubleness: he had no suspicions of her, but he had (what was little

    less uncomfortable) the positive knowledge that her tendency to form

    opinions about her husband's conduct was accompanied with a disposition

    to regard Will Ladislaw favorably and be influenced by what he said.

    His own proud reticence had prevented him from ever being undeceived in

    the supposition that Dorothea had originally asked her uncle to invite

    Will to his house.

    And now, on receiving Will's letter, Mr. Casaubon had to consider his

    duty. He would never have been easy to call his action anything else

    than duty; but in this case, contending motives thrust him back into

    negations.

    Should he apply directly to Mr. Brooke, and demand of that troublesome

    gentleman to revoke his proposal? Or should he consult Sir James

    Chettam, and get him to concur in remonstrance against a step which

    touched the whole family? In either case Mr. Casaubon was aware that

    failure was just as probable as success. It was impossible for him to

    mention Dorothea's name in the matter, and without some alarming

    urgency Mr. Brooke was as likely as not, after meeting all

    representations with apparent assent, to wind up by saying, "Never

    fear, Casaubon! Depend upon it, young Ladislaw will do you credit.

    Depend upon it, I have put my finger on the right thing." And Mr.

    Casaubon shrank nervously from communicating on the subject with Sir

    James Chettam, between whom and himself there had never been any

    cordiality, and who would immediately think of Dorothea without any

    mention of her.

    Poor Mr. Casaubon was distrustful of everybody's feeling towards him,

    especially as a husband. To let any one suppose that he was jealous

    would be to admit their (suspected) view of his disadvantages: to let

    them know that he did not find marriage particularly blissful would

    imply his conversion to their (probably) earlier disapproval. It would

    be as bad as letting Carp, and Brasenose generally, know how backward

    he was in organizing the matter for his "Key to all Mythologies." All

    through his life Mr. Casaubon had been trying not to admit even to

    himself the inward sores of self-doubt and jealousy. And on the most

    delicate of all personal subjects, the habit of proud suspicious

    reticence told doubly.

    Thus Mr. Casaubon remained proudly, bitterly silent. But he had

    forbidden Will to come to Lowick Manor, and he was mentally preparing

    other measures of frustration.


    CHAPTER XXXVIII.


    "C'est beaucoup que le jugement des hommes sur les actions
    humaines; tot ou tard il devient efficace."—GUIZOT.

    Sir James Chettam could not look with any satisfaction on Mr. Brooke's

    new courses; but it was easier to object than to hinder. Sir James

    accounted for his having come in alone one day to lunch with the

    Cadwalladers by saying—

    "I can't talk to you as I want, before Celia: it might hurt her.

    Indeed, it would not be right."

    "I know what you mean—the 'Pioneer' at the Grange!" darted in Mrs.

    Cadwallader, almost before the last word was off her friend's tongue.

    "It is frightful—this taking to buying whistles and blowing them in

    everybody's hearing. Lying in bed all day and playing at dominoes,

    like poor Lord Plessy, would be more private and bearable."

    "I see they are beginning to attack our friend Brooke in the

    'Trumpet,'" said the Rector, lounging back and smiling easily, as he

    would have done if he had been attacked himself. "There are tremendous

    sarcasms against a landlord not a hundred miles from Middlemarch, who

    receives his own rents, and makes no returns."

    "I do wish Brooke would leave that off," said Sir James, with his

    little frown of annoyance.

    "Is he really going to be put in nomination, though?" said Mr.

    Cadwallader. "I saw Farebrother yesterday—he's Whiggish himself,

    hoists Brougham and Useful Knowledge; that's the worst I know of

    him;—and he says that Brooke is getting up a pretty strong party.

    Bulstrode, the banker, is his foremost man. But he thinks Brooke would

    come off badly at a nomination."

    "Exactly," said Sir James, with earnestness. "I have been inquiring

    into the thing, for I've never known anything about Middlemarch

    politics before—the county being my business. What Brooke trusts to,

    is that they are going to turn out Oliver because he is a Peelite. But

    Hawley tells me that if they send up a Whig at all it is sure to be

    Bagster, one of those candidates who come from heaven knows where, but

    dead against Ministers, and an experienced Parliamentary man. Hawley's

    rather rough: he forgot that he was speaking to me. He said if Brooke

    wanted a pelting, he could get it cheaper than by going to the

    hustings."

    "I warned you all of it," said Mrs. Cadwallader, waving her hands

    outward. "I said to Humphrey long ago, Mr. Brooke is going to make a

    splash in the mud. And now he has done it."

    "Well, he might have taken it into his head to marry," said the Rector.

    "That would have been a graver mess than a little flirtation with

    politics."

    "He may do that afterwards," said Mrs. Cadwallader—"when he has come

    out on the other side of the mud with an ague."

    "What I care for most is his own dignity," said Sir James. "Of course

    I care the more because of the family. But he's getting on in life

    now, and I don't like to think of his exposing himself. They will be

    raking up everything against him."

    "I suppose it's no use trying any persuasion," said the Rector.

    "There's such an odd mixture of obstinacy and changeableness in Brooke.

    Have you tried him on the subject?"

    "Well, no," said Sir James; "I feel a delicacy in appearing to dictate.

    But I have been talking to this young Ladislaw that Brooke is making a

    factotum of. Ladislaw seems clever enough for anything. I thought it

    as well to hear what he had to say; and he is against Brooke's standing

    this time. I think he'll turn him round: I think the nomination may be

    staved off."

    "I know," said Mrs. Cadwallader, nodding. "The independent member

    hasn't got his speeches well enough by heart."

    "But this Ladislaw—there again is a vexatious business," said Sir

    James. "We have had him two or three times to dine at the Hall (you

    have met him, by the bye) as Brooke's guest and a relation of

    Casaubon's, thinking he was only on a flying visit. And now I find

    he's in everybody's mouth in Middlemarch as the editor of the

    'Pioneer.' There are stories going about him as a quill-driving alien,

    a foreign emissary, and what not."

    "Casaubon won't like that," said the Rector.

    "There is some foreign blood in Ladislaw," returned Sir James. "I

    hope he won't go into extreme opinions and carry Brooke on."

    "Oh, he's a dangerous young sprig, that Mr. Ladislaw," said Mrs.

    Cadwallader, "with his opera songs and his ready tongue. A sort of

    Byronic hero—an amorous conspirator, it strikes me. And Thomas

    Aquinas is not fond of him. I could see that, the day the picture was

    brought."

    "I don't like to begin on the subject with Casaubon," said Sir James.

    "He has more right to interfere than I. But it's a disagreeable affair

    all round. What a character for anybody with decent connections to

    show himself in!—one of those newspaper fellows! You have only to

    look at Keck, who manages the 'Trumpet.' I saw him the other day with

    Hawley. His writing is sound enough, I believe, but he's such a low

    fellow, that I wished he had been on the wrong side."

    "What can you expect with these peddling Middlemarch papers?" said the

    Rector. "I don't suppose you could get a high style of man anywhere to

    be writing up interests he doesn't really care about, and for pay that

    hardly keeps him in at elbows."

    "Exactly: that makes it so annoying that Brooke should have put a man

    who has a sort of connection with the family in a position of that

    kind. For my part, I think Ladislaw is rather a fool for accepting."

    "It is Aquinas's fault," said Mrs. Cadwallader. "Why didn't he use his

    interest to get Ladislaw made an attache or sent to India? That is how

    families get rid of troublesome sprigs."

    "There is no knowing to what lengths the mischief may go," said Sir

    James, anxiously. "But if Casaubon says nothing, what can I do?"

    "Oh my dear Sir James," said the Rector, "don't let us make too much of

    all this. It is likely enough to end in mere smoke. After a month or

    two Brooke and this Master Ladislaw will get tired of each other;

    Ladislaw will take wing; Brooke will sell the 'Pioneer,' and everything

    will settle down again as usual."

    "There is one good chance—that he will not like to feel his money

    oozing away," said Mrs. Cadwallader. "If I knew the items of election

    expenses I could scare him. It's no use plying him with wide words

    like Expenditure: I wouldn't talk of phlebotomy, I would empty a pot of

    leeches upon him. What we good stingy people don't like, is having our

    sixpences sucked away from us."

    "And he will not like having things raked up against him," said Sir

    James. "There is the management of his estate. They have begun upon

    that already. And it really is painful for me to see. It is a

    nuisance under one's very nose. I do think one is bound to do the best

    for one's land and tenants, especially in these hard times."

    "Perhaps the 'Trumpet' may rouse him to make a change, and some good

    may come of it all," said the Rector. "I know I should be glad. I

    should hear less grumbling when my tithe is paid. I don't know what I

    should do if there were not a modus in Tipton."

    "I want him to have a proper man to look after things—I want him to

    take on Garth again," said Sir James. "He got rid of Garth twelve

    years ago, and everything has been going wrong since. I think of

    getting Garth to manage for me—he has made such a capital plan for my

    buildings; and Lovegood is hardly up to the mark. But Garth would not

    undertake the Tipton estate again unless Brooke left it entirely to

    him."

    "In the right of it too," said the Rector. "Garth is an independent

    fellow: an original, simple-minded fellow. One day, when he was doing

    some valuation for me, he told me point-blank that clergymen seldom

    understood anything about business, and did mischief when they meddled;

    but he said it as quietly and respectfully as if he had been talking to

    me about sailors. He would make a different parish of Tipton, if

    Brooke would let him manage. I wish, by the help of the 'Trumpet,' you

    could bring that round."

    "If Dorothea had kept near her uncle, there would have been some

    chance," said Sir James. "She might have got some power over him in

    time, and she was always uneasy about the estate. She had wonderfully

    good notions about such things. But now Casaubon takes her up

    entirely. Celia complains a good deal. We can hardly get her to dine

    with us, since he had that fit." Sir James ended with a look of pitying

    disgust, and Mrs. Cadwallader shrugged her shoulders as much as to say

    that she was not likely to see anything new in that direction.

    "Poor Casaubon!" the Rector said. "That was a nasty attack. I thought

    he looked shattered the other day at the Archdeacon's."

    "In point of fact," resumed Sir James, not choosing to dwell on "fits,"

    "Brooke doesn't mean badly by his tenants or any one else, but he has

    got that way of paring and clipping at expenses."

    "Come, that's a blessing," said Mrs. Cadwallader. "That helps him to

    find himself in a morning. He may not know his own opinions, but he

    does know his own pocket."

    "I don't believe a man is in pocket by stinginess on his land," said

    Sir James.

    "Oh, stinginess may be abused like other virtues: it will not do to

    keep one's own pigs lean," said Mrs. Cadwallader, who had risen to look

    out of the window. "But talk of an independent politician and he will

    appear."

    "What! Brooke?" said her husband.

    "Yes. Now, you ply him with the 'Trumpet,' Humphrey; and I will put

    the leeches on him. What will you do, Sir James?"

    "The fact is, I don't like to begin about it with Brooke, in our mutual

    position; the whole thing is so unpleasant. I do wish people would

    behave like gentlemen," said the good baronet, feeling that this was a

    simple and comprehensive programme for social well-being.

    "Here you all are, eh?" said Mr. Brooke, shuffling round and shaking

    hands. "I was going up to the Hall by-and-by, Chettam. But it's

    pleasant to find everybody, you know. Well, what do you think of

    things?—going on a little fast! It was true enough, what Lafitte

    said—'Since yesterday, a century has passed away:'—they're in the

    next century, you know, on the other side of the water. Going on

    faster than we are."

    "Why, yes," said the Rector, taking up the newspaper. "Here is the

    'Trumpet' accusing you of lagging behind—did you see?"

    "Eh? no," said Mr. Brooke, dropping his gloves into his hat and hastily

    adjusting his eye-glass. But Mr. Cadwallader kept the paper in his

    hand, saying, with a smile in his eyes—

    "Look here! all this is about a landlord not a hundred miles from

    Middlemarch, who receives his own rents. They say he is the most

    retrogressive man in the county. I think you must have taught them

    that word in the 'Pioneer.'"

    "Oh, that is Keck—an illiterate fellow, you know. Retrogressive, now!

    Come, that's capital. He thinks it means destructive: they want to

    make me out a destructive, you know," said Mr. Brooke, with that

    cheerfulness which is usually sustained by an adversary's ignorance.

