I’m sorry but you have been very damaged and brainwashed by your upbringing. It was NOT your fault you were raped. It is NEVER the victim’s fault. It is ALWAYS ALWAYS the rapist’s fault. It is clear you have no sense of gender equality or women’s rights.Awomen should be able to go toaparty and drink alcohol just like men do without fear of being raped. Rape is nota’just punishment’ for hanging out with boys. And men are not monsters who have no control over themselves or their urges. I’m sorry you have been so poorly educated about your rights, and your right to not be raped. Please remember is it NOT your fault you were raped and if your mother tells you otherwise you need to put her straight.