    "I think he knows the meaning of the word. Here is a sharp stroke or

    two. If we had to describe a man who is retrogressive in the most evil

    sense of the word—we should say, he is one who would dub himself a

    reformer of our constitution, while every interest for which he is

    immediately responsible is going to decay: a philanthropist who cannot

    bear one rogue to be hanged, but does not mind five honest tenants

    being half-starved: a man who shrieks at corruption, and keeps his

    farms at rack-rent: who roars himself red at rotten boroughs, and does

    not mind if every field on his farms has a rotten gate: a man very

    open-hearted to Leeds and Manchester, no doubt; he would give any

    number of representatives who will pay for their seats out of their own

    pockets: what he objects to giving, is a little return on rent-days to

    help a tenant to buy stock, or an outlay on repairs to keep the weather

    out at a tenant's barn-door or make his house look a little less like

    an Irish cottier's. But we all know the wag's definition of a

    philanthropist: a man whose charity increases directly as the square of

    the distance. And so on. All the rest is to show what sort of

    legislator a philanthropist is likely to make," ended the Rector,

    throwing down the paper, and clasping his hands at the back of his

    head, while he looked at Mr. Brooke with an air of amused neutrality.

    "Come, that's rather good, you know," said Mr. Brooke, taking up the

    paper and trying to bear the attack as easily as his neighbor did, but

    coloring and smiling rather nervously; "that about roaring himself red

    at rotten boroughs—I never made a speech about rotten boroughs in my

    life. And as to roaring myself red and that kind of thing—these men

    never understand what is good satire. Satire, you know, should be true

    up to a certain point. I recollect they said that in 'The Edinburgh'

    somewhere—it must be true up to a certain point."

    "Well, that is really a hit about the gates," said Sir James, anxious

    to tread carefully. "Dagley complained to me the other day that he

    hadn't got a decent gate on his farm. Garth has invented a new pattern

    of gate—I wish you would try it. One ought to use some of one's

    timber in that way."

    "You go in for fancy farming, you know, Chettam," said Mr. Brooke,

    appearing to glance over the columns of the "Trumpet." "That's your

    hobby, and you don't mind the expense."

    "I thought the most expensive hobby in the world was standing for

    Parliament," said Mrs. Cadwallader. "They said the last unsuccessful

    candidate at Middlemarch—Giles, wasn't his name?—spent ten thousand

    pounds and failed because he did not bribe enough. What a bitter

    reflection for a man!"

    "Somebody was saying," said the Rector, laughingly, "that East Retford

    was nothing to Middlemarch, for bribery."

    "Nothing of the kind," said Mr. Brooke. "The Tories bribe, you know:

    Hawley and his set bribe with treating, hot codlings, and that sort of

    thing; and they bring the voters drunk to the poll. But they are not

    going to have it their own way in future—not in future, you know.

    Middlemarch is a little backward, I admit—the freemen are a little

    backward. But we shall educate them—we shall bring them on, you

    know. The best people there are on our side."

    "Hawley says you have men on your side who will do you harm," remarked

    Sir James. "He says Bulstrode the banker will do you harm."

    "And that if you got pelted," interposed Mrs. Cadwallader, "half the

    rotten eggs would mean hatred of your committee-man. Good heavens!

    Think what it must be to be pelted for wrong opinions. And I seem to

    remember a story of a man they pretended to chair and let him fall into

    a dust-heap on purpose!"

    "Pelting is nothing to their finding holes in one's coat," said the

    Rector. "I confess that's what I should be afraid of, if we parsons

    had to stand at the hustings for preferment. I should be afraid of

    their reckoning up all my fishing days. Upon my word, I think the

    truth is the hardest missile one can be pelted with."

    "The fact is," said Sir James, "if a man goes into public life he must

    be prepared for the consequences. He must make himself proof against

    calumny."

    "My dear Chettam, that is all very fine, you know," said Mr. Brooke.

    "But how will you make yourself proof against calumny? You should read

    history—look at ostracism, persecution, martyrdom, and that kind of

    thing. They always happen to the best men, you know. But what is that

    in Horace?—'fiat justitia, ruat … something or other."

    "Exactly," said Sir James, with a little more heat than usual. "What I

    mean by being proof against calumny is being able to point to the fact

    as a contradiction."

    "And it is not martyrdom to pay bills that one has run into one's

    self," said Mrs. Cadwallader.

    But it was Sir James's evident annoyance that most stirred Mr. Brooke.

    "Well, you know, Chettam," he said, rising, taking up his hat and

    leaning on his stick, "you and I have a different system. You are all

    for outlay with your farms. I don't want to make out that my system is

    good under all circumstances—under all circumstances, you know."

    "There ought to be a new valuation made from time to time," said Sir

    James. "Returns are very well occasionally, but I like a fair

    valuation. What do you say, Cadwallader?"

    "I agree with you. If I were Brooke, I would choke the 'Trumpet' at

    once by getting Garth to make a new valuation of the farms, and giving

    him carte blanche about gates and repairs: that's my view of the

    political situation," said the Rector, broadening himself by sticking

    his thumbs in his armholes, and laughing towards Mr. Brooke.

    "That's a showy sort of thing to do, you know," said Mr. Brooke. "But

    I should like you to tell me of another landlord who has distressed his

    tenants for arrears as little as I have. I let the old tenants stay

    on. I'm uncommonly easy, let me tell you, uncommonly easy. I have my

    own ideas, and I take my stand on them, you know. A man who does that

    is always charged with eccentricity, inconsistency, and that kind of

    thing. When I change my line of action, I shall follow my own ideas."

    After that, Mr. Brooke remembered that there was a packet which he had

    omitted to send off from the Grange, and he bade everybody hurriedly

    good-by.

    "I didn't want to take a liberty with Brooke," said Sir James; "I see

    he is nettled. But as to what he says about old tenants, in point of

    fact no new tenant would take the farms on the present terms."

    "I have a notion that he will be brought round in time," said the

    Rector. "But you were pulling one way, Elinor, and we were pulling

    another. You wanted to frighten him away from expense, and we want to

    frighten him into it. Better let him try to be popular and see that

    his character as a landlord stands in his way. I don't think it

    signifies two straws about the 'Pioneer,' or Ladislaw, or Brooke's

    speechifying to the Middlemarchers. But it does signify about the

    parishioners in Tipton being comfortable."

    "Excuse me, it is you two who are on the wrong tack," said Mrs.

    Cadwallader. "You should have proved to him that he loses money by bad

    management, and then we should all have pulled together. If you put

    him a-horseback on politics, I warn you of the consequences. It was

    all very well to ride on sticks at home and call them ideas."


    CHAPTER XXXIX.


    "If, as I have, you also doe,
    Vertue attired in woman see,
    And dare love that, and say so too,
    And forget the He and She;

    And if this love, though placed so,
    From prophane men you hide,
    Which will no faith on this bestow,
    Or, if they doe, deride:

    Then you have done a braver thing
    Than all the Worthies did,
    And a braver thence will spring,
    Which is, to keep that hid."
    —DR. DONNE.

    Sir James Chettam's mind was not fruitful in devices, but his growing

    anxiety to "act on Brooke," once brought close to his constant belief

    in Dorothea's capacity for influence, became formative, and issued in a

    little plan; namely, to plead Celia's indisposition as a reason for

    fetching Dorothea by herself to the Hall, and to leave her at the

    Grange with the carriage on the way, after making her fully aware of

    the situation concerning the management of the estate.

    In this way it happened that one day near four o'clock, when Mr. Brooke

    and Ladislaw were seated in the library, the door opened and Mrs.

    Casaubon was announced.

    Will, the moment before, had been low in the depths of boredom, and,

    obliged to help Mr. Brooke in arranging "documents" about hanging

    sheep-stealers, was exemplifying the power our minds have of riding

    several horses at once by inwardly arranging measures towards getting a

    lodging for himself in Middlemarch and cutting short his constant

    residence at the Grange; while there flitted through all these steadier

    images a tickling vision of a sheep-stealing epic written with Homeric

    particularity. When Mrs. Casaubon was announced he started up as from

    an electric shock, and felt a tingling at his finger-ends. Any one

    observing him would have seen a change in his complexion, in the

    adjustment of his facial muscles, in the vividness of his glance, which

    might have made them imagine that every molecule in his body had passed

    the message of a magic touch. And so it had. For effective magic is

    transcendent nature; and who shall measure the subtlety of those

    touches which convey the quality of soul as well as body, and make a

    man's passion for one woman differ from his passion for another as joy

    in the morning light over valley and river and white mountain-top

    differs from joy among Chinese lanterns and glass panels? Will, too,

    was made of very impressible stuff. The bow of a violin drawn near him

    cleverly, would at one stroke change the aspect of the world for him,

    and his point of view shifted—as easily as his mood. Dorothea's

    entrance was the freshness of morning.

    "Well, my dear, this is pleasant, now," said Mr. Brooke, meeting and

    kissing her. "You have left Casaubon with his books, I suppose.

    That's right. We must not have you getting too learned for a woman,

    you know."

    "There is no fear of that, uncle," said Dorothea, turning to Will and

    shaking hands with open cheerfulness, while she made no other form of

    greeting, but went on answering her uncle. "I am very slow. When I

    want to be busy with books, I am often playing truant among my

    thoughts. I find it is not so easy to be learned as to plan cottages."

    She seated herself beside her uncle opposite to Will, and was evidently

    preoccupied with something that made her almost unmindful of him. He

    was ridiculously disappointed, as if he had imagined that her coming

    had anything to do with him.

    "Why, yes, my dear, it was quite your hobby to draw plans. But it was

    good to break that off a little. Hobbies are apt to ran away with us,

    you know; it doesn't do to be run away with. We must keep the reins.

    I have never let myself be run away with; I always pulled up. That is

    what I tell Ladislaw. He and I are alike, you know: he likes to go

    into everything. We are working at capital punishment. We shall do a

    great deal together, Ladislaw and I."

    "Yes," said Dorothea, with characteristic directness, "Sir James has

    been telling me that he is in hope of seeing a great change made soon

    in your management of the estate—that you are thinking of having the

    farms valued, and repairs made, and the cottages improved, so that

    Tipton may look quite another place. Oh, how happy!"—she went on,

    clasping her hands, with a return to that more childlike impetuous

    manner, which had been subdued since her marriage. "If I were at home

    still, I should take to riding again, that I might go about with you

    and see all that! And you are going to engage Mr. Garth, who praised

    my cottages, Sir James says."

    "Chettam is a little hasty, my dear," said Mr. Brooke, coloring

    slightly; "a little hasty, you know. I never said I should do anything

    of the kind. I never said I should not do it, you know."

    "He only feels confident that you will do it," said Dorothea, in a

    voice as clear and unhesitating as that of a young chorister chanting a

    credo, "because you mean to enter Parliament as a member who cares for

    the improvement of the people, and one of the first things to be made

    better is the state of the land and the laborers. Think of Kit Downes,

    uncle, who lives with his wife and seven children in a house with one

    sitting room and one bedroom hardly larger than this table!—and those

    poor Dagleys, in their tumble-down farmhouse, where they live in the

    back kitchen and leave the other rooms to the rats! That is one reason

    why I did not like the pictures here, dear uncle—which you think me

    stupid about. I used to come from the village with all that dirt and

    coarse ugliness like a pain within me, and the simpering pictures in

    the drawing-room seemed to me like a wicked attempt to find delight in

    what is false, while we don't mind how hard the truth is for the

    neighbors outside our walls. I think we have no right to come forward

    and urge wider changes for good, until we have tried to alter the evils

    which lie under our own hands."

    Dorothea had gathered emotion as she went on, and had forgotten

    everything except the relief of pouring forth her feelings, unchecked:

    an experience once habitual with her, but hardly ever present since her

    marriage, which had been a perpetual struggle of energy with fear. For

    the moment, Will's admiration was accompanied with a chilling sense of

    remoteness. A man is seldom ashamed of feeling that he cannot love a

    woman so well when he sees a certain greatness in her: nature having

    intended greatness for men. But nature has sometimes made sad

    oversights in carrying out her intention; as in the case of good Mr.

    Brooke, whose masculine consciousness was at this moment in rather a

    stammering condition under the eloquence of his niece. He could not

    immediately find any other mode of expressing himself than that of

    rising, fixing his eye-glass, and fingering the papers before him. At

    last he said—

    "There is something in what you say, my dear, something in what you

    say—but not everything—eh, Ladislaw? You and I don't like our

    pictures and statues being found fault with. Young ladies are a little

    ardent, you know—a little one-sided, my dear. Fine art, poetry, that

    kind of thing, elevates a nation—emollit mores—you understand a

    little Latin now. But—eh? what?"

    These interrogatives were addressed to the footman who had come in to

    say that the keeper had found one of Dagley's boys with a leveret in

    his hand just killed.

    "I'll come, I'll come. I shall let him off easily, you know," said Mr.

    Brooke aside to Dorothea, shuffling away very cheerfully.

    "I hope you feel how right this change is that I—that Sir James wishes

    for," said Dorothea to Will, as soon as her uncle was gone.

    "I do, now I have heard you speak about it. I shall not forget what

    you have said. But can you think of something else at this moment? I

    may not have another opportunity of speaking to you about what has

    occurred," said Will, rising with a movement of impatience, and holding

    the back of his chair with both hands.

    "Pray tell me what it is," said Dorothea, anxiously, also rising and

    going to the open window, where Monk was looking in, panting and

    wagging his tail. She leaned her back against the window-frame, and

    laid her hand on the dog's head; for though, as we know, she was not

    fond of pets that must be held in the hands or trodden on, she was

    always attentive to the feelings of dogs, and very polite if she had to

    decline their advances.

    Will followed her only with his eyes and said, "I presume you know that

    Mr. Casaubon has forbidden me to go to his house."

    "No, I did not," said Dorothea, after a moment's pause. She was

    evidently much moved. "I am very, very sorry," she added, mournfully.

    She was thinking of what Will had no knowledge of—the conversation

    between her and her husband in the darkness; and she was anew smitten

    with hopelessness that she could influence Mr. Casaubon's action. But

    the marked expression of her sorrow convinced Will that it was not all

    given to him personally, and that Dorothea had not been visited by the

    idea that Mr. Casaubon's dislike and jealousy of him turned upon

    herself. He felt an odd mixture of delight and vexation: of delight

    that he could dwell and be cherished in her thought as in a pure home,

    without suspicion and without stint—of vexation because he was of too

    little account with her, was not formidable enough, was treated with an

    unhesitating benevolence which did not flatter him. But his dread of

    any change in Dorothea was stronger than his discontent, and he began

    to speak again in a tone of mere explanation.

    "Mr. Casaubon's reason is, his displeasure at my taking a position here

    which he considers unsuited to my rank as his cousin. I have told him

    that I cannot give way on this point. It is a little too hard on me to

    expect that my course in life is to be hampered by prejudices which I

    think ridiculous. Obligation may be stretched till it is no better

    than a brand of slavery stamped on us when we were too young to know

    its meaning. I would not have accepted the position if I had not meant

    to make it useful and honorable. I am not bound to regard family

    dignity in any other light."

    Dorothea felt wretched. She thought her husband altogether in the

    wrong, on more grounds than Will had mentioned.

    "It is better for us not to speak on the subject," she said, with a

    tremulousness not common in her voice, "since you and Mr. Casaubon

    disagree. You intend to remain?" She was looking out on the lawn,

    with melancholy meditation.

    "Yes; but I shall hardly ever see you now," said Will, in a tone of

    almost boyish complaint.

    "No," said Dorothea, turning her eyes full upon him, "hardly ever. But

    I shall hear of you. I shall know what you are doing for my uncle."

    "I shall know hardly anything about you," said Will. "No one will tell

    me anything."

    "Oh, my life is very simple," said Dorothea, her lips curling with an

    exquisite smile, which irradiated her melancholy. "I am always at

    Lowick."

    "That is a dreadful imprisonment," said Will, impetuously.

    "No, don't think that," said Dorothea. "I have no longings."

    He did not speak, but she replied to some change in his expression. "I

    mean, for myself. Except that I should like not to have so much more

    than my share without doing anything for others. But I have a belief

    of my own, and it comforts me."

    "What is that?" said Will, rather jealous of the belief.

    "That by desiring what is perfectly good, even when we don't quite know

    what it is and cannot do what we would, we are part of the divine power

    against evil—widening the skirts of light and making the struggle with

    darkness narrower."

    "That is a beautiful mysticism—it is a—"

    "Please not to call it by any name," said Dorothea, putting out her

    hands entreatingly. "You will say it is Persian, or something else

    geographical. It is my life. I have found it out, and cannot part

    with it. I have always been finding out my religion since I was a

    little girl. I used to pray so much—now I hardly ever pray. I try

    not to have desires merely for myself, because they may not be good for

    others, and I have too much already. I only told you, that you might

    know quite well how my days go at Lowick."

    "God bless you for telling me!" said Will, ardently, and rather

    wondering at himself. They were looking at each other like two fond

    children who were talking confidentially of birds.

    "What is your religion?" said Dorothea. "I mean—not what you know

    about religion, but the belief that helps you most?"

    "To love what is good and beautiful when I see it," said Will. "But I

    am a rebel: I don't feel bound, as you do, to submit to what I don't

    like."

    "But if you like what is good, that comes to the same thing," said

    Dorothea, smiling.

    "Now you are subtle," said Will.

    "Yes; Mr. Casaubon often says I am too subtle. I don't feel as if I

    were subtle," said Dorothea, playfully. "But how long my uncle is! I

    must go and look for him. I must really go on to the Hall. Celia is

    expecting me."

    Will offered to tell Mr. Brooke, who presently came and said that he

    would step into the carriage and go with Dorothea as far as Dagley's,

    to speak about the small delinquent who had been caught with the

    leveret. Dorothea renewed the subject of the estate as they drove

    along, but Mr. Brooke, not being taken unawares, got the talk under his

    own control.

    "Chettam, now," he replied; "he finds fault with me, my dear; but I

    should not preserve my game if it were not for Chettam, and he can't

    say that that expense is for the sake of the tenants, you know. It's a

    little against my feeling:—poaching, now, if you come to look into

    it—I have often thought of getting up the subject. Not long ago,

    Flavell, the Methodist preacher, was brought up for knocking down a

    hare that came across his path when he and his wife were walking out

    together. He was pretty quick, and knocked it on the neck."

    "That was very brutal, I think," said Dorothea

    "Well, now, it seemed rather black to me, I confess, in a Methodist

    preacher, you know. And Johnson said, 'You may judge what a

    hypocrite he is.' And upon my word, I thought Flavell looked very

    little like 'the highest style of man'—as somebody calls the

    Christian—Young, the poet Young, I think—you know Young? Well, now,

    Flavell in his shabby black gaiters, pleading that he thought the Lord

    had sent him and his wife a good dinner, and he had a right to knock it

    down, though not a mighty hunter before the Lord, as Nimrod was—I

    assure you it was rather comic: Fielding would have made something of

    it—or Scott, now—Scott might have worked it up. But really, when I

    came to think of it, I couldn't help liking that the fellow should have

    a bit of hare to say grace over. It's all a matter of

    prejudice—prejudice with the law on its side, you know—about the

    stick and the gaiters, and so on. However, it doesn't do to reason

    about things; and law is law. But I got Johnson to be quiet, and I

    hushed the matter up. I doubt whether Chettam would not have been more

    severe, and yet he comes down on me as if I were the hardest man in the

    county. But here we are at Dagley's."

    Mr. Brooke got down at a farmyard-gate, and Dorothea drove on. It is

    wonderful how much uglier things will look when we only suspect that we

    are blamed for them. Even our own persons in the glass are apt to

    change their aspect for us after we have heard some frank remark on

    their less admirable points; and on the other hand it is astonishing

    how pleasantly conscience takes our encroachments on those who never

    complain or have nobody to complain for them. Dagley's homestead never

    before looked so dismal to Mr. Brooke as it did today, with his mind

    thus sore about the fault-finding of the "Trumpet," echoed by Sir James.

    It is true that an observer, under that softening influence of the fine

    arts which makes other people's hardships picturesque, might have been

    delighted with this homestead called Freeman's End: the old house had

    dormer-windows in the dark red roof, two of the chimneys were choked

    with ivy, the large porch was blocked up with bundles of sticks, and

    half the windows were closed with gray worm-eaten shutters about which

    the jasmine-boughs grew in wild luxuriance; the mouldering garden wall

    with hollyhocks peeping over it was a perfect study of highly mingled

    subdued color, and there was an aged goat (kept doubtless on

    interesting superstitious grounds) lying against the open back-kitchen

    door. The mossy thatch of the cow-shed, the broken gray barn-doors,

    the pauper laborers in ragged breeches who had nearly finished

    unloading a wagon of corn into the barn ready for early thrashing; the

    scanty dairy of cows being tethered for milking and leaving one half of

    the shed in brown emptiness; the very pigs and white ducks seeming to

    wander about the uneven neglected yard as if in low spirits from

    feeding on a too meagre quality of rinsings,—all these objects under

    the quiet light of a sky marbled with high clouds would have made a

    sort of picture which we have all paused over as a "charming bit,"

    touching other sensibilities than those which are stirred by the

    depression of the agricultural interest, with the sad lack of farming

    capital, as seen constantly in the newspapers of that time. But these

    troublesome associations were just now strongly present to Mr. Brooke,

    and spoiled the scene for him. Mr. Dagley himself made a figure in the

    landscape, carrying a pitchfork and wearing his milking-hat—a very old

    beaver flattened in front. His coat and breeches were the best he had,

    and he would not have been wearing them on this weekday occasion if he

    had not been to market and returned later than usual, having given

    himself the rare treat of dining at the public table of the Blue Bull.

    How he came to fall into this extravagance would perhaps be matter of

    wonderment to himself on the morrow; but before dinner something in the

    state of the country, a slight pause in the harvest before the Far Dips

    were cut, the stories about the new King and the numerous handbills on

    the walls, had seemed to warrant a little recklessness. It was a maxim

    about Middlemarch, and regarded as self-evident, that good meat should

    have good drink, which last Dagley interpreted as plenty of table ale

    well followed up by rum-and-water. These liquors have so far truth in

    them that they were not false enough to make poor Dagley seem merry:

    they only made his discontent less tongue-tied than usual. He had also

    taken too much in the shape of muddy political talk, a stimulant

    dangerously disturbing to his farming conservatism, which consisted in

    holding that whatever is, is bad, and any change is likely to be worse.

    He was flushed, and his eyes had a decidedly quarrelsome stare as he

    stood still grasping his pitchfork, while the landlord approached with

    his easy shuffling walk, one hand in his trouser-pocket and the other

    swinging round a thin walking-stick.

    "Dagley, my good fellow," began Mr. Brooke, conscious that he was going

    to be very friendly about the boy.

    "Oh, ay, I'm a good feller, am I? Thank ye, sir, thank ye," said

    Dagley, with a loud snarling irony which made Fag the sheep-dog stir

    from his seat and prick his ears; but seeing Monk enter the yard after

    some outside loitering, Fag seated himself again in an attitude of

    observation. "I'm glad to hear I'm a good feller."

    Mr. Brooke reflected that it was market-day, and that his worthy tenant

    had probably been dining, but saw no reason why he should not go on,

    since he could take the precaution of repeating what he had to say to

    Mrs. Dagley.

    "Your little lad Jacob has been caught killing a leveret, Dagley: I

    have told Johnson to lock him up in the empty stable an hour or two,

    just to frighten him, you know. But he will be brought home by-and-by,

    before night: and you'll just look after him, will you, and give him a

    reprimand, you know?"

    "No, I woon't: I'll be dee'd if I'll leather my boy to please you or

    anybody else, not if you was twenty landlords istid o' one, and that a

    bad un."

    Dagley's words were loud enough to summon his wife to the back-kitchen

    door—the only entrance ever used, and one always open except in bad

    weather—and Mr. Brooke, saying soothingly, "Well, well, I'll speak to

    your wife—I didn't mean beating, you know," turned to walk to the

    house. But Dagley, only the more inclined to "have his say" with a

    gentleman who walked away from him, followed at once, with Fag

    slouching at his heels and sullenly evading some small and probably

    charitable advances on the part of Monk.

    "How do you do, Mrs. Dagley?" said Mr. Brooke, making some haste. "I

    came to tell you about your boy: I don't want you to give him the

    stick, you know." He was careful to speak quite plainly this time.

    Overworked Mrs. Dagley—a thin, worn woman, from whose life pleasure

    had so entirely vanished that she had not even any Sunday clothes which

    could give her satisfaction in preparing for church—had already had a

    misunderstanding with her husband since he had come home, and was in

    low spirits, expecting the worst. But her husband was beforehand in

    answering.

    "No, nor he woon't hev the stick, whether you want it or no," pursued

    Dagley, throwing out his voice, as if he wanted it to hit hard.

    "You've got no call to come an' talk about sticks o' these primises, as

    you woon't give a stick tow'rt mending. Go to Middlemarch to ax for

    your charrickter."

    "You'd far better hold your tongue, Dagley," said the wife, "and not

    kick your own trough over. When a man as is father of a family has

    been an' spent money at market and made himself the worse for liquor,

    he's done enough mischief for one day. But I should like to know what

    my boy's done, sir."

    "Niver do you mind what he's done," said Dagley, more fiercely, "it's

    my business to speak, an' not yourn. An' I wull speak, too. I'll hev

    my say—supper or no. An' what I say is, as I've lived upo' your

    ground from my father and grandfather afore me, an' hev dropped our

    money into't, an' me an' my children might lie an' rot on the ground

    for top-dressin' as we can't find the money to buy, if the King wasn't

    to put a stop."

    "My good fellow, you're drunk, you know," said Mr. Brooke,

    confidentially but not judiciously. "Another day, another day," he

    added, turning as if to go.

    But Dagley immediately fronted him, and Fag at his heels growled low,

    as his master's voice grew louder and more insulting, while Monk also

    drew close in silent dignified watch. The laborers on the wagon were

    pausing to listen, and it seemed wiser to be quite passive than to

    attempt a ridiculous flight pursued by a bawling man.

    "I'm no more drunk nor you are, nor so much," said Dagley. "I can

    carry my liquor, an' I know what I meean. An' I meean as the King 'ull

    put a stop to 't, for them say it as knows it, as there's to be a

    Rinform, and them landlords as never done the right thing by their

    tenants 'ull be treated i' that way as they'll hev to scuttle off. An'

    there's them i' Middlemarch knows what the Rinform is—an' as knows

    who'll hev to scuttle. Says they, 'I know who your landlord is.'

    An' says I, 'I hope you're the better for knowin' him, I arn't.' Says

    they, 'He's a close-fisted un.' 'Ay ay,' says I. 'He's a man for the

    Rinform,' says they. That's what they says. An' I made out what the

    Rinform were—an' it were to send you an' your likes a-scuttlin' an'

    wi' pretty strong-smellin' things too. An' you may do as you like now,

    for I'm none afeard on you. An' you'd better let my boy aloan, an'

    look to yoursen, afore the Rinform has got upo' your back. That's what

    I'n got to say," concluded Mr. Dagley, striking his fork into the

    ground with a firmness which proved inconvenient as he tried to draw it

    up again.

    At this last action Monk began to bark loudly, and it was a moment for

    Mr. Brooke to escape. He walked out of the yard as quickly as he

    could, in some amazement at the novelty of his situation. He had never

    been insulted on his own land before, and had been inclined to regard

    himself as a general favorite (we are all apt to do so, when we think

    of our own amiability more than of what other people are likely to want

    of us). When he had quarrelled with Caleb Garth twelve years before he

    had thought that the tenants would be pleased at the landlord's taking

    everything into his own hands.

    Some who follow the narrative of his experience may wonder at the

    midnight darkness of Mr. Dagley; but nothing was easier in those times

    than for an hereditary farmer of his grade to be ignorant, in spite

    somehow of having a rector in the twin parish who was a gentleman to

    the backbone, a curate nearer at hand who preached more learnedly than

    the rector, a landlord who had gone into everything, especially fine

    art and social improvement, and all the lights of Middlemarch only

    three miles off. As to the facility with which mortals escape

    knowledge, try an average acquaintance in the intellectual blaze of

    London, and consider what that eligible person for a dinner-party would

    have been if he had learned scant skill in "summing" from the

    parish-clerk of Tipton, and read a chapter in the Bible with immense

    difficulty, because such names as Isaiah or Apollos remained

    unmanageable after twice spelling. Poor Dagley read a few verses

    sometimes on a Sunday evening, and the world was at least not darker to

    him than it had been before. Some things he knew thoroughly, namely,

    the slovenly habits of farming, and the awkwardness of weather, stock

    and crops, at Freeman's End—so called apparently by way of sarcasm,

    to imply that a man was free to quit it if he chose, but that there was

    no earthly "beyond" open to him.


    CHAPTER XL.


    Wise in his daily work was he:
    To fruits of diligence,
    And not to faiths or polity,
    He plied his utmost sense.
    These perfect in their little parts,
    Whose work is all their prize—
    Without them how could laws, or arts,
    Or towered cities rise?

    In watching effects, if only of an electric battery, it is often

    necessary to change our place and examine a particular mixture or group

    at some distance from the point where the movement we are interested in

    was set up. The group I am moving towards is at Caleb Garth's

    breakfast-table in the large parlor where the maps and desk were:

    father, mother, and five of the children. Mary was just now at home

    waiting for a situation, while Christy, the boy next to her, was

    getting cheap learning and cheap fare in Scotland, having to his

    father's disappointment taken to books instead of that sacred calling

    "business."

    The letters had come—nine costly letters, for which the postman had

    been paid three and twopence, and Mr. Garth was forgetting his tea and

    toast while he read his letters and laid them open one above the other,

    sometimes swaying his head slowly, sometimes screwing up his mouth in

    inward debate, but not forgetting to cut off a large red seal unbroken,

    which Letty snatched up like an eager terrier.

    The talk among the rest went on unrestrainedly, for nothing disturbed

    Caleb's absorption except shaking the table when he was writing.

    Two letters of the nine had been for Mary. After reading them, she had

    passed them to her mother, and sat playing with her tea-spoon absently,

    till with a sudden recollection she returned to her sewing, which she

    had kept on her lap during breakfast.

    "Oh, don't sew, Mary!" said Ben, pulling her arm down. "Make me a

    peacock with this bread-crumb." He had been kneading a small mass for

    the purpose.

    "No, no, Mischief!" said Mary, good-humoredly, while she pricked his

    hand lightly with her needle. "Try and mould it yourself: you have

    seen me do it often enough. I must get this sewing done. It is for

    Rosamond Vincy: she is to be married next week, and she can't be

    married without this handkerchief." Mary ended merrily, amused with

    the last notion.

    "Why can't she, Mary?" said Letty, seriously interested in this

    mystery, and pushing her head so close to her sister that Mary now

    turned the threatening needle towards Letty's nose.

    "Because this is one of a dozen, and without it there would only be

    eleven," said Mary, with a grave air of explanation, so that Letty sank

    back with a sense of knowledge.

    "Have you made up your mind, my dear?" said Mrs. Garth, laying the

    letters down.

    "I shall go to the school at York," said Mary. "I am less unfit to

    teach in a school than in a family. I like to teach classes best.

    And, you see, I must teach: there is nothing else to be done."

    "Teaching seems to me the most delightful work in the world," said Mrs.

    Garth, with a touch of rebuke in her tone. "I could understand your

    objection to it if you had not knowledge enough, Mary, or if you

    disliked children."

    "I suppose we never quite understand why another dislikes what we like,

    mother," said Mary, rather curtly. "I am not fond of a schoolroom: I

    like the outside world better. It is a very inconvenient fault of

    mine."

    "It must be very stupid to be always in a girls' school," said Alfred.

    "Such a set of nincompoops, like Mrs. Ballard's pupils walking two and

    two."

    "And they have no games worth playing at," said Jim. "They can neither

    throw nor leap. I don't wonder at Mary's not liking it."

    "What is that Mary doesn't like, eh?" said the father, looking over his

    spectacles and pausing before he opened his next letter.

    "Being among a lot of nincompoop girls," said Alfred.

    "Is it the situation you had heard of, Mary?" said Caleb, gently,

    looking at his daughter.

    "Yes, father: the school at York. I have determined to take it. It is

    quite the best. Thirty-five pounds a-year, and extra pay for teaching

    the smallest strummers at the piano."

    "Poor child! I wish she could stay at home with us, Susan," said

    Caleb, looking plaintively at his wife.

    "Mary would not be happy without doing her duty," said Mrs. Garth,

    magisterially, conscious of having done her own.

    "It wouldn't make me happy to do such a nasty duty as that," said

    Alfred—at which Mary and her father laughed silently, but Mrs. Garth

    said, gravely—

    "Do find a fitter word than nasty, my dear Alfred, for everything that

    you think disagreeable. And suppose that Mary could help you to go to

    Mr. Hanmer's with the money she gets?"

    "That seems to me a great shame. But she's an old brick," said Alfred,

    rising from his chair, and pulling Mary's head backward to kiss her.

    Mary colored and laughed, but could not conceal that the tears were

    coming. Caleb, looking on over his spectacles, with the angles of his

    eyebrows falling, had an expression of mingled delight and sorrow as he

    returned to the opening of his letter; and even Mrs. Garth, her lips

    curling with a calm contentment, allowed that inappropriate language to

    pass without correction, although Ben immediately took it up, and sang,

    "She's an old brick, old brick, old brick!" to a cantering measure,

    which he beat out with his fist on Mary's arm.

    But Mrs. Garth's eyes were now drawn towards her husband, who was

    already deep in the letter he was reading. His face had an expression

    of grave surprise, which alarmed her a little, but he did not like to

    be questioned while he was reading, and she remained anxiously watching

    till she saw him suddenly shaken by a little joyous laugh as he turned

    back to the beginning of the letter, and looking at her above his

    spectacles, said, in a low tone, "What do you think, Susan?"

    She went and stood behind him, putting her hand on his shoulder, while

    they read the letter together. It was from Sir James Chettam, offering

    to Mr. Garth the management of the family estates at Freshitt and

    elsewhere, and adding that Sir James had been requested by Mr. Brooke

    of Tipton to ascertain whether Mr. Garth would be disposed at the same

    time to resume the agency of the Tipton property. The Baronet added in

    very obliging words that he himself was particularly desirous of seeing

    the Freshitt and Tipton estates under the same management, and he hoped

    to be able to show that the double agency might be held on terms

    agreeable to Mr. Garth, whom he would be glad to see at the Hall at

    twelve o'clock on the following day.

    "He writes handsomely, doesn't he, Susan?" said Caleb, turning his eyes

    upward to his wife, who raised her hand from his shoulder to his ear,

    while she rested her chin on his head. "Brooke didn't like to ask me

    himself, I can see," he continued, laughing silently.

    "Here is an honor to your father, children," said Mrs. Garth, looking

    round at the five pair of eyes, all fixed on the parents. "He is asked

    to take a post again by those who dismissed him long ago. That shows

    that he did his work well, so that they feel the want of him."

    "Like Cincinnatus—hooray!" said Ben, riding on his chair, with a

    pleasant confidence that discipline was relaxed.

    "Will they come to fetch him, mother?" said Letty, thinking of the

    Mayor and Corporation in their robes.

    Mrs. Garth patted Letty's head and smiled, but seeing that her husband

    was gathering up his letters and likely soon to be out of reach in that

    sanctuary "business," she pressed his shoulder and said emphatically—

    "Now, mind you ask fair pay, Caleb."

    "Oh yes," said Caleb, in a deep voice of assent, as if it would be

    unreasonable to suppose anything else of him. "It'll come to between

    four and five hundred, the two together." Then with a little start of

    remembrance he said, "Mary, write and give up that school. Stay and

    help your mother. I'm as pleased as Punch, now I've thought of that."

    No manner could have been less like that of Punch triumphant than

    Caleb's, but his talents did not lie in finding phrases, though he was

    very particular about his letter-writing, and regarded his wife as a

    treasury of correct language.

    There was almost an uproar among the children now, and Mary held up the

    cambric embroidery towards her mother entreatingly, that it might be

    put out of reach while the boys dragged her into a dance. Mrs. Garth,

    in placid joy, began to put the cups and plates together, while Caleb

    pushing his chair from the table, as if he were going to move to the

    desk, still sat holding his letters in his hand and looking on the

    ground meditatively, stretching out the fingers of his left hand,

    according to a mute language of his own. At last he said—

    "It's a thousand pities Christy didn't take to business, Susan. I

    shall want help by-and-by. And Alfred must go off to the

    engineering—I've made up my mind to that." He fell into meditation and

    finger-rhetoric again for a little while, and then continued: "I shall

    make Brooke have new agreements with the tenants, and I shall draw up a

    rotation of crops. And I'll lay a wager we can get fine bricks out of

    the clay at Bott's corner. I must look into that: it would cheapen the

    repairs. It's a fine bit of work, Susan! A man without a family would

    be glad to do it for nothing."

    "Mind you don't, though," said his wife, lifting up her finger.

    "No, no; but it's a fine thing to come to a man when he's seen into the

    nature of business: to have the chance of getting a bit of the country

    into good fettle, as they say, and putting men into the right way with

    their farming, and getting a bit of good contriving and solid building

    done—that those who are living and those who come after will be the

    better for. I'd sooner have it than a fortune. I hold it the most

    honorable work that is." Here Caleb laid down his letters, thrust his

    fingers between the buttons of his waistcoat, and sat upright, but

    presently proceeded with some awe in his voice and moving his head

    slowly aside—"It's a great gift of God, Susan."

    "That it is, Caleb," said his wife, with answering fervor. "And it

    will be a blessing to your children to have had a father who did such

    work: a father whose good work remains though his name may be

    forgotten." She could not say any more to him then about the pay.

    In the evening, when Caleb, rather tired with his day's work, was

    seated in silence with his pocket-book open on his knee, while Mrs.

    Garth and Mary were at their sewing, and Letty in a corner was

    whispering a dialogue with her doll, Mr. Farebrother came up the

    orchard walk, dividing the bright August lights and shadows with the

    tufted grass and the apple-tree boughs. We know that he was fond of

    his parishioners the Garths, and had thought Mary worth mentioning to

    Lydgate. He used to the full the clergyman's privilege of disregarding

    the Middlemarch discrimination of ranks, and always told his mother

    that Mrs. Garth was more of a lady than any matron in the town. Still,

    you see, he spent his evenings at the Vincys', where the matron, though

    less of a lady, presided over a well-lit drawing-room and whist. In

    those days human intercourse was not determined solely by respect. But

    the Vicar did heartily respect the Garths, and a visit from him was no

    surprise to that family. Nevertheless he accounted for it even while

    he was shaking hands, by saying, "I come as an envoy, Mrs. Garth: I

    have something to say to you and Garth on behalf of Fred Vincy. The

    fact is, poor fellow," he continued, as he seated himself and looked

    round with his bright glance at the three who were listening to him,

    "he has taken me into his confidence."

    Mary's heart beat rather quickly: she wondered how far Fred's

    confidence had gone.

    "We haven't seen the lad for months," said Caleb. "I couldn't think

    what was become of him."

    "He has been away on a visit," said the Vicar, "because home was a

    little too hot for him, and Lydgate told his mother that the poor

    fellow must not begin to study yet. But yesterday he came and poured

    himself out to me. I am very glad he did, because I have seen him grow

    up from a youngster of fourteen, and I am so much at home in the house

    that the children are like nephews and nieces to me. But it is a

    difficult case to advise upon. However, he has asked me to come and

    tell you that he is going away, and that he is so miserable about his

    debt to you, and his inability to pay, that he can't bear to come

    himself even to bid you good by."

    "Tell him it doesn't signify a farthing," said Caleb, waving his hand.

    "We've had the pinch and have got over it. And now I'm going to be as

    rich as a Jew."

    "Which means," said Mrs. Garth, smiling at the Vicar, "that we are

    going to have enough to bring up the boys well and to keep Mary at

    home."

    "What is the treasure-trove?" said Mr. Farebrother.

    "I'm going to be agent for two estates, Freshitt and Tipton; and

    perhaps for a pretty little bit of land in Lowick besides: it's all the

    same family connection, and employment spreads like water if it's once

    set going. It makes me very happy, Mr. Farebrother"—here Caleb threw

    back his head a little, and spread his arms on the elbows of his

    chair—"that I've got an opportunity again with the letting of the

    land, and carrying out a notion or two with improvements. It's a most

    uncommonly cramping thing, as I've often told Susan, to sit on

    horseback and look over the hedges at the wrong thing, and not be able

    to put your hand to it to make it right. What people do who go into

    politics I can't think: it drives me almost mad to see mismanagement

    over only a few hundred acres."

    It was seldom that Caleb volunteered so long a speech, but his

    happiness had the effect of mountain air: his eyes were bright, and the

    words came without effort.

    "I congratulate you heartily, Garth," said the Vicar. "This is the

    best sort of news I could have had to carry to Fred Vincy, for he dwelt

    a good deal on the injury he had done you in causing you to part with

    money—robbing you of it, he said—which you wanted for other purposes.

    I wish Fred were not such an idle dog; he has some very good points,

    and his father is a little hard upon him."

    "Where is he going?" said Mrs. Garth, rather coldly.

    "He means to try again for his degree, and he is going up to study

    before term. I have advised him to do that. I don't urge him to enter

    the Church—on the contrary. But if he will go and work so as to pass,

    that will be some guarantee that he has energy and a will; and he is

    quite at sea; he doesn't know what else to do. So far he will please

    his father, and I have promised in the mean time to try and reconcile

    Vincy to his son's adopting some other line of life. Fred says frankly

    he is not fit for a clergyman, and I would do anything I could to

    hinder a man from the fatal step of choosing the wrong profession. He

    quoted to me what you said, Miss Garth—do you remember it?" (Mr.

    Farebrother used to say "Mary" instead of "Miss Garth," but it was part

    of his delicacy to treat her with the more deference because, according

    to Mrs. Vincy's phrase, she worked for her bread.)

    Mary felt uncomfortable, but, determined to take the matter lightly,

    answered at once, "I have said so many impertinent things to Fred—we

    are such old playfellows."

    "You said, according to him, that he would be one of those ridiculous

    clergymen who help to make the whole clergy ridiculous. Really, that

    was so cutting that I felt a little cut myself."

    Caleb laughed. "She gets her tongue from you, Susan," he said, with

    some enjoyment.

    "Not its flippancy, father," said Mary, quickly, fearing that her

    mother would be displeased. "It is rather too bad of Fred to repeat my

    flippant speeches to Mr. Farebrother."

    "It was certainly a hasty speech, my dear," said Mrs. Garth, with whom

    speaking evil of dignities was a high misdemeanor. "We should not

    value our Vicar the less because there was a ridiculous curate in the

    next parish."

    "There's something in what she says, though," said Caleb, not disposed

    to have Mary's sharpness undervalued. "A bad workman of any sort makes

    his fellows mistrusted. Things hang together," he added, looking on

    the floor and moving his feet uneasily with a sense that words were

    scantier than thoughts.

    "Clearly," said the Vicar, amused. "By being contemptible we set men's

    minds, to the tune of contempt. I certainly agree with Miss Garth's

    view of the matter, whether I am condemned by it or not. But as to

    Fred Vincy, it is only fair he should be excused a little: old

    Featherstone's delusive behavior did help to spoil him. There was

    something quite diabolical in not leaving him a farthing after all.

    But Fred has the good taste not to dwell on that. And what he cares

    most about is having offended you, Mrs. Garth; he supposes you will

    never think well of him again."

    "I have been disappointed in Fred," said Mrs. Garth, with decision.

    "But I shall be ready to think well of him again when he gives me good

    reason to do so."

    At this point Mary went out of the room, taking Letty with her.

    "Oh, we must forgive young people when they're sorry," said Caleb,

    watching Mary close the door. "And as you say, Mr. Farebrother, there

    was the very devil in that old man."

    Now Mary's gone out, I must tell you a thing—it's only known to Susan

    and me, and you'll not tell it again. The old scoundrel wanted Mary to

    burn one of the wills the very night he died, when she was sitting up

    with him by herself, and he offered her a sum of money that he had in

    the box by him if she would do it. But Mary, you understand, could do

    no such thing—would not be handling his iron chest, and so on. Now,

    you see, the will he wanted burnt was this last, so that if Mary had

    done what he wanted, Fred Vincy would have had ten thousand pounds.

    The old man did turn to him at the last. That touches poor Mary close;

    she couldn't help it—she was in the right to do what she did, but she

    feels, as she says, much as if she had knocked down somebody's property

    and broken it against her will, when she was rightfully defending

    herself. I feel with her, somehow, and if I could make any amends to

    the poor lad, instead of bearing him a grudge for the harm he did us, I

    should be glad to do it. Now, what is your opinion, sir? Susan

    doesn't agree with me. She says—tell what you say, Susan."

    "Mary could not have acted otherwise, even if she had known what would

    be the effect on Fred," said Mrs. Garth, pausing from her work, and

    looking at Mr. Farebrother.

    "And she was quite ignorant of it. It seems to me, a loss which falls

    on another because we have done right is not to lie upon our

    conscience."

    The Vicar did not answer immediately, and Caleb said, "It's the

    feeling. The child feels in that way, and I feel with her. You don't

    mean your horse to tread on a dog when you're backing out of the way;

    but it goes through you, when it's done."

    "I am sure Mrs. Garth would agree with you there," said Mr.

    Farebrother, who for some reason seemed more inclined to ruminate than

    to speak. "One could hardly say that the feeling you mention about

    Fred is wrong—or rather, mistaken—though no man ought to make a claim

    on such feeling."

    "Well, well," said Caleb, "it's a secret. You will not tell Fred."

    "Certainly not. But I shall carry the other good news—that you can

    afford the loss he caused you."

    Mr. Farebrother left the house soon after, and seeing Mary in the

    orchard with Letty, went to say good-by to her. They made a pretty

    picture in the western light which brought out the brightness of the

    apples on the old scant-leaved boughs—Mary in her lavender gingham and

    black ribbons holding a basket, while Letty in her well-worn nankin

    picked up the fallen apples. If you want to know more particularly how

    Mary looked, ten to one you will see a face like hers in the crowded

    street to-morrow, if you are there on the watch: she will not be among

    those daughters of Zion who are haughty, and walk with stretched-out

    necks and wanton eyes, mincing as they go: let all those pass, and fix

    your eyes on some small plump brownish person of firm but quiet

    carriage, who looks about her, but does not suppose that anybody is

    looking at her. If she has a broad face and square brow, well-marked

    eyebrows and curly dark hair, a certain expression of amusement in her

    glance which her mouth keeps the secret of, and for the rest features

    entirely insignificant—take that ordinary but not disagreeable person

    for a portrait of Mary Garth. If you made her smile, she would show

    you perfect little teeth; if you made her angry, she would not raise

    her voice, but would probably say one of the bitterest things you have

    ever tasted the flavor of; if you did her a kindness, she would never

    forget it. Mary admired the keen-faced handsome little Vicar in his

    well-brushed threadbare clothes more than any man she had had the

    opportunity of knowing. She had never heard him say a foolish thing,

    though she knew that he did unwise ones; and perhaps foolish sayings

    were more objectionable to her than any of Mr. Farebrother's unwise

    doings. At least, it was remarkable that the actual imperfections of

    the Vicar's clerical character never seemed to call forth the same

    scorn and dislike which she showed beforehand for the predicted

    imperfections of the clerical character sustained by Fred Vincy. These

    irregularities of judgment, I imagine, are found even in riper minds

    than Mary Garth's: our impartiality is kept for abstract merit and

    demerit, which none of us ever saw. Will any one guess towards which

    of those widely different men Mary had the peculiar woman's

    tenderness?—the one she was most inclined to be severe on, or the

    contrary?

    "Have you any message for your old playfellow, Miss Garth?" said the

    Vicar, as he took a fragrant apple from the basket which she held

    towards him, and put it in his pocket. "Something to soften down that

    harsh judgment? I am going straight to see him."

    "No," said Mary, shaking her head, and smiling. "If I were to say that

    he would not be ridiculous as a clergyman, I must say that he would be

    something worse than ridiculous. But I am very glad to hear that he is

    going away to work."

    "On the other hand, I am very glad to hear that you are not going

    away to work. My mother, I am sure, will be all the happier if you

    will come to see her at the vicarage: you know she is fond of having

    young people to talk to, and she has a great deal to tell about old

    times. You will really be doing a kindness."

    "I should like it very much, if I may," said Mary. "Everything seems

    too happy for me all at once. I thought it would always be part of my

    life to long for home, and losing that grievance makes me feel rather

    empty: I suppose it served instead of sense to fill up my mind?"

    "May I go with you, Mary?" whispered Letty—a most inconvenient child,

    who listened to everything. But she was made exultant by having her

    chin pinched and her cheek kissed by Mr. Farebrother—an incident

    which she narrated to her mother and father.

    As the Vicar walked to Lowick, any one watching him closely might have

    seen him twice shrug his shoulders. I think that the rare Englishmen

    who have this gesture are never of the heavy type—for fear of any

    lumbering instance to the contrary, I will say, hardly ever; they have

    usually a fine temperament and much tolerance towards the smaller

    errors of men (themselves inclusive). The Vicar was holding an inward

    dialogue in which he told himself that there was probably something

    more between Fred and Mary Garth than the regard of old playfellows,

    and replied with a question whether that bit of womanhood were not a

    great deal too choice for that crude young gentleman. The rejoinder to

    this was the first shrug. Then he laughed at himself for being likely

    to have felt jealous, as if he had been a man able to marry, which,

    added he, it is as clear as any balance-sheet that I am not. Whereupon

    followed the second shrug.

    What could two men, so different from each other, see in this "brown

    patch," as Mary called herself? It was certainly not her plainness

    that attracted them (and let all plain young ladies be warned against

    the dangerous encouragement given them by Society to confide in their

    want of beauty). A human being in this aged nation of ours is a very

    wonderful whole, the slow creation of long interchanging influences:

    and charm is a result of two such wholes, the one loving and the one

    loved.

    When Mr. and Mrs. Garth were sitting alone, Caleb said, "Susan, guess

    what I'm thinking of."

    "The rotation of crops," said Mrs. Garth, smiling at him, above her

    knitting, "or else the back-doors of the Tipton cottages."

    "No," said Caleb, gravely; "I am thinking that I could do a great turn

    for Fred Vincy. Christy's gone, Alfred will be gone soon, and it will

    be five years before Jim is ready to take to business. I shall want

    help, and Fred might come in and learn the nature of things and act

    under me, and it might be the making of him into a useful man, if he

    gives up being a parson. What do you think?"

    "I think, there is hardly anything honest that his family would object

    to more," said Mrs. Garth, decidedly.

    "What care I about their objecting?" said Caleb, with a sturdiness

    which he was apt to show when he had an opinion. "The lad is of age

    and must get his bread. He has sense enough and quickness enough; he

    likes being on the land, and it's my belief that he could learn

    business well if he gave his mind to it."

    "But would he? His father and mother wanted him to be a fine

    gentleman, and I think he has the same sort of feeling himself. They

    all think us beneath them. And if the proposal came from you, I am

    sure Mrs. Vincy would say that we wanted Fred for Mary."

    "Life is a poor tale, if it is to be settled by nonsense of that sort,"

    said Caleb, with disgust.

    "Yes, but there is a certain pride which is proper, Caleb."

    "I call it improper pride to let fools' notions hinder you from doing a

    good action. There's no sort of work," said Caleb, with fervor,

    putting out his hand and moving it up and down to mark his emphasis,

    "that could ever be done well, if you minded what fools say. You must

    have it inside you that your plan is right, and that plan you must

    follow."

    "I will not oppose any plan you have set your mind on, Caleb," said

    Mrs. Garth, who was a firm woman, but knew that there were some points

    on which her mild husband was yet firmer. "Still, it seems to be fixed

    that Fred is to go back to college: will it not be better to wait and

    see what he will choose to do after that? It is not easy to keep

    people against their will. And you are not yet quite sure enough of

    your own position, or what you will want."

    "Well, it may be better to wait a bit. But as to my getting plenty of

    work for two, I'm pretty sure of that. I've always had my hands full

    with scattered things, and there's always something fresh turning up.

    Why, only yesterday—bless me, I don't think I told you!—it was rather

    odd that two men should have been at me on different sides to do the

    same bit of valuing. And who do you think they were?" said Caleb,

    taking a pinch of snuff and holding it up between his fingers, as if it

    were a part of his exposition. He was fond of a pinch when it occurred

    to him, but he usually forgot that this indulgence was at his command.

    His wife held down her knitting and looked attentive.

    "Why, that Rigg, or Rigg Featherstone, was one. But Bulstrode was

    before him, so I'm going to do it for Bulstrode. Whether it's mortgage

    or purchase they're going for, I can't tell yet."

    "Can that man be going to sell the land just left him—which he has

    taken the name for?" said Mrs. Garth.

    "Deuce knows," said Caleb, who never referred the knowledge of

    discreditable doings to any higher power than the deuce. "But

    Bulstrode has long been wanting to get a handsome bit of land under his

    fingers—that I know. And it's a difficult matter to get, in this part

    of the country."

    Caleb scattered his snuff carefully instead of taking it, and then

    added, "The ins and outs of things are curious. Here is the land

    they've been all along expecting for Fred, which it seems the old man

    never meant to leave him a foot of, but left it to this side-slip of a

    son that he kept in the dark, and thought of his sticking there and

    vexing everybody as well as he could have vexed 'em himself if he could

    have kept alive. I say, it would be curious if it got into Bulstrode's

    hands after all. The old man hated him, and never would bank with him."

    "What reason could the miserable creature have for hating a man whom he

    had nothing to do with?" said Mrs. Garth.

    "Pooh! where's the use of asking for such fellows' reasons? The soul

    of man," said Caleb, with the deep tone and grave shake of the head

    which always came when he used this phrase—"The soul of man, when it

    gets fairly rotten, will bear you all sorts of poisonous toad-stools,

    and no eye can see whence came the seed thereof."

    It was one of Caleb's quaintnesses, that in his difficulty of finding

    speech for his thought, he caught, as it were, snatches of diction

    which he associated with various points of view or states of mind; and

    whenever he had a feeling of awe, he was haunted by a sense of Biblical

    phraseology, though he could hardly have given a strict quotation.


    CHAPTER XLI.


    "By swaggering could I never thrive,
    For the rain it raineth every day.
    —Twelfth Night

    The transactions referred to by Caleb Garth as having gone forward

    between Mr. Bulstrode and Mr. Joshua Rigg Featherstone concerning the

    land attached to Stone Court, had occasioned the interchange of a

    letter or two between these personages.

    Who shall tell what may be the effect of writing? If it happens to

    have been cut in stone, though it lie face down-most for ages on a

    forsaken beach, or "rest quietly under the drums and tramplings of many

    conquests," it may end by letting us into the secret of usurpations and

    other scandals gossiped about long empires ago:—this world being

    apparently a huge whispering-gallery. Such conditions are often

    minutely represented in our petty lifetimes. As the stone which has

    been kicked by generations of clowns may come by curious little links

    of effect under the eyes of a scholar, through whose labors it may at

    last fix the date of invasions and unlock religions, so a bit of ink

    and paper which has long been an innocent wrapping or stop-gap may at

    last be laid open under the one pair of eyes which have knowledge

    enough to turn it into the opening of a catastrophe. To Uriel watching

    the progress of planetary history from the sun, the one result would be

    just as much of a coincidence as the other.

    Having made this rather lofty comparison I am less uneasy in calling

    attention to the existence of low people by whose interference, however

    little we may like it, the course of the world is very much determined.

    It would be well, certainly, if we could help to reduce their number,

    and something might perhaps be done by not lightly giving occasion to

    their existence. Socially speaking, Joshua Rigg would have been

    generally pronounced a superfluity. But those who like Peter

    Featherstone never had a copy of themselves demanded, are the very last

    to wait for such a request either in prose or verse. The copy in this

    case bore more of outside resemblance to the mother, in whose sex

    frog-features, accompanied with fresh-colored cheeks and a well-rounded

    figure, are compatible with much charm for a certain order of admirers.

    The result is sometimes a frog-faced male, desirable, surely, to no

    order of intelligent beings. Especially when he is suddenly brought

    into evidence to frustrate other people's expectations—the very

    lowest aspect in which a social superfluity can present himself.

    But Mr. Rigg Featherstone's low characteristics were all of the sober,

    water-drinking kind. From the earliest to the latest hour of the day

    he was always as sleek, neat, and cool as the frog he resembled, and

    old Peter had secretly chuckled over an offshoot almost more

    calculating, and far more imperturbable, than himself. I will add that

    his finger-nails were scrupulously attended to, and that he meant to

    marry a well-educated young lady (as yet unspecified) whose person was

    good, and whose connections, in a solid middle-class way, were

    undeniable. Thus his nails and modesty were comparable to those of

    most gentlemen; though his ambition had been educated only by the

    opportunities of a clerk and accountant in the smaller commercial

    houses of a seaport. He thought the rural Featherstones very simple

    absurd people, and they in their turn regarded his "bringing up" in a

    seaport town as an exaggeration of the monstrosity that their brother

    Peter, and still more Peter's property, should have had such belongings.

    The garden and gravel approach, as seen from the two windows of the

    wainscoted parlor at Stone Court, were never in better trim than now,

    when Mr. Rigg Featherstone stood, with his hands behind him, looking

    out on these grounds as their master. But it seemed doubtful whether

    he looked out for the sake of contemplation or of turning his back to a

    person who stood in the middle of the room, with his legs considerably

    apart and his hands in his trouser-pockets: a person in all respects a

    contrast to the sleek and cool Rigg. He was a man obviously on the way

    towards sixty, very florid and hairy, with much gray in his bushy

    whiskers and thick curly hair, a stoutish body which showed to

    disadvantage the somewhat worn joinings of his clothes, and the air of

    a swaggerer, who would aim at being noticeable even at a show of

    fireworks, regarding his own remarks on any other person's performance

    as likely to be more interesting than the performance itself.

    His name was John Raffles, and he sometimes wrote jocosely W.A.G.

    after his signature, observing when he did so, that he was once taught

    by Leonard Lamb of Finsbury who wrote B.A. after his name, and that he,

    Raffles, originated the witticism of calling that celebrated principal

    Ba-Lamb. Such were the appearance and mental flavor of Mr. Raffles,

    both of which seemed to have a stale odor of travellers' rooms in the

    commercial hotels of that period.

    "Come, now, Josh," he was saying, in a full rumbling tone, "look at it

    in this light: here is your poor mother going into the vale of years,

    and you could afford something handsome now to make her comfortable."

    "Not while you live. Nothing would make her comfortable while you

    live," returned Rigg, in his cool high voice. "What I give her, you'll

    take."

    "You bear me a grudge, Josh, that I know. But come, now—as between

    man and man—without humbug—a little capital might enable me to make a

    first-rate thing of the shop. The tobacco trade is growing. I should

    cut my own nose off in not doing the best I could at it. I should

    stick to it like a flea to a fleece for my own sake. I should always

    be on the spot. And nothing would make your poor mother so happy.

    I've pretty well done with my wild oats—turned fifty-five. I want to

    settle down in my chimney-corner. And if I once buckled to the tobacco

    trade, I could bring an amount of brains and experience to bear on it

    that would not be found elsewhere in a hurry. I don't want to be

    bothering you one time after another, but to get things once for all

    into the right channel. Consider that, Josh—as between man and

    man—and with your poor mother to be made easy for her life. I was

    always fond of the old woman, by Jove!"

    "Have you done?" said Mr. Rigg, quietly, without looking away from the

    window.

    "Yes, I've done," said Raffles, taking hold of his hat which stood

    before him on the table, and giving it a sort of oratorical push.

    "Then just listen to me. The more you say anything, the less I shall

    believe it. The more you want me to do a thing, the more reason I

    shall have for never doing it. Do you think I mean to forget your

    kicking me when I was a lad, and eating all the best victual away from

    me and my mother? Do you think I forget your always coming home to

    sell and pocket everything, and going off again leaving us in the

    lurch? I should be glad to see you whipped at the cart-tail. My

    mother was a fool to you: she'd no right to give me a father-in-law,

    and she's been punished for it. She shall have her weekly allowance

    paid and no more: and that shall be stopped if you dare to come on to

    these premises again, or to come into this country after me again. The

    next time you show yourself inside the gates here, you shall be driven

    off with the dogs and the wagoner's whip."

    As Rigg pronounced the last words he turned round and looked at Raffles

    with his prominent frozen eyes. The contrast was as striking as it

    could have been eighteen years before, when Rigg was a most unengaging

    kickable boy, and Raffles was the rather thick-set Adonis of bar-rooms

    and back-parlors. But the advantage now was on the side of Rigg, and

    auditors of this conversation might probably have expected that Raffles

    would retire with the air of a defeated dog. Not at all. He made a

    grimace which was habitual with him whenever he was "out" in a game;

    then subsided into a laugh, and drew a brandy-flask from his pocket.

    "Come, Josh," he said, in a cajoling tone, "give us a spoonful of

    brandy, and a sovereign to pay the way back, and I'll go. Honor

    bright! I'll go like a bullet, by Jove!"

    "Mind," said Rigg, drawing out a bunch of keys, "if I ever see you

    again, I shan't speak to you. I don't own you any more than if I saw a

    crow; and if you want to own me you'll get nothing by it but a

    character for being what you are—a spiteful, brassy, bullying rogue."

    "That's a pity, now, Josh," said Raffles, affecting to scratch his head

    and wrinkle his brows upward as if he were nonplussed. "I'm very fond

    of you; by Jove, I am! There's nothing I like better than plaguing

    you—you're so like your mother, and I must do without it. But the

    brandy and the sovereign's a bargain."

    He jerked forward the flask and Rigg went to a fine old oaken bureau

    with his keys. But Raffles had reminded himself by his movement with

    the flask that it had become dangerously loose from its leather

    covering, and catching sight of a folded paper which had fallen within

    the fender, he took it up and shoved it under the leather so as to make

    the glass firm.

    By that time Rigg came forward with a brandy-bottle, filled the flask,

    and handed Raffles a sovereign, neither looking at him nor speaking to

    him. After locking up the bureau again, he walked to the window and

    gazed out as impassibly as he had done at the beginning of the

    interview, while Raffles took a small allowance from the flask, screwed

    it up, and deposited it in his side-pocket, with provoking slowness,

    making a grimace at his stepson's back.

    "Farewell, Josh—and if forever!" said Raffles, turning back his head

    as he opened the door.

    Rigg saw him leave the grounds and enter the lane. The gray day had

    turned to a light drizzling rain, which freshened the hedgerows and the

    grassy borders of the by-roads, and hastened the laborers who were

    loading the last shocks of corn. Raffles, walking with the uneasy gait

    of a town loiterer obliged to do a bit of country journeying on foot,

    looked as incongruous amid this moist rural quiet and industry as if he

    had been a baboon escaped from a menagerie. But there were none to

    stare at him except the long-weaned calves, and none to show dislike of

    his appearance except the little water-rats which rustled away at his

    approach.

    He was fortunate enough when he got on to the highroad to be overtaken

    by the stage-coach, which carried him to Brassing; and there he took

    the new-made railway, observing to his fellow-passengers that he

    considered it pretty well seasoned now it had done for Huskisson. Mr.

    Raffles on most occasions kept up the sense of having been educated at

    an academy, and being able, if he chose, to pass well everywhere;

    indeed, there was not one of his fellow-men whom he did not feel

    himself in a position to ridicule and torment, confident of the

    entertainment which he thus gave to all the rest of the company.

    He played this part now with as much spirit as if his journey had been

    entirely successful, resorting at frequent intervals to his flask. The

    paper with which he had wedged it was a letter signed Nicholas

    Bulstrode, but Raffles was not likely to disturb it from its present

    useful position.


    CHAPTER XLII.


    "How much, methinks, I could despise this man
    Were I not bound in charity against it!
    —SHAKESPEARE: Henry VIII.

    One of the professional calls made by Lydgate soon after his return

    from his wedding-journey was to Lowick Manor, in consequence of a

    letter which had requested him to fix a time for his visit.

    Mr. Casaubon had never put any question concerning the nature of his

    illness to Lydgate, nor had he even to Dorothea betrayed any anxiety as

    to how far it might be likely to cut short his labors or his life. On

    this point, as on all others, he shrank from pity; and if the suspicion

    of being pitied for anything in his lot surmised or known in spite of

    himself was embittering, the idea of calling forth a show of compassion

    by frankly admitting an alarm or a sorrow was necessarily intolerable

    to him. Every proud mind knows something of this experience, and

    perhaps it is only to be overcome by a sense of fellowship deep enough

    to make all efforts at isolation seem mean and petty instead of

    exalting.

    But Mr. Casaubon was now brooding over something through which the

    question of his health and life haunted his silence with a more

    harassing importunity even than through the autumnal unripeness of his

    authorship. It is true that this last might be called his central

    ambition; but there are some kinds of authorship in which by far the

    largest result is the uneasy susceptibility accumulated in the

    consciousness of the author—one knows of the river by a few streaks

    amid a long-gathered deposit of uncomfortable mud. That was the way

    with Mr. Casaubon's hard intellectual labors. Their most

    characteristic result was not the "Key to all Mythologies," but a

    morbid consciousness that others did not give him the place which he

    had not demonstrably merited—a perpetual suspicious conjecture that

    the views entertained of him were not to his advantage—a melancholy

    absence of passion in his efforts at achievement, and a passionate

    resistance to the confession that he had achieved nothing.

    Thus his intellectual ambition which seemed to others to have absorbed

    and dried him, was really no security against wounds, least of all

    against those which came from Dorothea. And he had begun now to frame

    possibilities for the future which were somehow more embittering to him

    than anything his mind had dwelt on before.

    Against certain facts he was helpless: against Will Ladislaw's

    existence, his defiant stay in the neighborhood of Lowick, and his

    flippant state of mind with regard to the possessors of authentic,

    well-stamped erudition: against Dorothea's nature, always taking on

    some new shape of ardent activity, and even in submission and silence

    covering fervid reasons which it was an irritation to think of: against

    certain notions and likings which had taken possession of her mind in

    relation to subjects that he could not possibly discuss with her.

    There was no denying that Dorothea was as virtuous and lovely a young

    lady as he could have obtained for a wife; but a young lady turned out

    to be something more troublesome than he had conceived. She nursed

    him, she read to him, she anticipated his wants, and was solicitous

    about his feelings; but there had entered into the husband's mind the

    certainty that she judged him, and that her wifely devotedness was like

    a penitential expiation of unbelieving thoughts—was accompanied with a

    power of comparison by which himself and his doings were seen too

    luminously as a part of things in general. His discontent passed

    vapor-like through all her gentle loving manifestations, and clung to

    that inappreciative world which she had only brought nearer to him.

    Poor Mr. Casaubon! This suffering was the harder to bear because it

    seemed like a betrayal: the young creature who had worshipped him with

    perfect trust had quickly turned into the critical wife; and early

    instances of criticism and resentment had made an impression which no

    tenderness and submission afterwards could remove. To his suspicious

    interpretation Dorothea's silence now was a suppressed rebellion; a

    remark from her which he had not in any way anticipated was an

    assertion of conscious superiority; her gentle answers had an

    irritating cautiousness in them; and when she acquiesced it was a

    self-approved effort of forbearance. The tenacity with which he strove

    to hide this inward drama made it the more vivid for him; as we hear

    with the more keenness what we wish others not to hear.

    Instead of wondering at this result of misery in Mr. Casaubon, I think

    it quite ordinary. Will not a tiny speck very close to our vision blot

    out the glory of the world, and leave only a margin by which we see the

    blot? I know no speck so troublesome as self. And who, if Mr.

    Casaubon had chosen to expound his discontents—his suspicions that he

    was not any longer adored without criticism—could have denied that

    they were founded on good reasons? On the contrary, there was a strong

    reason to be added, which he had not himself taken explicitly into

    account—namely, that he was not unmixedly adorable. He suspected

    this, however, as he suspected other things, without confessing it, and

    like the rest of us, felt how soothing it would have been to have a

    companion who would never find it out.

    This sore susceptibility in relation to Dorothea was thoroughly

    prepared before Will Ladislaw had returned to Lowick, and what had

    occurred since then had brought Mr. Casaubon's power of suspicious

    construction into exasperated activity. To all the facts which he

    knew, he added imaginary facts both present and future which became

    more real to him than those because they called up a stronger dislike,

    a more predominating bitterness. Suspicion and jealousy of Will

    Ladislaw's intentions, suspicion and jealousy of Dorothea's

    impressions, were constantly at their weaving work. It would be quite

    unjust to him to suppose that he could have entered into any coarse

    misinterpretation of Dorothea: his own habits of mind and conduct,

    quite as much as the open elevation of her nature, saved him from any

    such mistake. What he was jealous of was her opinion, the sway that

    might be given to her ardent mind in its judgments, and the future

    possibilities to which these might lead her. As to Will, though until

    his last defiant letter he had nothing definite which he would choose

    formally to allege against him, he felt himself warranted in believing

    that he was capable of any design which could fascinate a rebellious

    temper and an undisciplined impulsiveness. He was quite sure that

    Dorothea was the cause of Will's return from Rome, and his

    determination to settle in the neighborhood; and he was penetrating

    enough to imagine that Dorothea had innocently encouraged this course.

    It was as clear as possible that she was ready to be attached to Will

    and to be pliant to his suggestions: they had never had a tete-a-tete

    without her bringing away from it some new troublesome impression, and

    the last interview that Mr. Casaubon was aware of (Dorothea, on

    returning from Freshitt Hall, had for the first time been silent about

    having seen Will) had led to a scene which roused an angrier feeling

    against them both than he had ever known before. Dorothea's outpouring

    of her notions about money, in the darkness of the night, had done

    nothing but bring a mixture of more odious foreboding into her

    husband's mind.

    And there was the shock lately given to his health always sadly present

    with him. He was certainly much revived; he had recovered all his

    usual power of work: the illness might have been mere fatigue, and

    there might still be twenty years of achievement before him, which

    would justify the thirty years of preparation. That prospect was made

    the sweeter by a flavor of vengeance against the hasty sneers of Carp &

    Company; for even when Mr. Casaubon was carrying his taper among the

    tombs of the past, those modern figures came athwart the dim light, and

    interrupted his diligent exploration. To convince Carp of his mistake,

    so that he would have to eat his own words with a good deal of

    indigestion, would be an agreeable accident of triumphant authorship,

    which the prospect of living to future ages on earth and to all

    eternity in heaven could not exclude from contemplation. Since, thus,

    the prevision of his own unending bliss could not nullify the bitter

    savors of irritated jealousy and vindictiveness, it is the less

    surprising that the probability of a transient earthly bliss for other

    persons, when he himself should have entered into glory, had not a

    potently sweetening effect. If the truth should be that some

    undermining disease was at work within him, there might be large

    opportunity for some people to be the happier when he was gone; and if

    one of those people should be Will Ladislaw, Mr. Casaubon objected so

    strongly that it seemed as if the annoyance would make part of his

    disembodied existence.

    This is a very bare and therefore a very incomplete way of putting the

    case. The human soul moves in many channels, and Mr. Casaubon, we

    know, had a sense of rectitude and an honorable pride in satisfying the

    requirements of honor, which compelled him to find other reasons for

    his conduct than those of jealousy and vindictiveness. The way in

    which Mr. Casaubon put the case was this:—"In marrying Dorothea Brooke

    I had to care for her well-being in case of my death. But well-being

    is not to be secured by ample, independent possession of property; on

    the contrary, occasions might arise in which such possession might

    expose her to the more danger. She is ready prey to any man who knows

    how to play adroitly either on her affectionate ardor or her Quixotic

    enthusiasm; and a man stands by with that very intention in his mind—a

    man with no other principle than transient caprice, and who has a

    personal animosity towards me—I am sure of it—an animosity which is

    fed by the consciousness of his ingratitude, and which he has

    constantly vented in ridicule of which I am as well assured as if I had

    heard it. Even if I live I shall not be without uneasiness as to what

    he may attempt through indirect influence. This man has gained

    Dorothea's ear: he has fascinated her attention; he has evidently tried

    to impress her mind with the notion that he has claims beyond anything

    I have done for him. If I die—and he is waiting here on the watch for

    that—he will persuade her to marry him. That would be calamity for

    her and success for him. She would not think it calamity: he would

    make her believe anything; she has a tendency to immoderate attachment

    which she inwardly reproaches me for not responding to, and already her

    mind is occupied with his fortunes. He thinks of an easy conquest and

    of entering into my nest. That I will hinder! Such a marriage would be

    fatal to Dorothea. Has he ever persisted in anything except from

    contradiction? In knowledge he has always tried to be showy at small

    cost. In religion he could be, as long as it suited him, the facile

    echo of Dorothea's vagaries. When was sciolism ever dissociated from

    laxity? I utterly distrust his morals, and it is my duty to hinder to

    the utmost the fulfilment of his designs."

    The arrangements made by Mr. Casaubon on his marriage left strong

    measures open to him, but in ruminating on them his mind inevitably

    dwelt so much on the probabilities of his own life that the longing to

    get the nearest possible calculation had at last overcome his proud

    reticence, and had determined him to ask Lydgate's opinion as to the

    nature of his illness.

    He had mentioned to Dorothea that Lydgate was coming by appointment at

    half-past three, and in answer to her anxious question, whether he had

    felt ill, replied,—"No, I merely wish to have his opinion concerning

    some habitual symptoms. You need not see him, my dear. I shall give

    orders that he may be sent to me in the Yew-tree Walk, where I shall be

    taking my usual exercise."

    When Lydgate entered the Yew-tree Walk he saw Mr. Casaubon slowly

    receding with his hands behind him according to his habit, and his head

    bent forward. It was a lovely afternoon; the leaves from the lofty

    limes were falling silently across the sombre evergreens, while the

    lights and shadows slept side by side: there was no sound but the

    cawing of the rooks, which to the accustomed ear is a lullaby, or that

    last solemn lullaby, a dirge. Lydgate, conscious of an energetic frame

    in its prime, felt some compassion when the figure which he was likely

    soon to overtake turned round, and in advancing towards him showed more

    markedly than ever the signs of premature age—the student's bent

    shoulders, the emaciated limbs, and the melancholy lines of the mouth.

    "Poor fellow," he thought, "some men with his years are like lions; one

    can tell nothing of their age except that they are full grown."

    "Mr. Lydgate," said Mr. Casaubon, with his invariably polite air, "I am

    exceedingly obliged to you for your punctuality. We will, if you

    please, carry on our conversation in walking to and fro."

    "I hope your wish to see me is not due to the return of unpleasant

    symptoms," said Lydgate, filling up a pause.

    "Not immediately—no. In order to account for that wish I must

    mention—what it were otherwise needless to refer to—that my life, on

    all collateral accounts insignificant, derives a possible importance

    from the incompleteness of labors which have extended through all its

    best years. In short, I have long had on hand a work which I would

    fain leave behind me in such a state, at least, that it might be

    committed to the press by—others. Were I assured that this is the

    utmost I can reasonably expect, that assurance would be a useful

    circumscription of my attempts, and a guide in both the positive and

    negative determination of my course."

    Here Mr. Casaubon paused, removed one hand from his back and thrust it

    between the buttons of his single-breasted coat. To a mind largely

    instructed in the human destiny hardly anything could be more

    interesting than the inward conflict implied in his formal measured

    address, delivered with the usual sing-song and motion of the head.

    Nay, are there many situations more sublimely tragic than the struggle

    of the soul with the demand to renounce a work which has been all the

    significance of its life—a significance which is to vanish as the

    waters which come and go where no man has need of them? But there was

    nothing to strike others as sublime about Mr. Casaubon, and Lydgate,

    who had some contempt at hand for futile scholarship, felt a little

    amusement mingling with his pity. He was at present too ill acquainted

    with disaster to enter into the pathos of a lot where everything is

    below the level of tragedy except the passionate egoism of the sufferer.

    "You refer to the possible hindrances from want of health?" he said,

    wishing to help forward Mr. Casaubon's purpose, which seemed to be

    clogged by some hesitation.

    "I do. You have not implied to me that the symptoms which—I am bound

    to testify—you watched with scrupulous care, were those of a fatal

    disease. But were it so, Mr. Lydgate, I should desire to know the

    truth without reservation, and I appeal to you for an exact statement

    of your conclusions: I request it as a friendly service. If you can

    tell me that my life is not threatened by anything else than ordinary

    casualties, I shall rejoice, on grounds which I have already indicated.

    If not, knowledge of the truth is even more important to me."

    "Then I can no longer hesitate as to my course," said Lydgate; "but the

    first thing I must impress on you is that my conclusions are doubly

    uncertain—uncertain not only because of my fallibility, but because

    diseases of the heart are eminently difficult to found predictions on.

    In any case, one can hardly increase appreciably the tremendous

    uncertainty of life."

    Mr. Casaubon winced perceptibly, but bowed.

    "I believe that you are suffering from what is called fatty

    degeneration of the heart, a disease which was first divined and

    explored by Laennec, the man who gave us the stethoscope, not so very

    many years ago. A good deal of experience—a more lengthened

    observation—is wanting on the subject. But after what you have said,

    it is my duty to tell you that death from this disease is often sudden.

    At the same time, no such result can be predicted. Your condition may

    be consistent with a tolerably comfortable life for another fifteen

    years, or even more. I could add no information to this beyond

    anatomical or medical details, which would leave expectation at

    precisely the same point." Lydgate's instinct was fine enough to tell

    him that plain speech, quite free from ostentatious caution, would be

    felt by Mr. Casaubon as a tribute of respect.

    "I thank you, Mr. Lydgate," said Mr. Casaubon, after a moment's pause.

    "One thing more I have still to ask: did you communicate what you have

    now told me to Mrs. Casaubon?"

    "Partly—I mean, as to the possible issues." Lydgate was going to

    explain why he had told Dorothea, but Mr. Casaubon, with an

    unmistakable desire to end the conversation, waved his hand slightly,

    and said again, "I thank you," proceeding to remark on the rare beauty

    of the day.

    Lydgate, certain that his patient wished to be alone, soon left him;

    and the black figure with hands behind and head bent forward continued

    to pace the walk where the dark yew-trees gave him a mute companionship

    in melancholy, and the little shadows of bird or leaf that fleeted

    across the isles of sunlight, stole along in silence as in the presence

    of a sorrow. Here was a man who now for the first time found himself

    looking into the eyes of death—who was passing through one of those

    rare moments of experience when we feel the truth of a commonplace,

    which is as different from what we call knowing it, as the vision of

    waters upon the earth is different from the delirious vision of the

    water which cannot be had to cool the burning tongue. When the

    commonplace "We must all die" transforms itself suddenly into the acute

    consciousness "I must die—and soon," then death grapples us, and his

    fingers are cruel; afterwards, he may come to fold us in his arms as

    our mother did, and our last moment of dim earthly discerning may be

    like the first. To Mr. Casaubon now, it was as if he suddenly found

    himself on the dark river-brink and heard the plash of the oncoming

    oar, not discerning the forms, but expecting the summons. In such an

    hour the mind does not change its lifelong bias, but carries it onward

    in imagination to the other side of death, gazing backward—perhaps

    with the divine calm of beneficence, perhaps with the petty anxieties

    of self-assertion. What was Mr. Casaubon's bias his acts will give us a

    clew to. He held himself to be, with some private scholarly

    reservations, a believing Christian, as to estimates of the present and

    hopes of the future. But what we strive to gratify, though we may call

    it a distant hope, is an immediate desire: the future estate for which

    men drudge up city alleys exists already in their imagination and love.

    And Mr. Casaubon's immediate desire was not for divine communion and

    light divested of earthly conditions; his passionate longings, poor

    man, clung low and mist-like in very shady places.

    Dorothea had been aware when Lydgate had ridden away, and she had

    stepped into the garden, with the impulse to go at once to her husband.

    But she hesitated, fearing to offend him by obtruding herself; for her

    ardor, continually repulsed, served, with her intense memory, to

    heighten her dread, as thwarted energy subsides into a shudder; and she

    wandered slowly round the nearer clumps of trees until she saw him

    advancing. Then she went towards him, and might have represented a

    heaven-sent angel coming with a promise that the short hours remaining

    should yet be filled with that faithful love which clings the closer to

    a comprehended grief. His glance in reply to hers was so chill that

    she felt her timidity increased; yet she turned and passed her hand

    through his arm.

    Mr. Casaubon kept his hands behind him and allowed her pliant arm to

    cling with difficulty against his rigid arm.

    There was something horrible to Dorothea in the sensation which this

    unresponsive hardness inflicted on her. That is a strong word, but not

    too strong: it is in these acts called trivialities that the seeds of

    joy are forever wasted, until men and women look round with haggard

    faces at the devastation their own waste has made, and say, the earth

    bears no harvest of sweetness—calling their denial knowledge. You may

    ask why, in the name of manliness, Mr. Casaubon should have behaved in

    that way. Consider that his was a mind which shrank from pity: have

    you ever watched in such a mind the effect of a suspicion that what is

    pressing it as a grief may be really a source of contentment, either

    actual or future, to the being who already offends by pitying?

    Besides, he knew little of Dorothea's sensations, and had not reflected

    that on such an occasion as the present they were comparable in

    strength to his own sensibilities about Carp's criticisms.

    Dorothea did not withdraw her arm, but she could not venture to speak.

    Mr. Casaubon did not say, "I wish to be alone," but he directed his

    steps in silence towards the house, and as they entered by the glass

    door on this eastern side, Dorothea withdrew her arm and lingered on

    the matting, that she might leave her husband quite free. He entered

    the library and shut himself in, alone with his sorrow.

    She went up to her boudoir. The open bow-window let in the serene

    glory of the afternoon lying in the avenue, where the lime-trees cast

    long shadows. But Dorothea knew nothing of the scene. She threw

    herself on a chair, not heeding that she was in the dazzling sun-rays:

    if there were discomfort in that, how could she tell that it was not

    part of her inward misery?

    She was in the reaction of a rebellious anger stronger than any she had

    felt since her marriage. Instead of tears there came words:—

    "What have I done—what am I—that he should treat me so? He never

    knows what is in my mind—he never cares. What is the use of anything

    I do? He wishes he had never married me."

    She began to hear herself, and was checked into stillness. Like one

    who has lost his way and is weary, she sat and saw as in one glance all

    the paths of her young hope which she should never find again. And

    just as clearly in the miserable light she saw her own and her

    husband's solitude—how they walked apart so that she was obliged to

    survey him. If he had drawn her towards him, she would never have

    surveyed him—never have said, "Is he worth living for?" but would have

    felt him simply a part of her own life. Now she said bitterly, "It is

    his fault, not mine." In the jar of her whole being, Pity was

    overthrown. Was it her fault that she had believed in him—had

    believed in his worthiness?—And what, exactly, was he?— She was able

    enough to estimate him—she who waited on his glances with trembling,

    and shut her best soul in prison, paying it only hidden visits, that

    she might be petty enough to please him. In such a crisis as this,

    some women begin to hate.

    The sun was low when Dorothea was thinking that she would not go down

    again, but would send a message to her husband saying that she was not

    well and preferred remaining up-stairs. She had never deliberately

    allowed her resentment to govern her in this way before, but she

    believed now that she could not see him again without telling him the

    truth about her feeling, and she must wait till she could do it without

    interruption. He might wonder and be hurt at her message. It was good

    that he should wonder and be hurt. Her anger said, as anger is apt to

    say, that God was with her—that all heaven, though it were crowded

    with spirits watching them, must be on her side. She had determined to

    ring her bell, when there came a rap at the door.

    Mr. Casaubon had sent to say that he would have his dinner in the

    library. He wished to be quite alone this evening, being much occupied.

    "I shall not dine, then, Tantripp."

    "Oh, madam, let me bring you a little something?"

    "No; I am not well. Get everything ready in my dressing room, but pray

    do not disturb me again."

    Dorothea sat almost motionless in her meditative struggle, while the

    evening slowly deepened into night. But the struggle changed

    continually, as that of a man who begins with a movement towards

    striking and ends with conquering his desire to strike. The energy

    that would animate a crime is not more than is wanted to inspire a

    resolved submission, when the noble habit of the soul reasserts itself.

    That thought with which Dorothea had gone out to meet her husband—her

    conviction that he had been asking about the possible arrest of all his

    work, and that the answer must have wrung his heart, could not be long

    without rising beside the image of him, like a shadowy monitor looking

    at her anger with sad remonstrance. It cost her a litany of pictured

    sorrows and of silent cries that she might be the mercy for those

    sorrows—but the resolved submission did come; and when the house was

    still, and she knew that it was near the time when Mr. Casaubon

    habitually went to rest, she opened her door gently and stood outside

    in the darkness waiting for his coming up-stairs with a light in his

    hand. If he did not come soon she thought that she would go down and

    even risk incurring another pang. She would never again expect

    anything else. But she did hear the library door open, and slowly the

    light advanced up the staircase without noise from the footsteps on the

    carpet. When her husband stood opposite to her, she saw that his face

    was more haggard. He started slightly on seeing her, and she looked up

    at him beseechingly, without speaking.

    "Dorothea!" he said, with a gentle surprise in his tone. "Were you

    waiting for me?"

    "Yes, I did not like to disturb you."

    "Come, my dear, come. You are young, and need not to extend your life

    by watching."

    When the kind quiet melancholy of that speech fell on Dorothea's ears,

    she felt something like the thankfulness that might well up in us if we

    had narrowly escaped hurting a lamed creature. She put her hand into

    her husband's, and they went along the broad corridor together.